【January, Rain】

It's disconnected, and I can't understand the outside world anymore, but it's not a big deal, anyway, I don't know why it's been chaotic outside lately, the news is full of ruins, and adults are saying things I don't understand.

The psychiatric hospital also seems to be pretty good.

[February, the ****** Shen Hospital has not been peaceful recently, it seems that there is a tense atmosphere, hehe, the previous sentence was copied from the book.

The doctors and nurses in white seemed to be a little irritable and angry at every turn, and the uncles and aunts who were just as sick as I were were yelling because no one cared about them.

It's like the kid next door to my house before, crying at every turn, it's really noisy.

I don't have a home anymore, I miss home, I miss my parents so much.

[March, sunny]

The atmosphere in the mental hospital seemed to be much better, and everyone seemed to have found some hope, smiling and groaning, like the sun in the sky.

Hey, I always feel that the sun is a little dim, I don't know if it's my delusion.

【……】

【June, light rain】

Everyone's mood seems to be low again......

【……】

【December, heavy rain】

Li Baimo locked me in his room and refused to let me out, but he didn't seem to want to kill me, because he had at least prepared enough food for me.

From time to time, there would be terrible sounds outside the door, sometimes it was the sound of something smashing on the ground, sometimes it was like the roar of a wild beast, sometimes it was like someone screaming, and more often it was like the sound of the wind, whining and choking, so terrible!

At first, Li Baimo didn't allow me to go out, and then I didn't dare to go out myself.

[January, heavy rain]

The food in the house has been almost eaten by me, and at this time Li Baimo also agreed to let me out, but he said that everything must be listened to after I go out, otherwise something terrible will happen.

I was a little afraid to go out when he said this, but I had to go out because I was running out of food.

So I promised Li Baimo that everything would be up to him.

Li Baimo is really an annoying guy, and he makes a lot of strange demands on me.

Before I went out, he asked me to put on my hospital gown, which was very uncomfortable to wear, but I had promised him that I could only do it.

After getting dressed and walking out, Li Baimo immediately asked me to close the door of the room, but I was a little scared silly at that time.

It was a horrible sight that I will never forget for the rest of my life, and hell seemed to be pretty much the same.

The originally clean hallway was littered with limbs and internal organs, and I don't know if it was a model or the real thing, I didn't dare touch it, but I really hoped it was just a model.

But that shouldn't be.

The walls, the floor, and the ceiling were all dyed in large patches of red, messy and seemingly regular, like a picture scroll made by some indescribable thing, dazzling me a little dizzy, and there was a strange and unpleasant smell in the air, I was a little nauseous, I wanted to vomit, but I didn't vomit, I was just retching.

My body trembled a little, but Li Baimo told me that there was nothing to be afraid of, as long as I listened to him, I would not encounter danger.

I still didn't recover from my fear, but at this moment, I suddenly noticed that my shadow seemed to grow a little, no, no, no, there was someone behind me......

……

【……】

[In October, the rainstorm turned cloudy]

Inscription: I am a person who has no friends, there was one before, and now it is also gone.

Today is my twentieth birthday, and this should be the last time I write a monthly diary, because Li Baimo asked me a question, why don't I go out?

yes, why don't I go out?

I thought about it, and then replied to Li Baimo: I am mentally ill, so I should live in a psychiatric hospital!

Li Baimo replied to me: How do you know that you are mentally ill?

I said, "Everyone says I'm mentally ill, and I can see you, but no one else can see you."

At this time, Li Baimo gave me an answer that I had never thought of:

What if it's not you who has the problem?

yes, what if it's not me who has the problem? What if I wasn't mentally ill all along?

Why haven't I thought about it, maybe I did, but I just don't want to keep thinking about it.

Li Baimo suddenly asked me again:

Why don't you go out?

Same question, but this time I gave a different answer.

I said: I don't have a home anymore, I don't know where to go when I go out, and although life in the psychiatric hospital is very monotonous, I seem to have gotten used to it.

Li Baimo was silent for a while, and then told me that he wanted me to go out and have a look.

For so many years, it has been Li Baimo who has been protecting me, I don't hate him anymore, he has always been with me, and I have regarded him as a friend.

I may have wanted to go out myself, but I lacked a reason, and my friend's request convinced me.

I promised Li Baimo, and then smiled and said that he must protect me in the future.

But at this time, Li Baimo showed an ugly expression.

I knew something was going to happen, just like before.

You'll probably never see me again, he told me.

I don't know what to say, there are so many things going on around me that I can't stop.

After a long silence, I asked, "Are you going to die?"

He said, "No, it's just another way to stay with you, and it will always protect you."

I don't know if I should laugh or cry, I don't remember my expression at that time, maybe it was a smile that was uglier than crying?

Li Baimo really disappeared, and I haven't seen him since that day.

But he didn't lie to me, he was accompanying me in another way, protecting me in another way.

So it's time for me to fulfill my promise and get out of here......

If they can feel that the aberrant items here are frivolous, it means that they should have seen better distorted items before, and maybe even have better distorted items now.

The security department investigated Jiao Yiming and them very clearly, not long ago, Jiao Yiming and they were a group of ordinary scavengers, not to mention having distorted items, they may not have seen them.

Distorted items are very precious, don't look at the more than thirty pieces placed here, but this is the General Administration of the Ministry of Security, outside, even the lowest F-class distorted items most people have never seen.

But now Jiao Yiming and they are behaving like this, that is, something has happened recently that has caused them to have such a change.

What's happened to them lately? They met Li Mo!

[This job is not as easy as imagined!] Zhao An finally came to such a conclusion through Jiao Yiming's words.