The originally harmonious atmosphere at the dinner table suddenly became nervous because of a word, and the girl who had already changed her "strong" side in the blink of an eye gritted her teeth and sneered:

"He Tianran, don't look at the matter between us with this kind of compassionate attitude anymore, it's really ridiculous, haven't you noticed that your spirit has languished to this state in the past two years? If this is what you call 'integration', then you should pray that I will always be the same, and not worry about whether I am still capable of accepting others! ”

She didn't seem to be relieved after saying this, so she spit out another sentence:

"Do you know me well? If you can't even save yourself, stop meddling! ”

He Tianran looked at the "Bodhisattva" in front of him who was aggressive to himself, and her reappearance had actually proved the answer to the question just now......

No matter which side of Cao Aiqing is, she still hates herself.

The beginning of the love between the two is too beautiful, but under the interweaving and overlapping of various times, it seems extremely distorted, so that the ending is particularly tragic.

This is something that anyone can remember for a lifetime, not the kind of grievances that everyone can laugh at after three or five years, when everyone sits down to chat and talk about it as a joke.

Even if they are now calmly facing each other, Cao Aiqing treats this matter like a dormant active volcano, usually peaceful, but as long as it is tempted, it is destined to lead to an eruption.

It's just that there was a sentence just now, and the girl may have said it wrong in a hurry.

He Tianran really knows her, no matter which one she is.

"Then Ai Qing, what should I do? I'll listen to your ......"

"You...... I don't know? Think for yourself! ”

"Ai Qing, how do you manage to eat, drink, and have fun every day? If you can, you should do me a favor...... I'm really lost right now...... I may ...... Need your help......"

He Tianran's tone was sincere, and he truthfully revealed his heart to the girl.

said that the two are very similar, Since the relationship between the two is mentioned, the girl will show a tough side, so He Tianran might as well show the most real and helpless side to deal with.

And sure enough, when he said this, Cao Aiqing suddenly became a little at a loss.

Since the breakup, the relationship between the two has been too blunt, one is full of guilt, thinking about how to atone for his sins, and the other is all about grievances, thinking about how to take revenge.

This leads to the fact that in communication, one actively gives, and the other can only passively take.

But because He Tianran was in this state, the things he gave were not what Cao Aiqing wanted, so there was a stiff situation when the two got along.

And the "Bodhisattva" in front of him obviously can't deal with He Tianran's unusually helpless appearance, maybe it's because he is used to watching He Tianran stab himself with a knife, the other party is more concerned than himself about the injuries that the girl has suffered, and the result given is also a knife to the blood, Although she is cold-eyed and looks at everything, she is not hard-hearted after all.

Her kindness has never changed, even if she has boundless hatred for He Tianran, but in the end, she still hopes to see a lover who can finally become a family.

This kind of eventual dependent, precisely because she has not been, has become a heavier thing in addition to "hate".

Forget it.

This is the thought that flashed in Cao Aiqing's mind after he promised to give He Tianran time.

As she said just now, no matter which one she is, she doesn't want to repeat the mistakes of that bad future, which is why Cao Aiqing has not experienced the "integration" that He Tianran has experienced, but she has always been safe and sound, and the root of her positive life lies.

To use a very appropriate metaphor, if the future He Tiantian is a kind of embodiment of the "inner demon" in the body of the teenager, and only by calmly facing everything after breaking the barrier can he regain all his self, then the future Cao Aiqing is the "Bodhisattva" of the innocent girl, she always appears when the girl needs protection the most, bless her.

But now, the "great enemy" of the "Bodhisattva" has been bruised all over his body in order to atone for his sins, and the heavy price he has paid is enough to repay everything, so when he reveals his most vulnerable side, she doesn't know what to do......

He Tianran...... Are you kidding? Or are you deliberately taunting me? ”

Cao Aiqing's eyes trembled, why do you want to learn to eat, drink, and have fun, he must feel that in such a world, it is sad to be content with the status quo, right?

"No, Ai Qing, I'm really asking for advice......"

"Why ......?"

He Tianran was silent for a moment, said calmly, and said movingly:

"I thought you would be happy to see my embarrassment, but it doesn't seem to be, it only seems to make you disgusted, the good life you need is also what I want you to get, but I am an existence like me, but you add to the blockage, I don't want to do this, because I still want to fill in the colors you are missing......

I've become a little sluggish in the past two years, and this is something I did on purpose, because Ah Liang is also very smart, so I don't want her to see the clues on me.

But in the face of you, Ai Qing, I don't think I should be like this, because I can understand your feelings, and I know that it is not easy for us to like someone anymore, because a broken person like us, it is too hard for the people who love us to pick up the pieces and love us one by one, and we can't see this, isn't it......? ”

It was such heartfelt words that made Cao Aiqing speechless......

This is not He Tianran's groundless speculation, it is really ridiculous to say, it is this person who Cao Aiqing once loved the most, and the person he hated the most in the future, but he is the person who understands her best......

If the soul of people cannot resonate and communicate with each other at the same frequency, it is just a superficial encounter, and it will eventually become a stranger, and fate will allow these two strange souls who are most familiar with each other to look at each other again, there will always be a reason.

"Natural...... I've had the best I've ever had, I couldn't have better......"

This long-lost "understanding" made the girl put down the hard shell, and unconsciously she revealed the most real side, at this moment, her eyes were out of focus looking at the cake that was scooped away by He Tianran, and her mouth whispered to repeat the inner thoughts when she resolutely threw away the Buddha beads.

As she said, her youth did not fail.

In the past two years, she has lived a good life, and it is not that no one loves her, but for the emotional status quo that has been stagnant, the girl explained:

"As I said, I have had the best, so that the people I met later felt a little worse, not because they were bad, but because love cannot be downgraded with me......

I have experienced very good love, it is difficult to be moved by ordinary love, whether it is Guo Huai or Shen Qiuxu, they all have your shadow on them, but they are not you, I don't know if this is a lucky or unlucky, so I can confirm a little ......"

Cao Aiqing's gaze moved up inch by inch, her expression was a kind of soft stubbornness, she stared at the man's eyes, but her own eye sockets were red at first.

"I hate you, He Tianran......"

These six words, her voice is not loud, but it is loud, like an echo.

"If you leave me, you will become better, then my hatred should stop there, but I hate you even more now, because after leaving me, you have become like this, a twilight, I want to take revenge, I feel redundant!"

He Tianran had long thought that his soul had become numb, but with the resonance generated by the girl's words, he saw the stubborn face of the rain hitting the pear blossom again, which made his whole person spin in front of him.

Now he makes Cao Aiqing feel that revenge has become superfluous......

The man's Adam's apple squirmed slightly, and the dryness of his lips made it more difficult for him to speak, but he still asked in frustration:

"Then why are you...... Don't you hate me for loving you and leaving you? ”

Cao Aiqing shook her head slowly, she wanted to hold back her tears, but the tears kept sliding down from the corners of her eyes, drawing a crystal tear stain on her cheeks......

"I don't have hatred for our love, I only blame it, blame desire is human nature, restraint is upbringing, blame your parents for not teaching you well, so when you meet someone who has domesticated you, you don't know restraint, it can only be a new love and old love, ushering in.

I blame you for not having the ambition, obviously with me, but you are still reluctant to look back; I blame me even more for not being angry, just hiding behind you, and not being able to bear the wind and rain hand in hand with you......"

Cao Aiqing hated He Nature.

But for the process of their love, she said that it was the best she had ever had.

And for the end of the story, her biggest complaint is just one sentence-

Blame you for not being ambitious, blame me for not being angry.

(End of chapter)