153. Voices in the mist
“.”
Fisher opened his mouth, and the whispered voice of Aragina in his arms echoed in his head, as if at this moment she was not at all a Sardinian woman, but a really fragile soul.
In other words, even the women of the Sardinia women's country actually have tangled and fragile places in their hearts.
"I always thought that Fisher and I were supposed to be something called love, some kind of carnal desire for the opposite sex, but now it seems that this is not entirely the case. Otherwise, I should have been absolutely possessive of your body, and I should have always thought about pinning you to the bed, but after a long time, I realized that this was not the case.
"I tried to find the answer and found it quickly. It stands to reason that Mr. Jack is old, and neither in terms of his appearance nor his character, he is definitely not the type of woman who is popular with the women of the Satinia country, but the crew of the ship is very envious of Pachtz; And Fisher, your appearance is so good, and your posture is so attractive, they don't look at me with that kind of envy. Perhaps this is because what we seek from the beginning to the end is not a perfect lover or an outpouring of desires, but a home."
Fisher recalls with precision what she said to herself before she was separated from her on Pattischen Island, she said, "One day in the future, I want to form a family with my beloved", it turned out that it was from here,
"So, that's what you said when you separated from me, right?"
"Hmm"
Aragina sulked and kept her head buried in Fisher's arms, like a student seeking answers,
"It dawned on me why I had such a touch in my heart when I first saw you, Fisher. Because in my subconscious, I fantasized a thousand times that the figure who could give me a home came into reality, so I tried every possible way to get close to you. But I've also come to realize that a home doesn't come to you by yourself, but needs to be built by yourself and eventually lived in it.
"But I have never had great ambitions, I don't know what kind of family I want to build, in fact, even my perennial wandering on the sea is based on the worldly view of 'glory and wealth', and I want to give my sisters in return. How could I have known how to build a family, the home I grew up in was a twisted, oppressive place, and I tried in every possible way to escape from it, even at the cost of revenge on that woman"
Fisher thought about it for a moment, and it seemed that this topic was also difficult to discuss, mainly because the family concepts of Nari and Sardinia were actually different.
The difference in the division of labour between men and women in society inevitably leads to differences, which cannot be judged simply by the method of male and female intermingling, because even women in the Sardinia country have the ability to procreate, which makes the concept of society and the family particularly complex.
"Did you ask Pahertz for advice?"
After thinking about it, the transnational sunset couple of Pahertz and Old Jack has become a very relevant sample.
But Alagina, who heard this, just smiled slightly, nodded and said,
Pahertz wants me to stay away from you, and she feels that I can't construct the family I imagined around you. You see, Fisher, you have so many people in your heart besides me, and David has suggested that I snatch you and possess you from other women, but unfortunately I am too cowardly to even raise the idea. Because I don't think you're an object, and the other women you have a relationship with aren't demons.
"During my time at the Sycamore Tree, even though I saw Valentina as the 'husband snatcher' and looked at her every move with colored glasses, I still felt that she had done a good job. She treats my sisters equally and kindly to everyone of all races who live here, otherwise my sisters would not have the idea of settling down here. Did she do anything wrong other than that she was in a relationship with you? Can I rob her of her relationship with you like this? Can I erase the time you've been experiencing?
"But if I don't care about it, how am I going to deal with myself? From the point of view of my Sardinia woman's mind, every hair and every inch of my skin resists accepting her. Emotionally, I hate her existence, but intellectually I can't be hostile to her, and I can't use any vile means to fight her."
While Fisher was stunned, she jumped out of his arms and landed on the half-finished deck.
She opened her arms slightly, looked at the ship in front of her, looked at Fisher with a smile, and said softly,
"Valentina probably didn't do anything wrong, and so did you, Fisher. If you don't go to the north and marry Princess Moon according to her will, then I'm afraid she won't live to be twenty years old, and the plane tree will cease to exist, and now we who have been betrayed and cornered by the Black Chief will not even have a place to stay, and I'm afraid I will die on the ocean. ”
"Arajina, Isabel wouldn't even come to your ship if it weren't for me."
Sensing that there was some apology in Fisher's tone, Aragina pursed her lips, holding back for a long time but still couldn't help but speak,
"But, Fisher, are there so many ifs in this world? If it weren't for the love at first sight on your ship back to Nari, if it weren't for the fact that I chased you after you in Nari, then you wouldn't have gotten on my ship, and how long would you have to wander in the Southern Ocean with Isabel and Old Jack? Will something happen to you? If that's the case, does it have to be a good outcome?
"Mother God bless, it is of course a good thing to feel guilty for certain decisions in the past, because it means that you can recognize the past, but please don't overdo it, it's Fisher I like, even if there is any fault I will bear it with you, the important thing is the present, the important thing is the future. I just don't want to be by Valentina's side anymore, it doesn't mean I'm leaving my sister, it's a mistake to go on a journey alone.
"I still have things to do for others, David's, for my sister's, and after that, I may try to find out what the real home is. Fisher, you may have someone else in your heart, but I don't want to give up, this may only mean that our future home is very special and special, and we need to spend a lot of time to describe it, but it does not mean that it does not exist and is not beautiful for me. I just don't want to be separated from you, I just want to be with you. ”
Hearing Arajina's words, Fisher's heart suddenly had something blocked and unblocked.
For a long time, Fisher was actually caught in a cycle of self-incrimination.
His conscience prevented him from abandoning his sins, and he did succumb to greedy desires and possess their affections, and thus indebted himself to them. This debt makes him subconsciously want to pay it back, so he will sacrifice himself to satisfy and preserve the other party when he does many things.
This idea cannot be said to be wrong, but it was only wrong when he met Elizabeth.
Fisher's greedy desire to have every woman he met, but at the same time he loved them deeply, and love made Fisher feel indebted to their goodness and his own inadequacy, which also worked for Elizabeth.
But what Elizabeth wants is not something he can satisfy by his concessions, because there are many things in this world that you can only ask for if you want.
Fisher always felt that if he had done better back then, would Elizabeth not be what she is now, if he hadn't left her back then and listened to her explain everything, then she wouldn't have been blind.
But, as Aragina said, many things are not perfect.
If Fisher hadn't left Elizabeth, Rafael, Jasmine, and Valentina would all have died, he wouldn't have known Renee, he wouldn't have embarked on a journey to solve the prophecy of the end of the world, and it might not be long before his wedding night with Elizabeth that the world would have been destroyed in the confusion of most living beings
If if
If that's the case, if that's the case, then the result will be good?
Fisher always loved Elizabeth, because when Teresa died, he had no financial resources, so he went to work as a tutor and did odd jobs, and he could only barely pay the rent and food. At a time when she was at a loss for the high tuition fees of institutions of higher learning such as the Royal Academy, it was she who sponsored the scholarship of the Royal Academy and designated the exemption of Fisher Benavides' tuition fees.
Fisher always loved Elizabeth because when he was an orphan, had no resources, no access, and even the magic books he used to learn magic could not be borrowed from the library because he had no money, it was Elizabeth who took him to meet Haytham and let the great magician see the young man's academic potential.
Fisher always loved Elizabeth because he knew that Fisher could not take any valuable gifts to attend the eldest princess's birthday party, so she secretly bought very valuable things and put them in the pool of gifts, signed by Fisher Benavides, so when he was young and only took a few hundred gifts from Nario to such a high-class banquet, no nobleman, no Godlin people ridiculed him because of this.
Yes, gold always shines, and Fisher, who won the Griffon Race, is certainly a brilliant talent, but in Nari's society, even a rag of gold will be dull for a lifetime.
Elizabeth swept the dust off the piece of gold and held it in her arms, so that the gold always felt that she had done something wrong and made the person who she was now.
But now, perhaps, the piece of gold can realize that loving her does not mean pampering her.
"Arajina, whatever you want to do in the future, I want to do it with you."
Fisher's eyes lifted slightly, he was grateful that Aragina could say this to him, at least these words did not make him so confident and complacent that he took what Aragina did for granted.
"As for the concept of the family, unfortunately I didn't study the sociology of the northern Sardinian women's country, but I don't think I can tell what it is. Or maybe the family is what you say, but we are content and willing to be together? ”
Alagina's heart quickened little by little, but she still wanted to confirm it again because she was cautious and cowardly.
"Fisher, would you like to continue your journey with me in the future? Would Valentina, or anyone else, disagree? ”
"Ah, I do"
Aragina couldn't help but take a step forward and hugged Fisher tightly and clasped it in her arms.
She buried her head in Fisher's neck and whispered,
"Great, Mother God bless, Fisher, Mother God bless"
Fisher couldn't hold back his curiosity after hearing this, and patted her on the back and said,
It seems that you really hate Valentina, and even the frost phoenix of your old faith has been converted. When did you begin to believe in the Mother God, even David was led by you to say so"
Aragina stepped back a little, but looked at him with a puzzled expression, not understanding why he said this,
"When. Fisher, I'm not. Have you always believed in the Mother Goddess? ”
“.”
Fisher stared blankly at her, scrutinizing the extremely serious expression on her face.
It wasn't until a few seconds later, when he was completely sure that the Arajina in front of him was not joking about the Shura Field but really thinking so, his expression instantly became serious,
"No, something is wrong here, Arajina."
"What's wrong, here"
Fisher hurriedly let go of Arajina's body and looked at the extremely empty space outside the ship, which was brightly lit in all directions, and he couldn't see what was going on outside the spirit world at all, as if it were just a sealed research facility.
But Fisher felt particularly abrupt when Aragina said this, as if there was something wrong with space, time, and even everything here.
He was slightly stunned, gently let go of Alajina, and then pulled her to his side and said,
"Arajina, you didn't believe in the Mother Goddess before."
"Me, me?"
Arajina's expression was as confused as if she was not herself.
Fisher felt stupid at this time, he had the blessing of Azanros, and he had opened the rank that would affect him before, so that now the rank can be released, he just forgot to open it again, but now he may have entered the danger of being discovered by something in the spirit world.
He was about to open his mouth and recite the incantation to open the blessing, when suddenly he felt that his chest was hot.
He was slightly stunned, and when he opened his coat, he saw that Yaren Niang had burned the pocket of his clothes after finishing the manual, and clinged to his skin, just like he saw when he turned back into a real body similar to the Chaos Species.
The golden light on the manual of Yaren Niang is shining brightly and darkly, but this golden light is dimmer than ever, like a candle in the wind that may be extinguished at any time, and it seems that it is struggling with something.
He touched the sub-human mother in confusion after finishing the manual, and the balance of power of the golden light suddenly faded, and the next moment, the scene in front of him changed suddenly, but he saw that it was still this empty dock, still on top of Arajina's unfinished ship, but unlike the emptiness he saw just now, it seemed to be filled with scarlet mist everywhere, and even instantly shrouded Arajina in front of him, and he couldn't see clearly.
With such a thick scarlet mist, he didn't even realize anything just now?!
"Mother God bless, Arajina, you are here"
As soon as he opened his mouth unconsciously, the golden brilliance on the sub-human mother in his arms bloomed again after completing the manual, and the golden light formed a visible shield to cover him, his mind froze, and he instantly realized that he had subconsciously shouted the blessing of the mother god just now.
"Azanrose!"
He hurriedly called out the name of the avatar on his body, and the next moment, the tentacles on his body showed shape, but they drooped very sluggishly, and the suction cups like golden swirls on his body also twitched and spit out bubbles, as if he had food poisoning.
Isn't it, the avatars of Azanrose have fallen?!
What the hell is this scarlet mist?
"Fisher, what's wrong with you, are you not feeling well?"
"Didn't you see anything?"
"Do I have anything here? I just looked at Fisher, and all of a sudden you started saying something into the air in front of you that I didn't understand."
Aragina couldn't see it, just like he had just seen, she didn't see anything.
"It's nothing, Arajina, you stand by and wait a while I think about something."
Fisher's thoughts quickly calmed down, and he first spoke to reassure Aragina beside him, but did not tell her about the situation around him first.
Mainly, Fisher didn't know what the impact of this scarlet mist on Aragina was other than making her believe in the mother goddess, in case there were any other operations that could affect her consciousness He accidentally touched it, and it would be light for Aragina to become a trouble in an instant, mainly because he was afraid that she would be in any danger.
The question is, why is the most obvious change in this scarlet mist actually to make people believe in the mother goddess? Is there any connection between this spiritual pollution and the Mother Goddess?
"Good"
Aragina swallowed a mouthful of saliva, still noticing Fisher's unnaturalness, but did as Fisher said and did not move again.
Fisher frowned, stretched out his hand and dangled in front of him, watching his power stir the mist and move like a whirlpool.
He looked around, as if he saw that the fog had a source, or at least it was certain that it was coming from a certain direction.
This direction is.
Fisher looked up in the direction of the ceiling, and suddenly saw an equally large hole above the huge space of the dockyard.
Countless scarlet mist poured into it visibly from above, as if it had become more restless by Fisher's presence.
The scarlet mist surged like a tide, but it was as unpredictable as illusory air, until a faint and extremely hideous and terrifying sound slowly came from it, like some kind of monster,
“SensêSensêItai”
“Tasukete”
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