For as long as she can remember, she knows that she is different from other children.

When the grandmother of the monastery gave out the sugar cane candy bought in the village, the other children would laugh, and she wanted to laugh too, but she opened her mouth but couldn't make any sound, at that time she was a freak in the mouth of her peers, and no one would play with her,

If Mama wanted the children of the convent to play in two groups, she would be alone in the other group, and she would often be confronted with the strange eyes of the other group, or a few suppressed chuckles.

When other children are reprimanded by Mama for being naughty, she will cry, but she never knows what it is like to cry, not only because she never makes Mama angry, but also because she doesn't want to experience crying.

Sana didn't dare to bet on whether she would cry or not, so she was the most well-behaved child in the convent.

Not being able to laugh has already made her an alien, and if she can't even cry, she is afraid that she will lose the last warmth.

This warmth comes from the old mother who adopted her, and this patient warmth not only retains for her the beauty that is coveted by many people, but also teaches her what love is.

How to love, and how to be loved.

So she understood that a gentle smile is a good medicine to heal people's hearts, she doesn't need to speak, she doesn't need to cry, she doesn't need to laugh, and others can also identify with her and love her.

In Mama's selfless love, she gradually gained the affection of her peers, I don't know when she became the most popular child in the convent, even if she was a rebellious and naughty boy, she would do her best to show politeness and gentleness by her side,

Not because of anything else, it was precisely because she would love everyone equally, whether it was sadness or joy, or a little secret that she wanted to say but didn't dare to tell, the children in the convent would be the first to come to her to confide in, and at this time, the sad 'dumb' became her favorite place.

As Mama said, treat the world with gentleness, and the world smiles back.

She was already very content to have such a life, but God was especially kind to her, and on the night when Mama found Sanhua for her from the hands of others, she played for the first time in Mama's gentle eyes the only companion who accompanied her to the monastery.

The strings that no one else could pluck seemed to have a soul in her hands, and for the first time in her life, she had a way to speak beyond a smile - when her fingers plucked the strings of the strings, she could feel her thoughts and emotions melt into the sound of the piano.

For the first time, she experienced laughter, and for the first time, she understood what it was like to cry out loud, and that night, Mama and the children, who were secretly hiding outside the room, heard her hidden sound in the strings, laughed with her, and cried with her.

She played a stringed instrument that no one else could play, and she proved with notes why she was thrown by her father or mother with her at the door of the monastery - only she could play it, and she never belonged to anyone, but to her.

Because of this, no one in the monastery tried to take away Sanhua in the name of 'borrowing', and Sanhua, who never left her, naturally became her main way of expressing her feelings.

She found a more endearing way to communicate than smiling and listening, and that was to play a tune, and her tune became the most popular note in the province of Larin.

Sana originally thought that she would grow up slowly in the convent until she took over the mantle of Mama and became a new nun, healing more people with her piano sound, but a sudden disaster arose because of her and spread to the convent.

Mama told her that there were very bad people who wanted to take her, and before Mama could tell her to stay away from the 'Brotherhood of Navoli,' she and the other children were put on the ship to Demacia.

After seven years of getting along day and night, she didn't even give her a goodbye hug when she was leaving, and she didn't know if the grandmother in the monastery was safe, and she didn't touch Sanhua during the days on the ship, because she didn't know how to use Sanhua to express her emotions.

Traveling across the ocean to Demacia, she said goodbye to the other children and met the adoptive parents of the Bouvier family under the arrangement of the Illuminator Order.

With the love that her mother taught her, she once again gained a warm home, her sister Kahina regarded her as her own sister, her godmother Le Stara cared for her in every way, her godfather Barrett responded to her needs, and she lived a rich life that she could not imagine in Ionia.

In addition to some nostalgia for the monastery and her grandmother, Sana has fallen in love with this distant and beautiful country, and although the majestic white stone is not as good as the maple tree in front of the monastery, the people here know what love is as much as the Ionians.

She thought she would grow up in peace in her new family, bringing joy and joy to the people of Demacia......

She thought that this time would be different from the previous ones.

Fate left her with nothing again.

She is a mute, she needs to work countless times harder than ordinary people to gain the approval of others, living in this world, she is very tired,

Since she was sensible, she has tried her best to bring laughter to others, but she can't laugh herself, she just wants to cry, but she doesn't dare to cry.

The night she got the flower was the first time she cried on the piano, and since then, she hasn't even cried on the day she left Mama, she doesn't want others to cry with her, so she can only laugh.

She's already strong, strong......

"Da Da ......"

Tears slid down his cheeks, striking the first note from Sanhua with an elusive trajectory of fate.

Before the sound was finished, the green fingertips that followed followed plucked the second string, and the pitch dropped by half a beat, like an old man descending alone in the sunset, returning to the empty old house.

"Knock ......"

The third note, the fourth, followed, and Sana didn't know what she was playing, she just remembered Mama's gentle smile, her life at Bouvier's adoptive father's house, the night she left the convent, and the laughter of the past.

Thinking about it, tears flowed like this.

For the first time in her life, someone told her that she wanted to cry, and thanks to that person, she was finally able to cry loudly.

It doesn't need to resonate with magic, it is an extremely complex, perfect stringed instrument in its own right, with a wide range of sound that allows it to play most of its pieces, and a musician who is proficient in stringed instruments will never have a problem playing it as long as he has the heart.

And in this world, there is only one person who can play touching notes with Sanhua without knowing anything about stringed instruments.

The gap between a genius and a mortal is not in the degree of effort, but only in the fact that a mortal needs to start from scratch, and a genius has reached the peak of his heel from the moment he sees the foot of the mountain.

Maybe it was a long, long time ago, or maybe it had just begun, the sobs in the palace banquet became more and more, the men gritted their teeth and closed their eyes and wept silently, and the women covered their mouths with handkerchiefs and cried.

Except for the dead, there is no real heart of stone, and even the monkey who pops out of the crack in the stone will never forget the Bodhi Patriarch.

Who knows how many sad things are behind the beautiful scenery? How many grievances have the strong people who smiled and said the words 'I'm fine'?

No matter how strong a person is, there will be moments when he wants to cry, and the reason for hiding his cowardice is often very simple, when the person who will feel sorry for himself leaves this world, even if he sheds more tears, no one will have heartache.

Crying is meaningless if it is not soothed, and in the eyes of some people, tears are the most precious thing in the world, and in the eyes of others, they are nothing more than a laughing stock.

At this moment, Sanhua under Suanna's fingertips gave all the audience a reason to cry and a voice to soothe their hearts.

The improvised music has no name, but the listener can see his past.

That is Love and Loss.

In the sound of Sona's piano, Lester put on a mask that he shouldn't have wore, including Gavin III, including Sindra, Misha and other transcendents, all of them bowed their heads and covered their faces and immersed themselves in their own sadness, only Sauna looked up with tears in her eyes, and saw something that even the cold mask couldn't hide.

At this moment, Sana felt that she had arrived in a dim and dead cemetery, in the midst of countless cold tombstones, a young boy sat with his legs leaning against an unknown tombstone, burying his face in his lap, not moving.

She doesn't know what happened to her, but she knows that she can always do something when others are sad.

"You're like me, you want to cry but you can't, right??

The boy seemed to tremble in the face of Sona's ethereal and gentle voice, but looked at it without any reaction.

Sana stepped to the boy's side, gently hugged the side of the boy's face with her little hands, and without much strength, Sana picked up the boy's face and said softly.

"Your grief is buried too deeply, it suffocates me, I am afraid."

Finally, the dead boy reacted and gently took the hand that Sana had placed on his cheek, but his voice was empty.

"Don't be afraid, as long as I'm alive, I won't let anyone hurt you."

Sana was stunned for a moment, and then the smile on her face became more gentle.

"I believe in you, you ...... Can you tell me the story of this place? Why...... Will there be so many tombstones? ”

The boy stood up and pointed blankly to the tombstone beside him.

"I've forgotten her name, I just remember that she was my best friend and partner, and I had to kill her in order to survive."

Sana was silent, she couldn't recognize the words on the tombstone, but she knew that there were names on the tombstone.

Immediately afterward, the boy pointed to another tombstone.

"I'm going to forget his name, he sleeps on my top bunk, he's the perfect partner for me in training, he rushes at me with a fruit knife and I have to kill him."

The second tombstone still had a name, but the boy said he had forgotten it.

Then I came to the third tombstone.

"She was my instructor, my most respected and favorite teacher, she taught me how to kill people, how not to be killed,

She took my first time, lingered with me for a long time, made me a real man, but I couldn't protect her, I could only watch her die in my arms because of me, she told me to live at all costs, but I couldn't, I'm a coward. ”

In Suanna's sight, there was already a tear in the corner of the boy's eye.

"Who is that tombstone?"

Sana pointed to the blank tombstone that the boy had leaned on at first, which seemed to be the only one in the cemetery that had no name.

"Her name is Elena, and in order to kill people, I had to kill her parents and all her relatives with my own hands,

She didn't know that I did all this at first, the organization took her in, and when she was able to carry out the task, the organization handed her over to me and asked me to take her, I knew that this was the organization's surveillance of me, maybe because of debt, I didn't refuse,

I did my best to teach her, to give her every care of love, and I even indulged her to spend her training time playing video games and playing boring video games with her.

She really fell in love with me, and I fell in love with her, but I was afraid that she would be like me and my teacher, and once she got love, she would lose her mind and eventually die, so I kept rejecting her.

Later, the organization told her the truth of the matter, and she knew that I had killed her relatives, perhaps because I was still unwilling to accept her, and she betrayed me in frustration.

I know she betrayed me, I know I know too much, death is coming, but I don't regret it,

My hands are full of innocent blood, I don't regret to die, I only feel sorry for her, I destroyed her happy home in the first half of my life, and I failed to give her a happy home in the second half of my life,

I am a hypocritical sinner who has killed so many people and cannot forgive myself. ”

The boy's expression remained unchanged, but the tears on his face could not be stopped.

Sana didn't speak, but gently opened her arms and hugged the boy in front of her, who was slightly taller than herself.

Now she doesn't have a Hua, and she doesn't need a Hua.

As Sana was silent, the boy who was standing stiffly like a puppet man suddenly spoke.

"If I promised to protect you, but I failed to protect you, would you hate me?"

Sana shook her head and whispered softly in the boy's ear.

"No, because I know you've done the best you can."

The boy's body shuddered.

"If I love you so much that I can't help myself, but I have to keep my distance from you because I love you, will you hate me?"

Sana was stunned for a moment, and her gentle little face turned out to be solemn.

"Yes, I will hate you for the rest of my life, because the distance you keep from me prevents me from loving you more, Mama said that love is to give and take from each other, not one person's wishful thinking."

"So...... Am I wrong? ”

"Well, you're wrong."

"Yes, I'm sorry, I was wrong, can you forgive me?"

"Hmm...... If you can love me as much as you say you do, then I'll forgive you. ”

“…… Woo woo wow wow !!! ”

(End of chapter)