March 29th, evening.

Ning Yuan stood in the middle of the living room of his own rental room, looking left and right, looking back and forth.

This afternoon, after playing a training match and having dinner at the base, he came back here alone to see if there was anything else to take, and someone would pick him up tomorrow morning and bring him with him.

He's staying here tonight.

When I was tired of tidying up my things, I leaned back on the sofa and rested for a while, feeling extremely comfortable.

The golden nest and the silver nest are not as good as their own rotten kennels.

Sure enough, it's the most accustomed to staying at home!

Just then, there was a knock on the door.

"Here we are."

Ning Yuan answered, walked over and opened the door.

"Huh? What are you doing here? After seeing the person, Ning Yuan looked surprised.

"Hmm...... Come and see you! ”

Ning Jing, who was standing at the door, looked smiling, and a round of crescent moon came out of her mouth.

"Huh? It's weird! ”

Ning Yuan was puzzled: "How do you know that I will come back here today?" I don't think I told you. ”

Since the beginning of March, Ning Jing has had a lot of things to do at school, and she hasn't come to him for a long time.

And after moving from Ningyuan to the base, he was training every day, and he had no time.

The brother and sister haven't seen each other for more than 20 days, and they are only communicating through mobile phones.

Of course, Ning Yuan also told her about going to work professionally.

"Guess!"

Ning Jing smiled and said, "You have a game tomorrow, so I have a feeling that you may come back." ”

"Ah...... Is that so? Ning Yuan scratched his head.

What is this? Sixth sense?

Yes, Xiao Zhun.

......

Then they entered the house and the two sat on the sofa.

Ning Jing stared at him, carefully scanned his whole person, and nodded very firmly.

"You...... Fat. ”

Ning Yuan: "......"

Speechless, it is true.

Usually at home, sometimes he has dinner, and occasionally he goes for a walk in the small park nearby to exercise a little.

However, on the base side, except for training is training, almost all of the time is spent in front of the computer and in bed.

Mainly because the food in the club is really good, these days it is full of big fish and meat, high-fat and high-calorie food, and it is all Ning Yuan's favorite food, plus sometimes the game is too late and hungry, and I have to eat supper......

This is not controlled, and after half a month, I have gained almost ten pounds......

Alas...... The truth is always so hurtful.

"Have time to exercise more and lose weight." Ning Jing looked at him with a smile, "If you get a little fatter, it will really affect your image a little." ”

“...... Do you care about me? ”

Ning Yuan didn't care, but in his heart he secretly thought about studying the treadmill in the base in two days......

"What about you, how have you been at school lately?" Ning Yuan asked her again.

"Fortunately, it was busy some time ago, and this time it was a little easier." Ning Jing said.

"Hmm...... What about learning? How does it feel? ”

"It's not difficult."

"Yes, it's you."

"Hee-hee, of course."

"How do you get along with your roommates and classmates?"

"No problem...... Hey, why do you always like to worry about these problems? ”

"I'm not afraid that you will have conflicts with others, make bad relationships, and be isolated!"

"How is that possible? Don't worry about it. ”

"Okay."

The two of you are talking about each other, and there seems to be endless topics to talk about.

Reality is different from two-dimensional after all.

It is said that most of the brothers and sisters in other people's families do not get along well.

If the contradiction is serious, they often start to fight at the slightest disagreement.

However, their family doesn't seem to be so extreme, they had a lot of trouble when they were young, but when they were a little bigger, they basically didn't quarrel much.

On the contrary, he chatted with Ning Jing quite well, and there was no barrier.

Maybe it's because of a single-parent family.

......

Time passed minute by minute, and at nine o'clock in the evening, the lights were on in the house, and it was dark.

In this old residential area, there are not many people on weekdays, and there is basically no one outside at night, quietly.

The quiet atmosphere soon affected the room, and at some point, the two of them fell silent at the same time.

"How's the preparation going?" Ning Jing suddenly asked.

Ning Yuan was stunned: "What?" ”

"Competition, what else can there be." Ning Jing said, "You're going to play tomorrow...... How do you feel about it? ”

Ning Yuan stopped talking.

Reaching out with his right hand and grabbing his face, his eyes lowered and his gaze lowered.

"Got something on your mind?" Ning Jing asked tentatively.

“...... Pretty much. ”

Ning Yuan sighed slightly.

He couldn't tell what kind of mood he was feeling right now.

Agitated?

Expect?

Excited?

Nervous?

Anxiety?

Worry?

It doesn't seem to be, but it seems to have a little bit.

Perhaps most players, who are on the professional stage for the first time, will have such mixed emotions.

However, Ning Yuan was different from them......

For so long, there was a burden in his heart that he couldn't let go.

In this way, Ning Yuan stared down at the ground.

And Ning Jing stared at him with flat eyes, didn't speak, and waited quietly.

The night was silent, and only two insect chirps could be heard outside the house.

Half an hour later.

Suddenly, Ning Yuan smiled inexplicably for no reason.

"Ning Jing...... There's something right now, I'm struggling with ......."

Ning Yuan raised his head and looked at her: "You have read more than me, and you know more truth, can you ..... Enlighten me? ”

"Okay, no problem."

Ning Jing sat up straight and signaled, "I'll listen to you." ”

"That's it...... What do you say......"

Ning Yuan paused slightly and organized his language.

Subsequently, I told her what happened when I was working as a professional three years ago.

Including when he left home, he went to Tianhai to be a network administrator for a period of time, and while rushing to score, he reached the top of the national service in a single row......

Then, Yan Cheng took a fancy to him and pulled him into the club of the LPL at that time and became a professional player......

Then, when he first entered the arena, he defeated almost all his opponents, how brilliant his performance was, praised by the commentary, sought after by the audience, and received people's keen attention, bearing high expectations, and the scenery was infinite......

Later, the bubble game failed to advance, the team was in a sluggish state, there were conflicts between the players, how they were isolated by the team, they were targeted by teammates and opponents in the game, and in the slump of consecutive defeats, the state declined, and they fell deeper and deeper, and because of the quarrel and frenzy in the base, they were refrigerated by the club, and finally kicked away......

These things, which had never been revealed to Ning Jing, were told to her in one fell swoop today.

“...... That's pretty much it, you know what you're going to be an anchor or something, right? ”

After Ning Yuan finished speaking, he suddenly laughed: "Doesn't it sound a bit fucked?" ”

"Hmmm......"

Ning Jing groaned slightly, and after a long time, she spoke: "Feel your experience...... It's too tortuous......" shook his head with emotion.

Although she also knew that it would never be so easy for Ning to go out of the big city alone after she was far away from home, she really never thought that there would be such a rugged encounter.

It's like listening to a story.

Stumbling and bumpy along the way, three or four years of experience seems to be worth more than ten years of others.

I usually look at him with a big grin, but I don't know that he still has so many things hidden in his heart.

Alas......

It's so hard......

Ning Jing sighed slightly.

"Then I thought about it, and I probably had some problems at that time." Ning Yuan said flatly, "The mood may not be right, it shouldn't be so extreme." ”

"Nope."

Ning Jing shook her head: "You're not wrong, it's them who are wrong." ”

"Jealousy and jealousy, crowding out and suppressing, reporting to the group for warmth, and engaging in these small actions behind the scenes...... Oh, how ugly could this face be? ...... This may be the true face of this society, no matter where it goes. ”

"Alright, alright, you don't have to be upset with me." Ning Yuan smiled lightly and waved his hand, "It's been so long since this matter has passed, I don't care about it for a long time...... It's not interesting to keep writing it down. ”

"That's good."

Ning Jing nodded.

Indeed, over time, many things may be seen openly.

It's not that you have to tolerate others, but at least you have to be tolerant of yourself, and there is no need to keep stuck because of these messy things and make yourself unable to get out.

"So ......?"

Ning Jing looked at him directly and asked, "What are you struggling with now?" ”

Ha~~~~~~~

Ning Yuan let out a breath and rubbed his face.

"In the past few days, I have been surfing the Internet and reading a lot of remarks...... How so...... Everyone wants me to be able to get back to the way I was when I was at my peak......"

"What kind of king is coming, blowing everything up, and dominating the LPL's road...... Anyway, I feel like I'm invincible......"

Ning Yuan smiled bitterly: "Everyone's expectations for me are really too high...... I decided that I would be able to lead the team out of the predicament and end the losing streak...... I, I don't know what to say, really ......"

Indeed, he hit the top of the world to the first place, and the RANK is fierce.

usually broadcasts all kinds of chaotic shows, defeats countless grandmaster kings in the ranks, has clear ideas and delicate operations, and it can be seen that he has strong strength.

The most important thing is that the promotional video of "Return" released by the official blog not long ago aroused the enthusiasm in the hearts of netizens.

Unconsciously, they pinned all their hopes on Ning Yuan, expecting him to be invincible and invincible after he returned to the arena!

Just like the scene of the return of those heroes in American comics!

How romantic!

However, comics are just comics, not reality.

The reality is often brutal.

In RANK, he may be able to control the thunderbolt, but the professional arena is still different from RANK after all.

Compared with the two, the ranking tends to be individual, while the competition is more about teamwork.

Moreover, from the recent training matches, some clues can be seen, after playing against those professional teams, Ning Yuan himself knows that he is not so good Kerry.

Perhaps, some people will think that he has a system in hand, and there is nothing to worry about.

But in fact, the system enhancement is only his personal ability, not the kind of plug-in that modifies the game, and he can't go out and pretend to be more than others.

How easy is it to rely on him alone to support the whole team?

Netizens all regarded him as a savior.

Then I thought of the most glorious moment when I first played professionally, and was praised by countless fans......

Vividly......

Ning Yuan felt that he was carrying too much.

If you fail this time......

......

"That is to say......"

Ning Jing thought for a while, looked at him and said, "You are still indulging in your past glory and can't forget your previous pride?" ”

“......”

"Do you feel that you have so many fans now, so you have idol baggage?"

“......”

"If Kerry can't compete, can't show, can't become what they fantasize in their hearts, are you afraid of being embarrassed?"

“......”

"If you lose the game and feel like you're going to be infamy? Afraid that you will be ridiculed and ridiculed by others? ”

“......”

"And then the fans are disappointed in you, afraid that no one will pay attention to you and support you in the future? Is that so? ”

“......”

Ning Yuan only felt that his heart was being pinched hard!

Every word is heart-wrenching!

Every sentence is soul torture!

"You...... This ......"

Ning Yuan rubbed the position of his chest and smiled bitterly.

That's too ruthless!

My sister has always been like this, she never beats around the bush when she speaks, and she always hits the nail on the head and hits the nail on the head.

And before he could say a few words, she was so caught by the thoughts in her heart......

"I ......"

Ning Yuan scratched his head in distress: "I just don't want to disappoint those who support me...... I just don't want to live up to their expectations. ”

"Isn't that the same thing as me?"

“...... All right. ”

One thing to say, indeed.

Ay......

Ning Yuan let out a long sigh, leaned back, and leaned back.

"Your brother is such an ordinary person, he doesn't have such a high ideological realm, and the pattern is really a bit small...... What ordinary people are, I am. ”

immediately laughed at himself: "Do you think I'm particularly cowardly and useless?" ”

However, seeing Ning Jing shook her head: "No, I don't think you are cowardly...... Actually, everyone is the same. ”

"Oh, really?" Ning Yuan was a little surprised, and asked rhetorically, "What about you?" ”

"Me? Of course I am. ”

Ning Jing smiled calmly, sat down closer to Ning Yuan, and told him: "Let me tell you, you see, generally others think that I have good grades, there is no difficulty in studying, and the exam has always been nine out of ten, so don't worry about it at all, right?" ”

"But it's not, in fact, every time I take the exam, I am so nervous...... Just like last year's college entrance examination, to be honest, before the exam, I really didn't have any bottom in my heart...... Will there be a sudden malfunction in the exam? Will you just not be able to do those questions? Will it be that in the end, you can't even take a book and become the laughing stock of others? ”

"When the time comes, will others say behind their backs, 'Oh, I usually top ten in my grade, my grades are so good, and that's all I can do in the college entrance examination?' ...... I've thought about all these things. ”

“...... Is that so? ”

Ning Yuan was surprised.

Usually looks at his sister with a breezy appearance, no matter what she does, she is at ease, but she didn't expect that there are so many mental activities?

"It's human nature to be proud, to be afraid of failure, to not want to be looked down upon by others."

Ning Jing smiled slightly: "People always say that if you don't like things, you don't feel sad about yourself, and you can't suffer from gains and losses...... But how many can really do that? ”

"Everyone is mortal, who can be higher than whom?"

Ning Yuan sat there silently, listening carefully.

"Also, brother, don't look down on yourself."

Ning Jing smiled and said to him, "Actually, you have always been my role model...... I learned a lot from you. ”

"Huh? No way? ”

Ning Yuan was stunned for a moment, completely confused: "I am your role model?" I...... What can you learn? ”

has always been in the eyes of others, Ning Jing is always so good, and he is always so crotch-pulling.

If the result is excellent, you still have to take the crotch puller as an example?

"Your persistence and persistence are rare and valuable qualities."

Ning Jing looked directly at him and said seriously.

In fact, she knew that Ning Yuan was a very filial person.

Since childhood, he has rarely made any disobedience to his mother.

And one of the few times was when he dropped out of school to pursue a career.

At that time, there was a disturbance at home, and the two sides quarreled back and forth, and there was no rest all day.

There is no absolute criterion for judging who is right and who is wrong.

But in the end, Ning Yuan still chose to stick to his ideas and put them into practical action.

How much courage does it take to drop out of high school and go out of the family alone to go to a strange big city, without relatives and for no reason?

Even if he suffered countless hardships later, he never poured out a word of bitterness to his family, and he had no complaints.

Everything is to pursue his own e-sports career, and he has never given up.

"Including my piano, practicing day after day is actually very boring...... The reason why I can play until now is not only because I like it, but also because of you......"

Ning Jing smiled: "Sometimes I get tired from practicing and don't want to play, but when I think of you, I continue to persevere." ”

"Hmmm......"

Ning Yuan was still a little incredulous.

Inexplicably, he has become a positive role model again?

It's kind of magical......

"So, now that you're back in the ring, your chance has come...... Don't give up, hold on to it and don't let go...... Other things, you really don't need to think too much. ”

Ning Jingwan said: "Didn't you learn the text of "Preface to King Teng's Pavilion" in high school Chinese? There is a saying in it, 'Poor and strong, do not fall into the ambition of the clouds'! ”

"I think you've done that."

"But even if your situation is no longer difficult, don't forget your purest passion."

At the end, his eyes gradually brightened.

"I'll tell you one last word: put down everything in your hands, and then, embrace what you love!"