Chapter 225: Everything will disappear with the wind, and that's how we live
In the living room of Amamiya's house, Amamiya Night has temporarily left first, and only Tetsufumi Hirakawa and Amamiya's mother are left facing the sofa.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa picked up the black tea and took a sip gently.
"Mrs. Amamiya, please allow me to take the liberty of asking."
Said as he put down his teacup.
"Have you ever wondered about this question, it's ......"
There was a slight delay, so that the mother on the other side was a little prepared.
"You've given up your job and returned to your family, however, Amamiyaya-san is always too ......"
The blunt and overly negative word 'withdrawn' has been hidden.
"I'm always alone, and this situation hasn't changed."
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Because of his speech, Mrs. Amamiya stared at him in a daze, and did not react in time.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa continued to add.
"That is to say, although Mrs. Amamiya's approach to returning to the family is indeed very intentional, and as a mother, you have indeed done what you can do, but ...... It's probably actually going in the wrong direction. β
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"I may be abrupt when I say that, forgive me."
Tetsufumi Hirakawa paused a little more, waiting for Amamiya's mother's attitude.
She waited for a moment and then came back to her senses: "No, that, Mr. Hirakawa, please continue." β
After hearing this, Tetsufumi Hirakawa nodded: "Well, okay, then I'll continue." β
"Have you ever thought about it, although Amamiyaya's situation was caused by a lack of companionship at the beginning, the solution is probably not something that can be solved simply by adding more company."
"I'll give you an example, just myself."
While Amamiya's mother waits, Tetsufumi Hirakawa is brewing.
"For example, when I was a child, I didn't hide it from my parents, who didn't discipline me much."
"......" Amamiya's mother stared at him with winked eyes, unable to interject into the topic and could only listen.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa is talking about the events of the previous life.
Indeed, in fact, many students like him in his previous life are faced with a situation where the companionship of their parents is missing.
Because of the lack of family education when I was young, when I grew up, all aspects had been formed, and to be honest, it was too late to accompany me in this situation.
"Because I have experienced this kind of thing, I stand in the shoes of a former child and a teacher today, and I can say that the company of parents is really important when children are young."
"The companionship of children as a child almost laid the foundation for the communication between the child and the parents."
"It's because when I was young, I didn't communicate much with my parents, so it led to a gap between me and my parents."
"Well, that's right, in fact, no matter how intimate the relationship is, the lack of a certain amount of communication will produce estrangement, even if it is as close as parents and children, there will be."
"And this kind of estrangement, once it occurs, is actually difficult to make up."
"Because the personality habits I developed when I was a child are really difficult to change."
"To give you one of the most obvious examplesβ"
Tetsufumi Hirakawa smiled slightly when he said this.
"I'm not afraid of your jokes, when I was a child, although I was a boy, I really wanted to be spoiled with my parents, and so on, I should have this kind of thought, when I was a child."
"But......"
"Paradoxically, I've never been spoiled by my parents."
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Because of Tetsufumi Hirakawa's words, the living room fell into a cold silence.
Amamiya's mother opened her mouth, but she didn't know what to say.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa's mouth was still smiling.
Very warm smile, but ...... It should be obvious that there is a bit of bitterness in this.
"Why not?"
"I guess you have some answers."
"It's just a barrier."
"Although I often want to be coquettish with my parents in my heart, I usually see classmates who can be coquettish with my parents, and I often envy them in my heart."
"However, once I want to do it, the words change when I come to my mouth, and I have never done it, so that kind of coquettish look can't be made naturally."
"It's a little sad, but that's true, until I grew up and sensible, and I missed the age when I could be spoiled, I never spoiled my parents."
"Personally, I think the root cause is the communication gap caused by this lack of companionship."
"And as I said before, the communication when I was a child laid the foundation for the communication when I grew up."
"Children who have been with their parents since they were young and can spoil themselves freely will probably be the same when they grow up."
"And children who have never seen their parents since they were young, and may not be able to say a few words, when they see their parents in the future, perhaps, there is not a lot of love in their hearts, but ah, it is difficult for them to express it."
"Children who are not accustomed to expressing their emotions to their parents will have a hard time expressing them when they grow up."
"It's like a coquettish I could never have done when I was a kid."
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In a speechless silence, Tetsufumi Hirakawa drank all the black tea in front of him.
Then, he asked lightly, but as if he had hit the Achilles' heel.
"Allow me to ask you a question."
"Amamiya-san, has she ever been coquettish to you?"
"Was there before? And after that, after you started to accompany her, did you? β
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Tetsufumi Hirakawa took his leave, and under the leadership of Miss Hatsuzaki, he walked out of the gate of the Amamiya house.
"Mr. Hirakawa, please walk slowly."
"I'm sorry for you."
Miss Hatsusaki, who was dressed as a maid, bowed behind her, and Tetsufumi Hirakawa said goodbye to her and turned to leave, and the door of Amamiya's house behind him slowly closed.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa walked towards the tram stop.
The scenery along the way is just right, the afternoon sun is very bright, the swaying shade of the trees on the sidewalk, the light of the broken gaps and the deep shadows of the trees, swaying on the body.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa began to think of Amamiya's mother's silent answer when he was leaving.
Obviously, the answer is no.
Lack of companionship since childhood, even if Amamiya's mother corrected it and returned to the family, this companionship was a little too late.
The estrangement between Amamiya and her mother has arisen.
Albeit...... Does Amamiya want her mother to accompany you? Think.
Is there a communication gap between her and her mother? exists.
This is not a contradiction.
It is not uncommon for people to be able to say anything in front of others, but they can't say a word for a long time in front of their parents.
The second middle girl who can show her heart wantonly in front of him, but it is difficult to show the real her in the face of her mother, and she can't even be coquettish.
That's it.
And,Faced with the mother who gave up her job to return to the family out of compensation,A problem that Amamiya must also face is-
The love out of compensation is speechless, and this wordlessness is imposed on the two people who already have a communication barrier, which makes this wordlessness even more secret.
If Amamiya was alone, she might never be able to share her inner feelings with her mother.
Middle two, the hidden body, her true appearance can never be shown in front of her mother.
And because of her mother's denialβ
"If the child gets sick because of this kind of thing, it will be very troublesome."
The negation from the closest people made the girl deny her appearance in her heart, and it was impossible to show her like this.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa was the only one who gave her the affirmation.
So it's not hard to imagine the trust that this secondary girl has in him.
But of course, this is not enough, the affirmation from her mother is what this girl wants most.
Therefore, Tetsufumi Hirakawa agreed to solve this matter with her, and communicated this matter clearly with her mother.
Obviously, the communication gap caused by the lack of companionship cannot be solved by simply re-accompaniment.
Under the premise that the estrangement has already arisen, it is necessary to eliminate the estrangement.
What Tetsufumi Hirakawa did was to create this opportunity between them.
However, this kind of opportunity is not simply created immediately, it must be taken step by step.
What Tetsufumi Hirakawa did during today's home visit was to plant a seed in Amamiya's mother's heart and make her realize that the problem had not been solved, and Amamiya had hidden something from her.
The reason for the concealment lies in the estrangement, in the lack of communication.
And now that the seed has been planted, it is only waiting for the time to sprout.
It will take a little time, and there is no hurry.
However, if the process goes well, it may be solved at the time of the school festival?
The plan has already been drawn up in my head, just waiting to be executed.
That's it, take your time.
It's just......
Tetsufumi Hirakawa, who was leisurely strolling along the road, looked at the transparent blue sky, and the pedestrians and vehicles around him, and his thoughts followed the high sky.
Because of the conversation with Amamiya's mother just now, the ethereal memories of the previous life began to emerge, like a broken ruin covered by dust and sand, and the dust and sand were blown away by the wind, revealing a little trace of existence.
What happened to the parents of the previous life?
Sadly, or perhaps not sadly, most of the memories have been forgotten, and even the faces are gone.
The same sad, or not sad, is that now they are only a little ethereal impression when they are mentioned, and their emotions are deserted, and there is no sadness or joy.
It's hard to say whether it's sad or not.
Forgetting is a human self-protection mechanism.
If you live a new life, but take with you the pleasant, nostalgic, and sad ...... of the previous life All kinds of things, these things are engraved in my mind, so relive a lifetime, these memories that can't be let go will only become indelible scars, right?
Because you'll never see you again.
The inability to forget is that a person will forever sink into the past and never be able to leave.
Even a newborn body, a rotten mind can drag a person into the abyss.
From this point of view, forgetting is necessary.
The faces of his parents, his friends, and the teacher who gave him expectations in his previous life were all gone, and only the general memories and events remained, indicating that they had indeed left traces in his life.
But nothing else, not even the name of his own past life he remembered.
The memories of a lifetime have become old movies full of noise, and when I recall them, only a little nostalgia remains.
Let's try it soon, everyone. γ
In this regard, it can only be said that forgetting is the beginning of a new life.
At the beginning of this life, in the stage of babbling, the memories of Tetsufumi Hirakawa's previous life had not yet recovered, and it was not until he was about to enter kindergarten that some fragments gradually emerged.
If all the memories, all the clear memories, were given to him at the very beginning, would he still be able to integrate into his current family so easily?
Can you easily fit into the life of this world?
The answer is an obvious denial.
So, again, forgetting is the body's self-protection mechanism, and forgetting is the beginning of a new life.
When Tetsufumi Hirakawa retold this sentence, what came to mind was, in addition to the various things in the previous life, there was also a very clear image of a young girl in this life.
It's Shiori Shinohara.
"Everything will be gone with the wind, without a trace, and that's how we live."
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The next day, Sunday, September 7, Tetsufumi Hirakawa saw Amamiya at home.
"Amamiya-san, come in."
"I'm disturbed."
The girl who was still behaving in front of her mother yesterday wore a lolita skirt in front of him today and performed her unique umbrella collection skills to him.
I have to say, it's really emotional.
The door was opened to make way for a girl, who was saluting with her skirt in her hand, and walked in.
Then he treated it as if it was his home, changed into slippers, and walked into the living room under the subtle eyes of Tetsufumi Hirakawa.
"Mr. Hirakawa, what's wrong?"
ββ¦β¦ It's nothing. β
I don't know what kind of complicated feelings Amamiya's mother will have when she sees Amamiya night like this in front of him.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa just thought about it in a substitute way, and his feelings were very complicated.
The daughter is completely disguised in front of herself, and she only shows her true appearance when facing others......
But what's the solution, he's the only one who positively acknowledges the existence of the two personalities in the night of Amamiya.,Imagine a little.,The psychology of this girl who has been missing her mother's company since she was a child.,You know that this dependence has always been not for no reason.γ
Thinking so, Tetsufumi Hirakawa could only accept this reality with a little helplessness.
"Alright, sit down."
After getting rid of the strange thoughts in his mind, Tetsufumi Hirakawa walked to the sofa and said to Amamiya who suddenly stopped.
But after taking two steps, he knew why Amamiya suddenly stopped.
There is a cat lying on the couch.
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Even after nearly half a month, facing Michael, Tetsufumi Hirakawa will still recall the morning when Amamiya was taken off by the cat in the living room of his house.
- This should also be forgotten, forgetting is the beginning of a new life.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa hurriedly got the bad picture out of his mind.
Fortunately, it's been nearly half a month in the end, and the impression is not as deep as it was at the beginning.
After coming back to his senses, Tetsufumi Hirakawa walked over and took Michael away, who was lazily lying on the sofa.
When hugging, the white cat "meowed" twice in dissatisfaction.
Well...... I don't know what to say.
Throw it on the ground and let it find a place to sleep again, and then in the back of Michael walking, Amamiya Ye puffed out his cheeks, withdrew his gaze from the cat, and sat on the sofa.
"After the teacher left yesterday, did Amamiya-san's mother say anything?"
Tetsufumi Hirakawa also sat down and asked.
"Didn't say anything." Amamiya shook her head.
"That's right. Okay, let's start preparing for the next steps. β
"Hmm."
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