Chapter 248: The Snow Mother's Diary of the Heavenly Sea
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The air was so quiet that Kamihara just wanted to slap himself in the face.
He immediately figured out what the snow meant to his nod last night.
She didn't understand her words at all, or the two of them were not on the same channel at that time, Kamihara only wanted her to recognize her feelings, but she thought that her expression was not formal enough......
However, Kamihara will still adhere to the principle of last night, and those who can promise can be agreed, and those who can't be promised will be decisively refused.
Therefore, when he met the motionless gaze of the snow of the heavenly sea and was as clean as snow, Kamihara Le closed his eyes and hugged his chest with the appearance of being in thought:
"I refuse."
The girl holding the guitar was not sad because of the rejection, she just blinked, and the delicate little face continued to face Kamihara Raku's desperate state of closing her eyes and hugging her chest. Leaning forward slightly.
"But I like to have fun."
"Nope."
"Do you still need me to play a confession song?"
"No, that's not the problem at all."
"You can rub your breasts casually every day."
"Don't tempt me with this, if it doesn't work, it won't work."
Kamihara Le sighed helplessly in his heart, Zhixue, this child, whether in life or in love, is too simple and easy to guess. She may have a good impression of herself, and Kamihara also has a good impression of her friends, and she likes the experience of taking care of her, because Zhixue is very obedient and well-behaved, and always trusts and obeys what he says.
But these feelings are not out of liking, and they are completely different feelings from Seven and Nine, so even if he has become a scumbag, he can't play with other people's feelings casually.
Of course, the above is just Kamihara's own emotions, and for Tianhai Jiu Liuli, this news is undoubtedly shocking.
"Le, have a relationship with me."
"Zhixue, you said that you want to eat fried ice cream every day, no."
"Wait a minute, wait a minute!"
Tianhai Jiu Liuli interrupted the conversation between the two, and took the initiative to look at the snow of Tianhai under the gaze of Shenyuan Le and Tianhai Qimingyue.
"Xiao Jiu has something to say."
"......" Tianhai Zhixue's trick was mainly anti-guest, and directly stunned Tianhai Jiuliuli for half a second, she tried her best to smile, and said to this girl of the same age who was her own aunt, "Auntie, Lejun is my boyfriend now." β
"I'm happy to be in a relationship with Xiao Jiu." The snow of the sky and sea seemed to be lost in thought, and lowered his eyes.
"That's right." Tianhai Jiuliuli saw the eyes of Tianhai Snow as if he understood, and instantly relieved his heart.
"I know."
But Tianhai Zhixue's next head-raising answer directly made her brain fragment again.
Know?!
"Auntie, do you know you still do this?"
"I don't mind."
β......β
This is... Auntie, do you mind the question of not minding?
Well, Tianhai Jiu Ruri had long known that her aunt was a little lacking in common sense in life, so she tried to be as patient as possible and tried to explain to her why she couldn't confess successfully now and why Kamihara Le would refuse so decisively.
Although Tianhai Jiuliuli had explained the matter quite clearly, Tianhai Snow had been in an incomprehensible state of doubt for some reason.
"Because Xiao Jiu is dating Le, I can't confess......" she lowered her head and muttered.
"Yes." Tianhai Jiuliuli nodded, patted his chest, and finally let the little aunt understand the secret words in his heart.
"But, Xiao Qi is obviously also-"
"Snow!" Kamihara instantly realized what Zhixue wanted to say, and immediately opened his mouth, wanting to stop her.
"Auntie."
Tianhai Qimingyue, who had been watching from the sidelines, was the first to speak, interrupting Tianhai Zhixue before he could speak. At that moment just now, Kamihara's frightened heart also returned to calm.
Fortunately, Qi Mingyue also understands.
I almost fell into the cycle of death completely.
Obviously, the relationship between the two sisters has only been repaired for a short time.
"Little Seven."
"Auntie come out with me, I have something to say to you."
In less than three minutes, Tianhai Qimingyue pulled his face very dazed, and Tianhai Zhixue, who was barefoot, walked out of the bedroom and closed the door by the way.
In the messy bedroom, only two people, Kamihara Le and Tianhai Jiu Ruri, were left.
"Brother..."
Kamihara Le noticed that Tianhai Jiu Liuli's sky-blue eyes had been looking at him, and he sighed and explained: "It seems that Zhixue watched some TV series with Ah Ling yesterday, causing her to think that if she confesses to me, she can eat until she eats something delicious." Liuli, you can rest assured, Zhixue is not a true confession. β
Tianhai Jiuliuli is not the kind of girl who will be anxious when she encounters something, on the contrary, she is also very calm and can think.
The person he likes confesses, he can decisively refuse, Tianhai Jiuliuli is of course very happy as his girlfriend. But the identity of the person who confessed is a little special, and he has a lot of relationship with herself, which has to make her think about more things.
For example, how did Zhixue feel after being rejected, and how did she face her actions?
After all, like my brother, I promised my grandfather that I would take good care of Xue in this family.
"Nine glasses?" Kamihara Le found that Tianhai Jiuliuli seemed to have been in a state of thinking all along.
"Huh? Well. "Tianhai Jiu Ruri faced Kamihara Le.
"Did you hear what I just said?"
"I hear you."
"What do you think?"
"I disagree with my brother's point of view."
"Why...?" Kamihara Le didn't expect Jiu Liuli to say that.
"Auntie, she... You should know the concept of 'confession', right? β
"She knew, but she didn't understand, after all, she didn't have feelings for this."
"What does my brother think about your aunt's feelings towards you now?"
"What kind of emotion...," Kamihara Le thought carefully, "It should be at the level of having a good feeling, after all, I cook for her every day, although she has no expression when she eats, but the serious state of eating still shows that she likes to eat very much." β
Tianhai Jiu Liuli stared at Kamihara Le: "So what is the next stage of affection?" β
"Want to get closer?"
"The next stage."
"When I got closer, I just liked it...... But she just loves the food I make. β
"I also like my brother's cooking, my brother wants to know that he loves the house and the black ... It's also absolutely possible that she will like you. Tianhai Jiuliuli's tone was quite affirmative.
Speaking of this, Kamihara Le understood what Tianhai Jiu Liuli really wanted to say: "You mean, Zhixue may really like me?" β
"Hmm." Tianhai Jiu Liuli nodded very seriously.
"What then?" Kamihara is not about whether he should accept it or not, but about how to deal with this action of Yuki.
"I don't know." Tianhai Jiuliuli shook her head, and she also had a bitter smile on her face, "I don't know how to deal with Qi Mingyue's feelings yet, and my aunt's is even more unclear." β
"Hmmm......"
If he could, Kamihara would still want to write a light book, and he would have thought of a name.
It's called "How to not play with the feelings of three girls when they all like themselves and want to be in a relationship with themselves?" γγ
If you write it, there must be readers who want to ask, you don't care about it all, don't you just cut off all contact? Pick only the one you like the most.
Kamihara can only say that he is too naΓ―ve and naΓ―ve!
You must know that these three girls are not ordinary girls, and they all have a certain connection with themselves in terms of family.
Get rid of one, can you still get rid of two?
Unless you abandon all your family and fly away.
Kamihara can't do it. And during this period, as the one who was liked, he must have felt very comfortable and enjoyed.
Nonsense, who is unhappy to be liked by three beautiful girls at the same time?
Kamihara has completely recognized himself, he just likes beautiful girls. In other words, who doesn't like that?
To this day, he also likes the feeling of holding Qijiu in his arms and kissing his mouth.
It's just that I will try to take care of their feelings and take care of their experience.
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After discussing it with Tianhai Jiu Liuli for a while, he didn't come up with any useful results. Soon after, Qi Mingyue and Tianhai Snow re-entered the house, and this time Tianhai Qimingyue motioned for him to talk to him alone.
Kamihara Le glanced back at Tianhai Jiu Liuli, and she agreed.
Kamihara followed Tianhai Qimingyue to the corridor.
Recently, July has not been so cold, and I usually prefer the three faceless ones who have no feelings, which is similar to the snow.
However, she is much smarter than Zhixue's natural dullness, and her godless eyes can see through a lot of things.
"What's going on?" Tianhai Qi Mingyue was the first to ask.
"It's just... Take care of Xue, take care of me, and she'll have a good impression of me......"
"Then do you know that you haven't even done it yet?"
"What do you mean... I've got you done in July? β
Tianhai Qi Mingyue half-closed his eyes and reached out to twist the flesh on his waist, but he was directly grabbed by Shenyuan Le's wrist.
The girl was suddenly pressed against the wall by Kamihara, and raised her head under his close gaze.
"What do you want to do?"
"Nothing." Kamihara smiled, "It's just that I suddenly feel like you so much." β
"Don't think that saying nice things will cover your mind, and don't think I don't know what you're thinking. You want to hug me on the left and my sister on the right, right? β
"Yes."
"It's honest, but you're a scumbag."
"Well, that's right, I'm a scumbag."
"Then you think I'm going to like a scumbag like this?"
"No, July you're definitely the kind of person who is emotionally focused and single-minded."
Otherwise... In July, you didn't take a word of encouragement I said to you when I was a child as a lifelong support.
Kamihara sighed in his heart.
"Then why do you ask me to share it with my sister?"
"I like you, July."
Kamihara Le is pleading, he doesn't have any way, Qi Mingyue doesn't owe him anything. What you can do is to try to express your heart to her and express your feelings.
"Do you know how long I've been waiting for you?"
"Yes."
"But that's not why you were able to kidnap me."
"I'm asking for it, July."
Although through the previous agreement, July can now take the initiative to make some intimate actions towards Kamihara, because this is counted in the "pursuit". It's just that Shen Yuanle himself still has to keep his distance, otherwise he will be seen by Jiu Liuli with some clues.
But at this stage, it is still impossible for Tianhai Qimingyue to accept sharing the same feelings with her sister.
"Kiss me." She suddenly said something like this to him.
"Now? We're in the hallway now, and Jiu Liuli is separated from us by a wall, maybe she'll push the door out later. Kamihara reminded.
"Less nonsense."
β... All right. β
Since Qi Mingyue took the initiative to ask for it, Shen Yuanle still kissed it.
The taste is like nibbling on a green apple that is green, faintly sweet, and has a fragrant aroma.
Shen Yuan Le probably understands what kind of psychology she wants to kiss her by herself now, just because she can't compare to Jiu Liuli on the bright side, and she is very unconvinced.
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Tianhai Qi Mingyue brought the slightly messy flaxen-colored hair behind her ears, revealing a fair and exquisite side face. She pursed her lip flap from where she had just been touched.
Kamihara only felt that she was probably in a much better mood after being kissed.
"Anyway, aren't we talking about snow?"
"How?"
"I want to ask Qi Mingyue what you think."
Tianhai Qi Mingyue leaned against the wall and said in a turbulent tone: "As far as I know, my brother is in school, and there are many girls who have a good impression of you, right?" There are also people who have taken the initiative to ask you to confess. β
"Yes, there are some."
"Then you have to say yes?"
"That's definitely not going to be, that's all abusive, I'm not that kind of person."
"So my point of view is very clear, even if my aunt really likes you, don't you just agree to it? She and I are in a different situation. β
July is completely on the same page as himself.
Talking about this, Kamihara Le probably understands the battle policy of Seven and Nine, that is, he is sure that Kamihara Le will not agree to release the snow of the sky and sea.
It's obviously a sincere confession, but it's not used by Seven and Nine as an opponent at all, Kamihara Le doesn't know why, and he actually feels a little pitiful for Xiao Yuki.
It seems that everyone doesn't care about her.
"By the way, what did you say when you pulled Zhixue out just now?"
"Just tell her not to talk about the relationship between me and you. But in fact, she didn't mean to say it, she just wanted to say that I can like you Qi Mingyue, then she can also like you...... By the way, how did she know about our relationship? Tianhai Qi Mingyue raised her eyes again.
β...... What she saw. β
Kamihara Le remembered that after he told Zhixue about the relationship between several people, he specially told her not to talk to a few people.
The original snow has always been remembered.
"Okay, that's the end of today's matter, as long as you tell your aunt more to express what you can't accept, she will understand."
Tianhai Qimingyue was about to go back to the room.
"Wait a minute, July."
"What else?"
"What does snow mean to you and Ruri? Or rather, how is the relationship between the two of you? β
This question made Tianhai Qi Mingyue think for a long time, "My sister and I... My sister and I don't meet my aunt too often, and she calls us Xiao Qi and Xiao Jiu just because we are the same age, because of the relationship between generations, there is a certain gap between us, to be honest, I usually feel a little weird when I call her aunt, but I have been shouting like this for many years, so I shouted it down... My sister and I thought the same thing. β
Kamihara Le patiently listened to what Tianhai Qi Mingyue said, and he extracted a key point from it, that is, Seven and Nine did not seriously treat Zhixue as their peers.
No wonder... It's no wonder that Ah Ling, who only met later, will have a better relationship with Xue.
It's no wonder that Snow comes to herself most of the time instead of going to Seven and Nine.
Probably Zhixue also faintly felt the subtle state between herself and Qijiu in her heart, so... Usually rarely bother the two of them.
[Le.] ]
I don't know why, in Kamihara's mind, I suddenly remembered the quiet appearance of Tianhai Zhixue in the corridor watching him go home and change his shoes with bare feet, holding his hands against the wall.
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After Kamihara Le refused, he was going to let her calm down alone for a while.
This also means that the fried ice cream that she usually makes for her is gone.
Kamihara was going to talk to her about it, so he took the initiative to come to her door and knock on the door at night.
Tuk tuk.
The door knocked twice and opened.
In the crack of the door is the little face of the snow of the sea in the sky.
She also saw the people outside the crack in the door.
"Le."
The crack in the door was a little more open.
"Good evening."
Kamihara thought that his ruthless refusal today would make his relationship with Yuki particularly awkward, but Amami no Yuki didn't seem to care at all, and after knowing that he wanted to enter his room, he let him in.
He didn't want to waste too many words, and planned to make his purpose clear to her directly.
"Zhixue, I'm here this time mainly to explain a few things to you, which is about your recent video clips and the things that have been helping you make fried ice cream recently, I may need to take a break for a while- wait, what are you doing? Why is there such a mess on the ground? β
Only then did Kamihara Le see a lot of messy colored cardboard stacked on the floor of the room in the snow of the sky. These scattered colored cardboards are matched with the already cluttered bedroom, making her knees in it appear to have some children's characteristics.
"Make something for fun."
"What is it?" Kamihara couldn't see what the mess in her hand was.
"I don't know."
Kamihara approached curiously, sat down next to her, picked up the cardboard she seemed to have folded, and looked at it, and finally understood what she was folding.
"What do you do folding paper cranes?"
β...... A thousand paper cranes? β
She looked confused, as if she had heard an unfamiliar word.
"You know the Thousand Paper Cranes, right?"
"I don't know." The girl didn't care, and continued to fold the things in her hand, her legs in a duck sitting posture were folded inward and slender, and her feet were even more white and shiny, soft and delicate.
"At least you've heard the name, right?"
"Oh."
"What do you mean?"
"I haven't eaten it."
β...... Paper cranes are not for eating. β
"That's right...... Ah, another one. β
Tianhai Zhixue said this emotionlessly, raised her hand, reflecting the warm light of the bedroom, and she was holding a thousand paper cranes that did not look like them at all.
"It doesn't look very tasty."
β......β
Kamihara has already lost to her, and she doesn't want to complain at all.
"This is fun."
"What to give it to me?" Kamihara saw an object that suddenly appeared in front of him, barely called a thousand paper cranes.
"Mom said that when you meet someone who is good to you, you can fold this out and give it to him."
Mother?
Speaking of which, Kamihara Le never knew the condition of Yuki's mother, only that he died in childbirth when he gave birth to Yuki. From now on, Xue is in a state where she has no friends and no peers want to know her.
"But the snow of your mother... Isn't it long gone? How did she say these things to you. β
"In a book."
"In the book?"
"There are a lot of words my mother wrote to me in the book."
Suicide note......
Kamihara probably understood what was going on, that there were many mothers who would write down a lot of things they wanted to say to their children in advance when they were still pregnant.
Maybe she knew that she was afraid that she wouldn't survive, so she wrote down those contents to Zhixue in advance, right?
"Can you show me?"
"Okay."
Tianhai Zhixue just glanced at him, ran to the bookshelf, stood on tiptoe, and came down with a wooden box.
She familiarly opened the lock with the key, and then handed the book inside to Kamihara.
It is said to be a book, but it is actually a diary with yellowed pages.
Kamihara opened it and looked at it.
In front of them are some pregnancy diaries, which probably write about the mental journey that she experienced when she was pregnant with Xue.
It was written that in fact, it was not intended to be born in the first place. After the parents learned that they were pregnant, they were in a state of reluctance to get rid of it and were afraid that the fetus would be malformed due to the advanced age of pregnancy.
[I know it may be wrong, but maybe this kid will want to come out and see the world?] Will you resentful of being picked up before you were born? But every time I feel the joy of another little heart in my belly, I wonder if this child is looking forward to coming to this world and watching this beautiful scenery with me. I don't think anyone can deprive a child of his right to happiness after he or she has a little consciousness. This child will have her own life in the future, will have her own path, and will have someone who is willing to love her...... After she experienced the beauty of these worlds, looking back at the present, she will also thank us for our decision, right? Ignorance... Ignorance... I don't know ......]
Turning to this, Kamihara Le was also thinking that because of the prominent family of the Tianhai family, he was actually willing to believe that Zhixue would be happy after he was born.
After all, her starting point is already the end of many people.
So it was written in the diary that after learning that the fetus was developing well and there were no malformations, the parents chose to give birth to her.
The risk of advanced maternal age is also considerable, and the probability of dystocia is particularly high, and this is true from the current results. Mother absolutely knows this.
But in the second half of the diary, there is no tangled and melancholy in the front, and the record is full of the beauty of life, and the joy and comfort of the sun shining on his face when he wakes up in the morning.
Some of the messages written in the back to Zhixue are also full of mother's love.
The youth and troubles that may arise at each age are written down at the end of her diary in advance.
It can be seen between the lines that the mother's mentality at this time is sunny and upward, full of affection and love, full of blessings and expectations for the children who have not yet met.
In the book, in the mother's imagination, Zhixue is definitely the kind of sunny and positive little girl.
However, the fact is that Zhixue has been squatting at home for more than ten years... Except for Qijiu, family, and no friends of the same age...
Kamihara slowly flipped it, and a white paper crane suddenly fell from the book.
While he picked up the paper crane, he also looked at the diary in the book.
[Zhixue, I don't know what kind of person you will be in the future.] But I think you'll also have someone you like, and when you have someone who can be nice to you, right? I always hope that you can find someone who can really accompany you for a lifetime, someone who can give you a sense of security, someone who can give you warmth, and someone who can remember your joys and sorrows deeply. Most importantly, I hope you can find someone with whom you can truly love.
[When you first feel that someone is genuinely kind to you, please fold the folding method of the paper crane I drew in your diary and give it to him... It's also a token of how your mother and your father can come together...... Hopefully, you'll get what you want.......]
- The ninth day of the winter month, stay.
"Le, here you go."
Kamihara closed the diary and looked at the snow of the sky and sea that was still folding a thousand paper cranes for him again, and his heart was filled with an indescribable taste.
He was sad that he was the first person to make Zhixue feel good, and he was sad why he chose himself......
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