After the rain, the night sky was still cloudy.

The cool evening breeze blew in through the window, carrying the smell of dead wood in the autumn silence.

Rustle, rustle –

The sound of pen and paper grinding sounded in the quiet room, and the unmellow pencil scratched on the white paper, and the uneven force of the lead powder trickled down.

[If you can, never want to leave him.] 】

Sakuhara wrote on paper.

That's all you can write.

She lost the strength to hold the pen.

When the wrist is crooked, the pencil can't help but slip off.

Saki Chu Xiaoto sat at the end of the bed and hugged his legs, his delicate fingers weakly tugging at the white socks, even if the edges of the vertical white socks had already been deformed.

She repeated this action for a long time today.

But his head was still groggy.

Raise your head and look at the wall, there is a mirror.

The old life-size mirror rested opposite the end of the bed, just in time to reflect her entire body.

Saki Chu Xiaoto looked at himself in the mirror, and gently brushed the fine bangs on his forehead with his fingers, revealing the fair and delicate cheeks, and looked at the figure in the mirror in a daze, especially the magnificent eyes.

The slender crow-like eyelashes fluttered slightly, the softness of the loose clothes hung down the lifted legs, and the blush and luster on the knees were shining.

She is very self-aware.

I also know that I am beautiful.

Otherwise, I wouldn't have traded myself in the first place.

So when he fell into the quagmire of grandma's need for treatment costs, Sakutsu Koto knew that he was probably the last thing he could take, but at that time, he also perfectly interpreted the rush to the doctor.

After all, time waits for no one.

Looking at the grandmother who was getting thinner and thinner on the hospital bed, Sakuha's heart continued to sting, but he blamed himself for being powerless.

Especially after seeking any help to no avail, it was like struggling in a quagmire for her, but the more she struggled, the faster she fell.

Fear, panic, helplessness...

Even if you lose your parents since childhood, you can carry the banner of the family.

In the knowledge that the only reliance is about to pass away.

The strength of her heart also broke at this moment.

And just when she was about to throw her last dignity to the ground and follow the so-called agent who she knew the nature of, Yuan Laiguang suddenly appeared and broke the trajectory of her life.

Among them, Yuan Laiguang has a sentence that she remembers very clearly.

"If you want to get the light, you have to endure the wounds of darkness."

That is, this sentence that seems to make a lot of sense.

Let her follow Yuan Laiguang in a daze.

It wasn't until the message of the change in the bank balance that night that Sakuhatsu Koto realized that Minamoto Yoriko was the one who could help her get out of her predicament, even if the other party's purpose was still her own body.

But things didn't go the way I expected.

When he took the initiative but was rejected after repeated inner struggles, Sakuhara Koto seemed to notice the difference in Minamoto Yorimitsu, and his behavior seemed to be completely inconsistent with the original asking price.

Obviously he cares about himself.

But I always like to say it with a cold face.

Obviously said that he wanted himself.

But they always kept a safe distance.

Obviously sometimes dislike himself.

was willing to spend time with her in the hospital.

Thinking of this, Saki Hakuto quickly picked up the mobile phone next to him, unlocked the screen and quickly entered the interface of the chat software, and his thin white fingers kept swiping up urgently to find a certain information.

It wasn't until half a minute later that she found A.

The faintly glowing handwriting on the screen catches your eye.

[I really like you, please get along with me!] ]

Even through a cold screen, you can feel the heat.

At that time, Sakichu Koto, who had never been confessed, was extremely flustered, and even subconsciously felt that his brain was too fake, and even thought that it was a prank of playing games among his classmates.

Until the source of the light shines into her darkness like a ray of light.

She was convinced that none of this was a coincidence.

Even if Minamoto denies it, it can't be.

So the more she owes, the more she wants to pay it back.

Just as she had tried to give herself up several times but was rejected, she seemed to have found the door that opened Yuan Laiguang's heart, especially since even if she expressed her liking, she was still expressed several times suspicious.

"Do you think you're not pure enough?"

At first, Sakutsu Koto thought that he should not be lost, at least under that kind of deal, he was not asked, and he should have the psychology that he took advantage of it.

But that's not the case.

Although she seemed to be bound all over, trapped in the dark mire and unable to extricate herself, she could only pray for the help of her hands, and longed to be held tightly forever, dragging herself in the direction of the light.

But now she feels completely different.

Like, grateful, dependent...

She can clearly perceive a variety of emotions.

So she couldn't tell what she really thought.

But he also wanted to stay by the side of Yuan Laiguang desperately.

She shuddered at the thought of losing light.

Even if that light might suffocate you.

Especially after seeing the beautiful girl come to the door to entangle, Sakutsu Koto realized that he couldn't keep him by relying on beauty alone, and his own path seemed to be on the wrong direction for a long time.

As a result, her gaze was even more determined.

Sakutsu Koto came back to his senses, his gaze moving down to his phone, his fingers swiping across the screen.

Open a forum that you follow on 2ch.

[Hey! Take! A gathering place for slashing men! 】

The blackened and bold handwriting catches the eye.

It shows an extraordinary momentum.

Saki Hatsu Koto skimmed over the blushing forum name, and skillfully flipped through the previous posts with his fingers, and found that there were already many red dot replies and discussions.

The title of her post is also very simple.

[I want to be by his side forever, but I don't deserve him, what should I do? 】

This is a post from this afternoon.

I didn't expect so many replies.

Saki Hatsu Koto flipped through the comments a little nervously.

[Sister Lake Tu!] Why love men! Don't we have hands!? ]

[Breaks his leg and leaves him paralyzed in bed, and then you take care of him (smiles)]

[Isn't it a little too violent upstairs for us girls to be gentle?] I think it's better to feed him some decoction, so that he can always be tired and sleepy, and then snuggle in your arms every day. ]

[Ask for a link!] ]

[Same as the link!] ]

Saki Hatsu Koto shivered when he saw it.

Why do people beat people at every turn?

And what does that have a hand mean?

She continued to scroll down with some confusion.

Go back and forth through dozens of layers of comments

Finally saw something serious.

[Don't listen to the nonsense upstairs, since you don't think you are worthy of him and don't want to leave him yet, there are only two ways, one is to improve yourself, and the other is to lower his level, but of course I recommend improving yourself, men prefer girls who are helpful to them, and career is what they pay more attention to. ]

[Even if you can't help a man's career, try not to cause him any trouble, even if you marry into a wealthy family as a pure vase, you must have a relatively dazzling education and identity, such as a good position in your serious job, you must be able to be introduced to friends by him.] ]

[In addition, we must do both, not only to improve ourselves, but also to please him...]

Saki Chu Xiaoto looked at the comment with the nickname "[Sparrow], and for a while there was boundless resonance in her heart, and she carefully read all her comments several times.

She silently nodded her thumbs up.

Then he hesitated.

I sent a friend request to the other party.

Saki Chu Xiaoto flipped through the comments below, and found that everyone was discussing careers, and there was a heated debate about what could be done, and she quickly looked at it carefully with a slight movement in her heart.

Teachers, doctors, accountants, tax accountants, civil servants...

These are the most popular professions.

It seems that he has found the reason for his efforts, and Sakuha's depressed mood is a little lighter, and the spirit of Yiyi also joins the discussion, and when he sees the instant reply, he is even more excited.

Good-looking romance

Until after weighing the pros and cons among the numerous professions.

Sakuhatsu's eyes are full of determination and excitement.

In the end, even if she was lying in bed ready to sleep.

It is difficult to fall asleep even if you are in a high mood.

It was like finding the way out in the darkness with no direction, and this heartfelt stability and excitement was too hard to hide, and she rolled around on the bed and kicked the fluffy quilt around.

"Yourself, you have to become better, and then be worthy of him!"