Qian blamed all the blame on her, everything was because of her, and she was the culprit.

Qian quietly asked her brother why her mother's condition had worsened. The elder brother told Qian that after she left, her mother was depressed and couldn't eat or sleep.

Originally, it was only half of the body, but now there is a problem with the heart, which cannot be stimulated, and if you want to be treated, you must use good medicine, and the family has no money, so you can only use ordinary medicine to maintain it.

Qian was even more sad after listening to her brother's words, her mother must not be able to stand the blow, and she will be depressed, although she is also the same as thousands of ordinary rural women, no, not even as good as ordinary rural women, her mother never talks about other people's affairs, and she has no opportunity to talk and chat with others, her life is single and mechanical, except that the family almost can't contact outsiders, even with her family, her language is pitiful, and she never uses words too much to express her inner thoughts, But she has a mind, and her son and daughter are all her beliefs and support, otherwise what can be the motivation for a person who has been paralyzed in bed all year round.

In the past, her daughter was her belief in life, but now her only belief is gone. When people lose the courage and motivation to live, there is not much difference between life and death.

Qian knew the pain in her mother's heart, but she was powerless to change anything, and she couldn't get rid of the pain in her mother's heart.

What she can do is to try her best to alleviate her mother's physical pain, and she has to spend money to cure her illness, but she is shy in her pocket, and she can't even support herself, so how can she pay for her family!

Qian had mixed feelings and didn't have the heart to eat lunch, so she hurriedly left home and got into the car back to the city.

Since that time home, Qian has been feeling uneasy, the current situation of the family is in urgent need of money, her mother's illness can not be delayed, if this continues, she is afraid that her mother will leave her, whenever she thinks of this, she does not dare to think deeply.

In addition to his mother, there is also his brother, his brother is not young, and it is time to find a partner, and the dilapidated situation in the family, which girl is willing to follow him.

Alas, life, life! How can you get on with your life? I was at a loss. I can't make money in the barbershop, and I haven't learned my craft yet, even if I wait for another year and a half, when she can get started by herself, it will take a lot of money to open her own shop, how can she have that financial ability, she can't wait for that day, when will the dark days end, when will the days of time come.

She had been thinking about these things in her mind all day, not knowing how to decide. Just when she was at a loss and didn't know what to do, something even worse happened - her father fell and injured his leg.

The family trustee hurriedly called Qian back. Looking at her father lying on the kang, Qian was very anxious, her father had to be sent to the hospital for medical treatment, and it would cost money to go to the hospital, and the family couldn't afford it.

Qiangan couldn't help it if he was in a hurry. In the end, it was the kind relatives who put together and sent my father to the hospital, so that my father could be saved.

After a few days in the hospital, my father was taken home. My father had a thick plaster cast on his leg and needed to lie down on the kang to recuperate quietly.

My father, who was the pillar of the family, can't move anymore, and the sky has collapsed. There are two patients lying on a kang, which really makes Qian distressed and anxious.

But being in a hurry can't solve the problem, life has to move forward, eating, buying medicine, everything is inseparable from money.

Meals can be done, it doesn't matter if you only eat porridge and steamed buns and white noodles a day, but the medicine for both patients is indispensable.

My father has borrowed hundreds of dollars to see a doctor, and it is impossible to borrow money again, the key is that there is no place to borrow, the poor generally only have poor relatives, and everyone's life is not relaxed, and the borrowed money will have to be repaid after all, and it is not a long-term solution to go on like this.

After thinking about it again, Qian was determined to make more money. She left the two old men in the care of her brother and returned to the city by herself.

She went to the barber shop first to say goodbye to the boss, but the boss first retained and persuaded Qian to do it first, it was almost the end of the year, and it was difficult to find a job.

However, Qian has made up his mind, and the boss is no longer reluctant. Qian has already thought about it, she will do whatever she wants to make money, as long as she doesn't betray her morality.

This job search went smoothly, and soon through the recommendation of others, Qian found a job, selling alcohol in a bar, which is to sell alcohol.

In fact, what is good is selling wine, and what is bad is being a wine girl. If it was the previous Qian, she would definitely not be able to do it, but now she has a little bit of life experience, and she has more or less some contact with people, she thinks that she can do such a job, and more importantly, she needs money.

The ignorant Qian was mentally prepared, and she imagined in her mind how to deal with various scenarios and all kinds of people.

She more or less knew what it would mean to go to work there, but after all, she hadn't experienced it, and her imagination was limited.

It was a cold sunny afternoon, and Qian arrived at the bar, about to start her new job.

Standing outside the door of the bar, Qian's heart was nervous, even nervous. She didn't have the courage to push open the door, lingered for a long time, and then turned away.

Qian walked to the park alone, she needed to be quiet, and she needed enough courage. In winter, there are not as many people in the park as there used to be.

Sitting on a park bench, Qian looked at the beautiful scenery around her, but she had no intention of appreciating it, just like that, she sat like a statue, motionless, forgetting the cold, forgetting the time.

It seems to be thinking, but in fact the brain is blank. Qian sat until the evening, and finally the darkness gave her the courage to let go.

Qian stood up, stamped her frozen feet, and walked resolutely towards the bar in the dark. Life is full of challenges for a fifteen or sixteen-year-old girl, and she needs to work hard to overcome it again and again.