Chapter 50: The Unturnable Youth (7)
Wen Liang stood in the moonlight, his smile swaying in the evening breeze, He Tianran's heart exploded, he silently turned his head and stopped looking, I don't know if he was really disappointed, or he was afraid that his heart would ignite a prairie again.
Even if Wen Liang wanted to cry, she wouldn't cry, she wouldn't kidnap He Tianran's sympathy.
If, now they use the soft side of human nature to exchange feelings again, then what is the difference between this and them before reincarnation?
Deception and charity, as much as they are stained in love, will become stains.
Some people don't think so, and even make a living from it, they take the words "rare and confused" as a guideline, and feel that it is very comfortable to live this life without doing anything.
And Wen Liang is a person from the past, she once fell in the red dust, rolled over, she was covered in mud and was pulled by someone, so in this life, she wants to be decent, this is the greatest respect for He Tianran.
"Naturally, since our lives can be repeated, then don't repeat them, you know, I don't like to see you ...... like this"
Wen Liang finally found herself as she said.
She is reluctant to harm He Tiantian against her heart, and for love, she doesn't need the other party's kindness.
He Tianran said that he would not retreat this time, but was that enough?
If you didn't want to take this step in the first place, then what's the point of me stepping forward?
"I'm so brave, it shouldn't be me who should be sorry......"
There was still a gentle smile on her face, and she stubbornly retained the last bit of decency in her heart, and said slowly.
If you make me cry, I won't cry.
If you tell me to come forward, I won't come forward.
Now it's your turn, He Tianran.
Wen Liang raised his face proudly, his eyes were full of mist and smile at the same time.
If you take a step towards me, then I will put aside all my worries and run for you.
If you want to stay where you are, then I'm really open-minded once, and I don't owe each other.
The two looked at each other from a distance of ten meters, and no one could say whether they were waiting for each other to step forward or waiting for each other to give up.
They seem to have lost the courage at this time, and they are the bravest ones.
In the night, the cool eyes were as bright as the stars, which was the anxiety of secretly doing bad things and the expectation of breaking the barrier between the two were repeatedly intertwined, and it was the stubborn determination to turn around.
It is true that in the eyes of the world, she is not worthy of pity.
But, she's cute.
She is a person who was once willing to bury her youth together for love.
For He Tianran, her eyes are like wildfire in a meadow, and when she looks at it, her heart burns like a year.
He Tianran's eyes drooped, his fists clenched, and his lips moved silently, as if he was shouting silently to the young man in his heart:
"What are you hesitating about? Even if you don't want to, can't you take a step forward now?! β
"If you don't move, she's really going to leave this time! The person you've been looking for, the person you've loved, she's really leaving! β
"You coward! Coward! No matter how many times you do it all over again, you haven't changed at all!! β
He Tianran cursed frantically in his heart, his body trembled little by little, and his legs seemed to be filled with mercury, and he didn't dare to move half a minute.
"At the end of the story, did you kill that six-eared macaque?"
Finally, a long response from the depths of his heart instantly made He Tianran's soul disperse......
This is the echo after he sighed in the long pavilion at that time, facing the warmth and coolness, facing the disappearance of the young man's self, and facing the reincarnation he was about to fall into.
"You...... Do you remember it all? You come out, I'll give you my body, she's right in front of you, you go over! β
"Why does 'me' have to face her?"
Suddenly, the original young man's heart seemed to have changed, He Tianran gradually bent down, his hands supporting his trembling knees, and cold sweat on his forehead.
"You're getting in my way...... I...... I can't move......"
"I didn't hinder you, you're just afraid."
"You lied ......"
"You're lying to yourself."
"What am I afraid of?!!!!!!!"
He Tianran asked himself, his eyes widened, and he roared angrily, but in fact, the answer was ...... It had been precipitated in his heart for a long time.
For the young He Tianran, his current life is undoubtedly "sad and joyful", Wen Liang accepted him, although the two could not be together in the end, but it was such a regretful baptism that made him break out of the cocoon into a butterfly and usher in a new life.
So, what about after this new birth?
It was "joy and sorrow", he traveled through time and space, made up for that regret, and let Wen Liang have a complete cause and effect, but what about him? The butterfly became an ugly moth to the fire this time, he chose to start over and forgot everything, Wen Liang's refusal made him full of wounds, and when he remembered everything, his love with Wen Liang also became an evil flower that grew in the mud and dirt.
Moths chase the light, but they are born of darkness.
Warmth and coolness are the fire of this He Nature.
The repeated reversal of sorrow and joy ran through He Tianran's entire life, he was naturally close to Wen Liang, but he no longer dared to embrace Wen Liang with this kind of moth attitude, even if he had become a flame now.
The memory of the moth fighting the fire was like a spell that made him feel miserable, even if the hoop was no longer tight.
However, this He Tianran has long lost the courage that he had when he was a teenager, knowing that the ending would be like this, but still trying to break through the south wall, so he saw the seventy-two times Wen Liang find relief from gloom, saw the fire in her eyes extinguished, and saw her turn away and walk away.
Wen Liang got rid of reincarnation, so what about his?
Even now, all he can think of and do is nothing more than to entrust his lover's qualifications to his youth.
That's his, phase.
Warm and cool is He's natural tightness.
So, he's afraid.
The pathos revealed by He Tianran in front of her made Wen Liang, who seemed familiar with this scene, a little unbearable, and she couldn't help but speak out after all, and said a sentence that she asked knowingly:
"Natural...... Are you following ...... Who speaks? β
Who am I talking to?
He Tianran was dizzy for a while, and he couldn't help but think that although the memories were different, in this body of his own, were there really two different souls called "youth" and "youth"?
Human beings are complex animals, and the temptations of human nature are not carried out by a single belief.
In fact, when Cao Aiqing took out the string of Buddhist beads, in He Tianran's heart, he had already hooked up something called "desire", those tempting conjectures and instigations, and the lingering compassion were all real things he wanted to do, but he couldn't do.
He likes to be cool, so a heart in his heart says to him, you should do this, this is unbegging.
He is loyal to Ai Qing, so a heart in his heart says to him, you can't cross the line, this is long-term love.
One side of thousands of people, two hearts fighting, that string of Buddhist beads is just the key to open reincarnation, just to give him a chance to talk to himself, so even if there is no string of Buddhist beads now, in the face of the threshold that can re-choose the future, in the memory of gradually waking up, in his heart, there will naturally be two voices lingering in his ears, one and the other.
Now, take a step forward and accept yourself as you are.
Or, take a step back and become a whole new version of yourself.
Therefore, Wen Liang's knowingly asked question became a slap in the face, and He Tianran was like an initiation, and all the sounds in his heart stopped abruptly.
No matter how he chooses, he is He Tianran.
He Tianran remembered the Buddha cry in the future, "know sentient beings in impermanence, know sentient beings in sentient places", the old monk asked him, which section has he reached, and now He Tianran saw the warmth and coolness in front of him, and he felt that he should come to this paragraph.
Then, he remembered the two words that the old monk gave him in the past tense -
Move, too!
The scenes of life flew by chaotically in He Tianran's mind, the sunset outside the classroom window, the fifteenth moon, and even the sun in the water on the side of the road after the rain had cleared.
In his ears, it was as if a whistle was coming from the sea, interrupting his memories.
He looked sideways slightly, under the silver moonlight, on the gentle sea, a train was slowly moving between the sea and the sky, the whale was swimming under the starry sky, and the whistle was accompanied by the whale's song, ethereal and affectionate.
Knowing that this magnificent scene was just a spectacle in his heart, the young man didn't dare to rub his eyes, for fear of wiping away the long-lost brilliance in his heart.
He was thinking about the distance.
Do you have to go to the Snow Mountain?
Perhaps, it is not the snow-capped mountains that are persistent, but the foot of the snow-capped mountains, the wilderness wind, the miscellaneous peanut trees, and the warblers flying and the grass.
A young man can be a fish in a lake, a grass under a mountain, or a flower on a tree.
So, he withdrew his gaze and looked at the only truth in front of him, his eyes becoming clear and determined.
He took a step forward, as if he had crossed the mountains and seas in time to come to Wen Liang.
He slowly embraced the warmth that had shed tears and unconsciously into his arms.
The girl was in his arms, sobbing softly: "I'm making mistakes......"
He Tianran responded gently: "It's us who are making mistakes. β
Wen Liang raised her head, she thought that she was a child who had done something wrong, and after snatching someone else's beloved things, she looked uneasy and cowardly:
"Don't blame me......"
"I don't blame you."
He Tianran stroked her head and said softly, "I'm just weird...... Why do we meet again every time...... I'm going to fall in love with you like I'm stuck in an endless loop......"
The two hugged each other tightly again.
He Tianran knew that between him and Wen Liang, he was destined to be on this wrong road, never to return, and there was no way to turn back.
Probably, the cycle of reincarnation is not over, they are just beginning.
As the sentence goesβ
No one is wronged, and all are evil.
But so what?
The world is bustling, and few people polish the soul.
So all living beings, the girl only loves nature.
The behavior is polite and the inside is beautiful, and it doesn't hurt to be clear and inseparable. Although he insults himself and loses his color in the sea of people, she loves the dim light alone.
After I finished writing, although the number of words in this chapter is not much, only 3,000 words, but it has been revised many times, writing 500 words a day, deleting 300 words, I don't know if you like it or not, but this is really a thing I want, the last dozen or so are like this, I will restrain myself in the future, I shouldn't be so capricious.
By the way, this book has been signed, and the inverted V is on the shelves, a good thing, and I will write a chapter of my thoughts thank you!
(End of chapter)