The fate of his life is always a little bumpy, Chu Yunan has been accompanied by his grandfather every time he has had a birthday for seventeen years, and he has lived every humble birthday. There are no blessings from others, no gifts from others, and no luxurious birthday party, just a simple cake, under the light of the candle, he made a wish hastily, and only the grandfather with a prickly beard accompanied him, Chu Yunan was very content.

It is estimated that on this year's birthday, Chu Yunan can only spend it alone. He very much hoped that all this was fake. I hope that when I get home, I can see my grandfather in the kitchen preparing the meal, and then call, "Achu, come over for dinner." Chu Yunan felt that tears were about to flow out of his eyes, his eyes were already moist now, and tears were ready to roll in his eyes.

He finally understood what it was like to be truly abandoned. Is that the ...... Your heart is like being crushed by a big rock. Walking on the road, my mind went blank, like a walking corpse. He wanted to cry...... But I couldn't cry. That kind of loneliness lingers in my heart, and at this time I want to find someone to confide in my words, but where to find someone who is willing to be a garbage can. Now he is very uncomfortable, that feeling of loneliness, he can't speak, and when he wants to really experience it, he may have to collapse at any time.

He stood at the doorway near the school, wandering back and forth, looking at the crowd inside. It's really lively inside, everyone has their own good partners, but Chu Yunan is not alone, whenever everyone is lonely, they will see everything in the world as bad. To think that the whole world has abandoned him is to see no one else's good.

One last look, I still didn't go in, I turned around and left. Even if he went in, what difference did he look like a walking corpse now? It will only be regarded as a fool by others.

But so what, being looked down upon by relatives and friends at home, being bullied at school, and still being bullied outside. What else can he do except be a turtle with a shrunken head and a lifelong coward. Once when he was at his most desperate, when he was abandoned by a girl, he confessed to the girl like a fool, and in the end he didn't agree.

When Chu Yunan came back from his hometown, when he came out of the shower, the girl deleted Chu Yunan from WeChat QQ. Before the deletion, the girl sent a message on WeChat, saying that she didn't like people to be involved in her life. Chu Yunan smirked for a long time, it was the girl who added Chu Yunan first. Why do you get hurt in the end? He thinks it's because he might not be good-looking, or really not handsome enough. Short and cowardly, like a puddle of garbage blowing on the side of the road.

He tried to feel the kindness of the world, but the kindness was strange. At one point he had shut himself up in his room and had not come out for a whole month, and he had been in the dark during that time. It was his grandfather who opened the window, and the ray of sunlight shone on his haggard face. Fortunately, he didn't suffer from any depression at that time, he was just a simple fool.

This is Chu Yunan, who can only be described by the words cowardice, no temperament, fool, grassroots, and decrepit boy. Maybe this is just the label that others have commented on him in the past seventeen years, and it is possible that it will still be like this in the future, and it will be like this for the rest of his life.

No way, he's too cowardly, he doesn't know what a counterattack is. Even if he was slapped by someone else, he didn't even know how to tell the teacher, so he let others get away with it. Simplicity is simple, cowardice is cowardice, one yard is one yard, the two are not the same. It's just a kindness in his heart, and he is afraid, and he has been a shrunken turtle from beginning to end.

When he returned to his home, he found it unusually quiet. Looking at each piece of furniture, you can immediately think of the days when grandpa used to be at home. He sat on the cold floor, leaning against the mahogany door, his head looking up at the ceiling. Once, his grandfather told him that every time he wanted to cry, he should look up to the sky so that tears would not fall. Chu Yunan's heart suddenly became aggrieved, tears still flowed from both sides of his eyes, and he closed his eyes tightly, trying to stop the tears from flowing.

"Liars, they are all liars." Tears still flowed, and Chu Yunan slammed his fist on the floor fiercely.

Before you know it, it's already night, and the night has just ended. Chu Yunan fell asleep on the bed, and the small alarm clock on the table showed half past seven. In addition to the sound of the alarm clock turning the hour hand, there was also a clutter of human voices outside the window. Outside the room, the sound of the kitchen sink ticking downstairs kept falling one by one.

"Knock...... Boom...... Boom...... Knock ......"

"Ah Chu, Ah Chu......" Chu Yunan's eyelids moved slightly at this time, and he opened his eyelids dimly. He heard a familiar voice in the distance, and he fell to the ground and suddenly opened his eyes. He looked around him, a place where he couldn't see his fingers, it was "darkness"!

Chu Yunan sat on the ground, and the whole person curled up together. What he feared most was darkness, the kind of darkness that never ends. The dead silence makes people's brains go crazy, so quiet that there is no sound at all, and the environment is simply worse than death.

"Achu, Achu." Then he heard the familiar voice again, coming from an unknown corner around him. Chu Yunan stood up abruptly and looked at the darkness around her. But the surroundings were so dark that you couldn't see the road at all. Even if he relied on his ears to listen to the sound and identify the position, in the face of the sounds coming from all corners, Chu Yunan could only spin in place.

At this time, in the darkness not far in front of Chu Yunan, there was a small glimmer of light, which slowly flew towards Chu Yunan, only to see it getting closer and closer. The luminosity is still so small, like a firefly in the dark.

"Quick!" The glimmer of light quickly passed past Chu Yunan, and the wind speed it flew from blew Chu Yunan's hair. Chu Yunan immediately turned around and ran towards the shimmer. In the darkness, he couldn't find the east, west, north and south, and this faint light, like giving Chu Yunan an an indication, flew like a signal light to the depths of the darkness, and then flew out from the depths of the darkness.

Chu Yunan ran desperately, no matter what was ahead, he felt that as long as he followed this glimmer of light. Suddenly, this glimmer of light became smaller and smaller in front of Chu Yunan, and the luminosity became darker and darker, as if it was swallowed by darkness, it gradually moved away from Chu Yunan, and finally disappeared in front of it.

Achu stopped, without the guidance of the glimmer, he was like a child lost in the forest. It seems that everything is back to square one, and he still can't find a way.

At this time, when Chu Yunan was about to take a step forward, he was pulled down by the darkness underground. That inexplicable thing bound his legs and dragged him directly into the dark abyss. Even in the endless darkness, the human body will become very agile with any senses, and the brain must remain awake.

He! A man stood in place, waiting for the glimmer to arrive. He stared blankly at himself in the mirror, surrounded by four mirrors facing him. The sun above him was shining on him, but it wasn't a glimmer of light. He stood numbly in place, facing the mirror in front of him. Each one is exactly the same, like a doppelganger carved out of a mold. And in the mirror, he was also looking at Chu Yunan outside the mirror. Each mirror is himself, a different style of himself.

In the mirror in front of him, he gently touched the mirror, as if waiting for some kind of response from Chu Yunan.

"Hello, Chu Yunan."

Suddenly, Chu Yunan came back to his senses, and he was surprised to find that there were mirrors facing him all around. He looked at the mirror in front of him, and if he guessed correctly, the sound that woke him up just now was the sound coming from the mirror in front of him. At this time, Chu Yunan understood that it was him in this mirror from beginning to end, calling for himself.

"Who are you?" Chu Yunan looked at himself in front of him.

He smiled, "I'm you, we both look exactly the same." ”

Chu Yunan immediately retorted, "No, you are not me, I am myself." ”

"Hahaha, you're such a fool, it's me or yourself, you should know better than me." He looked at Chu Yunan, "I can replace you as a coward, I'm just another self who follows your inner thoughts." ”

"Impossible! I am Chu Yunan. Chu Yunan shouted loudly.

"Don't you understand? Idiot. He said to Chu Yunan.

Chu Yunan smirked, "This must be a dream, I was obviously sleeping just now, this must be a dream!" ”

"Huh!" He looked at Chu Yunan, "Can you tell the difference between dream and reality?" In reality, you're just a coward. In dreams, you are still a coward. Look around you, which one is not you? Therefore, I am Chu Yunan, the Chu Yunan who doesn't have to be bullied. You...... Sleep you go! So...... You are a substitute. ”

At this time, Chu Yunan lowered his head and clenched his fist hard, but let go again.

"Come, touch the mirror, and you can sleep forever, and you won't have to worry about anything else." He looked at Chu Yunan, and the corners of his mouth on his face curled slightly.

Chu Yunan raised his hand slightly, but he was facing it.

"Fool! Touching the mirror. He shouted.

Chu Yunan smiled, "It's coming." ”

Not far above Chu Yunan's head, a glimmer of light flew towards Chu Yunan, and the speed of the glimmer at this time was very fast. Chu Yunan squatted down suddenly, and the glimmer of light swept over his head, instantly breaking all the mirrors. The sunlight overhead was instantly shattered and disappeared. At this time, Chu Yunan was once again pulled down from the darkness.

At this time, he was surrounded by dark smoke, and he struggled in the air, and suddenly touched a mirror in the air, just above him. He saw himself just now, and at this time the two leaned together, stroking the mirror.

Suddenly, the mirror slowly cracked, and then shattered in an instant, Chu Yunan fell, and the two separated instantly. One keeps falling down, and the other floats out. Chu Yunan was as silent as in the water, he couldn't resist anymore. As he prepared to fall unconscious, a glimmer of light flew from above him again.

Chu Yunan opened his eyes and tried to touch the glimmer with his hand, even though the two sides were far apart, he had to try to touch it. However, at this time, Chu Yunan no longer had the strength to raise his arm again, and he slowly put his hand down. At this moment, the shimmer flew quickly, and the luminosity became stronger and stronger.

Chu Yunan was illuminated by the luminosity, and he slowly opened his eyes, the dazzling intensity. Chu Yunan seemed to see a figure and flew towards him. The glimmer of light just now suddenly turned into a person, and Chu Yunan couldn't see the figure clearly, only saw that she had a bunch of long hair, messy in the air.

She grabbed Chu Yunan's hand and flew to the source of light with Chu Yunan. Suddenly, from under the endless darkness, there were constantly black hands, restraining Chu Yunan from leaving here, every black hand grabbed Chu Yunan, he closed his eyes tightly, and he couldn't open them at this time.

The intensity of the light was so great that it wiped out all the black hands in an instant. Chu Yunan grabbed her hand, her hand was very tender, it was completely a woman's hand.

He woke up with a sudden jolt and found himself lying in bed. Look at your surroundings, every object. The familiar limited edition Iron Man, as well as the Royal Model Road, the Red Heresy. Chu Yunan felt that what he had just done was a dream, a dream with no danger. As if he had thought of something, he immediately got out of bed, put on his shoes, and ran to his grandfather's room.

He opened the door and saw that there was still no one inside. Clean floors, tidy everywhere. Chu Yunan sat on the floor in disbelief, leaning against the wall alone. He realized that after waking up, his grandfather's departure was not a dream, and he was still lonely. He sat on the floor in disappointment, his body curled up, his head resting on his legs.

A long time passed like this, and time passed minute by minute.

The decrepit boy pondered for a while alone, and then returned to his room. The whole house was dark, and he didn't turn on the lights, so he saved electricity. This guy has suffered too many grievances, he has never cried well, and he has always held back his tears.

Chu Yunan lay on the bed, thinking about how to live in the future. His grandfather had just left in the morning, and he immediately couldn't stand the loneliness, although men should be self-reliant, but how can a person be self-reliant. He had been coerced for so many years, and he never thought that one day he would be able to truly become powerful. He just hopes to live an ordinary life, marry a wife, have a child, and live a life of firewood, rice, oil, salt and vinegar in the future.

Chu Yunan looked at the small alarm clock on the table, only to find that it was past nine o'clock, and he had just slept for more than two hours. Suddenly awakened by a dream, he can't sleep now. However, the current Chu Yunan is very puzzled, what was the dream just now? Who is that woman? Why did you pull Chu Yunan out.

"Ahh Chu Yunan looked at the ceiling alone, and it became quiet outside the window for a long time at this time.

Suddenly, at this time, Chu Yunan's mobile phone message was reminded. Achu picked up his phone and turned on the screen. I saw the WeChat message on the lock screen page: "Achu, do you remember me?" I am back. ”

A friend sent a message to Chu Yunan, and the person's note was: "Qu Mengcheng", and the name should be a very rich girl.

"Why did she message me all of a sudden?" Chu Yunan looked at the information with a look of surprise. This girl is the school girl mentioned earlier, a rich girl who has some good feelings for Chu Yunan. After studying abroad for a year because of some things. Chu Yunan's secondary school is a little different, it is to study for three years, and then go out for an internship for a year.

Chu Yunan turned on the lock screen and entered the WeChat page, ready to reply to her message. Then I thought about it, maybe because I hadn't chatted for too long and didn't know how to reply to her messages. Then just casually perfunctory a few words of her message.

"Hey, hello. You've come back from studying abroad, how are you staying there? ”

Then the other party sent two snickering expressions, "You're still that dumbfounded, when are you free?" Let's come out and meet. ”

"Don't you have to go to school tomorrow?" Chu Yunan replied to her.

"Come on! I'm going back to my old secondary school. How's it going, have you missed me this year? The girl replied to Chu Yunan.

At this time, as a straight man of steel for many years, he spent about a minute in his mind to quickly run his thoughts, and he felt that there was something to say, and he didn't dare to reply at will. Chu Yunan first felt that she said that she would go back to her former secondary school, which showed that she wanted to stay with Chu Yunan. From the beginning of the ah, plus the exclamation mark at the end, it shows that the girl can't wait to go back. and the latter sentence: "How is it, have you missed me this year?" "It's clearly a routine. If there is, it means that the relationship between the two is indicated. If you don't, it may ruin the relationship between the two parties and not give her face.

"It's good to be able to play together in the future, it's nice to see you again." Chu Yunan can be said to have collected them one by one from his previous experience. can not only lose the face of the two, but also maintain the relationship.

"Hahaha, you're smarter now." The girl replied to Chu Yunan.

"No, no, it's still the same as before, but I've read more literary books." Chu Yunan replied to the other party in a daze, in fact, where did he read some books.

"Wow, you're going to read some literature, isn't that true? You didn't lie to me, did you? As soon as the other party replied like this, Chu Yunan felt a little embarrassed, he really didn't read some literary books. I didn't look at it twice, and I fell asleep directly. But I did read some books lately, but they are nothing more than children's encyclopedias.

"Of course, that's fine. I watched some ...... "The Story of Ba Jin and Li Yaotang", as well as "The Life of Lu Xun and Zhou Shuren", and there are many, many more. Chu Yunan replied blindly. None of the literary works he spoke of were true. Li Yaotang and Mr. Ba Jin are the same person, and Li Yaotang is Mr. Ba Jin's original name. As for Lu Xun and Zhou Shuren...... Such a well-known figure, the other party can't even find out.

"Oh!! I've never heard of it, so it's supposed to be very literary. The other party's sand sculpture replied, which made Chu Yunan breathe a sigh of relief. Chu Yunan thought for a moment at this time, "Fortunately, her brain is not good." ”

"Alright, it's getting late, it's time for me to go to bed. You should go to bed early, too. The other party sent a goodnight emoji, and then went offline. At this time, Chu Yunan turned off the screen, and then lay on the bed.

What awaits him is the arrival of tomorrow. The girl who just came back from studying abroad is good or bad, Chu Yunan doesn't know. In the past, although the two met every day in school, they never said a word. At that time, Chu Yunan already knew the name of this influential person, and the girl didn't know what Chu Yunan's name was. I suddenly knew his name from the night of the New Year's Day party.

Everything is really, I can't talk about any friends, how can I like it. Chu Yunan is not popular in school, and he is in a daze all day long. As for why the girl asked someone to ask for Chu Yunan's WeChat, he still doesn't know.