Chapter 38: Portraits (5)
He Tianran's heart was speechless for a long time.
Under the moonlit and starry beach, he walked slowly towards the barracks.
"If you had to use an idiom to describe your relationship with Wen Liang, which one would you use?" He asked himself.
"She...... With her I always feel enveloped in a hot emotion, if I had to describe my feelings, it would probably be...... I can't help it." The boy in his heart answered honestly.
"Hey, then, what do you do to Ai Qing?"
"Tacitly."
"How to explain it? As far as I know, she doesn't always believe you, she should ask, you should say, never less than once. ”
"I feel that because her mind is delicate and sensitive, she seems to be able to perceive the details of any of my actions, so I must say many things, and some things do not need to be repeated. Her love is like the spring rain we shower, moist and warm, and it feels very relaxed."
"Really? It's really strange to describe, but if you compare the two answers, you will find that one is very direct and the other is very subtle. I couldn't help but bump into the tacit understanding, if these two words were to describe a person, then how lucky I must be, but alas, they appeared in two women. ”
"What about you? What do you think of them?"
"Wen Liang, I already said it just now. As for Ai Qing...... I've always liked Cao Aiqing, but she's more like a perfect conjecture for me, and sometimes I can't tell whether I like Aiqing because I hate Wen Liang, or I'm purely a nymphomaniac, after all, there is nothing to do with each other over the years. ”
「…… She'd be sad to hear that."
"The truth is hard to hear."
"But things are different now! We love each other, and I love her!"
"It's a good thing, but maybe Cao Aiqing's current situation is the same as ours? Maybe where you can't see, she'll be whispering like a neurotic like we do, and you still like her then? ”
"I warn you, be respectful of her!"
"Hey, you're crazy and beat yourself?"
The young man in her heart was silent, and the old He Tianran said again: "You said, when Wen Liang crossed back at that time, the other self in her heart saw that her body was going to fall in love with an abandoned house, would the reaction be as big as yours?" It's no wonder it took her a year to accept herself. ”
"What do you want to do?"
He Tianran's face was gloomy, and he said in a deep voice: "Let you experience it, the mood at that time." ”
The inner boy seemed to realize what he meant, and said hurriedly, "Don't mess around! If you really think of this life as a game, then you will not only ruin yourself again, but also break the two people who love you!"
The gloom on He Tianran's face disappeared suddenly, and he replaced it with a helpless smile, complaining about his other self:
"Just kidding, you're really boring, don't you want to see another side of Ai Qing with your own eyes? In my world, you should have seen her as she really is, and isn't this the knot in your heart now? ”
「…… The cool words just now helped me very well."
"Huh~"
He Tianran let out a nasal voice coldly and said: "I can honestly tell you one thing, the eighteen-year-old Wen Liang and the thirty-year-old Wen Liang, there is not much difference in their personalities, the reason why she can accept herself so quickly is that you are becoming more and more like what she expects; The second is that you have been to the future, which makes her see a brighter hope.
However, Ai Qing is different, Cao Aiqing who is under the protection of He Tiantian and Cao Aiqing who is bullied are completely two extremes, the difference is bigger than you and me, if another Ai Qing really exists, then there are two things, we have to face ......"
"What?"
We can all see that she doesn't like Guo Huai, if she really crosses over, it means that she escaped from that love and chose to start over. However, she was with Guo Huai, and I was the initiator of the dark time in college, you say, will she hate me?
Secondly, the Buddha beads were given to her by you, and you gave her the opportunity to have this new life, so will she love you again? ”
"But...... You've probably seen it many times, and we've been in a stable relationship this September......
"Oh, I have speculated that what you have done for her this month, your attitude towards Wen Liang, and the concept of love you have expressed are all in line with everything you have explained to her in another world, and you have really achieved what you said to her on the boat, 'I love the people around me more'.
But ah, these are all based on a premise, the Ai Qing you love is the Ai Qing next to you, and the warmth you love is the warmth of September, they don't belong to the same time and space, so you don't have a burden, but now? After listening to the cool words tonight, I think you need to think more than I do. ”
"You can...... Dress up like me in front of her......
Hearing the inner voice, He Tianran mocked: "What? Now I'm alone? ”
"What else could it be?! Do you have to expose other people's wounds?! Do you have to get things out of control?!"
"Silly aibo, indecision and concealment and procrastination can't solve any problems, let me tell you what 'He Tianran' will do, I will have a showdown with Ai Qing directly like today, and tell her that I am the He Tianran who hurt you, guess how she will react?"
「……」
He Tianran waited for a while, but he didn't see a response from his other self in his heart, he simply smiled:
"Scared? If you don't speak, then I'll keep talking! If she still loves you as much as before, then the ending will be happy, and you can continue to uphold your old concept and make a clean distinction between right and wrong.
With your character, even if you have feelings for Wen Liang, even if she is the one in September, even if you are reluctant, you will not do anything to hurt Ai Qing, if you miss it, you will miss it, I know that you have done this kind of thing.
However, if Ai Qing shows even the slightest strangeness to my showdown, then this matter will be fun, your attitude towards Wen Liang caused her to dare not show the slightest hint in front of you, and she is the same as you, dividing 'me' and 'you' into two people, because only in this way can she stay by your side with peace of mind and forget about the pickled things I helped Guo Huai do, and I can't think of any other reason.
And this matter, the wonderful thing is that assuming that she is Ai Qing in my world, then her behavior towards you in this month is undoubtedly deceptive, which should be your death hole, right?
At that point, you'll have two options –
First, like Wen Liang, accept the fact that they are all the same person.
Second, continue to be yourself, a black cat is a black cat, a white cat is a white cat, tsk, the philosophical speculation of white horses and non-horses is really a classic chant.
In the end, you can rest assured that although there are two choices, there will only be one result, and that is that 'He Tianran' has the opportunity to reshuffle the cards, and then you can choose either of the two of them, or neither, which will not bring any criticism.
How about it, or He Tianran feels sorry for He Tianran, right? ”
The young man He Tianran's almost indifferent banter made the young man shudder in his heart, and he finally discovered that sometimes the result of "honesty" is not something that anyone can bear.
The future self still likes to "go with the flow" so much.
He can even tell himself all his thoughts and plans in advance, and none of this is a strategy or conspiracy, because the only thing he does is to be "honest" to everyone.
"What does your presence mean?"
"Help, if a puzzle doesn't get it back, try to put it together in a pattern that doesn't work, that's the fun, isn't it?"
(End of chapter)