Wang Liang glanced at Zhou Siguo, whose eyes were full of solemnity, and continued to confide in Zhou Siguo: That day, Secretary Zhou came to Qianshan to deal with the petition incident, and the city leaders privately asked me to send a reporter to interview. Because Secretary Zhou has made it clear in advance that interviews and reports are not allowed, and it is a mass incident, once it is broadcast, it will not have a good impact on us in Qianshan or the city.

Seeing that I was a little hesitant, the city leaders were a little unhappy, so they said to me, what are you doing in reporting on petitioning, you won't just report that Secretary Zhou went deep into the grassroots, cared about the villagers, and came to Qianshan to investigate and solve practical problems. Especially after dealing with the petition incident, Secretary Zhou discussed with the local people on the future transformation and development of Liangzhuang Coal Mine, and I felt that this matter was extremely sensitive in Qianshan, and it was better not to report it. But the leader didn't think so, saying that this matter was related to the future development of Qianshan. And criticized me for not being political and too incisive. Of course, I know very well what the leader really thinks. However, in the face of the leader's cold eyes again and again, I retreated, and notified the county TV station to come for an interview.

Then came a series of disturbing events. The TV station director in charge of the news also seemed a little uneasy and asked me what to do. I said at the time, you destroyed the news tape in advance and didn't ask me, and now that there is a problem, you have come to me, so what else can you do, and explain the situation to the organization truthfully. The director of the TV station was very blunt and told me directly that he didn't want to come to ask me, it was completely the intention of the city leader. I also unceremoniously said: The leadership position is higher than mine, according to the organizational principle, since the city leaders have given you instructions, then you still ask me what to do, just follow the instructions of the city leaders. To my surprise, I became an accomplice to the murder of Mu Tian.

Mu Tian's death made me sleepless all night, and I couldn't stop worrying all day. Everything that happened in the past is reflected in front of me from time to time, and I feel more and more that I seem to be tightly bound by a chain of interests. In the dead of night, lying in bed, tossing and turning, I couldn't help but reflect on myself: honest economic development, others say that I am rigid in thinking, conservative, and spurned; Emancipate the mind, and as a result, it is used again. Why is that? It shows that I am immature in politics and not suitable for politics in my bones. After a wooden day died, I could be responsible. But if this continues, I will become a historical sinner in Qianshan County, and I will forever be nailed to the pillar of shame in history by the people of Qianshan.

Maybe my anomaly was seen by the city leaders. After drinking once, the leader asked me if I had been under a lot of pressure recently and had not been able to rest well at night. I said no. The leader smiled slightly, and said, now in this year, things at work are trivial, today you are in this position, tomorrow a paper order, you will go to work in a different place, in this humane society, interpersonal relationships are the most important, as long as there are friends, there is everything. Don't feel that everything is carried by yourself, you have friends, on the surface, maybe you are on the cusp, but friends are the strong backing behind you; If you are discouraged, or if you disappoint your friends, the pillars behind you will withdraw faster than you, and you will be the first to fall, because things are coming for you, and the safest ones are still the people behind. The leader also pretended to be mysterious and said to me: As the county magistrate, you don't know the truth that the wall falls down and everyone pushes it and falls into the well, right?

The leader's words have been very clear, that is, once something happens, I will carry it. The leader's words chilled me, and he obviously used me as a gunman, but he was still pretending to comfort me. At the same time, it also made me sober. Perhaps this is what people often say about the tree falling and scattering. really violated party discipline and state law, and no one could save me.

For some reason, that night, as I lay in bed, the image of my mother often appeared in front of my eyes. It seems to take me back to the way I used to be.

After graduating from university, I chose to go to other places to engage in scientific research. People in my hometown say that I farmed in the south. When I went home for the Spring Festival, the people in my hometown looked at me with strange eyes and pointed behind my back. I said to my mother, mother, my son is not angry, and he will be ashamed of you. The mother said, silly boy, what are you talking about, we don't steal or rob, what's there to be ashamed of farming? No matter what you choose to do, as long as you are on the right path, your mother will support you. If you don't want to look at the snobbery of those people and listen to their cool words, you can go home less, or avoid them, out of sight. Since then, I've rarely been home. Sometimes I am also outside during the Chinese New Year, and the main reason is that I don't want to see people in my hometown.

I never dreamed that I would be elected as the deputy county magistrate of Qianshan County because of my stupidity. I told my mother as soon as possible. But my mother couldn't help but worry. My mother told me that children must be determined to be human beings and not live for others. When people look down on you, don't walk with your head down; When you're proud, don't just look at the sky with your head held high. This life is not easy. Nowadays, many people are anti-aircraft guns, their eyes are always staring at those who have the ability and ability, you think they greet you with a smile, they really admire you, they look up to you to talk to you, in fact, their eyes are looking down at the power in your hand, the money in your pocket. My mother also told me that people should learn to walk steadily, be a man with their tails between their legs, as long as they don't do things that violate the principles of heaven, just do it, don't be difficult for yourself.

Sure enough, my mother's words were fulfilled. Some people heard that I had become the deputy county magistrate of Qianshan County, but more of them scoffed, and some people even openly said that if I was stupid, if I could become the county magistrate, their boars would also give birth to cubs on the trees. Some people also asked their mother, and my mother shook her head and said, I Liang'er is not that blessed. My mother has my mother's considerations, and my mother is afraid of causing trouble for me. I still rarely go home, and I still rarely walk around with my fellow villagers when I get home.

Although my mother has no education, she has almost a lifetime of vicissitudes, but her mother has a unique view of people. Many things have been verified by my mother, and my mother's words are deeply imprinted on my heart like stone carvings.

I don't know when such a day will end, but I know very well what the ending will be, I am weak, I am powerless to change reality, but I can change myself, I can choose to escape. In desperation, one night two days ago, I went back to my hometown and met my old mother. I thought my mother would be surprised when she saw me. Unexpectedly, my mother, who had just finished eating, looked very calm when she saw me suddenly appear in front of her. What my mother said made me even more uneasy. My mother said to me, why did you encounter difficulties again? I nodded.

While cleaning up the dinner table, my mother said indifferently: My eyes are beating every day, what difficulties have I encountered? Looking at his mother, who was full of gray hair, still worried about his son, I don't know whether to be grateful or uneasy, tears rolled in my eyes. In the face of my aging mother, even though I have a thousand words in my heart, but I don't know what to say at this time, as a middle-aged man still worries my mother, who is already vaguely old, my heart seems to have been slashed, and I am constantly bleeding.

After being silent for a long time, I finally mustered up the courage to say to my mother: Mother, I want to continue farming.

Maybe I made up my mind, already in my mother's expectations, my mother still looks very calm, my mother said: Being an official and growing grain is to make a living, as long as you don't embarrass your ancestors, what are you not doing, not to mention that our family has been farmers for generations, or farming is good, not only get used to it, there is food, and there will be no mistakes. My mother asked me again, Liang'er, have you eaten? I shook my head. My mother said, if you want to eat something, my mother will do it for you. I said, I just want to eat the mother's boiled pot noodles with pickles. The mother said, okay, I'll do it for you. After a long time, my mother held a bowl full of hand-rolled noodles and put it in front of me. Looking at the fragrant noodles, looking up at the mother who was full of anticipation, tears of anger flowed down. My mother said to me that lies are the dirtiest in the world. As long as you don't do bad things, you won't be punished. The roads of the world are all walked by people, and there are no hurdles that cannot be overcome. Who is the life, since we are destined to be a cropper, then let's plant our land well.

seems to be still immersed in the past, Wang Liang is still full of tears. Zhou Siguo stepped forward and handed the tissue on the conference table to Wang Liang. Wang Liang wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, looked up at Zhou Siguodao: Secretary Zhou, you once told me that once something happened to Mu Tian, ask me. Since Mu Tian was assassinated, no matter how the organization deals with me, it will be difficult to offset my guilt. Before the organization has yet to deal with it, I would like to resign from the post of former county magistrate and become a diligent farmer. I hope the organization will agree to my request. Wang Liang said and handed over the written resignation letter to Zhou Siguo. Zhou Siguo looked at Wang Liang's resignation application in front of him, his heart was like a knife, and he fell into deep thought.

Wang Liang seemed to see Zhou Siguo's thoughts at this time, and said in a low voice: At the same time, I deeply thank Secretary Zhou for listening to me in his busy schedule. Wang Liang said, got up and bowed deeply to Zhou Siguo.

Zhou Siguo listened quietly, his heart hurting.

"Secretary Zhou, don't you want to know the specific situation of that city leader?" Wang Liang looked at Zhou Siguo and said softly.

Zhou Siguo did not answer immediately, as if he was pondering. After a while, Zhou Siguo sighed softly and said, "Forget it, the facts you narrated are very clear, is there any point in knowing specific people?" ”

Zhou Siguo's answer was unexpected by Wang Liang, Wang Liang was stunned, and he still said: "It's not early, I won't bother Secretary Zhou anymore." If there is anything else I need to know, let the comrades of the Commission for Discipline Inspection contact me directly, and I am willing to cooperate with the organization to conduct a comprehensive investigation. ”

Wang Liang said and slowly stood up, looking at Zhou Siguo blankly. Zhou Siguo held Wang Liang's hand tightly and said, "If you have any difficulties in the future, you can still come to me." ”

As soon as Wang Liang left the conference room, the secretary of the Commission for Discipline Inspection walked in. The secretary of the Commission for Discipline Inspection saw that Zhou Siguo was bowing his head and pondering, so he didn't dare to disturb.

Zhou Siguo looked up at the secretary of the Commission for Discipline Inspection who was full of doubts, as if he was saying to himself: "Whose fault is it that he could have become an excellent county magistrate, a diligent county magistrate who can do a lot of work for the people, but left his beloved post with regrets?" ”

The secretary of the Commission for Discipline Inspection didn't know what Zhou Siguo was thinking at this time, so he looked at Zhou Siguo and said: "We have heard and recorded the content of your conversation, Secretary Zhou's next step?" ”

"That's your Commission for Discipline Inspection and the investigation team." Zhou Siguo said and looked at the resignation letter submitted by Wang Liang in front of him, and said to the secretary of the Commission for Discipline Inspection: "Please transfer this resignation letter to the Organization Department." Then, you cooperate with the Organization Department to find an acting county magistrate for Qianshan County. For Maeyama, the most important thing to rectify is the economic environment. Zhou Siguo said and walked out of the conference room of the Commission for Discipline Inspection.