152. Never believe

She felt pain, a pain from her limbs to her heart, a pain that every sense in her body was crying out.

Qiao Niannian involuntarily curled up, covering the position of her heart, where it was like someone had ripped off a piece alive, empty and bloody, so painful that she was about to stop breathing.

There was only a low sobbing in the room at first, but slowly this sobbing gradually became hoarse and hysterical, and just listening to it made people feel distressed.

Would you cry like this, is it a great grievance? Or someone who has lost love to the marrow? Or have you lost something extremely important......

Qiao Niannian didn't know when she calmed down, and she didn't know how long it had been, she just stared at the blank space somewhere, and the past and words kept flashing in her mind.

It's two pasts, it's twenty-one years, and the person in my memory is the white crane boy who always takes care of Qiao Niannian, encourages her, and moves forward bravely with her, and the husband who gently calls her to get up and cook all kinds of food for her......

What is true? What's fake again? Can those warm and sincere memories really only be called memories? But those moments have really passed every minute and every second......

"Did I just get electrocuted and fell into a dream......

"But those two times, I was obviously really in pain, so I was sure that they were real."

"No, it won't be a dream......

Qiao Niannian muttered to herself, but finally stood up with her body bold, glass shards embedded in the palms and soles of her feet when she struggled to get up, and she didn't feel anything, she just walked outside.

She came to her desk, and the time on her phone showed that it was just over one o'clock in the afternoon of June 26, 2022.

After the computer was turned on, it was also the plan that had just been completed, and the last save time was the early morning of the 26th.

Seeing these with his own eyes, Qiao Niannian couldn't support it after all, and fell to the ground.

The first time I found myself back in my sophomore year of high school in 2012, I fell down because I stayed up late to finish the plan, and after taking a shower, the bathroom light suddenly went dark and exploded.

That day, Qiao Niannian initially thought she was dreaming, but then she found out that it wasn't......

What now? She had lived again for twenty-one years, and once again it had happened, and the place she had returned to was the same place where she had been.

"So it's really only been one night? When is a dream? When is the reality ......?"

"But those memories, those twenty-one years, are all false? Is it just a dream?" Qiao Niannian asked herself again, but her eyes were obviously unwilling, how could she be willing to admit that those times were fake?

The red and swollen eyes suddenly turned, Qiao Niannian just gritted his teeth and said, "Impossible, I don't believe it was a dream......

Qiao Niannian struggled to get up, searching for words on the computer about time and space and the like, only then did she realize that the stinging pain in her palms was due to a few pieces of broken glass embedded in it.

On weekdays, she was afraid of pain, but now, Qiao Niannian pulled out the bloody fragments, and her eyes didn't blink, not even any pause, just staring at the computer screen intently.

Various cases, video footage made her gradually see a glimmer of hope.

But she forgot that the power was already out of power at home, and the laptop was shut down after a while because the battery was too low.

The moment the screen went black, Qiao Niannian suddenly came back to his senses, but he didn't know what else to do now.

How can I go back to the world of 10 years ago? What should I do to see the ...... again, and how to let go of the enthusiasm and beauty that I have experienced over the years.

And how to calm down the turbulent feelings caused by words?

Qiao Niannian really didn't know what else she could do now.

Time flowed minute by minute, Qiao Niannian's thoughts became more and more chaotic, and when the phone rang suddenly, she was startled, and she needed to think about who the name was on the screen.

"Hey, Coco." Qiao Nian said.

"Team Leader Qiao, you can

It's ...... answer the phone, team leader, why are you absent from work today? The Director just came back to ask you, what the hell is going on?" Coco said in a low voice, but his words were full of worry.

It was also at this time that Qiao Niannian really realized that now is the reality.

She took a deep breath to adjust her thoughts, and finally said to Coco, "I'm fine, the electrical circuit at home is broken, don't worry, I'll explain it to the supervisor."

"It's okay, Chen Minghao and I are always worried, and our group's plan was criticized by the supervisor yesterday......" Keke said, his voice getting lower and lower, and Qiao Niannian didn't say anything over there.

Keke always felt that Qiao Niannian was also unusual, so he asked again, "Team Leader Qiao, are you really okay?" Do you want to accompany you when you get off work?"

"I'm fine...... Coco, go get busy."

"Alright, bye-bye, team leader." Coco replied and hung up.

However, Qiao Niannian on the other end of the phone had a hoarse voice, which should have a slight sense of vicissitudes, but Keke frowned suspiciously, and finally felt that Qiao Niannian was still like this because of the plan.

After Qiao Niannian hung up the phone, there was silence for a while, until it was getting dark, she looked at the little power left in her phone, and then contacted the property housekeeper and landlord, she needed electricity.

But when the electrician came to Qiao Niannian's house, the dark room, the haggard Qiao Niannian, and the bloody footprints in the room were connected, revealing a trace of weird desolation.

"Little girl, your ...... is really just a burned circuit, right?"

"Yes." Qiao Nian replied, but found that the master was staring at the footprints on the other side of the bathroom, and she understood, so she explained, "Master, the bathroom light exploded, and I stepped on the debris to do this, and I haven't had time to clean it up yet."

"Oh, be careful! Go sit and rest, and I'll take a look."

"Thank you, master." Qiao Niannian replied politely, and she quickly went to deal with the mess on her feet.

It's very strange, obviously the soles of his feet look like they are already blurry, but all day long, Qiao Niannian really doesn't seem to feel pain......

When she pulled out the fragments embedded in the flesh, she felt the pain in her heart, it turned out that it was not painless, but numbness.

When Qiao Niannian wiped the wound with alcohol, the pain became more intense, but she only frowned slightly, and did not cry out the pain, because her voice was really dry and hoarse now.

After taking care of the wound on his foot, the room suddenly became brighter, and the electrician came over and asked Qiao Niannian, "Little girl, do you want to ...... the broken lamp in the bathroom, and I will also help you change it."

After the electrician finished, he was a little restrained, just because the little girl in front of him was too low.

Seeing the master's restraint, Qiao Niannian pulled out a smile very hard and said, "Master, thank you."

"Hey, okay, wait a minute." The electrician answered, and immediately went out to buy a new lamp, helped Qiao Niannian replace the lamp that was blown up in the bathroom, and cleaned up the remaining debris in the bathroom.

"Little girl, it's all changed for you, just pay me the normal price."

"Yes, master."

Qiao Nian responded to the voice, transferred money to the master electrician, and sent the master out.

When the master left, he hesitated again and turned to Qiao Niannian and said, "Little girl, although I don't know why you are so sad, you have to remember that your family and your own health are the most important! Don't be so rough anymore, this injured place must be dealt with well, you said that if your parents knew what you looked like, how distressed they were!"

Hearing this, Qiao Niannian's cloudy and red eyes finally became a little clearer, she looked at the electrician master in front of her, and finally showed a relieved smile, and said, "I know, thank you, master."

The master electrician answered, and then left, and after closing the door, Qiao Niannian also had mixed feelings in his heart.

If the reality where Qiao Niannian is now is still the same as before, then she is still the one who follows Xia Chuan and stays away from her parents

Friend, a lonely girl who came to Guangzhou alone, is also commonly known as the love brain......

I don't know how my parents are doing in Qinshan now, Yihan, Yueyue, Lin Ziqian ......, how are they? Maybe Lin Ziqian and Qin Yueyue didn't know themselves......

Qiao Niannian slowly walked back to the desk, but at this time, every step on the soles of her feet hurt like a heart, but she didn't pause for a moment.

She plugged into her computer and began to search her friends list and high school classmates, searching for the familiar name in her memory.

It's hard to find it, and she also expected that she needs to verify before she can add a friend of Yanzhi, she sent it over, but there was no message for a long time.

Qiao Niannian looked for the contact information of other friends again, and it turned out that except for Shu Yihan, Jin Yu and Qin Yueyue, she didn't have the contact information of other people.

There is no Lin Ziqian, no Ye Senmu, no Su Xingfan, and no Li Xia......

Qiao Niannian couldn't help but smile sarcastically, it turned out that in this so-called real world, she had missed so much, but she had only wasted ten years of time for a person like Xia Chuan.

But what happened to Yanzhi now? Is he doing the work he likes, resting and eating well every day, and more importantly, is he healthy......

The computer screen was stared at for too long, Qiao Niannian's eyes were very sour, and she still got up and went to the balcony.

Although her body hurts, the emptiness in her heart now hurts even more.

Qiao Niannian looked at the stars and a crescent moon in the sky, and the first thing that came to mind was Yanzhi's chat with her under the starry sky and the romance of the quiet years.

The girl couldn't help but smile, but her tears still fell uncontrollably as she smiled.

Even if the reality is that they have no contact now, they should always meet each other to feel at ease......