As I listened to Andre describe how this felt for my eyelashes, it dawned on me that the difference between Andre and I about the world was quite significant.

I don't know if it's because of the cultural differences or if it's our own. I've found that a lot of things that I overlooked Andre cared about, and what I cared about didn't care so much about him.

I really want to see the world from his point of view.

I wanted to know what he was feeling.

I want to know that he has sex, kisses, sings, drinks coffee, makes cakes, plays tennis, speaks foreign languages...... Wait, those are the result of his talent, or are they nurture.

André said that I was very special, and I never argued with him about this. Because, I know I'm special. I knew I wasn't what I felt, on the contrary, I couldn't feel my own abnormality. My perception is all from the outside world. Because almost no one thinks I'm not special! So I can only agree with everyone.

Now let me decipher what it is like in the heart of someone you think is special.

To be honest, contrary to what everyone thinks I'm special, I don't think anyone I've ever met is special.

I feel that there are no repetitive people in the world, there are differences just in appearance, just like Basha and Daric, just like Miao Miao and Qiusi, it's natural, that's all. Even if she is more alternative, in my opinion, she is just a little different.

I have to say that it makes me feel that a person is really so different.

To be honest, I don't think I've ever seen anyone like this.

Therefore, I have no concept of what you are talking about as special people!

Including Andrey! As I said, he gave me the impression that he used to be a passerby, and now he is my Andre! I liked Andrei and his virtues, but I never thought Andrei was a god, a prince as mysterious and unattainable. Aside from his infatuation with me, I never even felt that there was anything André had that fascinated me. If Andrei is special to me, it is because of this relationship between him and me.

I know I'm a little different, and maybe my otherness is a fatal temptation for Andrei, who is too curious about the world.

It's like the look in my own eyes that I can't see. I can't tell how the outside world feels about me, and what makes me even more unsettling is that I can't compare it to other people's experiences.

Andrei, as an ordinary person, as my lover, I want to know how he really feels about me.

I think this may be the common appeal of me, and of those who are seen as special: what the hell are we weird!?

Andrei said that I was different from all his girlfriends. Is it his, or mine?

Why did Andrei, who didn't even have a virgin complex, go crazy with jealousy in his relationship with me? Should he behave this way or not? He said that jealousy is not controlled by reason. His behaviour and emotions are clearly not motivated by his perceptions and perceptions. On the contrary, they are all irrational. Andrei doesn't seem to have a way to be rational about my relationship with him. From the day I decided to go to Andrei, I also left reason behind. Nowadays, it is simply impossible to keep us sane when we are in love.

Even if Andre can't make an objective and rational assessment of me, let him tell me how he feels, just what kind of freak I am. That's what I need to know.