Chapter 309 [Be Your Lover] (I)

Chapter 309

At this moment, there were already a lot of people around, Xiao Lei took Lei Doudou back to the pastry shop, and the steward in the pastry shop witnessed all this just now, only to know that Xiao Lei was actually a distinguished guest of the Yue family patriarch, so he was terrified, nodded his head, and invited Xiao Lei upstairs. Xiao Lei told him not to let others go upstairs, and the man immediately agreed, and simply ordered people to close the door of the store and not accept outsiders.

When Xiao Lei went upstairs, he found that Lin Shanshan had woken up, sitting there and whispering something to Yuehua, but with a faint tear on his face. Watching Xiao Lei walk up from a distance, Lin Shanshan's body trembled, and her eyes showed the kind of look that made Xiao Lei feel distressed.

Xiao Lei sighed, pulled Lei Doudou and walked over, and the two looked at each other for a few seconds. Yuehua next to her saw it in her eyes, quietly pulled Lei Doudou, and said in a low voice: "Auntie will take you to eat pastries, okay?"

The kid was very clever, and without saying a word, he left with Yuehua.

"You...... How are you doing now?" Xiao Lei was silent for a long time before finally saying this. As soon as you say it, you scold yourself for being stupid.

Lin Shanshan is alone with her children, and her life is obviously very embarrassing, where can she be called a "good" word?

Sure enough, when Lin Shanshan heard this question, she didn't speak immediately, but she glanced at Xiao Lei so lightly, and a distressing smile appeared at the corner of her mouth: "It's okay." ”

Xiao Lei sighed and stretched out his hand to hug Lin Shanshan, but he didn't know how. There was a little timidity in his heart, and the hand stretched out, but he didn't dare to press it on Lin Shanshan's shoulder, so he had to shrink back and whispered, "I...... I know, I'm sorry for you. ”

Lin Shanshan's eyes became more complicated, looking at Xiao Lei. Slowly shook his head: "I'm not bitter. ”

"I'm looking for you, you know?"

"Yes. ”

"I ...... Sorry ......"

"No, I don't. ”

“......”

“......”

After a simple conversation. The two fell silent. Xiao Lei was a little anxious in his heart. He felt as if he had a stomach full of words, but when he really faced Lin Shanshan, he couldn't say a word. The other party's eyes made him feel distressed, and he felt guilty in his heart even more, and it was difficult to speak.

Finally, after brewing for a long time, he ate and said, "Child...... The kids are lovely. Very delightful......

Lin Shanshan was silent for a while, then suddenly raised her head, looked into Xiao Lei's eyes, and showed a serious expression on her face: "You...... Do you like him?"

"Like!" Xiao Lei nodded immediately.

Lin Shanshan's eyes finally showed a hint of joy and happiness, and she said in a low voice: "He is my life." ”

After a pause, she spoke again, and suddenly asked directly, "That...... Will you be able to take good care of him in the future?"

"Of course!" Xiao Lei replied very simply: "He is my child! I will naturally treat him like a baby!" smiled and said, "Bao'er also happens to have a younger brother." ”

A smile appeared at the corner of Lin Shanshan's mouth. Nodding: "Then I'll rest assured." ”

Lin Shanshan's tone made Xiao Lei feel a little twisted in his heart, and he subconsciously felt that this atmosphere was a little uncomfortable, so he immediately changed the topic and said, "Lei Roar and Ruhua are married." ”

"I know. Lin Shanshan nodded.

"Well, you should know. You've been in Nandu all along, and the news of their marriage has been reported on TV. Xiao Lei sighed, looked at Lin Shanshan's weak eyes, and couldn't help but feel soft in his heart, grabbed Lin Shanshan's hands, and said in a low voice: "...... Did you blame me in your heart? I didn't come to you until now...... Did you blame me?"

Lin Shanshan was extremely docile, letting Xiao Lei hold his hands, his eyes were gentle. He whispered, "How could I blame you......? You're looking for me this time. I also avoided it myself. ”

Xiao Lei shook his head: "But I know that you have suffered a lot. You ......"

Lin Shanshan said softly: "It's okay. I do. ”

Xiao Lei only felt as if something was blocked in his heart, and he felt very uncomfortable. Lin Shanshan in front of her spoke in such a soft and soft tone, seemingly docile, but as if she was deliberately separated from herself, as if she was deliberately avoiding her eyes, as if she had added a layer of protective clothing to herself. He was a little at a loss, scratched his head hard, and said with a wry smile: "Shanshan...... You ......"

Lin Shanshan glanced at him, this time there was finally a little more warmth in her eyes, she sighed faintly, and suddenly took the initiative to lean over and gently snuggle on Xiao Lei's shoulder.

"Little Thunder ......"

This call, like a cry, sounded in Xiao Lei's ears, but Xiao Lei's heart seemed to melt when he heard it. He simply pulled Lin Shanshan's body, hugged it in his arms hard, and hugged it tightly: "Shanshan...... I found you. Don't leave me, okay?

Lin Shanshan's body stiffened, then she raised her eyes and glanced at Xiao Lei, neither nodding nor shaking her head, but lowered her head and said softly: "When I left you, did you annoy me in your heart?"

"I ...... No. It's just a little hard to figure it out. ”

Lin Shanshan buried her head in Xiao Lei's arms, and her voice was a little slurred: "Xiao Lei...... I'm scared...... I'm afraid I'm too infatuated with you and I'll be reluctant to leave you. That night was the happiest night of my life. But I know I don't deserve ...... I don't deserve to stay with you, I don't deserve to stand by your side. You should have someone around you who is more qualified to accompany you than I am......"

"Nonsense...... Nonsense......" Xiao Lei said softly.

"I didn't ......" Lin Shanshan struggled for a moment, she still buried her head in Xiao Lei's arms, and her voice was even more vague: "I'm not talking nonsense...... Thunder...... I really want to be there for you, I want to be able to watch you every day, I like you to hug me, I like you to smile at me, I like you to make me happy...... But I know I don't deserve ...... I'm scared. Look at my eyes, they are so clean...... But I knew I wasn't clean anymore. I am willing to serve you with myself...... But I'm not worthy, I really don't deserve. You hurt me for one night, it's enough for me to remember......"

Xiao Lei suddenly became a little angry, he grabbed Lin Shanshan's shoulders hard and made her straighten up, but he unexpectedly saw Lin Shanshan's face full of tears, two tear stains on her cheeks, her nose shrugged slightly, biting her lip gently, and there was the kind of look in her eyes that made Xiao Lei feel distressed.

Looking at this face, Xiao Lei suddenly swallowed back all the words he wanted to say, leaned his head, gently kissed the tears on her cheeks with his lips, and then felt the skin on Lin Shanshan's face tremble inch by inch, and finally, pressed down on those red lips......

A kiss every three years.

Lin Shanshan's body was obviously a little panicked, her body began to tremble, and a pair of arms strained the landlord Xiao Lei's neck, but her body fell down. Xiao Lei put his arms around her, savoring the petal-like fragrance. After this long kiss that almost suffocated Lin Shanshan, Xiao Lei raised his head, quietly looked at the flush on Lin Shanshan's face, and the intoxicated eye waves, and suddenly whispered softly in her ear: "Shanshan...... Will you stay with me?"

"Hmm......" Lin Shanshan seemed to be a little unconscious, and instinctively hugged Xiao Lei's neck with both hands, and was about to say yes. But suddenly his body stiffened, his eyes quickly returned to clarity, he glanced at Xiao Lei complicatedly, gritted his teeth, and then slowly shook his head.

Xiao Lei wanted to say something, but Lin Shanshan preemptively said: "Xiao Lei...... I'd love to ...... I really want to ...... But I can't. She smiled, tears streaming down her face: "I know you don't mind my past...... I know you feel sorry for me...... But I can't get over my own level, I can't convince myself! I can't convince myself...... Ray...... You know, the days I spent with you were my happiest days...... But almost every night, I dreamed of those men...... They pointed at me, scolded me for being a slut, scolded me for being a *son, then I was a **......" She began to cry: "Thunder...... I don't deserve to be by your side, I'm not worthy to be your woman. I know that there are a lot of wonderful women around you who are qualified to be with you......"

Xiao Lei was a little annoyed, grabbed Lin Shanshan hard, and said loudly: "No! No! I don't care! You have to stay by my side! Don't think about leaving me this time! Don't want to leave me!"

"Lei ......" Lin Shanshan begged: "You...... Can you give me some self-esteem? I beg you...... You take the child away...... Let him follow you, and I'm relieved...... Take him away......"

Xiao Lei said arrogantly: "No, it's not good! I want the small one, and I want the big one! Both of you, you must go back with me! You don't want to go anywhere!" Then he changed his soft voice and said in a low voice: "Shanshan...... Do you know that after I got your news, I didn't think about you for a day...... If I let you walk away from me again, will I have happy days in the future? Am I worthy of myself?"

Lin Shanshan hesitated for a moment, and suddenly said in a low voice: "Xiao Lei...... That...... I don't want to be your woman, I'm your lover, okay? I don't want to live in your house, I don't want to see your wife, I don't want to ...... Shall I be your lover? If you miss me, come and see me. I'm just following you secretly, I don't want a name, I don't want anything, okay? I'll be your lover, okay?"

"Shanshan!!" Xiao Lei said angrily: "Why do you despise yourself so much!!"

"No...... I'm not despoiling myself...... I'm afraid, I'm afraid that after I go back with you, I will see other people, see your other women, and I will feel inferior...... I really have low self-esteem. Lin Shanshan suddenly struggled to sit up, hugged Xiao Lei's face, kissed him on his cheeks, lips, and forehead, and pleaded in her mouth: "Please...... Little Lei, I beg you...... If you really need me, will I be your lover? I don't want to go back with you......"

Little Ray groaned, he felt like he was really going crazy. There is also this kind of woman, who does not want a name, but is willing to be her lover?!。

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