Section 135

Some people habitually lose themselves in order to find themselves. The reason why most people are mediocre is that they are already indulging in comfort in their daily lives before they succeed. There is too much process of boiling frogs in warm water, a little indulgence, a little frustration, and it consumes a whole day. What else is there to work on and fight for? It seems that it's okay to get by like this every day, but I fall into the trap of life again and again, ups and downs, life is good and bad, all blamed on luck.

Sometimes I wonder, who the hell am I? What is the purpose of living in this world? Then I plunged headlong into the turbid current of life, and no one could confidently say that I had always lived the life I wanted, and that nothing could disturb me. Without prudence and preparedness in peace, life can only barely maintain the status quo or become worse uncontrolled, and it is difficult to define what is a good life and a bad life. Life is too complicated, there are too many factors to change, and the outcome of things and whether we are happy or not, we don't want to do it. Maybe there is really a number of lives, but if you don't have the concept of life in your heart, you probably won't be limited by the number of lives, and when you are really helpless against mediocrity, choose to soberly let yourself fall for a while to punish yourself, destroy yourself, forge yourself, and maybe there will be a turnaround (just don't play it off).

Suffering and hardship, so that you can accumulate strength, other people's happy lives are not more noble than unbearable lives, there is no need to be jealous, now you are in urgent need of blows, pain, torture, only they give you a slap in the head that has injected water, so that you suddenly sober up, you can realize your current situation. We urgently need and crave those pains, and they are constant, constant stimulation, otherwise where do we draw our strength? How can a new life be reborn without destruction? Tragedy is better than comedy, great works are based on deep insights into the bloody facts of life, we have something to say, we are close to the facts, sad to know more about the world, but to a certain extent will give us something in return, even if we say we don't want it, in fact, every cell is shouting, demanding. No one is lucky, no one is spared, the others you see are not lucky, they just happen to see the result of the painful transformation, life is a matter of probability, and it is also a matter of time.

"Xuejie, listen to my explanation." At noon, depression sent a message to Xue Jie, Xue Jie was rehearsing the dance in Teacher Xia's dance studio, and during the break, she glanced at the message and did not reply.

"My family is too conservative, it's not that you're not good, your family is not good, they just think the two places are too far away, and it's inconvenient to come and go in the future." Depression continued to send messages, "But what age is it now, the transportation is so developed, distance is not a problem at all." Xue Jie, you know me, you also understand my heart for you, I will not give up on you. Xue Jie, after the New Year, I will definitely come after the New Year, okay? My family also said that if you must go, you will go again after the New Year. Xue Jie, look, how? ”

The first important thing in life is to know yourself and understand yourself. Only by seeing yourself clearly can you truly understand the meaning of life. Maybe that's how I am, trying everything possible to let others discover my heart, trying to let others know my thoughts, but it's always self-defeating, and in the end I even lose myself. "What to choose, it's nature, not choice." No one knows yourself better than you, you are there, and after a lot of hard work, you will eventually find what you want.

"Xuejie, please believe me, I will definitely come, I will definitely not let you down." I was depressed and waited for a long time, but Xue Jie didn't reply, "Xue Jie, can we have a good talk?" ”

Being brave enough to try something you've wanted to do so far but haven't done so far can be the key to happiness. Looking for fragrance on the mountain, looking at the sea in the fog, when will I know that I am me. I always want the whole world to revolve around me, and I'm so irritated that I want to die quickly, human nature is really complicated.

I used to think that I had my own, at least my own method, and I was consistent, and then, I was free, brave, and carefree. People call me romantic, they call me like fireworks, and I don't hesitate to express any of my shortcomings in front of them, and finally, people say I'm weird and unruly. Until his arrival and departure, I suddenly lost this self, I began to doubt myself, changed myself, I began to construct myself, instead of expressing myself, this was the time when I was most confused, but it was also the time when I was most awake, I didn't know what to do, but I knew that change was happening in me.

"Talk? What to talk about? How do you talk about not being trustworthy and not knowing what to do? Talk about how you broke your promise and forgot your promise to me? Xue Jie still couldn't help it, and wanted to seek an answer,

"I've already explained to you, why don't you listen? Can't you put yourself in my shoes and think about me? Can't you be considerate and considerate of me? After all, it is not appropriate to bring a family to your house for the New Year. "I've endured too much depression, and I can't help but start to ask,

"I've always done what I promised you. You let me think about you, please think about it for me, you know that this visit to your family is very important; You obviously know that after this meeting, the two families talked about the marriage of the two of us. Xue Jie was devastated, "My family has made 120,000 preparations for this meeting, and they have shown 100% sincerity, may I ask what about your family?" What about you? Now you come and talk to me about understanding, may I ask, who understands me? Who understands our family? ”

"Xuejie, I didn't mean that, I just hope we calm down and have a good talk." Seeing that Xue Jie was in a hurry, she hurriedly sent a message depressed,

"Talk, how to talk? Do you have a throne in your family to inherit? Or do you have a lot of money at home, and you're afraid that I'll divide it? Xue Jie sent a message angrily, "With this attitude in your family, I don't think there is any need for the two of us, no matter how much love comes to fruition." ”

"No, no, Xuejie, we can't do this. Xuejie, what should I do to make you dissipate. "Depressed and torn, I'd rather be miserable than numb.

"Well, since your family doesn't want to come, then I'll come to your house and see your family." Xue Jie came up with a bold idea, "Didn't your sister say before that at least I should go to your house to meet your parents, then I'll go back and see you here." I also want to know what they don't like about me. ”

"Really? Really Xuejie, you are coming to our house. Depressed and incredulous, he sent a message, "Xuejie, if you come, all problems will be solved." But Xuejie, you haven't even been out of Sichuan, you can go far away, can you come to Shanxi? ”

"Although I haven't been far away, I'm literate," Xue Jie smiled, "I'm such a big person, can I still get lost?" As long as your family is not abducting and trafficking women and children, otherwise, I'm afraid I won't ever go back. ”

"How is it possible, don't worry, our family is not that kind of person." Depressed and excited, he sent a message, "Xuejie, I'm going to tell my family the good news, so that they can prepare to meet their future daughter-in-law." ”

Xue Jie pondered for a moment, "Depressed, I'll come to your house and don't tell my mother for the time being, I'm afraid that if I do, she won't ask me to come over." In this way, you transfer some money to me, as my travel expenses, and when I get to your house, I will call my mother again to ask for money and return it to you. ”

"No, no, you don't have to pay it back, I'll transfer it to you." After speaking, depression turned 2,000 yuan to Xue Jie.

Seeing that the depression turned to the money, Xue Jie's hanging heart let go. After all, it's an online dating, and they don't know each other, and now there are too many cases of female college students being trafficked, Xue Jie doesn't want to be the person on the missing person notice. Xue Jie knows that scammers will not transfer money, and scammers are afraid that they will not be empty.