Chapter 313: I know it's wrong, but I still have to go on
Keep moving forward on the wrong path...... In fact, Miss Shinohara-sama is not the only one doing this.
Looking at the girl opposite who was looking at him with expectant eyes, Tetsufumi Hirakawa thought a lot at this time.
He first thought of Kuda and his former duties as a teacher.
Then I thought of Shiori Shinohara, the things that happened to her, from the original origin, to the daily relationship, from the activity room with the sound of the trumpet, to the campus corridor under dusk, this is his daily life with this student.
It's not that special...... However, those eyes that he had not noticed, those emotions that he had not noticed, only to look back now, and realize that these had actually been shining in his memory.
Miss Shinohara-sama had actually been watching him all the time.
Even though she knew that her own emotions might not be reciprocated, she couldn't help it, and her steps began to favor him, looking elsewhere at him...... This is the persistence that belongs to Miss Shinohara, or rather, willfulness.
Knowing that the rain has stopped, he still has to make up lies that are still falling; Obviously said that it would be completely over after it was done, but he still tricked him into going to the summer festival and poured everything out of his hesitation.
Kissing without permission, opening the dream without permission...... Although at that time, the eldest lady did not know what the so-called dream was.
All she knew was that he responded to her.
As fake as it may seem, she sank into it.
Until the dream was shattered, the two people in reality seemed to be standing in the ice field, facing each other...... It came to an abrupt end.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa began to plan his resignation, and Shiori Shinohara began to try to look away.
Everything is heading towards the other side of the dream.
However, it may be true that one can deceive others, but not one's own heart.
The dream ended abruptly, but the emotions in it did not dissipate like a bubble.
It's not a dream after all.
The arrival of the second dream was initiated by the eldest lady, but it was actually the result of the two people who couldn't give up and were close to each other.
I am ashamed of this student, I am ashamed of this girl, and I can't let go of this girl, so everything is possible.
The two who had already gone far away came together again, opening up a dream that belonged to the two of them in a space isolated from reality.
And this time, Tetsufumi Hirakawa can't let go of this eldest lady.
I know it's wrong, I know it's wrong, but I can't restrain my heart, and I can't escape my liking for this girl.
Even now, sitting in front of this young girl, ready to make his own choice, Tetsufumi Hirakawa still understands quite clearly that what he wants to say, what he wants to do, and the emotions between him and this eldest lady are distorted and wrong.
He was a teacher, the young girl's teacher, and although he had resigned, he still couldn't.
And he also has a girlfriend, a gentle and lovely girlfriend, who should never be here if it is correct according to general expectations.
However, it is still the case, a person can deceive others, but he cannot deceive his own heart.
If you can't let go, you can't let go, those memories that come to mind, the touch of those physical touches, have firmly tied him to the girl in front of him.
This is an emotion that cannot be parted.
- Perhaps, the same feeling was felt by the girl who had tried to make up her mind in her heart to take her eyes off him and play the trumpet alone during the time he had not yet realized it?
She thought about giving up several times, but the fiery emotions finally brought her back to him.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa also thought about ending this absurdity several times, but he finally sat here, opposite Shiori Shinohara, to give the girl his response.
So the two of them are actually the same people, knowing that they are wrong, but they still rely on their inner impulse to go on wrongly, and he is not qualified to accuse this girl.
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In fact, in the final analysis, the vast majority of people are like this, knowing mistakes and not changing is the nature of people who are difficult to overcome, and it is the self that cannot be abandoned.
However, the reality has proven that those roads that are clearly marked as "wrong" always welcome batch after batch of travelers, and then there is no turning back.
These mistakes can always make people paralyzed and sinking, and mistakes will be wrong.
After all, Tetsufumi Hirakawa couldn't resist the fiery emotions of the girl in front of him, and sank into it - perhaps, from the day of the summer vacation, when he accidentally understood how hot the girl's feelings for him were, he was destined to usher in this ending.
All empathy comes from understanding, and once you understand something, you can't help but think, try to analyze, and then ......
He understood Shiori Shinohara's doomed emotion, and understood her insistence that she never gave up, so he couldn't blame the girl.
For her, in addition to the unrefusable liking, he was distressed.
Always quietly watching him from places he doesn't notice, always struggling with the demarcation between reality and heart.
And, when the first dream ended, the ignorant girl stood still, looking at his back as he went away alone...... No, because he blocked the eldest lady, she couldn't even see his back at all, so it ended inexplicably.
How would she have felt at that time?
As long as you take a look at it from Shiori Shinohara's perspective, the only thing that can be produced is pity.
So, now, now after the end of the second dream, Tetsufumi Hirakawa really can't blame Shiori Shinohara.
He likes Shiori Shinohara, and he wants to give the eldest lady a response that belongs to himβin reality, not in dreams.
And I know it's wrong, but I still have to go on.
"Shiori." The upper and lower lip flaps separated, and the sound was gently exhaled.
The voice sounds slightly dry.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa pursed his lips and swallowed.
In Shiori Shinohara's gaze, which had always watched and did not deviate in the slightest, he spoke again.
"Yes, how can I say it......
"To be honest, before I came here, although I had made up my mind, but when I faced it now, I was still a little ...... It's hard to speak."
"Are you nervous to see Shiori?" Shiori Shinohara blinked, the corners of her mouth raised.
"Nervousness...... Maybe a little." Tetsufumi Hirakawa's voice was light and slow, "I don't know how to say it, my heart beats a little faster, and when I look at your eyes, I suddenly feel at a loss at a moment......
"Isn't that nervous?" Shiori Shinohara suddenly interjected.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa looked at her.
The girl smiled slightly, "It's like it."
Tetsufumi Hirakawa was stunned for a moment, and then laughed as well.
"Well, that's true...... Not nervous, but like...... I love Shiori."
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Shiori Shinohara stroked her long hair and put a strand of hair on her ear.
"It's quite rare to see such a straightforward Hirakawa-sensei."
"It's not uncommon, is it?"
"It's only been a few times in a long time, and, except in the dream, every time Hirakawa-sensei is so straightforward, it's to reject Shiori."
"......" Tetsufumi Hirakawa was dumbfounded.
After thinking about it, it seems that this is really the case.
Once he admitted that he liked this eldest lady in reality, it was all for the next rejection...... Really......
Tetsufumi Hirakawa couldn't help but chuckle.
He responded to Miss Shinohara's gaze and said, "But this time is an exception."
Shinohara
The young lady tilted her head and wondered, "Is it only today this time that is an exception?"
"Hmm......" Tetsufumi Hirakawa looked at Shiori Shinohara and groaned, then shook his head, "No, it should be said that the previous was the exception, and in the future, all such things will be the norm."
"What does this mean? What does normalcy mean?" The eldest lady was in hot pursuit.
"Do you want to explain it in such detail? Shiori is playing dumb, right?"
"So what?" Miss Shinohara-sama chuckled and admitted without paying attention, "This is what Hirakawa-sensei told Shiori, right? Be honest when you say it."
γβ¦β¦ I've been re-educated." Tetsufumi Hirakawa sighed, "Okay thenβbut ......."
He looked at Shiori Shinohara's side.
"Can you come closer?"
"This ......" Shiori Shinohara glanced around and then turned back, her eyes looking curious, "Why did Hirakawa-sensei come closer?"
"Come closer before you can talk, right?"
"Frankly speaking?"
"Hmm...... Because I like Shiori, I want to get closer."
Miss Shinohara-sama smiled and nodded lightly.
"Then Hirakawa-sensei, come on, because Shiori likes Hirakawa-sensei too."
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From the frankness at the beginning, to the current appearance, this eldest lady has really changed a lot.
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In this way, Tetsufumi Hirakawa left the seat opposite Shiori Shinoha and came to her side.
The distance is quite close, and with a slight glance, you can see the fair-skinned and good-looking side face of this eldest lady...... And a flat chest?
Hey, I didn't look at it on purpose, I just sat next to me, or was it a height advantage, from top to bottom, even if it was flat, I could notice it, right?
- Although I have to say, there are reasons why I have seen it with my own eyes and touched it with my own hands.
Human beings are somewhat nostalgic for the old, and they pay special attention to the things they have come into contact with.
Shiori Shinohara looked at him.
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Tetsufumi Hirakawa righteously shifted his attention to the eldest lady's perfect face.
γβ¦β¦ Shiori."
"What is Hirakawa-sensei nervous about?" Shiori Shinohara gave him a strange look, "Shiori isn't a man-eating monster."
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Tetsufumi Hirakawa touched his cheek...... No hot, very calm.
"Even if it's a youkai, it's so cute, and you're willing to be eaten, right?"
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The strange topic passed away in a flash in the silence of Miss Shinohara.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa also hurried back to the topic.
"What I just said ......"
"What does this mean? What does normalcy mean?" Shiori Shinohara, reminded.
"Ah, yes. Yes, that's it." Tetsufumi Hirakawa nodded, his memory finally returned to this moment from his previous dream, "How can I say it......
He thought for a moment, then replied.
"From today onwards, every sentence I say about my love for Shiori is an expression of my heart, and it is to be closer to Shiori. Those likes that are foreshadowed for rejection are about to become the exception."
"What else?" Shiori Shinohara looked at him.
γβ¦β¦ And?" Tetsufumi Hirakawa didn't quite understand.
However, after staring at each other at close range for two or three seconds, the girl's eyes finally reminded Tetsufumi Hirakawa what he should do.
Tetsufumi Hirakawa came a little closer, and was about to reach the girl's ear.
"I like you, Shiori."
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The wind was a little itchy, and Shiori Shinohara leaned her head on Tetsufumi Hirakawa's shoulder.
"Shiori likes you too, Hirakawa-sensei."
As she spoke, the corners of her mouth were irrepressible, revealed, and lady-like
Smile.
"So, what are you saying this for?"
"In response to Shiori's liking, in order to be closer to Shiori." Tetsufumi Hirakawa took Shiori Shinohara's hand.
In reality outside of dreams, this was the first time he took the initiative to hold the girl's hand.
This should be the best response, but Miss Shinohara-sama is not satisfied with this.
She took Hirakawa's hand with her backhand and held it tightly.
"You should know that, right?"
"Know what?"
"This is reality, not a dream."
"Of course I do."
The mind is clear, clear, and the slender hand of the girl held in the hand is warm to the touch.
"Then you also have to know that the dream can still be justified, you are not out of your own will, and the reality is not good."
"I didn't think to defend myself - that's what I wanted." Tetsufumi Hirakawa pressed close to Shiori Shinohara's cheek.
Even if it was so close, close enough to clearly feel the heat emanating from the surface of the girl's skin, everything in front of me was still perfect.
Crystal clear eyes, slender eyelashes, flawless skin, pink lips...... Everything about Miss Shinohara-sama is intoxicating, and the smell wafting from her body is too good.
The tips of the noses touched together, and Shiori Shinohara's fair face gradually revealed a good-looking, extremely strong crimson.
"Have you really made up your mind?"
"Of course." Tetsufumi Hirakawa's answer was affirmative.
"Do you really think about the consequences?"
"I've figured it out."
"It's the wrong path." Shiori Shinohara reminded.
"Then I chose to go wrong with Shiori."
"Do you want to keep going when you know it's wrong?"
"Like Shiori, the emotion of liking has reached the point where you know that you are going to make a mistake."
Shiori Shinohara laughed.
"You're a terrible teacher."
Tetsufumi Hirakawa was also laughing.
"Shiori is also a terrible student."
"That Shiori and Hirakawa-sensei are really a good match."
"yes."
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In silence, the eyes are looking at each other, the tips of the noses are touching, and even the lips are about to be glued together.
Shiori Shinohara's breath and the sweet breath she exhaled when she opened her mouth lingered on the tip of her nose.
"Aren't you worried about dreams?" Shiori Shinohara asked before kissing her.
"It's okay anymore." Tetsufumi Hirakawa said.
"Huh?"
"Shiori, there's no need to distinguish between dreams and realities."
"Because I like you, both in dreams and in reality."
"In dreams, I like you. And in reality, far from dreams, I still like you."
"Shiori doesn't have to be immersed in dreams anymore, it's all the same for us."
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Shiori Shinohara no longer hesitated, and she kissed her.