Chapter Eighty-Five: The Id, the Superego

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The sound ringing in my ears became blurred, even the warmth I felt was like leaving, and the wind stopped howling.

"Fear doesn't exist."

Chen Mo slowly opened his eyes, and the originally dim black sand beach became sunny, and the white sand appeared colorful and transparent under the strong light.

Whoop -

The waves crash against the beach, splashing like scattered snow.

The view is crystal clear, with tall coconut palms casting a bit of coolness, and the land vegetation in the distance is lush and vibrant.

The darkness disappeared, and Chen Mo illuminated the world.

"I knew from the beginning that our fears weren't just the unknown, and now, I'm sure our fears come from the known."

Chen Mo walked leisurely under the parasol and lay on the deck chair looking at the undulating waves.

"Babies are born with fear, but their fear comes from genetic inheritance, but the fear that comes from this inheritance only satisfies basic survival needs."

He grabbed it casually, and a bottle of cold mineral water suddenly appeared in his hand.

"Instinct determines the lower limit, and cognition determines the upper limit."

"Babies aren't afraid of cockroaches, they're not afraid of mice, they're not even afraid of tigers, so why should stronger adults be afraid?"

Taking a sip of cold mineral water, Chen Mo cocked Erlang's legs quite leisurely, "Because babies don't know how terrible tigers are, and they don't know that tigers may eat themselves." ”

"The answer is simple, isn't it?"

"I am afraid of tigers because I know the habits of tigers; Fear of the dark is because we are afraid that there will be ghosts and other dangers in the dark that may harm us; We are afraid of death because we are afraid of what will happen to us after death......"

"Death seems to be the source of fear, hehe."

Chen Mo laughed twice, "No, what we are afraid of is the uncertainty after death!" ”

"When people die—cars, houses, wives, families, even dreams, what do they do...... We are afraid of losing. ”

"Whether it will be endless darkness after death, or disappear completely, we are afraid that we will stink and rot in the coffin, and become a pile of dry bones and no one cares."

"Turned into a ghost? Hmmm—will you go to hell, will you be eaten by other ghosts? Or is it another reincarnation, an endless reincarnation of suffering......"

"Hey-" Chen Mo sighed, "In short, what we are afraid of is only uncertain consequences, just like why Gu Qingshang appeared in my fear." ”

"Uncertainty, the known, the unknown, all the variables are fear."

"Only omniscience can eradicate fear!"

"Only the Almighty – can be completely free from suffering!"

He looked left and right, a little disappointed, "Don't you want to hear my deeper interpretation of fear?" Or would you prefer to hear my correlation analysis of pain and fear? ”

There was no response except for the sound of the crashing waves and the wind.

Chen Mo also stopped speaking, fell into silence, and got another extremely crucial piece of information in his mind.

"The treacherous fog can't be omniscient to the host, at least there is a certain delay, just like the time when Gu Qingshang changed after I arrived in Yelang."

The purpose of this time is not complicated, just to feel what the real nightmare is like, and what the principle and mechanism are.

The perfect doomsday model is enough to apply the analysis of real feelings to the backwards.

The result was as expected, and it could even be said that it was even better than expected.

The nightmare that led to the start of the time-lapse simulation came so suddenly that I didn't have time to look closely, but there was a lot of speculation.

And now, he can manipulate the nightmare to a certain extent, and he has proven what the so-called nightmare is.

"Nightmare—is the fear of God's kingdom."

Chen Mo sighed in his heart, "The Kingdom of God - this name is really apt. ”

"What does the Divine Council of the Completed Body look like?" He even yearned a little, but this yearning was quickly crushed to death in his heart.

Just as he understands fear as a known unwillingness to face, the more he knows it, the more he knows it, the more he will turn it into fear.

Seeing through fear and overcoming it are two different things.

Although Chen Mo smiled, he knew very well in his heart how much he was afraid of the future.

It is almost certain that the kingdom of God is a world that he does not want to accept no matter what.

Of course, this is not the worst outcome.

Because there is an even more terrifying possibility.

"Ancient ......"

Gu Tianhuang will never die in the kingdom of fear of God, whether it is a failure or a rampage in the simulation, it is by no means as simple as a failure on the surface.

Maybe...... It's just a failure of the Merge Dao, but for Gu Tianhuang, it is not a failure.

"You are doing the same thing, whether you think so or not, but your essence is to be an absolute dictatorship...... It's a fact. ”

Basically knowing the purpose of the two, Chen Mo's heart became heavier and heavier, just now he let himself go and immersed himself in a nightmare, which was more dangerous than simple intimidation and fighting, even if the ultimate self-discipline and high-intensity operation, but the emotional fluctuations were becoming more and more intense.

"Whew-" After taking a few deep breaths, not only did his emotions not calm down, the smile on his face began to distort again, and he pinched his eyebrows hard.

After a few minutes, the fluctuations of his thoughts were close to rage, and the ultimate instinct warned him to cut off all emotions and force himself into a terrible state that he had never entered before.

It's just that Chen Mo ignored the instinctive reminder.

The mind is completely free, and it is even more chaotic than being completely immersed in the control of the nightmare.

Bang –

The entire nightmare world suddenly shattered like a mirror, and the body suddenly fell into the abyss, and there was an indescribable chaos around it, and everywhere there were shards like glass ballasts that carried the bizarre images and fell together.

"It's my problem, I'm too extreme, I just don't want to see them succeed, I'm miserable!"

Chen Mo began to deny himself again.

"Yan Forget is right, my essence is a garbage station, I absorb the pain and fear of two worlds, I only have myself, but I'm not crazy, I can still laugh out loud every day......"

"Even without ultimate self-discipline, I can keep myself sane, I can get almost everything I want, but why am I so lonely, so painful, I can only rely on psychological suggestion to drive myself to live, desperately towards one difficult goal after another, they have become my spiritual pillar......"

"What the hell do I want......"

"What's the point of my life......"

"Why haven't I gone crazy yet!?"

The falling body suddenly comes to a standstill, and the world comes to a standstill.

Just pinching his eyebrows could no longer stop the pain, he grabbed his hair with both hands and pulled hard, in order to better feel the pain in his body, and even magnified his ability to perceive pain.

The still world begins to distort.

The innumerable sense of self in the body is also trembling wildly.

For a long time, with a sigh, everything in front of me returned to its original state, the blue sea and blue sky, the shadow of the coconut grove trees, the water and the sand were white......

"This is the self," Chen Mo completely withdrew from the collapsed state just now.

"I see, my talent is to adapt."

When he said this, the smile on his face resurfaced, but his eyes suddenly sore, he froze for a moment, and slowly raised his arm and hugged it to his chest.

"I ...... I may be really sick, and my meltdown is not because I really want to see myself...... I didn't feel fear, not even the pain......"

He couldn't believe it was his true self.

"Original...... My purpose is simply to find the buried talent......"

"Because Panpan said that he awakened through his own talent, and I thought about it all night, and I didn't know what my talent was, so I ...... Can't I live without any purpose......"

"Adaptation – that's my gift."

The voice trembled violently, but the smile became brighter and brighter, the mist had accumulated in the eye sockets, and what was even more terrifying was that there was no human smell in the eyes, only emptiness, only the reflection of the world.

What you see, what is reflected in your eyes.

In a daze for a while, he suddenly rubbed his cheeks vigorously, and when he put down his hands, he said softly.

"What a good thing, Misty - perhaps, you should come to see me."

The last attempt was unsuccessful.

"It's time for me to go, then, I hope to see you next time."

He stood up and said silently to himself, "Turn on the superego mode." ”

Bang!!!

The nightmare world completely collapsed, turning into a liquid mist that overturned the heavens and the earth.