Chapter 177: It's the concern he can't let go

When the professor said this, many nodded in agreement.

They have also seen those memory fragments, so they also know the hardships that Chen Chuxue has come through.

also knows how difficult it is for Chen Chuxue.

At the beginning, she learned to overcome herself, learn to build self-confidence, and learn to have courage.

In the process of having these things, although Chen Chuxue has Lin Yi's help, she is also herself. There have been many, many efforts.

And after all this, after all this, so much effort, all those lights and praises, she had to learn to face her mediocrity again.

Not disturbed by those capitals, not tempted by those fame and fortune, and always sticking to their own nature.

The professor paused, and she gestured to the memory clip that had just played on the large screen in the center of the stage.

She said: "Maybe the reason why Chen Chuxue has been able to persist and always stick to her original intention, maybe the question that Lin Yiyi asked her at that time has an inseparable relationship." ”

"Because Lin Yi at that time. I asked her what she would do if she really became a big star and became rich in the future? ”

Chen Chuxue said that she wanted to leave this environment with her mother and stay away from this place.

She also said that she would give the extra things on her body to those who were suffering.

And she will not become considered superior, she will still feel that she is equal to everyone, and she and everyone around her will still be friends.

So Chen Chuxue did not bow to them because of the oppression of those capitals.

In order to gain his fame and fortune again, he lost his true nature.

The professor's tone suddenly became heavy as she said this, and she continued, "It's a hard thing to know about this. ”

"Because of the applause and praise that Chen Chuxue received from the aura at that time, she obtained it step by step with her own efforts."

"So she's only doing this to get back what is supposed to be hers, so what's wrong with doing that?"

"I'm sure anyone who stands in her position will choose to give in to those rules."

"It's like you've met a toast boss at a dinner party, and you're a person who doesn't like to drink."

"I even hate drinking."

"But if you drink, the glass of wine handed by this boss."

"Then you'll get some preferential treatment in the course of your work later."

"Anyway, if you refuse this drink, then there is a good chance that you will be wearing small shoes."

"So why is this also the Internet at that time, there will be a lot of people who think that Chen Chuxue is too stubborn, and think that Chen Chuxue will give in to those rules, so what, and he won't lose a piece of meat."

"There's even a lot of benefit."

"They think Chen Chuxue is too stubborn."

"But that's just the idea of ordinary people, and they can only see it now, and they can see these benefits at the moment."

"Under Lin Yi's education, Chen Chuxue was likely to have seen the future at that time."

"When that glass of wine is drunk, although it temporarily gains benefits, it temporarily gets rid of trouble."

"It can be the equivalent of breaking your principles."

"A hole in your principles."

"After that, you may be eaten away step by step, step by step by those rules to make you not like yourself."

"Lin Yi has long thought of this possibility, so in order to avoid this possibility, he has always persuaded his daughter to stick to her original heart, even if she is treated unfairly, she must be true to her current mediocrity."

"Because only in this way can she shine again and reach the top again without arrogance."

When the professor said this, she suddenly choked up, and then continued: "Actually, Lin Yi knew very early at that time that even if his daughter reached the top, she would most likely not be able to see it. ”

"He also knows the end result of all this hard work, and he probably won't even be able to see it with his own eyes."

"But he's been doing something like that all along, and he's always stuck to his choice."

"She will always stand behind Chen Chuxue silently and tell her, don't be afraid that I will always be there."

......

And in the picture at this moment, there is another fragment of memory.

Lin Yi was still writing his suicide note, and he seemed to be really scared at the time.

Or maybe before he fainted, he really saw death creeping in.

So he felt like he didn't have time this time.

So he arranged his own funeral.

began to decide to use his last time to do something for the two of the two worries he would never be able to let go.

The footage of the memory continues to play.

Today is another weekend, and Chen Chuxue has no pressure to write new songs at the moment.

Because she has written a song that the whole network appreciates.

So she's going to give herself a break before moving on to the next creation.

So this time she didn't wake up impatiently, and let herself enter that creative state.

Instead, he glanced at the time with a very peaceful state of mind and found that it was still early, so he fell asleep again.

But soon she was woken up softly by Chen Yuwei: "Xuexue, at noon today, you were invited by a program to sing a performance song, which you promised last week, and you asked me to remind you today." ”

"Do you still want to go now? If you go, I think you can get up and prepare in advance. ”

When Chen Chuxue first heard her mother's words, she was still dimly asleep.

But when she heard that she had received an invitation from a program group, she immediately got up.

Yes, she agreed to a show to perform a track as a special guest.

It seems like the day is just around the day.

So Chen Chuxue immediately got up and began to wash.

And in the process of washing her face, Chen Chuxue suddenly thought of something.

She hurriedly wiped the water off her face and immediately returned to her room and took out her mobile phone.

She clicked on the forum and found that the user's post had not been updated.

She sent him a private message a long time ago, and the other party did not reply to her.

So Chen Chuxue felt empty again, and for some reason, there was a trace of worry in her heart.

Does she think something will happen to the other party, and does she think the other party has suffered any changes or accidents?

Because of the popularity of this song, Chen Chuxue is very grateful to her, and it is also because of his posts that she was inspired to write these songs.

So this time, Chen Chuxue did not give up contacting this forum user.

This time, she sent him another private message.

Today at 12 o'clock I'm going to be singing the new song inspired by your posts.

You once told me that you live in the same city as me, so if you want, I can contact the staff of the program team and ask her to give you a ticket to the scene.

And they can also reimburse you for the cost of transportation back and forth.

Because that forum user once told Chen Chuxue that he was a fan of Chen Chuxue, and he liked Chen Chuxue's songs very much.

So Chen Chuxue thought that if he had time, he would definitely come to see her at the scene.

When the time comes, she will thank the forum user in person for inspiring her with those posts.

And there is another reason, Chen Chuxue also wants to see this, what does such a knowledgeable person look like with very decent manners?

In Chen Chuxue's mind, she should be the kind of handsome uncle who has a very personality and makes herself very stylish.

So Chen Chuxue also wanted to confirm his conjecture.

But. In fact, Chen Chuxue didn't have much hope that the forum user would be able to come to the scene.

Because he didn't reply to every message he sent before.

It seems that since that time, he has never logged in to this forum since he sent him a photo of the first meal he cooked.

However, Chen Chuxue still stared at the mobile phone in front of him for a while.

Just when she felt that there was no hope this time, she was about to close her phone and put it back on the table.

The forum user actually sent her a reply.

The forum user sent her a long message this time.

He first congratulated Chen Chuxue on her success during this time.

also said that he had seen the stage of her new song on the Internet, and he felt that it was very good, and he felt that he really did not believe Chen Chuxue wrong.

Her new song will surely shine just as brightly.

However, he politely rejected Chen Chuxue's next proposal. ,

He said that he was pretending badly right now and that he had a lot of things on his hands so he didn't have time, and he was very sorry about that.

When Chen Chuxue saw this reply, she hurriedly replied: "Of course, of course, it's my own business, and I'm just a proposal." ”

"Don't feel burdened by this, if you don't have time this time, then next time."

Originally, Chen Chuxue was already pleasantly surprised by the reply of the forum user.

After learning that he affirmed herself, and after learning that he had seen her stage, she was already satisfied.

And I originally wanted to thank him for those posts in some way to inspire myself.

So how could she possibly add a burden to the other party.

So after Chen Chuxue thanked him a few more words, he turned off his mobile phone.

She couldn't help but think to herself as she walked out of the bedroom.

Such a talented person must have been educated by a lot of knowledge.

And this knowledge and culture is certainly not something that ordinary families can do.

So people like him must be busy with these big, big things.

......

In another memory fragment, Lin Yi was also busy with a big thing as Chen Chuxue said.

Busy with one thing that everyone has to go through.

At this moment, everyone in the ward went out.

Lin Yi was the only one in the room who was silently writing.

When Lin Yi wrote those things, he felt that there was no need to write everything he wanted to say in his suicide note.

Because who cares when the time comes, and he is not ready to hand him over these suicide notes to his wife and daughter.

So Lin Yi was writing a suicide note. His heart is full of entanglement.

However, although there are many emotions in his mind, the pen in his hand has never stopped.

Because he already feels his own death at this moment.

So he felt like his time was running out.

So what time does he have to waste on sentimentality.

He must hurry up and finish his suicide note and arrange his funeral.

So he wrote it until it was almost dark.

He breathed a sigh of relief when he had finished writing the two pieces of paper.

It seems that today should not be the day he leaves this world, because at this moment, in addition to a little pain in his head, he has been ringing in his ears.

He's still in very good shape.

And when he finished writing this suicide note, there was a feeling of great relief in his mind.

This feeling made him feel very comfortable.

It made him feel like he hadn't felt this kind of ease and ease for a long time.

Lin Yi suddenly felt that he was not treated unfairly by fate, and he was not the most miserable person in this world.

Because there will always be people in the world who die without even arranging what they want to express in their hearts.

He was so much luckier than these people.

So when Lin Yi thought of this, for some reason tears began to appear in his eyes.

The temperature in the room has been well controlled by various machines.

But Lin Yi still felt a trace of coldness at this moment.

Maybe it's because of the decline in his vitality, or maybe it's because of something else.

The view from his room was lovely.

Even when he sat on the hospital bed and looked out, the view from the window was still unobstructed.

Even though his current vision was extremely blurry when he looked out the window, he still saw many flowers and trees.

and some bare trees.

Lin Yi couldn't help but sigh in his heart at this moment.

I don't think I can see these trees growing leaves again.

And at this time, the scene of my family program group.

After Chen Chuxue saw this picture, she couldn't help crying again.

Because at that time, when her father was writing her suicide note and began to accept her death, it was the time when she thought that her ideal had been realized.

Chen Chuxue never thought that she would have such a dazzling performance on the stage at that time.

She thought that her dream must be to succeed and be ready to go to that stage to sing her new song.

His father was leaning on the hospital bed alone, writing his suicide note, arranging his funeral.

Even when he died, he never gave up the promises he made to himself.

He was still thinking about himself and his mother.

He is still a concern that he can't let go.