Cold.

What made Si Nangui feel cold was not the wind blowing, but the eyes of the people around him looking at him.

Walking on familiar streets, there is no cheerful atmosphere.

Everyone who approached him looked at him with a vicious and mocking look.

Suddenly, a voice exploded in his ears.

"You're so useless, why don't you die!"

"Why don't you die!"

The voices kept echoing in my ears.

Si Nangui couldn't tell whether this was reality or his own auditory hallucinations.

Why.

What about the world being malicious towards itself?

He buried his head in his hands, covered his ears with his hands, and stumbled to the house.

As soon as I got home, I heard the sound of falling and thumping inside.

Si Nangui froze suddenly, and through the gap in the hidden door, he could also see what was happening inside.

The rough man, once again, grabbed her by the hair and pressed her to the ground, as if he were snatching something from her hands.

The man who once brought him warmth and security has now become his nightmare.

"Damn it, slut, let it go! Let go of Lao Tzu! Father's curses were heard.

Still so rough.

Si Nangui's eyes were red, and his chest ached again.

"Slut, didn't you say you had no money? Dare you lie to me! I'll beat you to death! ”

The mother's cries and pleadings did not help.

The abuser never feels pity for the victim's plea, which only satisfies the other person's morbid sense of accomplishment, which will intensify.

"You can't take this money, I just borrowed this money, and Anan will have to pay fifty yuan tomorrow!" The mother clutched the money in her hand and was unwilling to let go.

But Si Nangui, who heard this, felt his heart tremble.

Over the years, because of changes in the family, those relatives and friends in the former family have now avoided their families.

Si Nangui couldn't imagine how many homes his mother ran away and how many eyes she suffered in order to borrow those one or two hundred yuan.

Of course, for those people, Si Nangui did not have the slightest resentment in his heart.

It is a duty to help, and it is a duty not to help.

What's more, the money they borrowed, and the mother tried her best to repay a little, but it was far away.

Everyone knows that his father is now a bad gambler.

Whoever wants to be reluctant to eat and wear the money pulled out of their fingers and lend it to others and send it to the gambling table?

But what made Si Nangui feel cold was that because he was afraid of being beaten and lied, he forced his mother to borrow money everywhere in a low voice, not only that, but now he was abused again for this money.

It seems like.

Became the culprit himself.

It's even more pathetic.

At this moment, Si Nangui suddenly didn't know who to resent him.

It's resentment of Ran Ziming, their bastards.

Or do you resent your bad gambler father who only knows about domestic violence?

Si Nangui felt that it was wrong.

It seems that the most resentful thing is that it is the weak self.

Because of his cowardice, he will be bullied by those damn guys in the school.

It is precisely because of his weakness that every time his father is violent, he is just a spectator, and he even wants to hide far away, as if as long as he closes his eyes, he can act as if nothing happened.

He seems to have been using this self-deception method to evade his responsibilities.

He reached out and pressed it on the doorknob to pull it open, then strode in.

Just as he was about to do this, a sudden scream made the courage he had just accumulated instantly collapse.

His face turned pale with fright, and he took a few steps back, his body trembling with fear.

If you rush in now, your father's belt will definitely fall on you, right?

It seems that just thinking about it will be a burst of pain in the body.

At this time, my mother also saw Si Nangui through the crack in the door.

When the eyes collided, Si Nangui was so frightened that he took two steps back.

Although his mother didn't say anything, Si Nangui saw disappointment in his mother's eyes.

This time, he still turned around and chose to run away.

It seems that as long as you run faster, the screams behind you can't catch up with you.

If you can't hear it, you won't feel any guilt in your heart.

"I'm still a kid, what can I do?"

"Adult affairs are not something that I, a child, can get involved in!"

"Yes, that's right, that's it!"

Si Nangui kept saying this to himself in his heart.

It's not so much self-soothing as self-deception.

After spending the night outside, the next day, he didn't go home and went straight to school.

As soon as he arrived at the school gate, he was stopped by Ran Ziming.

"Where's the money?"

Behind Ran Ziming, there were also a few yellow hairs, with cigarettes in their mouths, staring at him with malicious eyes.

The classmates who also went to school next to him hid far away, for fear of having anything to do with these evil stars.

From beginning to end, no one cast sympathetic glances at Sinangui.

When they looked at Si Nangui, they only sneered.

Si Nangui, who was penniless, looked at them, and was a little timid at first, but suddenly he smiled.

Looking at Ran Ziming's cannibalistic gaze, he walked towards the other party step by step.

"What are you doing?" Ran Ziming had already seen that something was wrong with Si Nangui, and his expression was a little unnatural.

"I don't have any money, you can beat me." Si Nangui said, "Beat me to death." ”

Ran Ziming and the others were shocked by Si Nangui's reaction.

For those of them, bullying Sinangui is simply part of their daily lives.

When you open your eyes every day, that is, you eat and sleep and beat Doudou - the beating of Doudou here has to become a fight for Nangui.

It is precisely because of this that they know enough about Sinan Gui.

Whether Si Nangui begged for mercy or turned around and ran, it was all in their expectations.

But now this reaction caught them off guard.

Ran Ziming's face changed at first, and then he viciously grabbed Si Nangui's collar.

"me, huh? Do you think Lao Tzu doesn't do it? ”

As he spoke, he kicked Si Nangui to the ground again, and punched and kicked him.

When he was beaten before, Sinan returned to know the vital point of protecting himself, which was also an instinctive reaction.

But now, as if he was lying flat, a pair of eyes looking at the foggy sky, numb and dull, without a trace of life.

Ran Ziming looked at Si Nangui's current appearance, and his heart was furious.

"Hmph, that's it for today, you give me a little care in the future!" Ran Ziming said viciously.

It's just that the tone of his voice now sounds a little weak.

Just as he was about to leave, Si Nangui suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed his ankle.

"Kill me, kill me!"

Looking at the hideous expression on the face of Si Nangui, who was bleeding from his head, Ran Ziming felt a chill in his heart.

"Let go! You let me go! ”

The people who followed Ran Ziming were also so frightened that their faces turned pale at this moment, and they subconsciously stomped to the side, as if the current Si Nangui was a demon in their eyes.

Ran Ziming saw that there were more and more people around him, and kicked Si Nangui a few more times, trying to get rid of this trouble, but Si Nangui was like crazy, and instead hugged his legs with both hands.

"Don't die, kill me, you beat me to death!"

In the end, it was the arrival of the security guard with the dean of instruction that ended the farce.

After driving away Ran Ziming and the others, the teaching director looked at Si Nangui, who was covered in shoe prints and had a nosebleed, and his eyes were full of disgust.

"Something's okay? Hurry back to class! ”

When Si Nangui heard this, he stared at the other party intently.

"Look at me, do you look like you're okay?"

The teaching director was slightly stunned, a little unhappy: "I think you're very good." ”

Si Nangui sneered.

"They beat me at the school gate, and you saw it and didn't do anything, is that how you are a teacher?"

"That's it!" The dean of teaching said impatiently, "You are not a good thing, there are so many people here, so many students in the school, why do they beat you and not others?" Why don't you want to look for problems in yourself? Hurry up to class! ”

With that, the dean walked away with his hands behind his back.

It's as if nothing had happened.

Si Nangui seemed to have lost his soul, and he didn't catch up with it, and walked into the school slowly.

When he walked into the classroom, the classmates all cast strange glances at him, but Si Nangui didn't seem to notice it, just sitting in his place, his mind was messy.

The classroom was quiet for a while, and Si Nangui suddenly burst out laughing.

"Ran Ziming, this coward, doesn't even have the guts to kill me!"

The classmates in the class were all startled by Si Nangui's sudden movement, and they looked at Si Nangui with dissatisfied eyes, but they didn't say anything.

probably saw that Si Nangui's current mental state was a little abnormal, so he didn't want to have any conflict with this person.

And Si Nangui, there was no movement next, just lying on the table, and when the teacher came in and saw him embarrassed, he just glanced at it casually, and then started class.

Si Nangui's mind was still full of those voices.

"Why don't you die!"

"Why don't you die!"

Si Nangui's expression was painful, and his eyes were struggling, as if he was experiencing some kind of indescribable pain.

When it was time for the second class, suddenly the head teacher hurried over.

He stood at the door of the classroom, his eyes falling on Si Nangui's body.

And Si Nangui seemed to feel something, suddenly raised his head, and when he looked at the head teacher, his body couldn't help but tremble, as if he thought of something terrible, and there was a strong uneasiness in his heart.

"Si Nangui, you come out for a while." The head teacher's voice was a little complicated.

Si Nangui pale and walked towards the back door of the classroom.

When he walked up, the head teacher looked at Si Nangui and felt a little strange.

It always felt as if this kid knew what he was going to say next.

"Si Nangui, just now the hospital called, your mother seems to be ...... Let's go. ”

Si Nangui stumbled under his feet, and immediately burst into tears, suddenly went crazy, and shouted in grief from his mouth.

Somehow.

Si Nangui suddenly felt that everything that happened now was something he had experienced.

This kind of fleeting feeling, I can't grasp it.

It's just that at this moment, his heart has been desperate to the extreme.

Seeing Sinan Gui running away like crazy, the head teacher sighed faintly, and felt a little pity for this student in his heart.

He didn't think much about it, after all, such a big thing happened at home, and it was normal for Si Nangui to want to go home.

But that's not what he thinks.

When he returned to the office with a teacup and talked to his colleagues about it, he suddenly saw a physical education teacher rush in.

"Oh no, Mr. Wang! The students in your class are on the roof of the building and are about to jump! ”

The head teacher who heard this was so frightened that his teacup fell to the ground, his face turned pale, and he hurried there, and the other teachers in the office followed.

Although the physical education teacher didn't say which student it was, he could think of it now with his brain.

The head teacher also wondered, in such a situation, Si Nangui was not thinking about going home, but preparing to jump off the building, what does this mean? Could it be that this child's psychological quality is too fragile?

When they came to the rooftop, there were already many people on it, and there were still many students downstairs looking up, and the principal also hurried over with the dean of teaching, still scolding his mother.

"What the hell do you eat? How many times have I said that the iron gate to the rooftop must be locked, and that's what you did? ”

The teaching director who was being trained next to him didn't dare to come out, but he also wondered in his heart, the iron door was indeed locked all along, how did this kid come up?

The headmaster is really going to crack.

He couldn't imagine how much trouble it would cause if a student really jumped off a building and died in the school.

"Classmate, don't be impulsive, if you have anything to say, come down first! Stinky treasure, good! ”

"You...... It's you! When the teaching director saw Si Nangui, there was an incredible expression on his face.

The principal, who was still persuading Si Nangui with kind words just now, couldn't help but ask when he heard this: "Do you know?" ”

The dean was embarrassed and whispered what happened at the school gate this morning, and the principal was furious, only thinking that the kid must have been bullied before thinking about it, and wanted to slap the dean in the face.

"What the hell do you do! Seeing a student being bullied, you are still indifferent and pretend not to see it! The principal scolded twice, and then persuaded Si Nangui with kind words, "Classmate, you come down first, don't worry, I will deal with this matter seriously!" ”

Si Nangui turned his face and looked at them, but did not speak.

He clenched his fists and looked down, without the slightest fear in his heart.

In his mind, it was still his mother's last look.

"People like you, why don't you die?"

"Why don't you die?"

These voices are still echoing in Si Nangui's ears.

"Mom...... I'm really useless...... I can't protect you well, and I even lied and asked for money......"

"Mom...... I'm sorry...... I'm sorry for you......"

Si Nangui muttered, his gaze suddenly becoming firm.

"Yes...... What is the point of living for a person like me? ”

"How am I ...... Don't you want to die? ”

He slowly opened his arms and closed his eyes, wanting to leap.

And above the gray dome.

A pair of eyes were staring at him coldly, hiding endless smiles.

But at this moment, those eyes suddenly became frightened.

A brilliant golden light bloomed in the sky, and the whole world trembled, and the golden light continued to elongate, like a gray sky, which was torn open by force.