[Day 100, Rain]

After all this time, the news of my parents' death still makes me sad, but ...... It doesn't seem to be as sad as it was at the beginning.

I feel bad about this, is it because I'm apathetic? I hate myself like that.

Li Baimo said that people are like this, even if they are grief-stricken at first, but as time slowly passes, they will always recover and even forget.

Obviously I don't want to see Li Baimo, but he is still chattering next to him, I hate him, I hate people!

[Day 105, Rain]

Many people in the hospital knew about me, and many people began to comfort me, but ...... I don't want that comfort.

Why do they always say to look forward, why do they always say things will pass?

I don't want things to pass, I wish I could be sad a little longer, I don't want to forget my mom and dad.

I started to avoid them, but they paid more attention to me, which is annoying!

[Day 110, Rain]

Grandpa Dean approached me, and he wanted me to play with others more, but I refused, so Grandpa Dean's grandfather asked me again if I wanted to read, and this time I agreed.

Books are better than people, as long as they can avoid people who want me to forget my parents.

[Day 120, Cloudy]

During this time, I read a thick story book, and the dean's grandfather said that it was called a novel, and although I didn't understand a lot of the content in it, it still felt quite interesting.

Wrong! Isn't the purpose of my reading to avoid those who want to comfort me? Why do you find it interesting now?

Does Grandpa want me to forget my parents?

[Day 135, Rain]

It's annoying! It's annoying! It's annoying! It's annoying! It's annoying! It's annoying!

I've tried my best to be sad, but why am I getting less and less sad......

[Day 150, Rain]

It's my birthday, I'm ten years old, but it doesn't seem that much of how old I am, and no one cares about me anymore anyway.

It's good that I'm finally a little more sad again.

In fact, Li Baimo will care about me, and he also wishes me a happy birthday, but I don't need his care, he really hates it.

[Day 160, Cloudy]

It was a boring time, and I would read books, check my phone, and occasionally watch TV with my uncles and aunts.

But something very special seems to have happened out there lately, and it is said that many people have gone crazy.

Is madness a mental illness? Like me?

No wonder there have been a bit more people in the hospital lately.

But these have nothing to do with me, I don't have parents anymore, I don't have anything anymore.

Come what may...... It doesn't matter.

[Day 165, Cloudy]

Recently, there have been a lot of collapsed houses on the news on TV, which are said to have collapsed by monsters.

Are there really monsters?

[On the 170th day, the ****** Shen Hospital has not been peaceful lately, as if there is a tense atmosphere, and the previous sentence was written by me in imitation of the sentence in the book.

The doctors and nurses in white seemed to be a little irritable and angry at every turn, and the uncles and aunts who were just as sick as I were were yelling because no one cared about them.

It's like the kid next door to my house before, crying at every turn, it's really noisy.

I don't have a home anymore, I miss home, I miss my parents so much.

I'm still sad, but I'm really not as sad as I was at the beginning.

And...... I seem to have come to terms with that...... Alas, it's so annoying......