Author: Tang Tang (Le Yun)

The scary thing about coming into adulthood is that we are forced to realize that absolutely no one cares about us. We have to take care of everything ourselves and figure out how the whole world works.

"Cousin, are we going to your house for dinner? What would your mom say? Suddenly, my cousin Ai Xin asked suspiciously. After all, knowing the special relationship between Xue Jie and her family, Ai Xin couldn't help but be a little worried.

"Yes, go to my mother's place for dinner, she is ready, just wait for us." Xue Jie turned her head and comforted her cousin.

"Sister, where are we going after eating? My mom won't come back today, she won't come back until the clouds, how can I arrange so much time? Another cousin, Xiao Xin, then asked.

"Don't worry, you're afraid that there won't be fun with me? I'm a native of Xichang, and I know where there's fun, so leave it to me. Xue Jie smiled, these two fools, they just want to have fun.

One after another big mountains galloped through the window, depressed and looked at the mountains in Sichuan for so many days, and still sighed, "This mountain is going to reach the sky, it's so spectacular, we don't have such a big mountain there." ”

"When you get tired of watching it later, you won't be surprised again." Xue Jie smiled and involuntarily looked out the window.

I didn't dare to look back because I was afraid that I would be stuck in the past and stop moving. My body is an adult, but my heart is not an adult. No one cared about me, I seemed to be walking on my own. I have always admired the courage and perseverance of Mr. Don Quixote, who dared to brave the world with only a Spanish version of a martial arts novel, saw uneven roads, drew swords to help, fought robbers alone, dared to duel with windmills, and did not hesitate even if the character collapsed. Dare to chase and dare to love and not take the rules of the game in real society seriously, in front of us, although it is absurd, exaggerated and funny, it can be said that he lived out what he wanted.

Frankly speaking, in the face of this cruel reality, I can't live like him, because I have too many worries, because I can't let go of things, I'm afraid that the windmill will fall, so I will never dare to risk charging into battle, and follow the routine given by others, that is still not what I want? This brings us to the fear of choice. This is doomed to a lifetime of mediocre fate, in fact, in the final analysis, it is still the same sentence, if you don't break out of your siege, how do you know that you can't?

But I know I can't. My only resistance is to give up my place at Chongben University, go to a third-rate university with no reputation, and be a big sister who is the enemy of the world. Learning is not my pursuit, smoking, drinking, fighting, cheating on school, cheating on parents, how bad it is, everyone gave up on me, including my family. I'm not the school girl in school, I'm the joke in school. The reason why I wasn't expelled from school was because my dad pleaded with the school without a bottom line, just begging me to get a graduation certificate, and the school was also very helpless, Yin Yin didn't see me studying hard, but my academic performance was always in the top ten in the class. Later, I met my master, Moon Shadow Cloud Dream, and no matter how wrong I did, my master forgave me. Later, when I was depressed, he always tolerated me unconditionally, helped me, and touched me with the most sincere love. The cold heart always needs salvation, and because of my master and depression, I slowly got on the right track and opened a new chapter.

"Queen Mother, we are coming, you come out to pick us up, the two cousins have brought luggage, and I have brought the fish that Dad caught for you." Xue Jie called her mother.

"Uh-huh, okay, I'll pick you up downstairs." The mother was overjoyed.

I climbed over the mountains and fell over the abyss. I knew I wanted to run away, and I waded through the wounded brambles with my flesh and blood. I'm exhausted. I didn't have a moment of rest in my long intermittent sleep. Sometimes it's painful, really painful, and even the skin doesn't seem like it's your own. Sometimes I panic because I need to pay off my bills and be an adult, but I don't know anything about it, because growing up is terrible and it's easy to be on the verge of failure. I'm probably not ready for adulthood, and someone should come out and stop me.

The gift of my eighteen-year-old upbringing, my mom told me she was getting married. At that time, I couldn't understand what happiness was, and I was so grief-stricken that I tore up my college acceptance letter.

"Come, the two little cousins eat more, and the little handsome guy eats more." As soon as I entered the door, my mother beckoned everyone to eat, "In our place, it is a blessing to be able to eat, and the more you eat, the better your body is." Little handsome guy, if you can finish five bowls of rice today, you will be our little son-in-law. ”

"Ah, this, that's too easy, I'm sure I've eaten enough." With a depressed look of incredulity, he then asked, "Auntie, is it true?" ”

Xue Jie burst out laughing and said to her mother, "Queen Mother, you may be depressed and feel that the test is too simple and not strong enough, otherwise, you will add a few more difficult points." ”

"Don't, don't, that's enough, I don't even know if I'll pass the test," Depression hurriedly stopped, "I'll go get some food right away." ”

When the family heard this, they burst into laughter, and their impression of depression became better and better. Who doesn't want to have a son-in-law who cares about their daughter, the feelings of love are stronger than the feelings of no love, I don't know how many times stronger. Seeing that she was depressed and cared so much about Xue Jie, the family was relieved.

The farther away you are, the clearer you can see. Some people have no weight in your life, and what you refuse to forgive is not actually the other person, but yourself. Because of the subtle influence of depression, Xue Jie's heart slowly lost her disgust for her family and learned to be filial.

"Cousin, what are we going to do now, where are we going?" As soon as she finished eating, Ai Xin asked Xue Jie anxiously.

"Everyone has worked hard in the car today, let's take the things back to your house first, and then I will take you to the cinema to watch movies, drink milk tea, and eat popcorn." Xue Jie said,

"Okay, thank you, cousin." Ai Xin said happily.

"You little spicy envoy, you know how to play, and you don't take a break." Depressed shook his head.

"Sadomasochism," Ai Xin grimaced mischievously, "Cousin, I know there's a movie that's particularly good, let's go watch that." ”

"Okay." Xue Jie happily agreed.

I will cherish you, love you, think about you, improve myself for you, watch you, always look at you, and never deceive you. And if love isn't one of those things, then what is love?

I don't think a couple should put their hands on the Bible when they get married, saying, "Rich or poor, healthy and sick, all of them will be accompanied by death." They should put their hands on the books "Evolutionary Psychology" and "The Selfish Gene" and swear: I will go against my nature, disobey my instincts, and love you forever.

Love is a person who is afraid of pain, and hands the knife to the other person's hand. It is willing to give up a god-like free heart for you, and from then on willingly have a bond. In the past, I could only be clothed in sorrow, continue to rampage in the world, and complete my unfinished life. Now I, with you, am no longer afraid of wind and rain.

"Cousin, then let's take a taxi back, and we have to tidy up our things." After watching the movie, Xiao Xin said to Xue Jie.

"It's past twelve o'clock, it's too late, go to my house to rest, and go back on a cloudy day." Xue Jie hurriedly stopped.

"No, no, we have to go back, my second aunt will not allow us to spend the night outside." Ai Xin said to Xue Jie, "Cousin, let's take a taxi and go back, don't worry." ”

"I'll call your second aunt, it's really too late." Xue Jie is not at ease, at night, there are two little girls, no one to protect.

"No, no, we really have to go back." Ai Xin rejected Xue Jie, "Cousin, you go back slowly on the way and pay attention to safety." ”

"Okay." Xue Jie looked helpless. Seeing this, he hurriedly reached out to stop a taxi for the two cousins. After seeing the two of them leave, Xue Jie and depressed walked home. depressed didn't say anything more, and gently took Xue Jie's hand.

"Uh, your uncle." Xue Jie quietly underestimated, "I have to quickly get used to being held by my boyfriend, he's a girl, don't be nervous." ”。

I resent the injustice of life, but fortunately, true joy comes from the depths of my soul, not from the outside. - Yu Xiuhua