Jinyan's thoughts went back to the last time she was alone. She had just returned to China, with the fact that she was separated from Mo Xuyan, and the gap between her and her own return to China, at that time, she was patient a lot of the time, and no one could tell her how sad and painful she was. She remembers that one day she was on the subway where she was interviewing, looking at the railway in front of her and the passing of the opposite car, she suddenly had the urge to jump. At that time, she realized how much she regretted it, but at that time, regret was useless, and she gave up what she gave up and didn't get what she wanted in the end. At that time, it was not that she didn't know those truths, but many of them were just known, not that she understood them.

Some people say that if you are serious about your relationship, you will lose, she once thought that she had lost completely, but in the relationship, how can you win or lose? In the past, she paid willingly, but she didn't expect that he didn't want the last one. She also knows that she shouldn't be sad and decadent, but she knows what others say, but she can't do it. Yin knew that he was still waiting for someone who might not come back, but he couldn't extricate himself, thinking of him still felt empty in his heart, sad and heartbroken.

It's just that I thought that people who didn't have a chance would not meet even in the same city, let alone think that they would work with him, and there would be some strange rumors. Maybe it's just that she can't resist it, Yin Yin She used to hope to see him, and even hope that he will return to her side again. But none of this happened, and he came back with new feelings.

Qin Moru saw that her expression was still a little strange, and asked again: "Whose information was just now?" ”

Jin Yan glanced at him, and didn't want to hide it: "Hey, it's not Mo Xuyan." ”

"Oh, how?" Qin Mo was only a little worried about her when he was like this.

"It's okay, probably ask me how it is, and I don't bother to reply." Fang Jinyan still didn't want to say more.

At this time, Qin Moru seemed to remember a question that he had always wanted to ask, and asked: "So at the original drinking party, you wanted to leave early because of him?" ”

She originally picked up a piece of barbecue meat with chopsticks and put it in the bowl, listened to his words, squinted directly, squinted her eyes, and pretended to be serious: "You, you invited me to be cannon fodder at the cocktail party, I finally forgot it, I don't care about it, you are embarrassed to mention it, really, I'm not afraid that I will beat you." ”

He was puzzled, and looked at her suspiciously with a pair of deep eyes: "Cannon fodder? ”

Jin Yan noticed that he was looking at her, since he took the initiative to mention it, don't blame her for turning over old accounts, and said a little angrily: "But isn't it." Did you change the time of the drinking party and forget to notify me? Yin Yin I arrived 45 minutes earlier than the time announced, who knows how long you all started? Jin Yan said, took a sip of wine, and continued: "Moreover, Yin Yin, you asked me to go, and you didn't tell me what to do from beginning to end, your assistant told me that you originally asked her to arrange someone to pick me up, but I didn't know anything, she couldn't arrange it, and you didn't inform me." Seriously, I was so mad at you at the time. I want to leave and still scold me, I thought I recruited you to provoke you. Therefore, if you come to me this time, I will treat you as an aparation. Jin Yan pretended to say the last sentence lightly.

“……”

"I'm sorry." Qin Mo apologized in a cautious and serious tone at such a time. And she was a little helpless in her heart, did she just apologize when he came to her?

When he remembered the reception, he didn't think about anything, but for no reason he felt a little unwanted to pay attention to her, and wanted to wait until the drinking party to talk well, but although he didn't notify himself, he asked the assistant to send her a notice, and he really didn't think about it in this matter. But he did arrange it properly, and in principle, such a situation would not occur, ...... assistant?

Before he had time to think about it, Fang Jinyan's voice sounded: "I'm not angry now." You can come and climb the mountain with me, how dare you be angry again. Or maybe your assistant is too busy to remember the wrong time. Anyway, I thought it was 7 o'clock, but when I arrived at the venue, I didn't expect it to be 5:30. I wasn't deliberately late. As he spoke, he didn't forget to look at him obliquely and pouted: "Hey, although I haven't participated in much of the drinking party, it's really the most embarrassing one." Watching you enter the arena one by one, I wanted to leave at that time, but I didn't think it was cost-effective, and the cannon fodder always had to be full. But I didn't expect to see Mo Xuyan again, so I didn't want to stay any longer, and I was blind to the dress I bought. So you still say because of him? Yin and yin because of how you are. At that time, I planned to never go to any drinking parties again. I don't even want to pay attention to you. ”

"I'm sorry. You're really not cannon fodder. He apologized to her from the bottom of his heart, how could she be cannon fodder?

After listening to her words, I was a little happy, and continued to remember that I had asked Joanna at the beginning, and her answer was that she had not sent the wrong message.

"Well, it's over anyway, and it's fine." Cannon fodder is cannon fodder, and it doesn't matter, but thinking of Melly, she still mentioned: "How are you and your girlfriend doing now?" “

"......" He was puzzled again, when did he have a girlfriend, he was stunned and asked, "Girlfriend?" ”

"Melly." She said her name very naturally, and continued: "I heard Xiaoxian say that she is your only girlfriend in college. People went back to the United States a few days ago, and you came here in a bad mood? After saying that, she still looks like you don't need to explain much, she understands everything.

"Oh, you mean her." Qin Moru was stunned, probably knowing that she seemed to have misunderstood something.

"Forget it, if you don't want to say it, don't say it." She didn't force herself to ask, thinking that like her, she also had a complex and unforgettable story, and it was not good to ask too much.

"There's nothing to say. But she's not my girlfriend anymore. ”

"Oh?" Doesn't he turn out to be splitting? At this time, Jin Yan listened with interest.

"Everyone's education is a little different since childhood, and in the end, she is also going to be in the United States, and I am going to return to China."

"Is that all?" She seemed a little incredulous at this time, it turned out that it was really possible to break up so easily?

"Or else?" He was very indifferent.

"And are you still in love? If you're in love, why not just find a way to be together? ”

"You've got a lot of questions." He no longer answered her words. The question of whether to love or not, he didn't delve too deeply into it. The time together was really happy, but after the separation, he devoted himself seriously to his work, and he didn't feel anything special, just as she was still a friend.

"Oh." Jin Yan felt that she was a little bored, pursed her lips, and said, "It's just that I don't understand it, but I'm quite envious." ”

"And do you still love him now?" He said bluntly and asked suddenly.

"What a fart!" Fang Jinyan was rare and rude, and continued: "Who wants to love someone who is vacillating in their relationship. ”

Qin Moru's heart fluctuated slightly, but she still looked at her gently and said, "Well, you won't." ”

She chuckled, "You know again?" ”

"yes, I know."

"I'm missing you." After speaking, he chuckled, and said, "You said that you, a person with such good peach blossom luck, have you ever wavered?" ”

“……”

Qin Moru was a little speechless, is this comparing him with Mo Xuyan? said coldly: "No." ”

Her face began to flush, and she spoke slightly drunk, not noticing Qin Moru's coldness at this time: "That's, it doesn't look like it." I thought, what does it feel like to be wavering? Why is there a man, his ex knows that he is with another woman, and he still wants to redeem his ex, does this man treat his ex as a fool? ”

"......" Qin Moru roughly figured out what was going on, and she was also a little stream-of-consciousness when she spoke at this time, and replied with a smile: "You just need to know that you are not stupid." ”

Fang Jinyan looked at his smile, which made her suddenly feel for a second, as if his sleeping face that night came to mind again, so she quickly brushed her eyes and continued to be busy eating.

The two had eaten and drunk to their heart's content, and after returning to the hotel, they rested separately. I slept until noon the next day, and I was about tired. After Jin Yan got up, she found that she was sore, but she thought that she would go back to S City on a cloudy day, and she would continue to work after that, so she felt that she should take a break.

Qin Moru, who was in the other room, also slept late and got up late, but had already begun to prepare to deal with some work. It wasn't until he was a little hungry that he sent a message asking Jin Yan if he wanted to go out to eat.

Jin Yan dragged her sore body, dressed casually and went out. It was about yesterday that they got along, and Fang Jinyan always felt that the revolutionary friendship between them was deeper, so when the two of them took a taxi to eat something near the Big Wild Goose Pagoda, and by the way, they also visited the Big Wild Goose Pagoda, and Jin Yan didn't feel anything wrong at all. She thought that maybe this was just two people who were tired of their exes getting together, and being partners would not be as lonely as a person. After I go back, I will go back to my house to find my mother.

Therefore, when they returned to S City on a flight, Qin Moru also took a taxi to send Jinyan home. After Jinyan thanked him, she didn't have much contact with him again.

She thought it was nice to have such a friend, but there was some faint worry in her heart, and his drunken face that night had been lingering in her mind lately, always flashing out like a nightmare, making her a little troubled, but she couldn't say why.

After Qin Moru returned home, he was not idle for a moment, his work ability and efficiency have always been very strong, and he suddenly went out to play for two days, he had to continue to complete other work, and there was one more thing, many parts that were doubtful in the past could be gradually connected, and he needed to think about how to solve it.

When the two of them met again, it was the same as before. After eating at noon in a good mood, after checking the morning's work again, she thought about going out for a walk. Seeing Qin Moru thinking against the railing by the window of the corridor, he walked over with a smile, patted him, and asked softly, "What are you doing?" ”

Qin Moru looked back, it was him, turned his head relaxedly, and said, "Why are you here?" ”

"I just thought about eating enough and wanted to walk, but I didn't think you were resting here. What the hell are you thinking when you don't go to bed at noon? She looked at him with a look of suspicion and curiosity.

"Think about how something should be resolved."

"Huh? Is there anything else you can't figure out? Would you like to hear it and help you think about it? "It's her way of helping her friends figure it out.

He didn't answer immediately, just glanced at her lightly, and after a long while, he slowly spoke: "Okay." It's okay to ask you. At this time, he simply changed his posture, leaned his back against the railing, and said: "If you knew that those scandals were maliciously spread by someone at that time, would you think this matter was very serious?" ”

She also leaned on the railing next to him with both hands, listened to his words, and asked, "Is it a rumor about me and Mo Xuyan?" ”

"Well, so to speak. Probably more. ”

Jin Yan thought for a while at this time, and continued to ask, "More?" That's ours earlier? ”

Mo Ru raised his eyebrows and did not deny it.

Jin Yan's expression was a little helpless: "What about the purpose." ”

"I don't know yet." Qin Moru guessed nine times out of ten, but did not confirm it.

Jin Yan suddenly laughed and said, "Actually, I'm thinking, when this kind of thing comes out, will she be more weak than me, harder than me, or more boring?" ”

Mo Ru was slightly surprised, and slowly responded: "Maybe." ”

"Actually, I haven't been in the company for a week, and it seems that those rumors have faded away. To be honest, I wasn't really affected by these things, at most I was in a bad mood when I knew it at the time. But I also earned a business trip because of this, and I also had the opportunity to play with you, didn't I? But deliberately filming this matter is very excessive. It is considered an invasion of privacy and malicious dissemination, and this kind of thing cannot be tolerated. ”

"So you mean, you're going to punish severely?" Mo Ru asked.

"What is the severe punishment? I feel that as long as you can promise not to do it again, or let her know that there are consequences for doing so, people need to be held accountable for their chosen actions. If that person still has a conscience in his heart, he will be sad after being exposed, but if he doesn't have a conscience, it's better for this person to escape earlier, who knows how to harm others next time. ”

After hearing this, the corners of Qin Moru's mouth rose slightly, and said, "You think quite clearly." ”

"Hmm. I used to know a psychiatrist and am still a good friend. He once said to me that many things will cause more troubles when they stand at a certain angle, and if you jump out of this angle, in fact, everything is worth understanding. ”

"Why did you know a psychiatrist?"

"I used to stand at too deep an angle to think about it."

"You've been through a lot before." Qin Moru came to a conclusion.

Jin Yan didn't bother to pay attention to his conclusion, suddenly remembered something, and asked a little incredulously: "No, big brother, you are here to worry about this matter without sleeping at noon?" Doesn't it look like you? ”

"Really? So what am I like. ”

"Like ...... That kind of thing is decisive in everything, well, the kind of thunder wind that is fierce. Poof, right! To put ancient times is to kill decisively! After saying that, he laughed.

"You make me seem to be very serious and impersonal."

She laughed dryly: "No, do you know who it is?" Is that person still important at work? ”

"I guess I know. It's not important, I'm just used to coming to the lunch break. Qin Moru's words could not hide a smile.

“…… Oh. Will you come here to rest? "Isn't that where she often comes to rest?

"No matter how busy you are, you need to adjust yourself. What about you, what are you doing here? ”

"I take a walk and eat less. It's also rest. ”

In fact, she wanted to think about it, and she didn't want to run away anymore. Some scars need to be peeled open and bruised, and they can be healed. And what she needs at this time is probably just his explanation back then.

That's all.