Chapter 165: It's too difficult
At this time, netizens who were watching this memory clip on the Internet also saw the smiles on the faces of Chen Chuxue and Chen Yuwei at the end of this video.
Chen Chuxue's face was the kind of happy smile that had been longing for this love and feeling the warm embrace of her mother.
And Chen Yuwei also felt a warm feeling because of Chen Chuxue.
She felt that her daughter was all he had, her future.
With a daughter like Chen Chuxue, Chen Yuwei is very happy.
And netizens on the Internet also expressed their thoughts on this memory fragment in the barrage area of the live broadcast room.
"If Lin Yi leaves later, how good it would be, if Lin Yi leaves later, he can see the smile on his wife and daughter's face at the moment, then I think he will definitely redeem in his heart, so that he will no longer force himself to put pressure on himself and force himself to blame himself."
"Yes, I have always felt that Lin Yi really shouldn't bear so many things, and I think his self-blame is completely unnecessary, he doesn't need to blame himself for these things, he did a good job."
"It's a pity that Lin Yi still took a step earlier at that time, but just as he thought in his heart at the time, even if he stayed there and saw this warm picture, what could he do, he still couldn't get out of the car to meet them, he still couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart."
"Yes, I think if Lin Yi goes down to meet Chen Chuxue and Chen Yuwei, the mother and daughter will definitely accept Lin Yi, in fact, through so many memory fragments, you can feel that Chen Yuwei also has this extremely unforgettable and deep love for Lin Yi."
"I believe that after Lin Yi clarifies everything with them, Chen Yuwei will definitely be able to accept Lin Yi, as for their daughter Chen Chuxue, she may have some different feelings because of Lin Yi's image at that time, and she may have some different feelings because of the disillusionment of the father's image in her heart, but it is also as the guest of the spin-off program of my family program said."
"As her experience grows, she will surely come to understand and accept her father over time."
"So I think that if Lin Yi is willing to explain everything clearly at this time and is willing to forgive himself, then he can feel a short, but certainly incomparably warm family affection in the last time."
"And if he does that, I think he will have a lot less regrets."
"Yes, then I have another conjecture now, since Lin Yi is willing to hand over his memory fragment, since the memory fragment has been played here, then it is equivalent to him telling Chen Chuxue and Chen Yuwei all the truth, so what reason does he have to avoid them at this moment?"
"I also think that Lin Yi has no reason to avoid Chen Chuxue and Chen Yuwei anymore, after all, all the misunderstandings and all the truths have been solved, unless he has left this world, I can't think of a second reason."
"So he really didn't make it...."
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And in the picture
After the mother and daughter embraced, Chen Yuwei took Chen Yuwei's schoolbag and got into the car first.
And the moment when Chen Chuxue was ready to open the car door and sit in.
She suddenly and somehow glanced up ahead.
And when she saw the black sedan that was about to disappear from her field of vision, she saw through the back window of the black sedan, the back of the white-haired old man.
She felt a familiar feeling.
But before she could wait, she continued to follow her own thoughts.
The black sedan disappeared from her view completely.
So Chen Chuxue didn't continue to dwell on this issue, she thought it might just be because of an inexplicable feeling, and then got into her mother's car.
On the way back though.
The picture in Chen Chuxue's mind never lingered.
The more she looked at that back, the more familiar she became, but her heart was also very strange, after all, she didn't have any friends of this age in real life.
So Chen Chuxue didn't think that this was someone she knew.
So Chen Chuxue still didn't find out that the old man's back and the photos she had seen when she stole through her mother's collection.
Reality is not one of those fairy tales with happy endings.
It's too difficult for a little girl to see through a back that this is her father, whom she has never met in reality.
And at the same time,
In another picture.
Lin Yi in the car also seemed to feel something.
But when he looked back, the car had already driven away from the street.
In fact, Lin Yi forgot his current physical condition.
With his eyesight, even if he didn't leave the street, he couldn't see Chen Chuxue and Chen Yuwei in the distance.
So Lin Yi sighed again.
There was no thought in his mind.
And he felt that since he had made this choice, he had to continue to do what he had to do.
Even though he is likely to leave this world in the next moment due to physical reasons, he will seize every minute and every second to do more with the time he has.
So in the car.
Lin Yi recalled the content of the letter he wrote to his daughter some time ago.
In fact, in those contents, he conceived a lot, and also gave Chen Chuxue a lot of hints between the lines.
So during this time, he learned about the creation progress of Chen Chuxue's new song through that forum account.
Lin Yi really felt that his daughter was a genius, and the light on his daughter was not cultivated by him.
She was born like this, but she let the light in her bloom in advance.
And since her daughter had the idea of composing a song, she asked for help from herself in a letter.
Every hint from Lin Yi, every time he subtly guided, Chen Chuxue understood all his points.
And did not miss a single thing that he wanted to express in the letter.
It's like he is a person who produces papers, and Chen Chuxue, an extremely excellent student, can fill in the perfect standard answers according to the questions in his papers every time.
Lin Yi also thought about these things about himself more than once, and it was possible that they would be announced after his death.
So he used to worry about it too.
If all these things are known to her daughter, and then her daughter knows that the songs she once wrote were done with her own help, not by herself, will it be a blow to her self-confidence at that time?
But Lin Yi couldn't come up with a definite answer after thinking about it for a long time, because he was not Chen Chuxue.
He couldn't guess what was going on in her heart.
He couldn't guess if her mind would reach a dead end on the subject.
However, Lin Yi still made some countermeasures.
Except that he wanted this secret to exist forever only in his memory.
If one day this matter is really known to his daughter, then he will also leave a letter to tell his daughter.
The light in her has always been there, and she has always been a genius like no other.
Even though she wrote those songs because of her help, she was also a genius, which is undeniable.
Only if she has that kind of talent that is far beyond ordinary people, as well as her sensitivity to various elements of music, can she become a candidate who can get a full score every time she answers a question.
And that's exactly what happened.
And Lin Yi also made his worries less and less because of his daughter's recent actions.
Because he felt that Chen Chuxue seemed to be less and less dependent on him.
From before, I still need to set up a theme for her, and slowly guide her step by step.
Until now, Chen Chuxue has never taken the initiative to mention anything about music creation to him.
even deliberately hinted that he didn't want to help her like before, she wanted to create her own independent creation.
Therefore, Lin Yi can feel that Chen Chuxue's creative ability is increasing step by step.
And he also thinks that it may not be long before he will be able to complete the creation on his own, and he can create amazing songs without relying on anyone.
After Lin Yi thought of this, he forced himself to rest.
Because he wants to conserve his energy, wait until he goes back to continue to help his daughter, and continue to help his daughter complete the creation of this new song.
Lin Yi felt that although Chen Chuxue had such a talent, sooner or later she would have the ability to create a song independently.
At least not now.
Now his daughter still needs him, and he is also very willing to help his daughter complete the creation of songs one by one.
And after that.
The images in the memory fragments began to jump.
At this moment, Chen Chuxue has returned home, she first finished her homework, and then began to think about her new song before going to bed.
Because it was a weekend, Chen Chuxue thought for a long time tonight.
Until about eleven o'clock in the evening, she was still thinking about her new song.
At this time, she felt that she was not far from the complete creation of this song.
She also used all the previous inspirations and fragments to piece together a very vague outline.
As long as the outline becomes clear, then she can slowly fill in the outline and then compose a song.
Chen Chuxue has always had this confidence, because she has done this before, and she feels that after obtaining that framework, she can immediately complete the creation of a song, without relying on anyone.
So when Chen Chuxue rearranged the inspiration and other things recorded during this time in his notebook.
After tidying up.
She picked up the phone she kept next to her, thinking about telling her friend on the forum the good news.
In addition to the fact that she is very grateful to her friends on that forum for their posts, which provided her with a lot of inspiration, she also feels that she can talk to the users of that forum very well and enjoys chatting with them very much.
So Chen Chuxue agreed to the request of the forum user, and promised her that if she had time, she could share with him the progress of her new song creation and so on, because he was a loyal fan of Chen Chuxue, and he wanted to know these things.
So Chen Chuxue sent her latest progress out at this moment.
Later, Chen Chuxue also discovered at this moment, it turned out that after sharing those things, she actually gained a sense of satisfaction.
And when this message was sent, Chen Chuxue put his phone aside again.
After all, it was already more than eleven o'clock, and Chen Chuxue didn't expect the forum user to be able to reply to her in seconds during this time period.
So Chen Chuxue didn't wait.
But what Chen Chuxue didn't expect was that the moment she put down her phone, her phone screen lit up again.
And that's exactly what the forum user sent.
The forum user replied.
[Chen Chuxue, you are awesome, I really didn't misunderstand you, the elements of these new songs you revealed to me are very interesting to me. 】
[Although I can't tell the direction of your new song and the final appearance through these things, I can guarantee that this song must be extremely amazing, you are really amazing! 】
And when Chen Chuxue saw this news, a smile appeared on her face.
Being affirmed and praised by others is always a pleasant thing.
Just when Chen Chuxue wanted to reply to the message sent by the forum user, she didn't expect the forum user to send her a few messages again.
Some of that stuff is the forum user's understanding of her elements and speculation about the general direction of her song.
And some of them Chen Chuxue felt that what she said was very reasonable, and she also had an idea in her heart, she felt that this forum user must also be a very talented person.
Because of his many unique understandings, she added some inspiration after reading it.
And his new song was really guessed by him in some directions, and the direction he guessed was more perfect, more mature and complete than what he currently had in mind.
However, what Chen Chuxue cared about the most was the last message sent by the forum user.
Forum users were very excited to tell Chen Chuxue that she had recently gained some insights through some books and movies.
So she wrote a few more posts.
And he feels that only Chen Chuxue, who writes his post, can appreciate what is expressed and the deeper connotation.
So he told Chen Chuxue as soon as possible, hoping that she could go and have a look.
If she thinks these posts are well written, she can like them, so that his little fan will be happy for a long time because of his actions.
And after Chen Chuxue saw these news, she was also extremely surprised in her heart.
Because she liked the post written by this forum user, she immediately replied: "Then I will read it, and I will definitely give you a thumbs up!" ”
Then I couldn't wait to click on the homepage of the forum user and click on his latest post.