Chapter 30: Confession of Failure
On Sunday afternoon, I sat at the piano. I tried to play a few tunes to calm my mind, but Miao Miao's lotus-colored hairy head and bright eyes always shook in front of my eyes.
"So, you never cared too much about her design for you!" 》
Xiaoxing's words echoed in my ears again.
"If I can bring Lina to Andrei's house, I can bring her to Andrei's bed,"
Miao Miao, Miao Miao! My heart aches.
There was a knock on the door, and I opened it to see Andrei standing in front of me. He looked pale. Andrei, who was originally athletic, did not seem to have as white skin as the Russians. Recently, however, it may have been the climate in Moscow that has not seen the sun all day long. Andrei became as white as the Russians! Today he looked as if he was sick, his face bloodless!
This Andre never looks at the yellow calendar when he goes out! I don't think I'm going to look any better than him today.
Miao Miao's words were still in my ears, and I looked at him coldly and asked:
- "Is there something wrong with you?" ”
Andrei motioned for him to come into the house and talk to me.
I pulled the door through the one-foot-wide crack and said to him, "It's okay, you can go back."
Andrei pushed the door slammed into the door, staring at me with a blank look in his eyes. I wanted to close the door, but it didn't work, Andre was definitely not sick, he was very strong, he slowly pushed the door open with one hand and me together. When I entered the room, Andrei stood in the middle of the room, and when he looked back, he saw me still standing there with my hands pushing the door, and said:
- "If you want, you can close the door now." ”
I was there for a moment, I really didn't think he would come. So since it's here, it's good! I was about to ask him and Miao Miao what they were planning.
I rubbed in front of the piano and I felt my body tremble, so I held the lid tightly behind me with both hands.
- "I want to know, what did Miao Miao promise to help you do?" I asked Andre.
- "Miao Miao? Andrei looked at me with some puzzlement, and then said:
- "Miao Miao took the initiative to ask me if I liked Linna very much, and I said yes! Miao Miao said then you can tell her and let her know. I said Linna wouldn't give me a chance to speak, and Miao Miao said she would help me. That's it! Andrei patiently explained to me.
- "We went to you to borrow a camera that day, did you know beforehand?" I asked.
- "I didn't know you were coming that day. However, I'm glad to see you, I didn't expect you to come to my room. Andrei said.
Looking into his eyes, I believed Andrei's words, and thinking back to the details of the day when I was looking for the camera, I thought that Andrei probably really didn't know that I was going to go. Thinking of this, I became much more relaxed.
- "Also, I asked Miao Miao Linna if she has someone you like. Miao Miao said absolutely not, I asked her, then why do you ignore me, Miao Miao said is it because you have any misunderstanding about me. Later, I figured out that it wasn't a misunderstanding, and if it was, you would give me a chance to explain. Today, I just want to hear what excuses you will find to refuse me besides Tanya! Andrei stood in front of me and said to me with an excited expression.
I looked at him, listened to his words, and thought to myself, it's time to face our problems, and avoiding them is not the solution in the end. Misha, Miao Miao, Yang Wei, Andre, and Danya entangled me in these rights and wrongs, which really made me tired.
I straightened my mind and thought about how I could express my feelings to Andre.
- "Andrei, you don't have to doubt it, in fact, I have a really good impression of you, and you have helped me a lot over the past year, and I really appreciate you." It's just that our positioning is classmates, you are a very good person and deserve happiness, but I can't give you any of these. Your feelings about me may just be a misunderstanding, you can find a girl who likes you like Danya, of course I don't mean that you must accept Tanya, it can also be someone else, you can try............ As for me, I really want to be quiet and don't want to let those illusory emotions make me lose the direction of my life. ”
After listening quietly to my long, stream-of-consciousness statement, Andrei walked up to me and said word by word:
- "First of all, I understand my own feelings, and I don't need you to help me discern them!" Secondly, if another young man says that he likes you, please respect his feelings as well! ”
With that, he turned and left, and the moment he closed the door, I felt a sense of relief in my heart. I swear to turn a new page starting today. There is no more in my life, Miao Miao does not have Andre! They were like my nightmarish psychology class, and they were gone from me.