Wang Xiaobo said that the essence of all human suffering is anger at one's own impotence. So what is the nature of anger? Probably it's all a disguise for weakness.

And I'm very angry now, very angry, because the one who fished me out of the patrol bureau was the one who was with Yu Nuo, in a suit and leather shoes!

He has an angular face, a long figure, and elegant clothes, and the blue BMW behind him reflects a seductive light in the light of a rainy night. When he saw that I was standing still and did not speak, he handed the umbrella to Yu Nuo, and slowly paced to the side to smoke, and this victorious attitude made me even more angry.

I looked at Yu Nuo coldly, trying not to make my tone less trembling: "Who is he?" Are you with him at night? "I've rehearsed countless rebukes, but I haven't made up my mind whether to continue to rage at Nou's tears of repentance, to leave her with an angry back or to pretend to be a gentleman who doesn't care.

Yu Nuo didn't shed tears, he was as cold as a sculpture, he didn't speak for a long time, just stared at his side, as if there was an answer in the falling rain.

"What's wrong? I don't know how to explain it? "I held back my heart that was about to burst, and pretended to chase after it.

Suddenly, Yu Nuoyang threw a bag of things at my feet, and the words "Zhang Lao's three-hundred-year-old pig's trotters" were clearly written on the bag, and then he turned his face and asked me coldly: "You follow me?" ”

"What?" My heart was empty.

"I saw a car following us from work, I deliberately remembered the license plate number, but the colleague who changed cars with you, Tohuoxin, called me, saying that there was something in the car that was in a hurry to use, but I couldn't contact you, I knew that the car behind me was driving you, otherwise how would we know so quickly that you entered the patrol bureau......"

"We ...... We...... We! You really don't distinguish between each other. I felt so angry that I couldn't wait to grasp a word in her words and yell to maintain my dignity.

"Situ Ran!" Yu Nuo suddenly called my name, and the umbrella in his hand trembled heavily. "I've had enough of you! Look at you, you're almost thirty years old, what's there? Until now, he is still a broken claims adjuster in an insurance company, with a salary of four or five thousand yuan a month, just a small broken car, no house, no savings, and nothing. They all say that I should be better off than now, I also want to live better, I think others are better than me! ”

"Is it just money? When did you become so materialistic? "I can't refute it, I just feel that this is not the once simple and intellectual Yu Nuo.

"What is matter? Shouldn't I enjoy it? You can't take care of your wife well, and you even blame me for the material?! What did you say you gave me? What's the use of asking you?!" Yu Nuo choked up, and two lines of tears slipped down in an instant, like her sleepless every night.

"But I've given you everything, I've given you everything I have." My self-esteem was shattered and I almost pleaded, and I asked her, "How can you be so dissatisfied?" But when the words came to his lips, he couldn't spit them out.

"Is it because you are too incompetent, because you are lazy, you are timid, you are not enterprising, should I suffer with you? Let's not delay anyone, you probably can't get used to me, so let's leave it at that. Yu Nuo's words were already cold, and the rain was even colder.

In the end, Yu Nuo wiped his cheek fiercely with the back of his hand and said, "I'm leaving, don't look for me again in the future, never." The last four words were so pronounced that I could hear my teeth clenching.

After speaking, she turned around and walked towards the BMW, but at this time, the man who was hiding next to her and smoking said loudly: "Xiaonuo, you forgot to tell Mr. Situ that his friend Huo Xinrang must call back." Seeing that Yu Nuo ignored it and got into the car directly, he nodded at me with some embarrassment, and made a phone call gesture to remind me that he was really a warm man.

And before he got into the car, he turned to me and straightened his tie, which was a delicate and shiny tie clip, the one that had been lying in his bag.

I paced through the rain, it was originally the season when it was warm and cold, and now there was a kind of coolness that soaked into the body. The police officer of the Patrol Bureau told me clearly that people could go, but the car still needed to be impounded, and the owner himself could only come to collect it, so I had no choice but to measure the depth of the city with my feet and feel the coldness of this rainy night with my body.

I regret that I didn't have the cheekiness to borrow the phone of the patrol bureau, so that now I can't even contact Huo Xin, who is usually noisy, and I tried to get close to other pedestrians on the road to borrow a phone, but in the middle of the night, the street is already sparse and cold, who wants to let a stranger approach? There was even a girl who spat at me who tried to get closer, scolding me for being a pervert.

My mother often told me that I knew how much happiness I had, and I never felt that money was so important, but the slap of reality struck me to pieces at once, and Yu Nuo, who had been in love for several years, Yu Nuo, who was extremely contented and liked to smile, and Yu Nuo, who hugged my shoulder and said that he hoped to live a simple life like this, suddenly left me because of money - perhaps, all this is just my own hindsight, some people always live in their own fantasies, I am like this.

Isn't it money? I just didn't care before! I instantly remembered Huo Xin, yes, I took that job, isn't it just to make money? I've got a way! I seemed to be suddenly full of motivation and ran wildly, the rain in the sky was light, the wind in my ears was strong, and I ran until my stomach tightened, and something seemed to be about to erupt.

I bent over, put my hands on my knees, and opened my mouth wide, gasping for breath and retching. Suddenly, a voice sounded beside him: "Yes, friend, you can run." ”

I looked up, it was a small young man, a tights for night running made him look quite thin, but his face was delicate, and he combed his hair back neatly and tied up a ball head, with a smile on his face, very approachable, but his eyes seemed to be a little cloudy at night, not as clear and translucent as a young man of this age should have. He greeted me about two meters away from me while raising his legs high on the spot: "Good endurance and speed." He even stretched out his right hand to me, with his thumb straight up.

'Thanks, I don't do much now, I used to play football a lot, playing as a winger. I was polite, and a little ostentatious, and suddenly I felt a sadness, did I only have this little self-esteem left?

"Don't be modest, I'm a little tired from running with you for more than ten minutes" His tone was very sincere, but it didn't sound very good, he changed from raising his leg high to lunging down, and then said: "After all, you don't look young, and your physical strength is like this, it's not bad." ”

His words were very objective, but the truth was the most hurtful, but I stared at the mobile phone he carried on his arm, deaf to his piercing words: "Friend, can I borrow your mobile phone to use it?" ”