Weather radio stations broadcast rainstorm warnings on a loop, reminding the general public not to go out unless necessary and to prepare for flood prevention. The typhoon warning sounded, the torrential rain was menacing, a few trees on the street were scraped, and the doors of several convenience stores were also swept up and scraped by the typhoon.

In the middle of the night, the evil wind whirred.

Lightning, thunder.

Perhaps due to the influence of the weather, Cheng Ruan didn't sleep very well this night.

She tossed and turned, and in her dreams, it was all the same picture.

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Five years ago, after Xu Yunjie left, Cheng Ruan forced himself to forget him and everything that happened between him and him. She swore that a person who had abandoned her, she would never be nostalgic again.

But it's really hard to forget a person.

Therefore, Cheng Ruan began to self-hypnosis. Since she can't forget it, she just thinks about it every day, thinking about when Xu Yunjie was not considerate enough to her.

After a long time, Xu Yunjie's image in Cheng Ruan's heart and his attitude towards her can only be recalled by the word cold.

If you don't deliberately think about it, even Cheng Ruan herself will almost forget it, in fact, Xu Yunjie has had a time when she lost her temper in front of her.

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It was, she remembered, after the third year of high school.

Xu Yunjie is going out to participate in a competition, and there is a girl who has a crush on him with him.

Coincidentally, the two were also divided into a group during the later competition.

When Cheng Ruan skipped class to go to the competition venue to watch Xu Yunjie, he heard the gossip of Xu Yunjie and the girl.

She was unhappy, but she couldn't find Xu Yunjie anywhere,

After inquiring, I found out that Xu Yunjie was doing experiments with the girl in the laboratory.

Cheng Ruan almost didn't think about it.

When I walked there, sure enough, Xu Yunjie was doing an experiment with that girl.

Because the two of them were in a group, they were very close to each other when they were doing the experiment, and the girl saw Cheng Ruan at that time, but she didn't tell Xu Yunjie, but deliberately touched Xu Yunjie's hand with the back of her hand when she was doing the experiment.

Cheng Ruan was outside the window and could see clearly.

Her first thought at that time was to rush in and press the girl to the ground and rub it.

But she had just finished falling out with Xu Yunjie at the time, and if she rushed in like this, she would be very embarrassed.

For the first time, Cheng Ruan calmed down, turned around and left, never looking for him again during the Xu Yunjie competition.

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Cheng Ruan has been depressed for a few days because of Xu Yunjie, but she has never lacked friends.

The way they play is also very spontaneous, and they play like crazy, and they can leave all their worries behind.

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At that time, she hadn't had a falling out with Yan Mo.

Yan Mo was in the same class as her at the time, and her grades in the class were also at the end of the class, Cheng Ruan and he were the same kind of people, they couldn't listen to the class, and their minds were all about how to play.

The two hit it off, and skipping class is a common thing.

During that time, they almost played all the Internet cafes and chess and card stores outside the school.

Because the two went in and out together, they even ate together, and gradually, rumors appeared.

said that Cheng Ruan dumped Xu Yunjie and turned his head to get along with Yan Mo.

also said that Cheng Ruan had slept with Yan Mo.

Others said to meet Cheng Ruan and Yan Mo at a small hotel near the school.

In short, there are all kinds of sayings.

At that time, Cheng Ruan always thought that she and Yan Mo were bitter friends who disliked each other.

He doesn't treat her as a girl, and she doesn't treat him as a boy.

Since she was a child, Cheng Ruan has heard a lot of rumors about her, and she didn't pay attention to it at the time, she still plays how she wants, as if she wants to deliberately prove that she can live happily without Xu Yunjie.

After that, she didn't even answer Xu Yunjie's phone.

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At that time, in the middle of winter, people wearing down jackets stood outside and had to freeze their teeth.

One day, Cheng Ruan returned to the apartment her dad had rented for her around the school after eating hot pot with her group of friends.

She drank some wine and blushed.

The head is a little confused.

But nerves are more sensitive.

I always feel that someone is following me.

She quickened her pace, pretending to pull out her phone and pretending to be on the phone.

Maybe it's because he just finished eating with Yan Mo, or maybe Yan Mo is fighting like her and not dying.

Cheng Ruan's ghost sent a god to the phone and shouted Yan Mo's name.

However, almost at the moment when she called out Yan Mo's name, she heard footsteps quickly approaching behind her, and then, her phone was knocked off and drowned in the thick snow.

A force forced her to pull her, pushing her against the wall beside the bushes.

Because she was dressed thickly at the time, Cheng Ruan didn't feel anything on her back, she wanted to ask for help, but she was covered by someone who came, and it was at this time that she saw the appearance of the person who came.

Xu Yunjie didn't know how long he had been waiting for Cheng Ruan outside the apartment, and he was covered in cold.

The five fingers looked more like they had just been taken out of an ice cave.

He pinched her neck, the whites of his eyes were red, the back of his hands were bruised, but his fingers were reluctant to exert force.

"Cheng Ruan, you provoked me first, you provoked me first...... You said you like me, I really believe it......" He repeated in Cheng Ruan's ear over and over again.

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That time, it was one of the few times that Xu Yunjie took the initiative to kiss Cheng Ruan.

It was also the first time that Cheng Ruan knew that Xu Yunjie was too bad to get up with someone.

During that kiss, neither of them closed their eyes, and Cheng Ruan always remembered Xu Yunjie's eyes at that time, full of red bloodshots, and his eyes were cracking, like a vicious wolf who had been cornered, wailing silently in pain and despair.

That was the first time Xu Yunjie showed all his emotions in front of Cheng Ruan.

His love, his hate, and even ...... His fear and despair.

That night, the two struggled for a long time, and almost reached the last step.

Cheng Ruan felt that she would probably never forget that night.

The young man's bloodshot eyes, cool and powerful hands, and out-of-control bloody kisses resonated with the hearts of the two young bodies.

Cheng Ruan was sure that Xu Yunjie at that time must have loved her to death.

As an adult, she occasionally thinks that if she could be ruthless at that time, she dumped Xu Yunjie when she loved her the most.

She may be able to become the cinnabar mole in Xu Yunjie's heart and be remembered by him for a lifetime.

Instead of being left alone in this lonely city, as she did later.

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Following

When he woke up from the hotel, Cheng Ruan was covered in sweat.

The sound of rain crashing against the glass windows crackled.

The curtains were drawn deadly, and no light was revealed. Cheng Ruan unlocked his phone in a daze, and with the faint light star on the mobile phone screen, the room was slightly brighter.

There are several missed calls on the phone, as well as 99+ WeChat messages.

She glanced at it, and there were nineteen WeChat messages from Xu Yunjie, and several missed calls were all from Xu Yunjie.

Xu Yunjie......

Cheng Ruan had Xu Yunjie in all the bizarre dreams last night, her arms lying flat, and her mobile phone smashed in the palm of her hand.

She closed her eyes, as if she could still feel the afterglow of the dream.

It's really fascinating.

Cheng Ruan ignored the wound and went into the bathroom to take a shower.

After that, she had cosmetics and clothes brought to her.

Cheng Ruan doesn't like makeup, but it is undeniable that makeup will make people look better, she lengthens her eyeliner and applies lipstick. Although the bruises on her body have not disappeared, Cheng Ruan just wants to wear a skirt today, she took out the barrier cream and covered the bruises on her body little by little.

I dressed up for about an hour.

She drove to the busiest mall in the neighborhood.

Do beauty, dye your hair, go shopping, change your jewelry.

Spend money to make her happy.

Hair should be cut, clothes should be changed, and men should be thrown away.

Life is limited, and Cheng Ruan wants every day of his future life to be happy.