52. Retreat
A dark hollow, surrounded by rock walls, Liye pondered here...... I'll leave it all to Virgo...... No problem, right? There's always a feeling that you might be caught? No, no, you're going to be caught, right?
Covering his face, Liye said that although it was a retreat to deal with the demons......, I was so uneasy! I'm still so worried!! my gut tells me that this must be dangerous!!
"Ah...... It's better to deal with the problem of the demons as quickly as possible...... Tsk, I've been dealing with other people's knots, is this a dark light?"
A cigarette materialized into a cigarette, and after looking at it twice, it was still pinched off. Pretending to be deep is really not suitable for me! Li Ye closed his eyes and took a deep breath, and then his expression softened. He sat cross-legged in the hole, his eyes closed, his mind sinking into the depths......
Compared to the various strange demons that suddenly came to solve it, Liye's way of dealing with it seemed extremely ordinary and simple. Concentrate your mind, sink into the depths of your heart, ask yourself, answer yourself, come out if you understand, and continue if you don't know.
Feeling the light of the world that gradually disappeared because of sinking into his heart, Liye couldn't help but smile bitterly, he suddenly felt that his inner demons were a little ridiculous, and his "misanthropy" thoughts were like children, just like a bear child who wanted to pretend to be an adult but didn't know that in the eyes of others, he was a bear child who didn't grow up.
"So...... I'm ridiculous. Misanthropy, anti-anti, perhaps, love??"
Maybe even I think it's funny, and the empty and disembodied darkness echoes the dry laughter of Liye.
"Cowardly ......"
A voice came.
"How cowardly, not even willing to believe in oneself, questioning oneself, doubting oneself, laughing at oneself, how miserable. Love the world? This world where the weak succumb to the strong, where strength rules everything, and the world is full of darkness, have you not opened your eyes to accept this cruel world, and will try to put an end to anger and hatred. It is precisely because the world is full of darkness and injustice, and it is precisely because good people do not repay you that you stand up!"
Facing this voice, Li Ye did not panic at all. This is his heart, whether he admits it or not, whether he is crazy and extreme or not, he is a part of him, this cannot be denied, and he will not deny it.
"Strength is not easy to come by, yes, just because you understand this, so you know, I know! Strength is the most important thing, even if you are clever and eloquent, even if you and I deceive ourselves, but! Only the victor is righteous! This will never change!"
"yes, I don't deny it. ”
Facing his roaring heart, Liye was not flustered at all.
"History is written by the victors, and the definition of good and evil is nothing more than the crowning of the victors. I don't deny it, but," Liye wanted to make a gesture of spreading his hands, but unfortunately there was no body here, so he had to sigh, "Not denying it doesn't mean agreeing, I am deeply hurt by the behavior of engaging in this kind of language game in the past and ending up in it." I understand, you will say that I am a grass on the wall, neutrality is no different from following the wind, after all, you are me and I am you, but this time I am sincere, you shouldn't, or I shouldn't ask such a stupid question again, I know, we still have a real problem, what is this question, where is the answer? This is my confusion, don't you ask me? My restless heart, I would like to find this answer with you. ”
“...... What is our purpose?"
"Freedom? too superficial. Happiness seems too profound. Mighty? That has long proven not the answer, at least not the whole answer. ”
Every time Liye says one, he denies one.
"Homeland? It's funny, if it dominates the world, we have to overthrow it, defeat it, and kill it for this? Just kidding, could it be that the 'supreme' has never been a failure? Even if it is an unrestrained tyrant, it is impossible to destroy the entire endless world, and to die is that we are unlucky to be favored by it, and it is not allowed to allow us to move to the stars? So! From ancient times to the present, what we have implemented has never been love and justice, nor is it any faith, but blood and fire! War and killing! Everything that has been paid for by sacrifice and blood! Glory drives us forward! Victory brings beauty!! only resistance can bring all !!"
If Liye could make an expression, it would definitely be hideous and distorted, but in the next moment, he changed back to a calm tone.
"If I had been able to say such a mid-second thing before. But I find it amusing to say that again, and while I don't understand why so many people actually get into trouble with me, people who think this way are undoubtedly self-centered bastards who impose their ideals on others!"
“......”
"Huh, you don't speak, then I continued. ”
Liye's fluttering voice paused for a moment and then sounded again.
"I am a spiritual being, with a noble soul and a pure body. That's why I hate humans, so I despise youkai, so I'm just unhappy elves, I just want to fight demons, I just look down on all other races. Okay, I'll admit I'm crazy, but I still hate humans, despise youkai, dislike elves, want to fight demons and devils, and I still look down on those other races...... Alas......"
Liye sighed.
"But the reason is different, although the human beings do not change their mistakes and confusion, although it is a headache, but because of this, they continue to move forward and have the development power that makes us sigh. Yokai may be irascible or scheming or unruly and messy, but we appreciate their simple desire for a strong heart or their open-mindedness. Elves are abrasive and extremely environmentally friendly, but it is this character that creates this group of children who are envied by nature and wind. The devil and the devil are incompatible, and chaos and order are intertwined. But it is their opposition that has created groups of powerful men and sages...... They have a charm that I can't match!"
“......”
"Of course, there are admirable heroes and disgusting maggots everywhere, but I really can't tell at a glance that they are protecting individually, but I don't want to protect them indiscriminately, so instead of protecting everyone for good or bad, I should care more about the people around me. What color are the eyes?blue?green?colorful?What shape are the ears?Round?Pointy?Odd-shaped?What kind of race?Humans?Aliens?Unrecognizable?Whoever!I!I just hate them!Despise them!I don't like them!But that doesn't stop me from loving them!"
“......”
After a long silence, my heart once again raised doubts.
"Love them? What can you change just like that? You still have no power, you still can't do anything, you still fall at the door of fate!"
"Everything will change, I promise!"
Li Ye said softly but firmly, he seemed to be saying this to his heart, as if he was saying it to himself, but more, he still wanted to say it to the other people who accompanied him. Then, the darkness was illuminated, and a stone gate slowly descended from the void, and finally landed in the center of the concept, and the shape of the leaf appeared, but it was white, and there was a figure in front of the stone door, still from the leaf, but it was black. Bai Liye walked to the stone gate, he looked very small, and the black Liye looked at Bai's back.
"Do you want to get it back? You will lose everything, this is your answer? Have you denied me? Will you not face me? How long are you going to run away!? Are you ignoring me so much to hide your cowardice?! Is it that under your powerful exterior lies the cowardly soul of a coward?"
"Puff ......"
Bai Liye accidentally laughed.
"My heart, you lost, I haven't forgotten it, you are my heart, if my soul is so timid, then you are the one who hides the timid, roaring, humble soul, isn't it?"
White walked up to Black, looked at him condescendingly, and then reached out to support his chin.
"You lost. I'm a lowly and timid, self-contradictory, ridiculous idiot dreamer with no grip on power, and I'm not so self-aware, am I?"
"Don't you regret it?"
It was at this time that Black suddenly said to Shiro.
He looked at the other party and said, "Don't you regret it? You once said that when you give up on yourself, it is the time to completely die, aren't you afraid? Not afraid that this is also a kind of giving up? I can't understand it, even if I am in your heart, I still can't understand it, what can you go for this love? Even if you disappear and die, it doesn't matter?"
This space echoes with words that are more like questions than questions, I don't know why, Black has a kind of expectation, he expects to say that he is afraid, he regrets, and he doesn't know why this is happening.
Looking up at the stone gate in front of him, Bai smiled, he raised his left hand and put it on his face to make a gesture of covering his face.
"Rhetorically, what if I should regret giving up?"
Bai Liye shook his head with a smile.
"Is it meaningful to disappear and die? There is no regret medicine in this world, and it is better to regret my miscalculation and stupidity than to regret not doing it. You don't understand because you're just my heart, and I'm Liye! It's all the feelings that this soul called Liye contains! You're a part of me, a part of me, how can you understand everything about me?"
After Li Ye finished speaking, he put his left hand on the door. And his right hand let go of the black chin that he was holding, and the black disappeared into the space in silence.
"The gate of the roots, hehe, I haven't been here before. I didn't expect that, is there a door like this in the heart of every living being?"
Liye smiled and pushed open the stone door. Behind the door, there was an indescribable space, at least Li Ye didn't think his lacklustre words could describe it. But that didn't prevent him from seeing something that was clearly the subject—a huge beating black heart!
"If there is such a door at the end of "Steel Forge", then more than eighty percent of it will be a god's ......"
Liye spat out an unknown groove and walked slowly towards the heart.
Seriously, I don't like it!
Liye, who was casually fragmented, walked to the heart, and he felt ...... I guess I will have to use a strange enough body to tolerate this black "briquette" for the rest of my life! In other words, my "heart" is so "black"? I just ...... Well, it's hard to describe!! what does the root see me!?
The moment he touched it, Liye was dragged into it by an irresistible force!
Darkness, endless darkness, paths a few feet wide, and pitch-black spaces on both sides. Li Ye looked back behind him, the path that was different from the endless dark corridor, and the road that exuded bright starlight tempted him to go back all the time......
"There is no end to the bitter sea, turning back and sinking ships. Good man, phew, good horses don't eat back grass!"
Liye Crushed and continued to move forward, and after a while, his footsteps stopped, because there was no way out in front of him. At the end of the road was a high throne, on which a man identical to him was asleep, and his face was neither sad nor joyful. The moment Liye saw him, he suddenly woke up!
"You're here!"
Liye shrugged and smiled noncommittally.
"Why are you here? You have been seeking me for a long time, and now you have finally arrived. ”
What he didn't expect was that Li Ye just smiled faintly and shook his head.
"I said, you're blocking my way back, can you take the opportunity to give way? Maybe my partners are in a hurry. ”
"You're not after me?"
The man who was exactly the same as Liye showed a surprised expression for the first time, and asked suspiciously. Li Ye Wenyan scratched his head in distress.
"Ah...... Rather than aiming for you, I think it's better to aim for you, and stop at you, but it's a shame not to try if you can do better, isn't it?"
“...... Really?"
The man pondered for a moment and removed his throne.
"Then go ahead. ”
"Thank you!"
At the moment when Liye passed by him, the man suddenly asked, "You got it?"
"Yes, I have to say, it's ugly!"
Li Ye smiled and pointed to the heart area of his chest.
"Well, then, let it be my heart. No matter what happens in the future, I hope you don't let the past happen again, not every time you can be so 'lucky'. When you are disoriented, you might as well slow down or stop, look around, what you want, what you worry, what you are satisfied, what you are dissatisfied with, everything you ask for is all around you, and use this as a signpost. I look forward to the day when you will be able to cross my side on your own. ”
As the man spoke, he faded into the field of vision along with the throne.
"You're too careful, I'm so scared of death, how can I get lost again, I can't run cautiously at the 'road signs'. ”
Liye shrugged his shoulders and walked towards the end of the endless darkness with a smile on his face, a smile on the corner of his mouth. From this moment on, he really got rid of the past and really lived for himself and for what he cared about. And all this...... It's all going to start when you go back!
"Ahh!!h