Chapter 59: Who's Suffering Is the Lingering Sugar (4)
Since you choose to test your love, can I test my humanity?
This question was like thunder, and it shocked He Tianran to lose his soul.
It seems that his girlfriend's body is really the same as herself, and she has a memory from the future.
It's just that the difference with himself is that He Tianran's memories have been fused, he has figured out a lot these days, and he has discussed a lot with Wen Liang, after reincarnation, they all think of a common point, that is, if you want to accept a complete self, you must emotionally reach a consistent frequency with the future self.
And this frequency often occurs when people are at a loss, or when it can change the trajectory of life.
Wen Liang's frequency was last year's prank, she was instigated by Ye Jiaqi and others, and her heart swayed when she decided to tease He Tianran, and at this time, the memories from the future began to wake up, and countless repentances and love allowed her to control her body, thus avoiding the tragedy and changing the future.
And He Tianran's frequency comes from September this year, the cold abandonment made him reluctant, and the doubts about Cao Aiqing's identity have greatly shaken his long-standing concepts, so his future memories can be awakened.
Buddha beads have the ability to travel through time, as the old monk said, to prove one hundred and eight samadhi, to cut off one hundred and eight kinds of troubles, but when people go to make up for some regrets, new regrets will arise, like now.
The memory of his girlfriend should be the "cause" planted when He Tianran traveled to the future and left the string of Buddhist beads, he wanted Cao Aiqing, who was the same kind of person as himself, and Cao Aiqing, who had been persecuted by himself, to live his own life.
He Tianran regarded this as atonement, just like when Wen Liang saved himself.
It's just that Cao Aiqing is different from the two, there has always been no remorse and gap in her heart, what He Tianran did is highly consistent with what she said to another Cao Aiqing when she was on the boat, this is the life she wants, so whether the memory of the future awakens or not is not so important to her.
yes, who wants a memory full of shadows and trauma?
However, those words also seemed to have become a shackle, and once He Tianran made a disobedience, a gap naturally arose.
The so-called test of human nature is more like an emergency mechanism, a dark thunder, and the soul of the pseudonym "Bodhisattva", the blessing of the girl Ai Qing.
Maybe before He Tianran did not return to military training, this kind of "blessing" already existed, and the Buddha beads were the last test in their love, if He Tianran would not have doubts about Cao Aiqing, and his heart would not waver, then this thunder would never sound.
In the last September, the moment he saw the Buddha beads, He Tianran asked "Which Ai Qing are you?"
But at that time, his girlfriend's reaction was not as fierce as it is now, obviously the "Bodhisattva" did not tell her in the dream that there was anything wrong with this sentence, because it meant that He Tianran did not cross again, his belief was not shaken, he thought that there were two different selves now and the future, and he could distinguish them.
And now that his memory has merged, the words he asks have become more side-by-side general sentences such as "Have you ever dreamed of the future", which is not only a change in words, but also a subtle change in mentality.
Because He Tianran, who has not fully accepted himself, will never play any sloppy eyes on the cognition of "identity", he can stay away from Wen Liang and choose to be with Cao Aiqing, because of this clear, black and white tough attitude.
And once he accepted this memory, it only proved one thing, he had experienced fusion, and the paranoia about the soul gap was gone, and this happened to lead to another problem that had to be faced-
Will he like Warm Cool again?
So when He Tianran tested his love, Ai Qing's test of human nature in the future also began.
The Buddha bead is just a bait, and the "Bodhisattva" in Cao Aiqing's heart told the girl that when He Tianran asked about the future, it meant that he took the bait and he abandoned her.
Of course, if He Tianran chose to take a step back that night, then this game would also be self-defeating.
But now?
"Natural...... Have you really abandoned me? ”
The girl's question was so tactful and poignant, it made people moved and pity, but the young man in front of him, who had always been decisive, did not respond for a long time......
He Tianran, who had figured everything out, felt even more guilty about Cao Aiqing, where did he dare to answer this sentence head-on, he had to hesitate:
"Ai Qing, I have a lot of things to say to you, you should calm down for a while...... You...... It's just an inexplicable dream......"
Cao Aiqing is so keen, when He Tianran heard her say the words in her dream, the expression on the boy's face and the reaction at this time have already proved something, and now her boyfriend's answer is so ambiguous, how can the girl's heart be calm?
"Can I trust you...... Natural? ”
Cao Aiqing asked again in a trembling voice, in fact, this girl is very simple, she only needs an affirmative answer, even if it is a lie to her, she will believe it.
Because, sitting in front of her is the young man she has been thinking about in recent months, he is the one who wants to make himself feel at ease even in front of the whole school.
As he said, he is the collection of all his tenderness and throbbing in this world, the untouchable but most incomparable beauty of his youth.
He said so many things and did so many things, and all of these seemed to prove that he really loved him.
Cao Aiqing collected these daily details one by one, she felt that she was a very lucky girl, He Tianran's appearance satisfied all her longing for a beautiful love, she was very content, and even sometimes she disliked herself for being too stupid, and she didn't know how to respond to He Tianran's kindness to herself.
So the girl in her heart, imagined their future countless times, maybe the love between them does not need to be vigorous, ups and downs, in fact, ordinary ordinary is also good, maybe after graduating from college, the two will fight for their respective dreams, for life and run.
During this time, they will meet all kinds of friends, encounter all kinds of things, and they will introduce each other's names, from "this is my boyfriend" and "this is my girlfriend" to "this is my wife" and "this is my husband", and finally, to "this is my husband" and "this is my love".
Cao Aiqing knew that the relationship between He Tianran and Wen Liang ended because of change, so the best way she could think of to respond to He Tianran's love was to be by his side, not to be absent from each other's lives, time would flow over them, and from then on, every shout he made, she would smile and say yes on the side.
This should have been the most romantic thing Cao Aiqing could respond to He Tianran......
however
Because of the coolness, He Tianran is now even deprived of the reasonable identity of introducing Cao Aiqing to his friends......
Why was he silent?
Why can't you say the word "can"?
He knows what to do...... He knows that......
After a long time, the simple ponytail girl did not hear the answer she wanted, but saw her boyfriend hang his head, dumb his voice, and whispered -
"Ai Qing, I'm sorry......"
(End of chapter)