After the New Year, the days flew by day by day.

The weather turned from cold to warm, and Shen Weisu often took Zhenyao to the courtyard to walk around and feel the breath of spring.

The changes of Zhenmiao every day are touching, Shen Weisu takes many photos of her every day, because he knows that there are not many times to be by her side, Shen Weisu tries to bring it by himself as much as possible day and night.

A few nights before leaving, she could barely sleep, so she kept lying next to the crib and watching her daughter.

When Zhou Yanhuai came in, he saw her lying on the railing with the back of her pillow, and there was water in the corner of her eyes.

She couldn't give up her child, and she secretly cried more than once this time.

Hearing him come in, Shen Weisu quickly rubbed the corners of his eyes and sat up casually.

He sensed that there was some distance between her and himself, and she would hide her emotions and not show him those complicated little emotions of hers.

He sat down next to her, "It's late, let the nanny take her down." ”

"It doesn't matter, let her be here, I can't sleep anyway."

He watched her from the sidelines, she didn't realize that she was leaving, and it affected more than just Zhenyao, she didn't feel that she seemed to be saying something to him at this time.

He didn't pay any attention to the child, got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

Shen Weisu listened to the faint sound of the bathroom, and suddenly remembered that she and Zhou Yanhuai had not been intimate for a long, long time.

She was pregnant until she gave birth, and he never touched her until now.

There were two times when he was out of control, and he finally held back, after the child was born, her body needed to recover, and then the attention of the two was divided by their daughter, and they seemed to treat each other more like partners, raising a newborn together, and the two talked about the child together, and paid little attention to each other.

She had paid special attention when she was pregnant, but after all, giving birth to a child hurts her body and hurts her vitality, and she feels that her body has changed, but it is not clear how much it has changed.

Maybe he didn't have that interest in her anymore, and after only half a year, she felt that she might need more time to recover to the past, or that many examples could never be recovered at all.

When Zhou Yan came out, Zhenyao had already been taken away.

He was a little surprised, and watched Shen Weisu lying on the pillow quietly looking at him.

She has lost weight for a while, a little thinner than before pregnancy, her chin is pointed, her eyes are bigger, and her eyes are docile, like a lazy cat.

His heart moved, and he walked over and lay down beside her.

The two reached out at the same time and hugged each other.

He raised his hand and stroked her hair, and whispered, "Found a place to live?" ”

"Well, Jingjing's roommate is gone, I'll go to her first."

His fingers rubbed her ears, perhaps the two of them should have been closer in this moment of parting.

Shen Weisu also felt that she was acceptable in her heart, and raised her hand to land on the buttons of his pajamas and untied them one by one.

Zhou Yanhuai looked down at her, her face was a little red, probably not suitable for such intimacy.

She unbuttoned his clothes and stroked her hands on his sturdy waist.

His eyes darkened a little, and he bowed his head to kiss her.

Shen Weisu felt the heat surging in her body, she also missed him, and the two of them hugged each other and rolled between the pillows, passion like a flame.

But when he really wanted to go further, Shen Weisu still retreated.

He wanted to see her all, she used to be confident and generous, but now she was worried that she was not perfect enough, so she dodged uncomfortably, begging, "Don't ...... Let's turn off the lights......"

She is still anxious, but she has changed from being an anxious child to being anxious about herself.

She has seen many examples of things becoming awkward between couples after giving birth, she is very unconfident, she is afraid that she will disappoint him.

She was a little frustrated, and her mood was not good.

Zhou Yanhuai felt that she was still not ready, so he hugged her, stroked her hair, and said calmly, "Don't do it, it's too late." ”

She couldn't say anything about her predicament, she knew that her body had always attracted him, and now that the relationship between the two of them had fluctuated, she felt that the two of them couldn't seem to be closer to each other except in that way.

She couldn't imagine it, she couldn't accept it, she couldn't even agree on it, she didn't want to face the gap he had had since he found out she had become bad.

She pressed against his chest, "I'm sorry......"

He stroked her arm with his big hand to reassure, "It doesn't matter, wait until you're completely well." ”

She knew in her heart that she just didn't like the lightless self she was now, and she had become less confident.

She stroked the buttons of his clothes with her hand, the atmosphere was a little stiff, she wanted to say something, and said without a clue, "I bought new clothes for Zhenyao, and I sent them the day after tomorrow, you remember to help her try the size." ”

This kind of trivial work was supposed to be done by the nanny, but he still hummed.

She muttered again, "I have to get vaccinated and have a physical examination next week, don't forget." ”

He hummed again.

Shen Weisu was a little drowsy, she actually wanted to say something related to him, for example, she would also think about him and miss him, but for some reason, she couldn't say it.

The two embraced each other quietly, and time passed little by little.

Zhou Yanhuai knew that she was not in a good state, she lived a normal life, and she would laugh, but she was just in a bad mood, not as free and cheerful as before.

He didn't think much more, whether time would smooth everything or deepen the ravine, no one knew.

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When she left, Shen Weisu didn't let Zhou Yanhuai send it, she didn't like to part, she could be very strong by herself, but if someone next to her helped her, she would be dependent like a child.

Kissing the real little face, the little guy lay on the mat and played with toys, and didn't react much to her departure, Shen Weisu touched her chubby little hand, endured the sourness in her heart, got up and walked out of the door.

It was already late spring and early summer, and before leaving, she cut her hair and could barely tie it up, put on a T-shirt and jeans, and set off with a pair of skateboard shoes.

She knows that she is willful, but this step must always come out, if she doesn't go now, it will be more difficult to walk in the future, the older the child is, the clearer the concept of separation, and the more will she will lose around the child.

Zhenmiao was born in the Zhou family, she can live a rich and worry-free life, but Shen Weisu knows her identity, she and Zhou Yanhuai have divorced, and the only identity she is sure of now is Zhenmiao's mother, and her identity can be replaced at any time, Zhou's mother has never given up looking for a new partner for Zhou Yanhuai.

She wasn't sure how long Zhou Yanhuai could firmly refuse, she just wanted to earn more confidence to deal with the uncertain future under such a strong sense of crisis.

She got on the plane, thought about it for a long time, and still sent a message to Zhou Yanhuai.

"Take care of Mama, and yourself."

He was actually at the airport and saw her flight take off.

He also doesn't like parting, the two of them obviously have a lot to say, but at this moment, they can't say it.

He also had emotions in his heart that he didn't want to show, he was not very happy, his breath was blocked, and he didn't reply to her.