Gu Bei walked to the aisle of the carriage, looked at the scenery outside the train, and began to be confused like most people's youth, and those moods condensed by confusion were also like a low song, constantly singing the sadness of silence.

The melancholy floating in Gu Bei's heart, like a slender tentacle, unscrupulously penetrated into the large and small pores on Gu Bei's skin, and stretched like a vine, winding into the heart and lungs, suffocating Gu Bei, making Gu Bei painful, and making Gu Bei numb.

"What are you thinking?" After Xiong Zhengyu went to the toilet, he saw Gu Bei staring out of the car in a daze, so he took out a cigarette and handed it over.

Gu Bei waved his hand: "I promised an old man to quit smoking." ”

Xiong Zhengyu didn't care, he lit a cigarette and asked, "The old man at home?" ”

Gu Bei was silent for a while, and slowly raised the corners of his mouth: "Almost." ”

"Hehe, you're looking for an answer, right?" Xiong Zhengyu said in a tone of a passer-by, "Actually, I used to think, thinking about whether I should make changes to my mediocre life, thinking about how to create extraordinary, but thinking about it, I found that there is no answer at all, and there is no antidote to solve the doubts in our hearts, but it is precisely because of the existence of youth that we are confused in hesitation, struggling in confusion, suffering in struggle, confused in pain, groping in confusion, lost in groping, broken in loss, It is precisely because of our youth that we seek, looking for something valuable to us. ”

Gu Bei looked back at Xiong Zhengyu's words, and this magical word made Gu Bei start to think about the truth that these schools would not talk about, and that his parents didn't have time to talk about.

"Okay, don't think about it, you can't think of it, walking out of an unexpected life is growth." Xiong Zhengyu patted Gu Bei's shoulder, "Tell me about your past." ”

Gu Bei shook his head self-deprecatingly, put these messy mediocre self-disturbances behind, and said: "After finishing the second year of high school, I can't go on, I just want to come out and break through, I came to Peking in July last year, when I was only 15 years old, I was deceived twice, I started to do part-time work, where I want people to go, the first three or four months were basically spent the money brought by the family, and then slowly stabilized, the income is not bad, and I have been doing it now." ”

"There are also many opportunities in Guangdong Province, why do you want to come to Beiping?"

"I don't want to stay in Guangdong." A trace of sadness flashed in Gu Bei's eyes.

Although Xiong Zhengyu didn't know what happened to Gu Bei, he wasn't ready to uncover the scars of others, so he said in a joking tone: "You came out at such a young age, and you have encountered a lot of things, right?" ”

"I'm fine, I'm a little tired, but overall it's going well, but, however, I've seen with my own eyes things that I can only know from other people's mouths before." Gu Bei paused slightly, recalled, "I accompanied people to the field to deliver goods, on the way I met a big truck pulling coal, there seems to be a coal truck often passing by on that road, the surrounding villagers are waiting on the side of the road, seeing a coal car passing by, they take a long branch from the walking car to get as much coal as possible, I am very lucky, I saw with my own eyes a woman with a child on her back, was hit on the head by the falling coal, the woman fell to the ground, the child cried vigorously, and the coal car driver was still moving forward. ”

After being silent for a while, Gu Bei said in a deep voice: "This incident has brought me a lot of stimulation, and even subverted my cognition. ”

Xiong Zhengyu smiled and said, "Aren't you afraid at that time?" ”

"Forget." Gu Bei smiled relievedly and said, "Later, a person can kneel for a job, a fierce god who only exists in the literary world in my impression forced another young man with a dream to return to his hometown, a love became shattered in front of the door, and a happy family was destroyed in a car accident...... I felt that I was a spectator of Mr. Lu Xun's pen, trying to jump out of the cage, but I was indifferent. ”

Gu Bei's expression was very serious, his mood was a little low, and his tone was like a paranoid madman, which scared Xiong Zhengyu.

"You're jumping out now, relax!" Xiong Zhengyu didn't expect Gu Bei to experience so much in less than two years, so he comforted, "Life is not so unsatisfactory, besides, it is still someone else's unsatisfactory, right?" ”

Still the paranoid Gu Bei smiled evilly, showed his big white teeth, and said, "It's like acting, right?" Hey, lie to you. ”

"Huh?" Xiong Zhengyu glanced at Gu Bei in surprise, not knowing whether to believe Gu Bei's words.

"I bought a book about acting when I was waiting for the bus yesterday, I learned it from above, I acted paranoid, like?" Gu Bei said with a smile, and his heart was also full of a sense of accomplishment.

After getting along for a short time, Gu Bei also had a preliminary understanding of Xiong Zhengyu's character, so he made a joke casually, but what Gu Bei said just now really happened around Gu Bei, but Gu Bei was not a paranoid at all.

Only then did Xiong Zhengyu believe that Gu Bei was really acting, and immediately laughed and scolded: "Stinky boy!" Isn't there a lack of education! ”

……

The crew is full of forty-seven people, and the nearly three-day drive also allowed Gu Bei to recognize all his future work partners, after chatting in this circle, Gu Bei found that he was really the youngest, and because of this, most people took good care of Gu Bei, and when it was time to eat, they would send Gu Bei something to eat from time to time.

There are also people with dull personalities, Tan Zhuo, the boss of the entire crew, is a person who doesn't like to talk much, in his forties, with short spiritual hair, he looks very calm, listening to Xiong Zhengyu and a few people, Tan Zhuo has a very good personality, and the brothers in the opponent are also very good, but don't make him angry, otherwise the consequences will be very serious, Gu Bei doesn't know how to make a serious law, but he doesn't dare to provoke Tan Zhuo.

During this period, Gu Bei also learned what he did after joining the crew, and at first he was like an apprentice, moving equipment, running errands, learning while doing, and almost entering a certain group, camera crew, makeup group, props group, logistics group, costume group, etc., but it still depends on how well Gu Bei learns.

You can also go up when you need a group performance, but the crew's own people can't get paid for the group performance, unless it's a dead body, because many people are taboo, so they usually pack a red envelope, but it won't be much, generally just one or two pieces, and the dead body of the homicide needs to show its face often, and it may be a little more.

In addition, there is also the opportunity to play a small supporting role, special contract or something, and you can also have two lines, which can be paid, but it must be appropriate, and you can't make mistakes, otherwise you will not only be scolded by the director and producer, but also deducted money by Tan Zhuo.

The crew went to Chengdu to shoot this time, Gu Bei had never heard of it at all, and there was no trace of the HC old demon in his memory, called "Even If I Miss", a modern urban TV series with a love theme, I heard that it was a TV series invested by a coal boss with his girlfriend, what this TV series is about, Gu Bei didn't know, he just joined the crew, and it was not easy to ask Tan Zhuo for a script, so Gu Bei just quietly did his own thing.

Tan Zhuo's crew is like this, it is not very professional, it has a certain rental nature, and if you have money, you will shoot it, which makes Gu Bei feel like Tan Zhuo, the contractor, taking a group of small workers everywhere to take over the project.

After Tan Zhuo talked with the investor for a day or two, the unknown TV series "Even If I Miss" cooperated by unknown actors, unknown directors, and unknown crews officially started filming.

"Who's okay on their hands? Come and play a passerby if you have nothing to do, you don't have to change your clothes! Tan Zhuo shouted with a megaphone.

When Gu Bei heard this, he hurriedly put down the book in his hand and ran over, although he didn't have the money to take it, but observing those leading actors up close is also a kind of learning for Gu Bei, the art examination introduced by Zhang Jiayi is a hurdle, Gu Bei must take advantage of these two years to learn quickly.

It was precisely because there was no money to take it, and other people were too lazy to go to such a role with the same background as Gu Bei, Tan Zhuo took a look at it and said, "Gu Bei, right?" You walk along the road from this street lamp for a while, just walk out of the picture, don't do superfluous movements, don't look at the camera, go ahead. ”

"......" Gu Bei opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't say anything, he honestly walked according to what Tan Zhuo said, and he couldn't feel any of the performances, the director and the starring role are also unknown, Gu Bei has never heard of it, this heroine doesn't seem to be from a professional class, but she should have also been professionally trained for a while.

Just as Gu Bei was about to go back and continue reading his book, the director suddenly shouted: "Who was that group performance just now?" Come here! ”

Gu Bei was stunned for a moment, looked around, and then determined that he was calling himself, and hurriedly ran to the director: "Director, are you looking for me?" ”

The director glanced Gu Bei up and down, nodded secretly, and said, "The image is good, there is a character who picks up for a while, and there are two lines, can you do it?" ”

Won the lottery? Gu Bei didn't think about it, and nodded directly.

"Give him that part of the script."

Gu Bei took it, there was only a thin piece of paper, and there were very few scenes, he accosted the heroine in the bar, and as soon as he said two words, he was knocked out by the male protagonist with a punch, Gu Bei thought for a while, hesitated for a while, and still asked the director: "Director, but I just entered the painting, and now I will play a role again, isn't it a goof?" ”

"Hey, let you act, you can act, where is so much nonsense?" The director said without looking back.

Gu Bei didn't say anything more, thinking about how to express these two lines according to what he saw in the book, the situation was a bar, and the characters were ...... should be a perennial gangster who hunts in bars, and he should be confident when he takes the initiative to talk.

Cynical, confident and even a little narcissistic?

was beaten by the male protagonist, it should be regarded as a negative character, and there should be a little evil thought in his eyes......

Gu Bei analyzed it, thought about the TV series that HC Old Demon had watched, tried to mobilize his facial expressions, and deliberately found a mirror to look at, the meaning was there, but Gu Bei felt that he was so pretentious, and his acting was too exaggerated.

"That group performer, come here!" The director shouted again, and after Gu Bei came over, he asked again, "Do you remember the words?" ”

"I remember."

"Say it again."

Gu Bei prepared a little, and acted according to the exaggerated acting skills just now: "Beauty, alone? I know a place to be fun, is there any interest? ”

To Gu Bei's surprise, the director actually pointed out Gu Bei with great interest: "Hmm...... Tighten your expression a little, don't move too much, and don't drift your eyes. ”

"Okay, Director! Thank you, Director! ”

Gu Bei has guidance, although this director is not necessarily talented, but he is more professional than Gu Bei, after listening to the suggestion, Gu Bei hurriedly adjusted, although it is not very good, but at least it does not let people play, Gu Bei also successfully completed the first scene with lines in his life, of course, he was also punched by the male protagonist.

"It's okay." The director, who was staring at the monitor, said coldly.

The corners of Gu Bei's mouth rose, and he suddenly felt that the performance was really interesting.