Chapter 326 There Is A Kind of Affection Called Unspeakable
The first cigarette after being reborn was actually tasteless, and even Zhou Yan wanted to throw away the cigarette for a while. Well, yes.
How could you like to smoke such a thing in your previous life? It's so choking. But whether it should be said or not, this cigarette has achieved its purpose, and it can be regarded as the end of life.
The senior sister had already walked in front of him, because he was squatting, so if he looked at eye level, he could only see her slender and well-proportioned two beautiful legs.
Perhaps because of the dim light, this pair of beautiful legs wrapped in white over-the-knee socks seems to have no flaws, and the curves are quite attractive.
Of course, it was impossible for Zhou Yan to keep staring at Zhou Wan's legs. Now he plays the role of a frustrated young man who was coldly treated by his favorite senior sister, although his acting skills can't be played very much, but the melancholy that comes from his bones to his eyes is also sincere.
Zhou Yan looked up and saw that the senior sister had been looking at him. There are many things that can be read in the eyes, disappointment, self-blame, regret, blame.... Taken together, these things should be called caring.
"If you're in a bad mood, just smoke." Zhou Yan simply broke the jar and said indifferently. Originally, Zhou Wan didn't chase after him, he might be more melancholy, thinking that the two of them wouldn't really break up or what, it's strange that a man in his thirties would worry about this kind of thing, and for the first time, he was not confident in holding the junior sister, but now that Zhou Wan has followed, Zhou Yan naturally has to operate it well.
Emotional charges to find out.
"Mood..."Zhou Wan felt that Zhou Yan's tone was a little unfamiliar, just like talking to a stranger.
No, it's polite and polite to talk to strangers, and now Zhou Yan doesn't care, he simply treats her as an irrelevant person.
The sense of loss in her heart spread, and this strange attitude made her a little at a loss.
"Smoking is not good." Zhou Wan said subconsciously. Zhou Yan had already thrown away the cigarette butt at this time, stood up and patted his buttocks, but didn't say anything.
Zhou Wan pursed her lips, this feeling of being ignored was very uncomfortable, and she couldn't help but say, "Zhou Yan, you speak." ”
"Well, it doesn't feel interesting, and it's even more boring after smoking." Zhou Yan smiled and said.
It's strange, obviously Zhou Yan is saying that smoking is boring, and she can breathe a sigh of relief, but hearing him say this, Zhou Wan feels like she is saying that she and him are not interesting.
But obviously the two of them have nothing to do with each other.
"Then don't smoke next time." Zhou Wan didn't know what to say, so she just whispered.
"Sister Wan, isn't there something else going on? You can go first, let me be here for a while. Zhou Yan whispered.
Zhou Wan was silent, compared to Zhou Yan's attitude, things at work didn't seem to be too important. But it's obviously what she expected.
The two of them should keep their distance and only care about work. But now, she feels that this is really a bit naïve and innocent.
She thought about leaving, and thought about leaving Zhou Yan here, but if she did this today, what kind of state should she face Zhou Yan tomorrow.
She didn't think about it, and she didn't want to think about it. Zhou Yan is the first time to see Zhou Wan's wandering appearance, originally the senior sister should be confident, generous, and gentle, but now it is rare to show the posture of a little woman.
Sensibility triumphs over reason. It's an amazing feeling. Especially facing Zhou Wan.
"It's not early, let's go back and rest." Zhou Yan said.
"Let's be clear." Zhou Wan said subconsciously.
"What is there to make clear?" Zhou Yan asked rhetorically.
"Sister Wan, we are all adults, don't be like a child." Zhou Wan was stunned for a moment and retorted: "You are a child." It seemed that the atmosphere between the two people had eased somewhat, and the tight strings in Zhou Wan's heart had relaxed a little.
"If Sister Wan wants to tell me, just say it." Zhou Yan said.
"We... We..."Zhou Wan was a little cramped, she really didn't know what to say, there was nothing to say, but she cared very much, when it was time to say it, she said something, very tangled.
"How about going to that place?" Zhou Yan asked.
"Where?"
"The place behind the start-up base." Zhou Yan might as well say it in more detail. Zhou Wan immediately understood what Zhou Yan was talking about.
Grove. That's where she and Zhou Yan talked. It was also the first time Zhou Yan called her Xiaowan, and she called Zhou Yan Xiaoyan.
Even at that time, Zhou Yan asked her if she wanted to be his sister, but she didn't agree.
"But now..."The word 'evening' Zhou Wan didn't speak, she said rarely: "Okay." "Maybe it will ease the relationship between the two.
It's really not something she wants to see. Zhou Wan agreed, but Zhou Yan was still a little surprised.
After all, drill the grove with him at night? Well? Of course, he tries to be as natural as possible.
"Let's go, then." Zhou Yan said. The senior sister of the instructor hummed softly. .... The first time I came was in the afternoon, and it was beautiful when the sun was setting.
The river is murmuring, the willow trees are clinging, and it is rare to be secluded. It's almost evening, and there are far fewer couples in the woods.
Of course... There are also. The occasional light from among the trees says it all. The woods at night do not look a little dark and gloomy, perhaps because of the street lamps at the edge of the woods, the bright yellow lights add a little warmth to the woods under the winter night.
Zhou Yan and Zhou Wan were speechless all the way, and it was not time for them to speak. The two men walked side by side and went into the woods.
This time, I didn't enter through the entrance of the entrepreneurial base, but borrowed a path on the shore of Runxin Lake.
The night was slightly cloudy, and as it went deeper and deeper, the enthusiastic little couple could not see it. Flowing water dings winter. It was the pleasant sound of a stream flowing over the pebbles.
On the stone bridge is a separate open sky, with sparse stars and bright moons. This is the small world that Zhou Yan and Zhou Wan have stayed in together, and it may have a special meaning for both of them.
"We had a good relationship then." Zhou Yan said to the senior sister beside him. Zhou Wan bowed her head slightly, her gaze attracted by the sky that was not obscured by the trees.
The clean, clear night sky always evokes girls' expectations for beauty.
"Can't you go back?" Zhou Yan asked.
"What... What can't you go back? Seeing Zhou Yan's extraordinarily serious appearance, Zhou Wan asked subconsciously.
"Our relationship." Zhou Yan said with a smile.
"What does it matter?" The senior sister said with a little duplicity.
"Go there and sit down." Zhou Yan pointed to the stone platform where the two of them had sit, and after saying a word, he went to that place and sat down.
Zhou Wan was a little hesitant, but after a second or two, she still walked forward. She was wearing a knee-length brown skirt and white sneakers, which was not easy to sit on, and after pulling over the skirt, Zhou Wan adjusted her position and sat down.
The senior sister's white over-the-knee socks stand out in the moonlight. Wrapped around the slender legs, they were slightly together, and because they hadn't sat down yet, they swayed gently above the stream.
Of course, it is not excluded that it is a little nervous.
"I remember telling Sister Wan that I would come here to sit when I was in a bad mood." Zhou Yan said. Zhou Wan replied softly, and did not look up at the moonlight again, but lowered her eyes to observe the little hands that did not know what were intertwined.
"Neither of us seems to be in a good mood right now." Zhou Yan said again. The senior sister's eyelashes trembled slightly, and she didn't speak, which was considered a tacit acquiescence.
She didn't know why she agreed to Zhou Yan to come here, but for no reason, she still felt that this was the place to speak.
"Sister Wan doesn't have anything to say?" Zhou Yan looked at Zhou Wan beside him. At this time, she was quite far away from herself, which was a damn sense of alienation.
"Don't smoke anymore." Zhou Wan said.
"I don't think it's interesting, too." Zhou Yan pouted and said. Zhou Wan thought that Zhou Yan agreed, so she said in a witty tone: "But this cigarette is a good thing, when you want to smoke it, you can smoke it, and there is no more trouble." "It's clearly the rhetoric I want to draw next time.
"Stop smoking, okay?" Zhou Wan didn't know why she cared so much. Zhou Yan didn't make any guarantees or refuses, but said with a smile: "I can smoke if I want." Knowing that Zhou Yan did it on purpose, Zhou Wan gave him a blank look.
Suddenly realizing that this was a bit ambiguous, Zhou Wan didn't look over it naturally.
"It's going to be a game soon." Zhou Yan said suddenly.
"Hmm," Zhou Wan responded. It's going to be a game soon. Zhou Yan led the team.
"Actually, I don't want us to only have company or project things to talk about." Zhou Yan said. This is a bit of a blunt twist, Zhou Wan was about to say something about sweeping the project, but Zhou Yan didn't mean to talk about it at all.
Don't play according to the routine.
"Senpai."
"Huh?" This is the first time that Zhou Yan has called her senior sister a little unfamiliarly. Somehow, Zhou Wan was suddenly a little afraid of what Zhou Yan said next.
"The moonlight is so beautiful tonight." Zhou Yan said a little casually. Zhou Wan was stunned for a moment, the breeze caressed, and the broken hair hit her forehead, messing up her vision and heart.
Tonight is the first moon and not a full moon, but what really makes Zhou Wan care is not the moon that is not very clear, but what Zhou Yan said.
Did he think he didn't know? The love words that appeared in The Tale of Genji were even excerpted by her in her diary.
Zhou Wan had never heard anyone say such things in such a way. Is it a misunderstanding? Still is... Zhou Wan's heart has never been chaotic, but at this time, the rhythm was disturbed by the moonlight that hit the broken leaves.
Every time I think of the joys and sorrows that you and I spent together, I will cry and feel sad about the passage of time, from now on, everything with you will become a beautiful memory that comforts my life, and in the remaining years of my life, I will miss the moon that I saw with you tonight.
These are Natsume Soseki's exact words in the book. It is also the most romantic love story. Zhou Yan didn't care about what she said, but it made her heart messy.
So.... Did he do it on purpose or.... I don't know. Zhou Wan subconsciously looked at Zhou Yan, but saw that this big boy was really looking at the moon seriously.
Deliberately. It must have been deliberate. Zhou Wan thought firmly in her heart. But even if she pretended to be calm, her face was a little hot, and she pretended to be careless and pulled the wind-blown fine hair behind her ears, and even repeated this action twice to calm down a little.
Just pretend you don't know.
"It's beautiful." Raising his eyes slightly, his long eyelashes trembled twice in the night, and he said words that were contrary to his heart but sincere.
Zhou Yan actually didn't know if the senior sister knew the meaning of this sentence, and he didn't care if she knew it or not, the atmosphere was here, and it was like that.
As he said, everyone is an adult, they know what to do, they know what to do, and they don't know what to do.
Zhou Yan couldn't figure out Zhou Wan's emotions, and he didn't need to think about it, he just felt that he shouldn't be in this situation with Zhou Wan.
deliberately and a little embarrassed. The night is cool, and it is cool to the heart. It was very quiet, and only the sound of running water and the rustling of leaves could be heard.
It's not pretty, but it can calm the troubled emotions.
"Sister Wan."
"Huh?"
"Am I a little greedy?" Zhou Yan's voice was very calm, but listening to Zhou Wan here meant something else.
So does he like himself? Zhou Wan is not an emotional idiot, she just can't think calmly when she encounters this kind of thing.
Zhou Yan took her hand, hugged her, pillowed her legs, and also picked her up when she was asleep, and even took off her shoes and socks.
It turns out that if you think about it carefully, you have unconsciously taken advantage of this bad boy.
"Then you can not be greedy." Zhou Wan said softly. She pretended that she didn't know that Zhou Yan was not a confession.
"But I can't do it." Zhou Yan said softly, as if he was asking for help, and as if he was showing an attitude.
"But there are some things that don't fit just don't fit." Zhou Wan didn't look at Zhou Yan, and it was also like talking to herself.
Perhaps this is the best way to alleviate this situation, and no one will break it.
"But there are some things that don't seem to care if they are suitable or not." Zhou Yan said. Zhou Wan's mood fluctuated for a moment, she pursed her lips, trying not to be too nervous, she said softly:
"Then you're forced."
"What coercion?" Zhou Yan asked.
"There are some things that can't be forced, and everything can't be perfected." Zhou Wan said a little calmly. Zhou Yan smiled in his heart, he already knew Zhou Wan's thoughts.
The junior sister pretended not to understand his words and played the Riddler here. However, Zhou Yan did not break it. At least now there is a reason to speak, not like just now, when the two of them have a lot to say, but they can't find the right opportunity.
This feeling is quite subtle.
"But I'm a little unwilling." Zhou Yan said with a little sigh. You are my unwillingness.
Before he finished speaking, Zhou Yan believed that the senior sister could understand.
"Unwilling...."Zhou Wan's originally clenched right hand trembled slightly, and even she didn't realize it, and her palms sweated a lot.
"What if you are unwilling, there is no way, there is no way." Zhou Wan said softly, and for a while she couldn't tell that it was Zhou Yan.
may be talking about himself, or he may be talking about Zhou Yan. This kind of emotion is common, she hid it in her heart, but it was deliberately pointed out by Zhou Yan.
"So you can only watch it go away from your eyes, you can't catch it, you can't get it, you can't watch it, and then you only want to be unwilling to give it to yourself?" Zhou Yan asked.
"Not so."
"But you can obviously catch it in your hands from the beginning." Zhou Yan said half-jokingly.
"Then why don't you catch it at the beginning, and then leave it for the back to regret it?" Zhou Wan asked softly. She didn't know what kind of state she had fallen into, so it might have been an argument if she had abandoned all the temptations.
"Because I think, it's just a matter of one person, and if you catch it, it's two people." Zhou Yan looked at Zhou Wan, his eyes were clear, and he said quite seriously.