Study, review, study, review......

Kamihara Suzu straightened his waist, staring at the homework and textbooks that his brother and the teacher had assigned to him one by one with a dictionary thick with an expression of extreme reluctance, and he was in a state of despair in a daze.

Why, why write so many things!

And there's yesterday's homework in this.

The girl's heart is roaring filial piety, but because she is in the classroom, she has to maintain the expression on her face.

Calm down, Ah Ling, you have to be calm.

She kept repeating the hints to herself in her mind.

But in the end, she found that it didn't work.

Why do you have to write so much?

Can't you write it?

Do you fail if you don't write about your life?

I want to be lazy, I want to go home and sleep, I want to eat beef curry rice......

Suzu Kamihara fell into a state of extreme despair.

Or give up, right?

I don't know how much more comfortable it will be to give up.

"Suzu-chan, it's really hard ......"

Accompanied by a soft voice, it was a friend who was sitting next to him and had just gone to the toilet, Jie Qiantianai.

She saw the homework spread out in front of Suzu Kamihara and the gel pen in her hand, and sighed from the bottom of her heart for her best friend's efforts.

"No... No. ”

This...!

Well, in order to maintain the image, it seems that I have to continue to write.

It's obviously lunch break, okay!

After about ten minutes, Suzu Kamihara finished writing a paper and was ready to rest for a while.

As soon as he turned his head, a small sausage went directly into his mouth.

Kamihara Suzu was stunned for a moment, and turned her head to look, and found that it was Kai Qian Tianno who smiled and fed herself the contents of her lunch box.

"How does Suzu-chan feel?"

"Very, very good."

"Hey, right, my mom has always been very good at her craft." Jie Qiantianno moved the stool to Suzu Kamihara's table, and took the lunch box and the cloth used for wrapping it together, "It's going to be divided next year, is Suzu-chan going to choose science or liberal arts?" ”

"I'm not good at liberal arts, science."

Kamihara Suzu suddenly noticed that Kai Qian Tiannai was staring at him for several seconds, felt strange, and asked, "Why is Tianna-chan looking at me like this?" ”

"Does Suzu-chan want to be assigned to a shift?"

"That's right."

Jie Qian Tiannai continued: "But Suzu-chan has been very busy recently, and she has no time to study her homework, and her grades have dropped to about fifty. ”

This is a fact, and the last monthly test of Kamihara Suzu was almost at this level.

This is still the result of the state of the elder brother helping her to expedite the make-up class.

"Suzu-chan is hard to get into the first class according to this grade, right? There is a good chance that you will be assigned to an art class or something. ”

This is also true.

But Kamihara Suzumi was so tired that she didn't want to study anymore.

Jie Qian Tianno continued: "Recently, I have heard a lot about Kamihara-kun at school. ”

"What's wrong with him?" Suzu Kamihara asked with concern, she had only heard about it slightly.

"Everyone is speculating whether Kamihara-kun is dating with Tianhai-san, and there is also speculation about whether he is also in a relationship with the newcomer, and you can often see two people sitting in the cafeteria eating together."

Kamihara Suzu knows that his brother has a good reputation in school.

He has a very handsome face and a very good figure, and every time he plays sports, he compares the boys in other classes by himself, playing basketball, volleyball, baseball, etc., and they are all at the top level.....

A lot of girls admire him.

It's all external.

Cut, a bunch of superficial women!

"That, Tian Nai doesn't need to listen to their nonsense, Zhixue and my brother are just ordinary friends." Suzu Kamihara replied with an ordinary expression.

Suzu-chan doesn't seem to understand what I mean at all......

Jie Qiantian thought in her heart.

For Suzu-chan, a good friend, she hasn't been very happy lately, and Jie Qiantian can see it completely.

[Why are you unhappy?] ]

Jie Qiantianai asked several times during this time, but there was no result.

Through the fact that in school, Suzu-chan often watched her brother and Tianhai Jiu Liuli's eyes smiling and exchanging with classmates from a distance, Jie Qiantian understood.

Suzu-chan hasn't been cared about lately.

Kamihara-kun divided too much of his heart on the two Tianhai classmates.

I didn't even notice that my sister was not as energetic as she used to be.

Because I wasn't noticed by my brother, I didn't have vitality all the time.

As a good friend, you have to think of a way.

"Original... I see," Jie Qiantianai smiled, her hands and fingers pressed against each other, "That Suzu-chan, do you want to... Anyway, we've been working less lately, so why don't we try to work together? Trying to get to the best class in the second year? ”

Suzu Kamihara didn't react, "Why?" ”

"Because... Suzu-chan, you see, the two Tianhai classmates have always been the first in the exam, and Kamihara-kun has always maintained the third, only a few points behind the two Tianhai classmates, they are definitely going to be assigned to the first class......"

"What are you going to do on a shift..."

"Suzu-chan must be going to the first class, right?"

"I don't want to go......"

Suzu Kamihara muttered like this, his shoulders relaxed, and he sighed deeply and said, "If you go, you can only be a light bulb..."

It's better to buy something to eat and sit with Zhixue when he gets out of school.

"Kamihara-san, someone called you." An unfamiliar classmate interrupted the conversation.

Suzu Kamihara looked towards the door and found that it was the long-haired Snow of the Tenkai standing at the door.

What did she come to do?

Are you asking yourself what you want to eat again?

Suzu Kamihara still has a good relationship with Zhixue, and as a good friend, they often go out to buy food together.

After talking to Tian Nai for the time being, Suzu Kamihara walked out of the classroom and saw the flat and delicate little face of Tianhai Zhixue.

"What's wrong?"

"I have something to talk to Suzu."

"Huh? Something. ”

"Join the band."

“......”

Suzu Kamihara wasn't sure if she had heard it wrong, "What's the join?" Join... Band...? ”

"Hmm."

"What band?"

"Rock band."

“......”

Tianhai no Yuki plays rock at home every day, and during that time there was a lot of noise until the police came, and of course Suzu Kamihara knew that Yuki liked rock and roll.

"But... Why did you suddenly find me and ask me to join a rock band? ”

"Because I can't find anyone, Suzu is very talkative."

“......”

It's really a simple and easy to understand reason.

"Join the band... Well, no problem, but I haven't had time lately, and I'm about to face the end of the semester, so I have to study hard. ”

"Le said that the bell can be named first."

"That's fine." Suzu Kamihara nodded, of course it's no problem to help her good friend, you must know that Zhixue will take her favorite things to eat!

"Wait!" Suzu Kamihara suddenly realized something again, "Zhixue, you mean, my brother told you that you can name first?" ”

"Hmm."

"He's in the band, too?"

"Fun."

"What about the Nine Glass and the Seven Bright Moons?"

"Xiao Qi and Xiao Jiu are also here."

“...... Then I won't join. Suzu Kamihara suddenly felt down, but quickly recovered.

"Why?"

"Zhixue, you don't understand, anyway, with the three of them together, I won't join, because... There's nothing to do with me at all......"

"Got it."

As soon as Tianhai Zhixue's words fell, he turned his head and left without emotion. The back faded away from the other end of the hallway.

This made the unresponsive Kamihara Suzu quite messy.

"W-That's it?"

Suzu Kamihara, who didn't understand, stood in place for a minute.

She really didn't understand it, so she had to go back to the classroom. explained two sentences to Jie Qiantiannai, and chatted for half an hour about the topic of the second grade, and it was time for class.

As for why he didn't agree to Snow to join the band.

Suzu Kamihara knew that she just didn't want to see the closeness that those people might show in the band.

I don't want to see it, I don't want to see it at all.

I won't join it!

......

The time came to end school in the afternoon, because there were two more classes, and the time was much later than before.

"Suzu, join the band."

After greeting her classmates, Suzu Kamihara encounters the snow of Amami in the shoe changing room.

She didn't want to target this good friend, but she felt that she should still refuse.

"Nope."

"Well, then I'll ask later," Tianhai Zhixue, who was carrying a small schoolbag, nodded slightly, "Then go to the convenience store and buy something to eat?" ”

"Why do you ask later... It's okay to eat, this is good. ”

After leaving school and coming to a convenience store to buy sweet chicken cutlets and teriyaki meat skewers, Suzu Kamihara thought that Amami Yuki would continue to ask if she wanted to join the band, but she didn't expect her to just eat quietly at the bar table.

The side facing the street.

"My brother called you to create this band?"

"I created it myself."

"Why do you suddenly want to create a band?"

"Because I want more fans."

"Oh... How's that snow, your video? ”

"There is no fire."

"Come to think of it... How can it be popular as soon as it comes out," Suzu Kamihara sighed with emotion, "I used to think that as long as I had strength, I would be popular, and everyone should be able to hear my efforts, but in fact? No one cares. My first year was spent in small roles, and I had to prepare and be nervous for days just for an audition. ”

"But Le still wants to help me continue making videos." Tianhai no Yuki continued the topic just now, "Le wants to help me get more fans. ”

"Why did he help you so much?"

Tianhai no Yuki thought for a while: "I don't know..."

"I don't know, forget it, it's a central air conditioner anyway, he's that kind of person."

"Le also said that he wanted to find his purpose through the band."

"Hmph, that's really gratifying, but I'm not going to join." Suzu Kamihara twisted the ends of the teriyaki chicken skewer with both hands and took small bites. Filled with fragrant heat.

"Le also said that he likes Suzu very much."

The fluttering words of the snow of the sky and the sea directly made Kamihara Suzu almost choke, and hurriedly asked:

"Did he really say that?"

"Band, bells are the most indispensable ones." The Snow of the Sea of Heaven was like the words of Kamihara at that time, and his voice was as thin as ice withering.

This sentence made Kamihara Suzu's heart feel weird, a little warm, and at the same time reminded her of a lot of pictures.

The clearest thing is the time when he ran away from home...... He went to him himself, and he smiled and made himself a king crab feast to entertain himself.

Not only do you not have to wash the dishes, but even when you are tired, you can boldly fall on his lap and sleep.

It was the happiest dinner Suzu Kamihara had in recent years.

But what about lately?

Recently, I have been paying less and less attention to myself.

He doesn't pay attention to himself at all now, why should he pull himself into some band?

"Cut... Cut! Just, even if that's the case, why didn't he invite me himself, so I didn't go! ”

"Invite the bell, will the bell come?"

"Not even more! Sorry, this isn't for you, but I won't be joining. ”

As if Suzu Kamihara got up to leave, she packed up the leftover packaging box and picked up her school bag.

"Alright, alright, that's the end of the topic. I'm not going to join anyway, that's all. ”

......

Suzu Kamihara fled the convenience store.

Even she didn't know why she fled in a panic.

Looking at the darkened sky overhead, the sound of the tram running on the elevated tracks and the glass curtain walls of the high-rise buildings are filled with bright lights like glass.

Suzu Kamihara was dejected with a small schoolbag on her back, and she pulled the bag over her shoulder and carried it on a large shopping street full of cold air.

My head is full of memories of a stinky guy.

[Ah Ling, actually I like Jiu Liuli]

[Ah Ling, Qi Mingyue seems to... Like me too]

[Suzu, actually, I don't like Tokyo very much, if possible, I will go to Kyoto to go to university]

...... The reminiscence of words made Suzu Kamihara purse her lips.

She was so annoying, obviously he only cared about himself before.

But now...

I wasn't taken care of at all.

Why, why be so good to everyone?

Why, why did you have to forgive Jiu Liuli at that time?

Why, why haven't you thought about anything because of me? Thinking about it because I stayed in Tokyo to study?

Am I that unimportant?

Why, why can't you see through my thoughts?

All kinds of uncomfortable thoughts fermented in the cold wind.

Suzu Kamihara walked into a residential area and entered a nearby children's park, where she sat down on a swing between snowflake bunkers and slides. It doesn't make sense to sit here like this, but only here, the cold corner without light makes her feel a little more comfortable.

Suzu Kamihara remembered how a certain guy had reacted to her.

... Maybe... My own ideas have long been seen through.

He understands it, and he knows it.

But it is precisely because he understands and is clear that he does not express other thoughts to himself, and he is always taking care of himself, taking care with a pampering meaning.

I've always indulged my vexatiousness, and I've always indulged my character.

"Poof...", Suzu Kamihara laughed wittily, "It's better not to know......

As soon as she finished reading this sentence, Suzu Kamihara fell into a silent state again, and she began to shake the swing, allowing her body to follow the swing.

Squeak... Squeak......

The cold friction sound driven by the chain lock is the only sound in the cold wind.

Should it be, what should it be done?

Yes, how?

Yes, how can I not feel uncomfortable?

Thoughts popped out of Suzu Kamihara's head, but the more she thought about it, the more she didn't know what to do.

Myself... How about disappearing suddenly?

If it disappears, it won't have a big impact on him, right?

Did he come back to himself?

How long will you be looking for it?

Probably... I don't care about my existence at all......

The squeaking stopped, the girl's hand holding the chain disappeared, and the figure on the swing raised its head to the sky.

The girl's colorful purple eyes, which reflected thousands of neon lights, shone with a crystal light.

After five minutes of silence.

Suzu Kamihara sniffed, reached out and wiped out all the things that were out of sight, and then smiled at the sky:

"Really, do I think I'm going to cry like this? I didn't cry, no! ”

After shouting like this, no one answered her.

No one responded to her either.

"Stinky ......"

The cold wind blew cold cheeks and shivered in the body.

Sitting on a swing in this children's park, she seemed to ask someone to run out to find her, tell herself that I care about you, tell yourself not to catch a cold, tell yourself to hurry home......

Suzu Kamihara was very sad, but I don't know why, there was always a force in her heart that made her not want to be so sad.

Wanting to change, wanting to change, at least, not wanting to not be remembered yourself.

"Qi Mingyue, that guy said he liked that guy since he was a child... I'm afraid that I will have this kind of mentality, right? In front of Jiu Liuli...? ”

The more Kamihara Suzu thought about it, how did Qi Mingyue do it?

What did she do with Jiu Liuli?

If she chooses to escape... Isn't there nothing left.

......

"Suzu."

After ten minutes of silence, Suzu Kamihara raised her head and realized that it was the snow of the sea that had found it.

She also carried a small school bag on her back and looked at herself like a blank sheet of paper.

Suzu Kamihara saw her and stood up.

"I'm sorry to keep you looking for me."

"Why did the bell run away just now?"

"Angry... That guy went to call Jiu Liuli and Qi Mingyue didn't come to call me... But if you think about it carefully, he probably didn't think about it in this way, so I don't want to be the kind of ghost who only complains, and I can take whatever I want... No matter how bad it is, you have to keep your position! ”

"What are you talking about?"

"I mean, I'm going to change my course in the future! If you are passive, you will only be beaten, and you will not be able to get anything good! The two of them kept bullying me, and I had enough of it! ”