After the queen left for a long time, Jin Yu suddenly panicked, he went crazy for the draft, and wanted to find the shadow he wanted again; But this time, no one bothered to arrange it for him.

He didn't come to his senses until now, and I was the only stand-in. He always holds to talk about the past, his thoughts, his affection, and then he always asks with hope: "Do you remember?" ”

In fact, I envy Liu Guifei, they can decide for themselves whether they are like or not, and I have never chosen.

I became silent, not just in the face of Jin Yu, but also in the face of everything in the palace. Liu Guifei's medicinal diet, Concubine Li Xian's ghost story, and even Ah Yan couldn't interest me.

One day, Ah Yan lay on my lap and secretly told me while no one was around, "I know that he hurt you, and he also hurt my mother and the queen's mother, don't worry, when I grow up, I will definitely avenge you!" ”

I stroked his immature and determined face and shook my head.

I've thought about it, and I've thought about killing him. When he was asleep, thinking about the dead person, quietly the hairpin was against Jin Yu's throat, and it only took an inch for me to penetrate his neck and end all the tragedy.

But if the emperor dies, there will be chaos on the border, and I don't know how many sons and daughters have died in the war, and how many girls have been as broken as I am.

I don't want to, the biggest difference between me and Jin Yu is that I won't inflict my pain on others.

Ah Yan cried and asked, "Why?" ”

I whispered a few words in his ear, holding him in my arms and coaxing him gently, just like a nurse who held me when she was a child.

The nurse was critically ill one autumn, and I felt chills all over my body, and all the sadness filled my brain at once, cutting my nerves inch by inch.

The nurse was already a little delirious, and kept shouting: "Ah Shuang is not afraid, Ah Shuang is not afraid." ”

I lay down in front of the bed, crying out of my throat and screaming almost like a scream, but she was gone.

Since then, no one has remembered Ah Shuang.

I'm just staying up in this palace every day.

Liu Guifei is gone, she practiced dancing on the cold floor in her early years, and she can't get out of bed for a long time; Concubine Li Xian died of a wind chill, but it was just a wind chill, everyone else was fine, but she didn't hold on; Wang Baolin has been hemoptysis from time to time since the second princess and her relatives; They were all gone, leaving me alone.

I have become a concubine, an imperial concubine, and maybe a queen soon.

Ah Yan has also grown up, he is the most outstanding among the princes, Jin Yu privately told me that he wanted to make Ah Yan the prince, so he has been sent to practice outside the palace.

In my tenth year in the palace, I was made empress and stayed in Kunning Palace.

Su Jin was serving me to get up, "Niangniang, the masters of the palaces are about to come to say goodbye." ”

I opened my mouth, but I didn't make any sound, I spoke hard, and before I could say anything, a bloody breath welled up in my throat, and the whole person could barely support it.

I know my time is up, and I really can't stand it, Queen Mother.

Jin Yu only learned a few days later that I couldn't speak, and he was tugging at the imperial doctor's collar and threatening to cure me.

The imperial doctor broke out in a cold sweat on his face, and said in a trembling voice: "The queen's liver is stagnant, and the oil is exhausted...... lamp."

"I'm afraid time is running out!"

These words hit Jin Yu's heart hard, and he was startled to take a few steps back.

I'm finally getting more and more like the Queen.

Jin Yu grabbed my shoulder, pleaded with red eyes: "Ah Shuang, I was wrong, I know that I was wrong, you can talk to me, okay?" ”

I looked at him, my lips twitching, trying to speak, unable to say anything. Finally, I pointed at my throat and waved at him.

Jin Yu collapsed and cried very really.

It's ridiculous to say that he abandoned me when I could speak, but now that I can't speak, he regrets it.

After Jin Yu finished crying, he picked me up by the waist, and he left the entire government and accompanied me to see the flowers, admire the moon, and go out of the palace.

He also took me back to Chen's house, and my father and little sister greeted me at the door, as if they were just welcoming their daughter back from marriage.

I sat in my own courtyard, and I was actually very happy in my heart, people said that I would wander where I would die, and I didn't want to die in the palace, but no one would light a lamp for me.

The autumn wind hit, the flowers in the yard gradually withered, and I leaned on Jin Yu's shoulder, panting weakly.

Jin Yu held my face, "I have already ordered Ah Yan to enter Beijing quickly, you must hold on." ”

He cried, "Ah Shuang, do you hate me?" ”

Tears fell, I hated when I was alive, but now I'm going to die, I don't want to hate.

The place I'm going to is Brother Gu and the queen's mother, and I don't want to think of you anymore.

I saw Ah Yan running towards me in a military uniform at the door, but I couldn't hold it anymore......

In the spring of the seventeenth year of Jianping, the queen Chen collapsed, and the Ming Emperor mourned, and the decree was never again established.

Six years later, Emperor Ming died, and he was passed on to the second prince.