It's April, and the temperature is getting hotter.

Even when you eat by the sea, you can't help but feel that the temperature has climbed to a depressing level.

After lunch, Tianhai Jiu Liuli declined all the students' invitations to go out for a walk in the afternoon, and went back to the hotel room for a lunch break first.

But the strange thing is that I want to go to sleep anyway. But I can't sleep all the time.

For the past few days, a voice has been echoing in my head.

That Sakakihara Le suddenly promised himself that he was willing to take him to the United Kingdom to see the promise of Maple Leaf Avenue.

Every time I open my eyes to look at the ceiling above my head, I think of the serious expression he promised himself at that time.

You can definitely take me there.

Will definitely take me there.

Lejun will definitely abide by the agreement.

Tianhai Jiu Liuli always hinted at this information in his heart.

Sometimes the hints rushed through her nerves like a torrent, causing her to open her eyes at once, her chest rising and falling restlessly.

By the time he reacted, there were already many droplets of sweat on his forehead.

What's wrong with you?

Don't understand.

I don't understand the origin of these inexplicable anxiety.

Tianhai Jiuliuli couldn't understand some things at all, so he had to lie on the bed with his hands open and take a few deep breaths.

It was only after her body and mind had relaxed for a while that she barely bothered to brace herself up, leaned back against the wall, and sat up from the bed.

The girl grabbed her phone, opened LINE, glanced at the sky outside the window where seagulls were flying, and finally put her eyes on the two contacts that are commonly used in LINE-

Sakakiwara Raku and the Seven Bright Moons of the Heavenly Sea.

Her fingers hovered over the avatar ID of Sakakihara's account for more than ten seconds, and suddenly closed her eyes.

She chose the Seven Bright Moons of the Heavenly Sea.

Pressing the button of the video call with his fingertips, Tianhai Jiuliuli hugged a pillow into his arms.

Honk. Honk.

After a few short communication sounds, the video was connected.

The mobile phone screen quickly showed Tianhai Qimingyue's face that was the same as himself, but looked extremely tired and calm.

She wore an off-the-shoulder summer dress and looked like she was sitting in a seaside restaurant, with the blue sea and lush strait in the background.

Tianhai Jiuliuli was stunned when he saw his sister's appearance.

"Why don't you seem to sleep in July?"

After hearing this, Tianhai Qi Mingyue in the mobile phone took the initiative to switch the front and rear cameras of the mobile phone, and put the camera perspective on Tianhai Zhixue, who seemed to be sitting opposite her.

The snow of the sky and the sea seems to be eating coconut crab rice, quiet and gentle.

Qi Mingyue is using the camera to explain why she seems to be not sleeping.

All right

Tianhai Jiuliuli understood.

The screen perspective returns to the face of Tianhai Qimingyue again.

[It's even more unusual for my sister to take the initiative to call me.] My sister has a conscience and wants to change shifts with me now? Is it so far away, but also feel the spiritual pain of your twin sister? ]

"Not really." Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled at her sister in the phone.

[Sister is really a vicious woman, and she doesn't care about your sister at all.] ]

Tianhai Jiuliuli took the initiative to ignore Qi Mingyue's complaints, and said to her: "It's convenient for July to talk to me alone now?" ”

[]

The seven bright moons of the sky and sea on the screen obviously lowered their eyes a little more, like a beautiful dead fish eye.

[Across from me, is my sister?] ]

"Of course."

[Didn't my sister think her words were strange?] ]

Tianhai Jiu Liuli's white legs were propped up together, his back was against the wall, and he held the mobile phone in both hands and put it on his knees, "It's very strange, after all, we just quarreled not long ago." ”

Tianhai Qimingyue on the screen of the mobile phone put the mobile phone on the dining table.

The phone was then upright, and she was lying on the table with her hands alternated.

[Sister, are you going to admit defeat?] ]

"What do you think of July?"

[It's impossible to think about it, but my sister took the initiative to call me, which also proves that my sister has something very important or wants to discuss with me.] ]

It was like Tianhai Qimingyue, who was framed in the screen of her mobile phone, closed her eyes, and turned her head sideways while lazily pillowing her arms. White fingers tapped on the tabletop, making a sound.

[Also, it's a phone call with me, not a heart-to-heart conversation with my brother.] For the first time in more than a decade. ]

Qi Mingyue's sentence "It's the first time in more than ten years" made Tianhai Jiuliuli feel touched.

As soon as she wanted to speak, Qi Mingyue immediately said another sentence, blocking the meaning that Tianhai Jiuliuli was about to speak.

[Know what my sister wants to say. But explain it to anyone, don't explain it to me. I understand that my sister always likes to be strong in front of me. ]

"About that. I've always hoped that July would make you understand. ”

[Of course I understand, after all, it's my sister who is five minutes older than me, and as an older sister, I have to help my sister share everything.] I don't want her to touch physical activities at all, and every time I encounter difficulties, I will avoid her, and I will never take the initiative to talk to her, and I will talk openly. ]

All of this is true.

I don't want my sister to see her weak self, I don't want to see my sister not being good, and I don't want my sister to help her without saying anything, but let her worry about herself.

Thinking about it carefully, Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly felt that the previous relationship with July was becoming more and more distant.

She closed her eyes. The surroundings of the hotel were so quiet that you couldn't hear anything except the waves coming out of your hands.

[Why did my sister suddenly stop talking?] ]

"Calling you now, the main thing is that there are some things that I still don't understand."

[Then why don't you look for my brother, but for me?] ]

These emotions are not suitable for him and he said. I'm a little messy, I don't know. ”

[Why?] Because my brother always comforts my sister unconditionally? ]

"I think so, the more comforting Leju is, the more sorry I feel for him."

[Why do you feel that?] ]

"Don't you think it's my brother taking care of me all the time.? And I, what did I give him? A few days ago, he took the initiative to tell me that he would definitely take me there. The more these thoughts take root in my head, the more breathless it feels, as if I don't have anything to be needed by Lejun."

Tianhai Qi Mingyue's fingers tapped on the tabletop and stopped.

She turned her head and looked back at her sister in the video conversation. My sister's tone was correct and her mood was normal, but when she said this, she turned her face to the side.

Obviously everything is normal.

But it seems that my sister is full of anxiety and uneasiness at this moment.

While anxious, my sister was still trying to control her inner emotions, which is why she has said these words to herself now.

[My sister really hasn't changed.] ]

"What?"

[My sister is still as weak as ever.] ]

"Weak as always"

Tianhai Qi Mingyue deflected her gaze again, and her fingertips continued to lightly hit the wooden board on the desktop:

[My sister's uneasiness comes from not understanding my own value, and from my sister's own will deny my sister's own value. But my sister never thought that my sister has value in herself, even if my sister stands still and doesn't do anything, there will be people who love you and people who want to care about you.

[The first thing my sister needs to understand is that everyone has their own value and meaning of existence, and they do not need to be affirmed or approved by the outside, and it is also a value for themselves. ]

“.”

Tianhai Jiuliuli doesn't know if it's because he is not very clear-minded.

I didn't understand Qi Mingyue's words.

[Sister thinks that my brother has given you a lot of unrequited care, right?] ]

"Yes."

[My sister thinks that she can't do anything in return to her brother, does she?] ]

"Yes."

[As I said just now, my sister's inner anxiety and uneasiness stem more from doubts about her own value and denial that my sister has lived in the goals given by others for a long time, and finally found a goal to pursue my brother, but because of my brother's love, I feel that I can't pay the corresponding care, but I let my brother accommodate everywhere and let my brother take care of it.

[Because of these, my sister's heart feels uneasy and anxious.]

[Sister, I've been feeling guilty and blaming myself all the time.] ]

After Qi Mingyue said so.

Tianhai Jiuliuli seems to understand where the anxiety in his heart comes from.

She smiled lightly, and had previously told Lejun about debts and debts, and they were written off

As a result, I couldn't help but think in my heart that I was sorry for his past.

As a third party, Tianhai Qimingyue can better understand her sister's current mentality.

Sister, as a person who has lacked love since childhood, when has she ever seen a guy like Sakakihara who is unconditionally willing to give care and warmth to others?

Love gives warmth.

It can also be stressful.

For his sister, the love he gave was magnified several times. This caused my sister to feel pressure from this "love".

My sister, who once experienced abandonment, is very sensitive to emotional matters.

In the face of the promise that her brother gave her again, she had a longing for since she was a child, and it was inevitable that she would have a lot of worries

[Actually, my sister wants to relieve this emotion, it's very simple.] Since my brother's love for my sister is too heavy, then just let it go and give it to me, and I will help you bear your brother's too heavy care. ]

"That's free."

[Huh?] Could it be that my sister has received her sister's favor and has not even thanked her at all? Wishing my sister happiness shouldn't be something my sister should do? ]

Tianhai Qimingyue on the mobile phone screen straightened her head, and with a contemptuous smile like a little devil, Tianhai Jiuliuli couldn't even remember how long she hadn't seen it.

"It's different now, July."

[Sister is trying to say that she has become bad?] ]

"It's not that I don't really understand my current mood, I don't want to admit defeat, but I'm very reluctant to have a relationship with you in July. Even when the quarrel is the most fierce, I want to make July soft and take the initiative to quit. If possible, re-establish the relationship with you. So far, the previous idea was too naïve. ”

[]

Tianhai Qi Mingyue didn't speak at this time, but what Sister Cai was thinking at the moment.

Could it be that my sister wants to soften?

Are you going to let go of a part?

It is true that Tianhai Qi Mingyue never thought of putting her sister to death, but every time she saw the picture of the two together, she couldn't help frowning.

I will care about these things in my heart.

Now, she has been in the contradiction of "I don't want to break up with my sister" and "My sister let go quickly and let me win".

The same is true for Tianhai Nine Glass.

"Thank you for this July, this is the first time I've talked to you. I don't want to admit it, but I'm happy. ”

[Sister still can't put down the shelf as a sister?] ]

"After all, I'm your sister five minutes older, please allow me to be so willful."

[Then can I understand this sentence as - my sister always wants to be my sister?] ]

"That's it."

Video, hung up.

Tianhai Qi Mingyue looked at the forty-three minutes of talk time with her sister in her hand.

The attitude of my sister is full of speculation.

Did my sister agree to her own existence, or did she agree to my brother's unreasonable conditions?

I don't understand

"Xiao Qi, I'm done eating."

Tianhai Qimingyue put down her phone, supported her delicate and beautiful face with her right hand, and went to see the snow of Tianhai wiping her mouth across the table.

"What's next?"

"Shopping."

"Shopping again? You won't still want to eat? ”

"Buy clothes."

Tianhai Qi Mingyue nodded, "It's okay to buy clothes." ”

*

Lunch break at noon.

The air conditioner in the hotel room was whirring and the air conditioning was blowing.

The midday sun illuminates the entire interior.

Sakakihara was still finishing his study report on the gods on his school trip, and just as he was about to stretch, his shoulder was lightly tapped.

As soon as I turned around, I found that it was Tianhai Jiuliuli in a smile.

He was a little surprised, and he was also happy that Tianhai Jiu Liuli would suddenly come to him.

"When did Ruri come? And how did you get in? ”

"Lejun was so busy, the door forgot to close, as soon as I came, I wanted to surprise Lejun as soon as I saw a crack, and by the way, check what Lejun was doing."

Sakakihara was very happy that she could say, "I feel like a decent girlfriend." ”

"Not really!"

"What's wrong? Laugh so happily. ”

"Nothing. I just feel like I've figured something out again. ”

Tianhai Jiuliuli said, and suddenly stuck up.

Sakakihara didn't move much, but she took the initiative to hug her neck.

The thin skin of her arms scraped against the flesh of her neck. Different body temperatures come into contact with each other, bringing a soft touch.

"What's wrong?" Sakakihara smiled and turned the chair in the direction of her slimy hug. Then he put his arm around her waist and let her sit on her side on her lap.

"I miss you."

Facing each other, Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled again, and took the initiative to hug his neck.

When she hugged her, Sakakihara could clearly smell the girl's scent on her.

Soft and lightly aromatic.

Refreshing.

Sakakihara did not resist her to stick to herself, patting her petite back:

It's not like we haven't seen each other in the morning, it's like we haven't seen each other in years."

"Lejun, you've always been very good to me." Tianhai Jiu Liuli pushed him away and put his hands on his shoulders. Eyes look straight at him.

"Huh? I like you, shouldn't I be nice to you-"

Sakakihara didn't have time to finish his words, and he was immediately gagged by Tianhai Jiu Ruri with glutinous lips.

At first, Sakakihara was a little surprised that she was so enthusiastic and proactive. But this is not the first time this kind of thing has happened, so I took the initiative to meet her actions.

Why is Ruri suddenly so clingy, and why is it suddenly doing this.

Don't think about it, just enjoy the moment.

When the lips are touched, there is also a slight jelly-like sound occasionally

After separation, the body is a little hot.

Sakakihara looked at her and asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?" ”

"Nothing." Tianhai Jiuliuli pursed his lips, as if recalling the taste he left behind.

"This can't explain that Liuli is so abnormal, I usually feel that holding your hand will cause you to have a lot of mental activities."

"Lejun knows me so well?"

"Of course. This is also a compulsory course, how can I like you if I don't try to understand you? ”

"Lejun is very good to me."

"Generally speaking, as a boyfriend, there are some things I can't avoid."

Tianhai Jiuliuli said seriously: "But. Just those things a long, long time ago, Lejun was really good to me. ”

"Huh?"

"I understand, I like you very much. Guilt, gratitude, or dependence. are all factors that make up liking Lejun. ”

“.” Sakakihara listened carefully.

Tianhai Jiu Liuli took the initiative to take his hand and interlocked his fingers: "Like is like, this is an irrefutable fact. I. In fact, I have been avoiding some facts, the facts that have changed. Lejun really. Really love July? ”

"Before I do it, I will hesitate to show compassion for her. But that's it now, like her too. ”

Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly smiled, "You can see that Le Jun doesn't want to say this to me in front of me, and the same is true for July, right?" ”

"When I really feel like it, she does."

"Well, since that's the case, I have to accept the fact that 'Lejun has indeed become a scumbag'. There is no doubt that as a boyfriend, Lejun is derelict in his duties. ”

"I'm guilty." Sakakihara admitted his mistake.

"Will Lejun change it?"

"No, it won't."

"Do you really want to insist on that?"

"It's all come to this point, if I give up what to do, I'm a scumbag."

Tianhai Jiu Liuli: "Then Lejun is planning to give up on me?" ”

"A scumbag is a scumbag, and what I want is to step on two boats."

Tianhai Jiu Liuli: "I've always been struggling, whether I should accept the fact that Le Jun is a scumbag and have always avoided this matter, but now I can see it clearly." ”

"Ruri is leaving?"

"It's normal to leave, isn't it?"

"That's right."

"What does Lejun think?"

Sakakihara sighed, and he was helpless in his heart: "I definitely don't want you to leave, but I'm sorry, I can only give you half of my love." If you really choose that, I will respect you too. ”

"I like that your things will not be fake, I want me to give a certain concession myself, sorry, this is not to agree to Lejun's unreasonable request, but compared to July, I have done too little and too little"

Tianhai Jiuliuli seemed to be entangled in his psychology, "Moreover, if I take the initiative to quit, doesn't this mean that I will lose to July?" ”

“.”

Sakakihara didn't know how to answer her.

"I don't want to let go, but I can't change you, I can't change July, I can't hurt you, I can't hurt July, in the end. In fact, there is an answer that I have always thought about in my heart, but I have never been willing to admit it. ”

“.”

Sakakihara saw her somewhat evasive eyes, and already understood what her thoughts were.

Liuli is going to agree?

"Disagree! What does Lejun think! No one wants to share someone they like, and the same goes for July. It's just that she's more powerful than me, and she can do more tolerance."

"So. What is Liuli.? ”

I can't let go now because I only have such a thing as Lejun in my heart now. So I couldn't let go, and I knew that as a human being, I should become independent. But it's hard to do, so, so-"

Tianhai Jiuliuli said this passage for a long time and did not express it clearly.

So much so that Sakakihara gradually understood the entanglement and uneasiness that came from her heart.

"So. Lejun, you know what I mean, right? ”

"Promised?"

It's not that I agreed, and July didn't promise to live in peace with me, which doesn't mean that I agree with that scumbag idea of Lejun. It's just that July has conceded more than me, and I don't want to be better than her."

"Why did Ruri start to learn to harden her mouth in July?"

"It's really not, but although I understand, it's really, not so transparent."

Sakakihara got serious: "What does Ruri mean, you have to start now, learn to let go?" ”

That's right, that's what it means. As for the final result, it's hard to say yet, so you can't make a decision first."

Clearly, there is always a process of acceptance.

Fortunately, Ruri finally has some signs of compromise, as for whether she can get along with July amicably.

Not necessarily.

(End of chapter)