Mu Nan returned to the room, put the lockbox upright on the dresser, and stroked it carefully. At this time, she remembered the phone call that Jane Zheng gave her before she came to Binnan, and he said on the phone that he would give her a gift when she arrived, so was this the gift he wanted to give her personally?

It should be. Because when Mu Nan arrived at his house, he happened to be away, maybe he was afraid that Mu Nan would find the box first, so he put it here with Wang Yan, and then retrieved the box and gave it to her personally.

It's a pity that so many things happened later, and he didn't have a chance to give it to him personally.

Mu Nan took a deep breath, according to his birthday, carefully slid the number of the combination lock, and when he slid to the last number, his hands trembled a little, "Smack!" "The lockbox popped open. Inside, two stacks of notebooks and a large stack of photographs were neatly laid out, and directly above it was a crisp white envelope.

Mu Nan picked up the letter with a trembling hand, slowly pulled out the letter paper, and then carefully flattened it, and then saw that the first line of the letter paper really had the word "Mu Nan" written on it......

This was really given to him by Jane, and it was also the first love letter Jane Zheng wrote to him.

She felt a little suffocated, and the words on the letter became blurred.

She felt a little illusory again, as if she was dreaming, and she quickly pinched her thigh with her hand, which hurt her, indicating that it was true.

Jane was writing a love letter to herself, and she distinctly felt her heart pounding in her chest, as if it was about to jump out of it, and she pressed her hand against the heart that was about to jump out.

The letter is not long.

Mu Nan:

Remember the scene of competing in a war zone?

You asked me to marry you, and I was so excited that I wanted to marry you so much that I added three "!" ”

How I want to be with you, you have appeared in my dreams countless times over the years in a crisp white wedding dress.

But I'm an emotional coward and don't dare to be with you.

I first paid attention to you because you were too similar to her, and I was afraid that you would be her shadow, which would be too unfair to you.

And there is an age gap between us, and I'm afraid I'll hurt you because of my selfishness.

Frankly, I love her, but she's been gone for more than 20 years and will never come back, and of course I've failed her (if you want to hear her story, I'll tell you more). And now, I gradually understand that I don't love her shadow, but I love you deeply, and this love is always there, and it will not be less than her, so I think I can't live up to you anymore.

Mu Nan, since the day I met you, you have monopolized the contents of my diary, and now I will give it to you.

And here's all the information about you that you were in the army, that I photographed, or that I could find.

When you have finished reading these diaries and materials, please give me a reply.

Am I still eligible to fulfill my commitments for the year?

Waiting for you!!

Concise

date

After reading the letter, Mu Nan was already in tears, covering his mouth with his hand to prevent himself from crying too loudly, "Woo, you are qualified, qualified!" I'm waiting for you, I'm waiting for you! Woo-"

She wept as she looked through the materials, most of them were photos of her, living, training, working, including almost every bit of her in the army, and most of these photos were things she had never seen before, and she didn't know how he collected them. There are also copies of written materials, some of which are newspapers in which she participated in competitions and assisted the police in handling and rescuing hostages, and some of which are poems and essays written by her in the army and published in various media, and one of them is a copy of her file.

She was moved to see this.

She quickly skimmed through the information and went back to the diary.

It's really all about her diary, and there are records almost every day, too many, there are as many as 11 books, which record his interactions with her, and also record his observations of her in secret, as well as the things he heard about her, of course, there are many things he took the initiative to ask her company commanders, instructors and other cadres, almost a daily life record during her service in the army.

There are too many, and she can't finish reading them for a while, so she looks for the content that she has a relationship with him and impresses her first.

She first opened the first part of her first diary. That's the first time they met.

Weather: Sunny

It's such a coincidence that I can't believe it's true.

Today, when I was inspecting the work of the female soldier company, I saw a little female soldier who looked very similar to Yu Yu, and she was simply the same person.

The first time I saw her, she was fighting with someone. Today, I saw that this little female soldier was also fighting with people.

I was injured then, and I'm injured today. A female soldier stabbed the little soldier with scissors, and she kicked the scissors away, and the scissors just happened to pierce me.

The name of this little female soldier is also very similar to that of Yu Yu, called Mu Nan, and the pronunciation is the same.

Later, I also learned that the birth date of this little female soldier named Mu Nan happened to be the death day of Yu Yu.

With so many coincidences, if I am not a staunch materialist, I must have believed that she was the reincarnation of the Monkey.

When Mu Nan saw this, he understood a lot.

She kept thinking that with Jian Zheng's skills, he could completely avoid the flying scissors at the beginning, but now that he thinks about it, it is reasonable, he should have lost his mind at that time, so he didn't avoid it.

This also solved the mystery in her heart, Jian Zheng could call her name at first sight, and now it seems that he is not called Mu Nan, but "Yu Yu".

At the same time, it also confirmed one of her previous instincts, because when she was in the army, she always felt that Jian Zheng had always paid special attention to her, and now it seems that her intuition is very accurate. However, she also felt a little lost, it turned out that he paid attention to her just because it was a substitute for "Yu Yu".

Weather: Sunny

Today is the second day of the little female soldier's enlistment, and in the afternoon there was a friendly women's basketball match between their women's soldier company and the resident Youth League Committee, and no one in the women's soldier company organized the team, so I had to go to serve as the coach.

I saw her again in the team of female soldiers, and she really looked like her, and the more she looked at it, the more she looked like a flaw, and she always wanted to see her a few times, intentionally or unintentionally. But you can't keep staring, in that case, what will the little female soldier think of me, and if you don't know the inside story, you won't treat me as a pervert. Even so, I couldn't help but look at her location.

Our female soldiers can be said to not play basketball, and after the first two quarters, the score reached 36-8, and the court was miserable.

At that time, I thought of Yu Yu again, she is very good at basketball, and I don't know if the little female soldier named Mu Nan can play basketball.

Is it really such a coincidence, as soon as I thought of this, the little female soldier named Mu'nan stood up from the audience, ran to me, and asked to play. I casually asked her, "Do you know how to play basketball?" ”

She didn't answer me directly, but pointed to the female soldiers on the court and scolded me, "Do they know how to play basketball?" ”

Her voice is also very sweet, like a lark, clear and beautiful. Her easy-to-speak style is the same as her style, confident and spicy. I almost thought that it was Yu Yu who was talking to me, but I guess I lost my mind again at the time, I don't know if she noticed it, anyway, I was very embarrassed at the time.

I granted her request and said, "Come on!" Xiaomu. ”

She looked at me in surprise, and I reacted at once, a female soldier who had just come to the army, and I, who was the political commissar, actually knew her surname Mu, did she think I had other intentions.

It seems that you should be careful in front of this little female soldier in the future.

Everyone on the field was wearing jerseys, but Munan was temporarily replaced, so when she came to the field, she was still wearing a camouflage uniform.

Looking at her running on the field, I thought of Yu Yu again, it was when I was in middle school, we agreed that we would come to the army together to be soldiers in the future, and then I came, but she would never come.

This little female soldier plays basketball the same as Yu Yu, as soon as she gets on the court, she knows that she has solid basic skills and excellent skills. As soon as she shot, she hit a long-range shot, hit a three-pointer, and did it in one go.

Her long-range shooting posture is also the same as that of the foliage.

I'm a big man, I'm a little lost, my eyes are led by the figure of this little female soldier on the court, at that moment, I feel that the female soldier in camouflage uniform is a frenzy.

The next two quarters of the game became a solo performance for this little female soldier, and the score quickly caught up. The other party was a little anxious, and frequently hit her closely, often with some technical means, and sometimes directly knocked her to the ground. The moment she fell to the ground, I had a special feeling, as if it was me who fell to the ground, and my heart tugged up. But soon she got up from the ground, and at this time I realized that the paper cup in my hand was also crumpled into a paper ball, and I didn't know that the water in the cup was spilled on my shoes.

How could I be so nervous about her?

It won't be ......

Of course not!

It should be that she is too similar to Yu Yu, and I don't think I think I am also a Yu Yu.

However, it also reminded me that I had to distinguish her from Yu Yu in the future, otherwise it would really make a joke.

Thanks to her excellent performance, the match ended up winning with a score of 78-76.

Military hats flew wildly, applause was thunderous, shouts were like a tide, and the entire training hall was immersed in a sea of excitement and joy.

I also kept applauding her.

Mu Nan laughed when he saw the sentence "It won't be ......" in this diary, and it is estimated that Jane just wanted to say "It won't be that I will fall in love with her", obviously I was in love, and there was a sentence "Of course not!" This shows that he had this idea at that time. Looking at this date again, it was not long after they met, and he felt this way, it was really love at first sight.

Mu Nan suddenly felt better, and felt a long-awaited sense of happiness, it turned out that after so many years, she was not unrequited.

But I was also annoyed with him in my heart, even if I had this kind of thought, why didn't I say it all the time, causing her to guess for so many years.

Mu Nan turned to a diary again, and the things recorded in this diary were very impressive to her.

Weather: Sunny

Since the last time I injured my arm, I haven't trained for many days, and I don't feel well, so today I called a group of people to practice sanda fighting, and I met Mu Nan again in the training gym, and she also challenged me.

This is really in response to that sentence - the road is narrow.

However, this little guy's level is really not bad, and the Tan squad leader of the demonstration class is not his opponent.

Originally, I thought that she couldn't beat Squad Leader Tan, so I didn't need to make a move, but in the end I still had to fight her.

Her movements are skillful, and her moves are also ruthless, but she is almost powerful. But I still despised her, and although I gave her a few tricks, she had the upper hand in the end, and if she hadn't shown mercy, I would have been seriously injured.

So I have to get to know her again, to see that she is arrogant and unreasonable, with sharp moves and killing moves, but she is still very kind in her heart.

I also made a fatal mistake when I was overplaying. At that time, I saw that her center of gravity was unstable, and I wanted to help her, but I touched her part that shouldn't be touched. She must be angry, and of course she should be angry with me.

Heaven and earth conscience, I didn't mean it. Alas, I guess I won't have a chance to explain it to her, and even if I have the opportunity, how can I explain this kind of thing?

Although it was not intentional, but now that I think about it, what is the difference between it and intentional?

Maybe I'm a disciple in my bones, when her chest pressed against my arm, I felt like my whole body was being electrocuted, and that strange feeling showed that my heart was not pure.

But why don't I feel that way for other women?

Forget it, I have to be sensible, she's not a flaw, she's a kid more than ten years younger than me.

After reading this diary, Mu Nan thought about that fight again, especially the feeling when her chest touched his arm, and she still remembers it vividly, and her face still burns when she thinks about it.

From this diary, she also knew that Jian Zheng's feelings for her were different from others.

Mu Nan looked up one by one. It turned out that Jian Zheng kept a diary every day, and the contents of the diary were all about her. There were some things in the diary that she knew, and more things she didn't know.

When he was in the army, Wang Yan said that Jian was peeking at Mu Nan with a telescope, and at the same time, Mu Nan also felt that all this was true.

Jane was recording this incident in his diary, at that time he really wanted the figure to take a closer look at Mu Nan, but he usually didn't dare, he just happened to see the sentry post of the female soldier company through the window in his office, so he got a binocular, and every time Mu Nan stood at the sentry point, he took the binoculars to take a serious look at her. Later, he realized that this behavior was voyeurism, and this stopped.

What Jian Zheng didn't know was that Mu Nan had already noticed it, and her comrades-in-arms had also noticed it, fortunately, Jian Zheng stopped in time, otherwise she would definitely be caught by her comrades-in-arms. That would be embarrassing.

Although Jian Zheng no longer looks at her through a telescope, she still touches her every day, directly or indirectly. It's just that a lot of times she doesn't know.

The roll call in the army is carried out at 9:30 p.m. every night, and it must be done under camera. As the political commissar of the regiment, Jian Zheng often had to check the roll call of each company through video. Of course, due to the large number of companies in the regiment, it was impossible for him to inspect every company every day, so it was more of a spot check. But during that time, other companies were spot checks, and the female soldier company became his must-check, and sometimes he would unconsciously zoom in on the camera to make a close-up of the man appear in the video.

Jian Zheng will also ask her to answer the phone when Mu Nan is on duty, just to hear her voice.

……

There are too many diaries, and I can't finish reading them all at once, so Mu Nan quickly browsed through them, first looking for the parts she had an impression of, and suddenly there was a diary that aroused her high interest, and she immediately sat up straight and read it seriously.

Weather: Cloudy

During this time, I was most afraid of weekend nights, because the two comrades-in-arms of the Military Political Department had gone home, and there were only Mu Nan and me in the whole building, which made me feel so embarrassed.

She lives next door to me, it's poorly soundproofed, I can hear her every sound over there, and every night, she recited a letter of the law aloud, and then quieted down, and I knew she was saying goodnight to me. And today I waited for her for a long time, but I didn't hear her recite the article, but instead I heard her call, order takeout, and order a bottle of liquor.

What I didn't expect was that she drank the whole bottle and got drunk straight away.

I should have stopped her at first, I don't know how much it hurts my body to drink like this, it's heartbreaking to watch.

I've been avoiding too much contact with her these days, and now that she's drunk like this, I'm going to carry her back to my room.

When I hugged her, I was also dizzy in my head, and I had never felt it before, whether it was happiness, excitement, or excitement, I couldn't tell it anyway, it was like holding a fire from beginning to end, and my heart was trembling all the time.

Moreover, I also felt that I had a physiological reaction shamelessly.

She vomited so much in the room, and so did her clothes, and I had to take them off for her, but I didn't dare, as long as my hand touched her buttons, she trembled so badly, and I couldn't untie it if I didn't obey the call. And my head doesn't listen to me, as if a devil lives in my head and is telling me to sin.

No, I really felt the urge to commit a crime at that time, and I felt that I only wanted to commit crimes, and I could ignore everything.

Glad that I had defeated the devil at that critical moment, I rushed into the bathroom and washed my face with cold water to regain a trace of sobriety.

I leaned against the wall of the bathroom, my hand pressed against the swollen devil and ravaged it for a while, when she appeared in my head again, a spirit, and the devil's tears spurted out.

At that time, the limbs were weak, and the body was evacuated, and the body that was attached to the wall slid down, and the whole person fell to the floor of the bathroom. At this time, he was fully awake, and it was very uncomfortable to be wet and slippery, and he pulled a handful of paper towels and wiped it through indiscriminately, and then he felt better. Looking at the tissue in his hand, he was suddenly ashamed, and quickly threw the evidence of the crime into the toilet bowl and flushed it with water.

Taking a deep breath, tidying up her clothes, calming her feelings, she gently came to the room, quietly helped her take off the dirty clothes that had been vomited, and left her room after settling her to sleep.

It seems that you must always pay attention to her in the future, try to keep your distance from her, and never make that kind of unforgivable mistake.

After reading this diary, Mu Nan had already scolded Jian Zheng hundreds of times in his heart.

Coward!

A sucker!

Brainless!

What unforgivable mistake?

If you are as afraid of death as you are, then the human race will be extinct long ago.

Stupid pig, the cabbage is ready, but you gave the tissue!

Paper towel!

She suddenly thought of tissues!