I don't know what kind of mood it is.

I don't know how to describe my mood at this time.

Tianhai Qi Mingyue faced the person in front of him, never thought that he would think like this from the beginning.

"So what are you going to do?"

"Heavy or?" Sakakihara asked softly.

"Of course it's important. I would like to know your answer. ”

Sakakihara Le's gaze stayed on her face for an extra second, shook his head, and took the initiative to shake off her hand, "Qimingyue, it doesn't matter how things are. ”

"So what do you think is important? Is it that after making everyone no longer need you, you choose to take on everything and leave alone? What's in it for you.? The good ones are always left to others, but what about yourself? ”

Tianhai Qimingyue completely understood.

After he was completely angry, this guy knew that with his own personality, he would constantly make the people around him uncomfortable and miserable.

Sister, Suzu, Yuki, and herself. It's all true.

So. He will deliberately say those excessive words to himself after that, and continue to encourage and cultivate the growth of Suzu and Yuki, and fulfill his sister's dream.

This bastard just understands his own mistakes, and knows that there is no way to fix them, and that whichever side you choose will hurt the other. That's why he pushes a hand in everyone's back, and when he hates him, when everyone doesn't need him anymore. Silently gone.

"Idiot."

This kind of person who wants to carry all the negative emotions and take them away alone, Tianhai Qi Mingyue thought about it for a long time, and finally could only find this word to describe him.

"Scold me again?"

"You're an idiot, you're scolding."

Although he was a little tired, but now that Qi Mingyue still looks like this, Sakakihara Le is even more tired and uncomfortable when he listens to it.

"Okay, okay, since you hate me so much, then don't say so much in front of me, you leave me alone-"

Under the street lamp, Sakakihara had not finished speaking, and when he raised his head, he saw a little bit of sparkle in the eye sockets of the seven bright moons of the heavenly sea.

This, why are you still crying?

Besides, she is Qi Mingyue, can she cry?

Sakakihara Le found that in the eyes of Tianhai Qimingyue staring at her, there were not only tears, but also the true feelings that she did not express in her heart as her eyes fluttered.

What is this.?

Can't bear to give up?

The things she did, from her point of view, weren't enough for her to be angry?

Sakakihara didn't want to escape from their side, but he was around a few people, and he would only make a few people make unpleasant things happen again. This brings pain to everyone, and it also makes the wound in everyone's heart irreparable.

Since Qi Mingyue hates herself so much, since Suzu, Zhixue, and Liuli have all been hurt again and again because of themselves.

Then, it is enough to let "they no longer need to be with themselves" and let them "live happily on their own".

"Then you, what about you?" The seven bright moons of the sky and the sea were on the banks of the Thames, and asked this question again.

What should I do myself.?

To be honest, I don't seem to have ever seriously thought about it, nor have I seriously done it.

In my previous life, I was bitter, and there was no one who could like me.

Well. It is probably because of this relationship that I want to take care of the guys around me who have not been loved again and again. I want to give them warmth and care.

This is equivalent to redeeming oneself who suffered in the past.

I don't want them to end up in the same miserable situation as they were in their last life.

What should I do?

I really didn't think that as long as I could help someone who was in the same situation as myself, I would be able to reap happiness and salvation in it.

It's the same feeling as a child who grew up in an orphanage, who doesn't want his own children to become orphans when they start a family in the future.

"You guy. Always. ”

"What's the matter, I'm always like this, Qi Mingyue, aren't you the same stinky guy? Poisonous tongue, but also arrogant, but also very high. Obviously uncomfortable to die, he is still stubborn, and he has to say that he is fine. It's okay? You're really okay, I don't know yet? Saying that you hate me, is it fun to come to the UK to play pretend games with me? Since you hate me, why don't you go a little farther? ”

"Because you're always going to be this bastard."

"How am I?"

Before Sakakihara could finish speaking, he felt something crash into his arms.

He looked down. Her hands had subconsciously been placed on the flaxen-colored hair, and she had already put her head on her shoulder, her heads intertwined, and she was full of the familiar fragrance of green apples when she exhaled and breathed.

There were no words, only the whirring of the wind by the riverside.

This is probably what Tianhai Qi Mingyue wants to convey to herself with practical actions what she thinks at the moment.

- Still, I don't want you to leave.

She hugged her waist tightly, and the words she spoke through the movements of her hands were so clear.

However, Sakakihara didn't feel anything warm about it.

You must know that an hour or two ago, I was arguing with her at the bedside.

That kind of relationship, which has been estranged for a long time, is so close again at this moment, Sakakihara Le just feels very uncomfortable.

He sighed lightly and said earnestly:

You said you hated me before."

"I have to correct you a little bit, first of all, it's you who hates this word. I'm just saying that I can't accept your infinite overflow of compassion anymore. Tianhai Seven Bright Moon said calmly on Sakakihara's shoulder.

"But don't you get the most longed-for thing in your life because of this compassion in July?" Sakakihara spread his hands outward, not choosing to take the initiative to hug her.

“.”

"That doesn't justify you accepting other women. I can't accept that you guys chose to break their promises."

Hear this sentence that is almost like a whisper

Sakakihara once again heard the insecurities that existed in her past heart.

Why is July so insecure.?

It's not hard to guess now. She was afraid of being abandoned, just as her mother had left her alone on the village platform in the past.

Obviously a withdrawn and high-minded person, what he is really afraid of in his heart is actually loneliness.

July is also such a contradictory person.

"You hold me like this, do you want me to leave?"

“.”

"If you don't speak, you're acquiescing."

“.”

"What is there to miss about this rotten man? Feelings, feelings can't be responsible. People, people can't be satisfied. You have to keep messing with flowers and grass, you are so good, wouldn't you be better off if you left me? ”

“.”

Sakakihara waited for a long time, and saw the Tianhai Jiu Ruri on the other side of the street lamp smiling at him.

He sighed and avoided his gaze.

"When I left for England, my aunt said something to me."

"What?"

"When you are angry, you will always see the bad side of things. Just as in a quarrel, everyone will take out the other's past mistakes and repeat them, in the quarrel, the other must be reduced to worthlessness, so as to establish their own victory. ”

"What does Qi Mingyue want to say with this?"

"It's irrational. Because magnifying the worst side will only make the good side of the past disappear with it. Many things are not irreparable, but they are just carried away by irrationality for a while. And what I need to repay you, what you brought me, I will never be able to pay back."

“.”

Hearing this, Sakakihara couldn't help but sigh.

July is actually talking about the care she gave her when she was a child, right?

Her feelings are too deep and too deep, and because she understands her own character, she has never felt safe.

"Not just in the beginning, but someone gave me only a gift on my birthday"

“.”

I don't know what to say.

Should it be said that July, is it too affectionate?

On the surface, she seems to value feelings the least, but in fact, she is the one who needs affection the most among all people?

I don't know who said they didn't need a gift that day."

"Ugly, no."

"Still hard-mouthed. If I want to change the time, I will send you an ugly one in July, and you will accept it. After all, which girl is so stupid, and she still likes shark dolls so much at this age. ”

"No need is no need."

"Still hard-mouthed. But okay, if you don't have a hard mouth, it's not July you. Who doesn't know that you guy is a knife-mouthed tofu heart. Did you hear my aunt say that I wanted to die, so I hurried to England to find me? Who is going to die, but I just feel tired and want to go out and find out if there is anything else that can make me happy. ”

Sakakihara raised his head, and the stars filled the night sky.

"Actually, I thought about it, I would go to a remote orphanage. I usually help the children in it with cooking, tutoring and other things, and I want them to understand that they don't have to envy a normal family. In this big family, everyone is a brother and sister, everyone will support each other, and everyone will move forward with each other. Everyone is not cynical, and they never laugh at the shortcomings of their family, but are kind to tolerate, and friendly to lead him to grow and change. ”

"It's really your style." Tianhai Qimingyue said.

"Haha, what about otherwise? If you can say thank you, I'll be satisfied. ”

"It's no wonder that when you were in the orphanage before, those kids liked you so much."

"Well, if I don't say anything else, I'm still quite popular with children."

Chatted.

The atmosphere has indeed eased a lot.

"But."

Sakakihara took the initiative to push away the seven bright moons of the heavenly sea, "July. Just because that's not the thing I've done doesn't exist—"

Halfway through his words, he was pressed to his mouth by a slender index finger.

Tianhai Qi Mingyue stretched out her hand, although her eyes were a little red, she was still the usual three faceless:

"I know what you want to say? What you think you're doing wrong can't be treated as if it doesn't exist, and what you're doing is around us and causing us to get hurt again and again. But isn't this your arrogance, brother?

"Look at the sister in the back, think about the current bell, and recall the snow now. Which of them didn't have the appearance they are today under your good side? Have a different kind of growth?

"Suzu wouldn't have grown up so well in that family environment without you.

"The snow is gone, and you're still spending every day in your hometown.

"My sister is without you, and now she will only be under the control of her mother to fulfill her dream of being a star in the art world.

"They all have the light they have now because of you, brother."

Tianhai Qimingyue's eyes flashed with a bright light, and her tone softened.

"Brother, never just see the bad side of things, everything is good and bad. Even if they and I will think you're a jerk at some point, that doesn't mean you're good, and that's gone. If it weren't for your kindness to everyone, we wouldn't have gotten together at all, experiencing a different life in a life with twists and turns but fun.

"Suzu would have cried the most if she had known that you would be leaving her side, and she would have left all her work behind desperate to find you. For her, more than ten years of experience, you are her life, for Zhixue, for my sister, and for me.

"Brother, you save us at the same time that we. I will care about you just as much.

"Brother, your position in everyone's hearts is far more important than you think."

The wind on the riverside blew the girl's flaxen hair.

Sakakihara looked at her real face, her sky-blue polished eyes, and her throat was rolling gently along with the water beside her.

He didn't know why, but he laughed lightly.

Yuxin laughed.

And then it was interrupted.

"Of course, there is a premise for this." Tianhai Qimingyue clasped his hands to his chest.

"What.?" Sakakihara was stunned that this warm moment was interrupted less than a moment.

"Explain why you chose to bring the snow back, and how you plan to house her."

It's really a big lady's demeanor, high up."

"Shouldn't that be asked?"

"Yes, yes, Miss Tianhai, of course you should ask. But according to the meaning of the second miss, do you want to get back together with me? Sorry, I don't say yes. ”

"To be precise, after understanding that you're not that selfish, I'm going to take back what I said — wait, what do you mean?"

"How can you get back together before you break up for three months, I think it's good to have less restraint on weekdays."

Don't you think I've said enough of that? Do you want me to say it again.? ”

“.” Sakakihara Le just wanted to make a joke, but he didn't expect Tianhai Qimingyue to care about him again.

Seeing that Tianhai Qi Mingyue was rarely so sincere, he didn't have the slightest intention of joking.

He put his hands into fists and put them to his mouth, coughed twice, and said:

"Ahem, don't worry, I really don't mean to die. From the very beginning, I just wanted to go out and find something to do on my own. ”

Tianhai Qi Mingyue stared at him with half-closed eyes, "I said it so lightly, I just want to fly away with everyone on my back." ”

Don't worry about these details. Also, what do you think about the snow in July? ”

Tianhai Qi Mingyue first sighed helplessly, then clasped his hands to his chest and said:

"The Snow affair wasn't your or her fault in the first place. I've never hated her or anything, I just think I can't accept your previous behavior. ”

"And now?"

"It's also a lot of fire right now. But since Suzuto said that she herself is not married, can I still understand what she means? Now it's just one more bell."

Tianhai Qi Mingyue said and said, put down his hands again, and sighed again and said, "The casual response last time was taken seriously by Zhixue, and it was also my fault. Because of that incident, the problem of Zhixue surfaced in advance, but since you can handle grandpa, brother, then there must not be so many things to do in the future. In addition, if it weren't for the arguments between you, my father, and my grandfather, my sister and I wouldn't be able to live so comfortably in the back, and from this point on, I still have to thank you. ”

"Okay?"

Tianhai Jiu Liuli, who had been watching from the back for a long time, appeared behind her sister at this time, and she was extremely happy to see that the two of them could communicate so calmly now.

"Look, look, Lejun, I'll just say that July is because I'm worried about you! You hurriedly came with me from Tokyo. ”

“.” Sakakihara Leta looked at the Nine Colored Glass of the Heavenly Sea that was exactly the same as the Seven Bright Moon of the Heavenly Sea, and remembered what happened tonight, "Today, all day-"

Tianhai Jiuliuli explained with a smile: "It's me in the morning, and it's July in the afternoon!" Then the bathroom is me, chatting with Lejun at the door of the hotel. It's actually July. ”

The one who lost his high heels is July.?!

“.”

"Lejun has been deceived. Can't tell? ”

"Don't play like that in the future, I don't recognize it."

"Not being able to recognize it can only be someone's problem." Tianhai Qi Mingyue interjected.

Tianhai Jiuliuli hugged her sister's arm and smiled: "Isn't it interesting?" Also, Lejun, where will you stay in July tonight? I can't let her open a hotel room alone, and it's good for me to talk to her in the evening. ”

"I sleep on the couch."

"Don't sleep together?"

"It's all right."

(End of chapter)