Seven regrets for life
When I heard her say that she was happy with me, I couldn't have said how happy I was.
For as long as I can remember, I haven't really been happy.
Because, my heart was filled with my father's hatred.
He appeared in my life as a Master and brought me hatred and suffering directly.
I drank wolf milk from wolves, talked wolf words, wore no clothes, and was free.
Until, two years later, there was a sudden outbreak of disease in the village, because a workshop had polluted the water source, and my father heard about it and hurried over.
He used his superb medical skills to treat the villagers, and before leaving, he decided to pick some herbs, and I, because I occasionally saw people two days ago, realized that I was different from the wolf, and began to wonder what I was, trying to figure it out.
People, unlike me, I found leaves to surround myself.
And just like that, we met halfway through.
I couldn't walk upright, I crawled on my hands and feet, and he reached out and picked me up, crying bitterly.
I was free in the wolves, and I never cried very sadly, and I never saw wolves cry, but for some reason, at this moment, I understood what heartache was.
Come with me.
I let out a wolf-like howl.
From now on, I am your master.
I didn't understand what he was saying, but I didn't think he would hurt me, because he didn't hurt the wolf.
But I didn't want to be separated from the wolves.
He also understood what I meant, and gestured as he spoke, meaning that I could come back at any time.
I smiled and nodded.
He carried me on his back and searched for an afternoon, and finally, he cut down a tree and built a house.
From then on, I began to learn to speak, to learn etiquette, to learn, to be a man, a man, a man to avenge my mother.
When I was five years old, my master took in three more apprentices, and that was in the same year, he admitted that he was my father and told me that my mother was killed, and the cause of death was unknown, but he knew who indirectly killed my mother.
I didn't expect that she would let me know who she was so quickly, and the moment she said that she was Wen Jingshui's daughter, I couldn't even breathe, I felt that she was particularly cruel, and she brought me from the sky to the trough at once, and I was shattered.
When she said that she was happy with me, I thought, when she grows up, I must go to her house to propose marriage, and I will not be separated from her for the rest of my life.
At that moment, I knew that my dreams were broken, and my heart was broken.
Although my father said that he would not hurt Wen Guan, I did not believe that a person who instilled hatred in his children would be merciful to the children of his enemies.
So, I thought, I can't let Wen Guan stay with me anymore.
One year is enough, although there is no long-term stay.
When she was sent away, her father watched.
When I went back, my father looked at me majestically and asked, "She's gone."
She was homesick and went back.
Do you think that being a father is not a good person?
No.
Send it away, send it away, and don't be distracted by revenge.
In case, it's a misunderstanding, not Wen Jingshui.
When did the Father say that it was Him?
Dad, the Wen family is innocent.
What do you know. Okay, don't mention the Wen family anymore, hurry up and find a woman.
I shook my head: I just want to avenge my mother, I don't want to find a woman.
You told me that you don't like Wen Guan, are you bluffing me?
I'm sorry, Father, I, all I listen to you is that I will marry whoever you let me marry, and I will try to forget that she once appeared.
Arranged marriage, hurting innocent people, you are really a wolf child, thinking about your father like this!
I knelt down and said, "Dad, I was wrong, please punish me."
My father didn't hit me, but patted me on the shoulder: "Father hopes that you will understand my good intentions and not fail my father."
I solemnly said, "Yes, Father."
Five years later, twenty-one
At the age of I, I still can't get rid of the torment of heart disease, and my father is helpless against my illness.
My father himself wondered why he could cure any disease, and everyone else's disease, but he couldn't cure my heart disease.
Luckily, my heart disease wasn't too serious and I didn't delay anything.
This year, I met Zheng Yi.
All I can say about her is that she is a very beautiful woman.
However, she fell in love with me at first sight and married.
From the age when I could become my own child, my father has been helping me find a woman, but either I don't look down on others or people don't look down on me, so the marriage is delayed.
Finally there is a woman who is okay, and I have no reason not to marry.
However, no one can know about my father, so I told the story of my childhood experience, and made up the story of being kicked out by my adoptive parents and asking my adoptive parents to agree to our marriage.
Zheng Yi is two years younger than me, she lives in Songren Village, but it is the first time she sees me, she is enthusiastic and shy, innocent and wanton, but I really can't like any woman anymore.
I was humble and respectful to her, and I never said anything intimate or even did anything to make her happy, just as it was a great gift to her that I had married her.
Zheng Yi, you give me a child.
If I marry you, I will definitely give birth.
I said, "Yes, you have to give birth."
She looked at me very scared: Qiuyue, do you like me?
In three days, you will marry me, and then I asked, don't you think it's too late?
I said I was going to kiss her.
We met secretly, and according to the rules of Songren County, we could not meet for three days before we got married.
This is clearly out of place.
What's more, there is no half love in my eyes, only the impulse of a man to a woman.
At night, Zheng Yi is really beautiful.
I secretly went to Wenxin Inn to see Wen Guan, the two of them, they can't be compared at all.
Perhaps, Zheng Yi also heard my heart and avoided it.
On the day Zheng Yi gave birth, it was raining heavily, and I was in a brothel, so I couldn't say that I went to find a woman, but that a woman accompanied me.
I used to be very lonely and needed like-minded people to talk to me.
The brothel is a good place, and the women here listen to me, and occasionally meet men like me as friends with wine and meat.
I met Lu Tu, he came much more than me, every time he must be drunk, specifically looking for an oiran, spending a lot of money, in the process of talking, I know that his family is in business, he squandered his parents' money, the reason for this is because his wife spent a day in a brothel, he is angry about it.
At that time, I didn't know that my sister Xianyan was his wife, and persuaded him to live a good life since he was already good, he asked me why I came here, I honestly said that because the woman I love can't be my wife, he asked why, I wasn't drunk, of course I laughed and didn't say anything.
I was listening to the rain in the brothel, and suddenly it occurred to me that today, she should have given birth, and suddenly joy rose in my heart, the joy of being a father, even though I did not like the mother of the child.
This is the second time in my life that I feel happiness from the bottom of my heart.
I didn't discuss it with Zheng Yi, so I named my son Qiuyu.
The language of autumn.
I want him to understand that I am working with his grandfather to get revenge, and we can't do it, he will do it.
My wife gave birth, but my husband was not at home, and I felt guilty in my heart, so I waited for the confinement and never left.
Zheng Yi was not happy because of this, where I went, she knew, especially after she was pregnant, I was hardly at home.
She was a beautiful face, but I was disgusted by not smiling, and I heard that mothers don't like to laugh, and so do children, and I don't want my son to be unhappy from the first moment of birth.
What's the matter with you, unwilling to give me a baby?
Zheng Yi said: It's you who is wrong, not me.
I sneered: Yes, it's me, my fault is that I shouldn't have married you.
Zheng Yi said: You have it in your heart
Women, looking for women every day, only, don't like me.
I said: Yes, I started to like Wenguan when I was sixteen years old, and I only liked Wenguan all my life.
Since that day, she has not been able to feed Xiaoyu, and no matter how much she makes up for it, it will not help.
Father, there is a reason why I am my own son.
One, I knew at first and couldn't accept it.
He thinks that my mother's heart disease will be inherited, but my symptoms are always not serious and he has no way to find out, so it may be rewarding to put his hope in his grandson, preferably his granddaughter.
Obviously, Qiu Yu had let him down, a very healthy child, and he had to go to the doctor's attention everywhere, so we rarely saw each other on this.
I really don't know how to get along with women I don't like, and I don't even know how to get along with my son, but what I do better than Zheng Yi is that I can take care of my son, even if it is yelling, Zheng Yi completely ignores it, and knows that he quarrels with me, and even beats me.
I'll admit that I made her like this.
I didn't say a word about her father's lesson.
But I can't do it, and I take good care of her.
After all, it was I who forced her away.
Three-year-old Xiaoyu already knew how her mother left, Wen Guan's name took root in his heart, and even, let him forget his biological mother's name.
The child grew up day by day, and soon, Qiu Yu was ten years old.
His mother wasn't around, he wasn't happy, he didn't like to go out, he didn't have friends.
So, I raised a wolf cub so that I could be with him when I wasn't at home.
Since the birth of the child, I have never been to a brothel, and the person who is a father must be like a father.
I have given up my liking for Wenguan, just as a hurried meeting and passed by, but I didn't expect that on this day, we met again.
That big brother Qiu made me feel like I was going back to seventeen years ago, when the ten-year-old girl, my little sister, would wear my clothes and follow behind me, sometimes letting me carry, hold, and pester me to make food for her.
She was twenty-seven years old.
The man next to him is his husband.
The day she got married, I went.
I can't see her with another man, so compatible, I think I'm suitable for the role of his husband, if it weren't for my dad watching me, I would have robbed the kiss, so I don't want to say a word, although I've been looking forward to meeting her for so many years.
Unexpectedly, soon, the news that she poisoned Lu Mo and went to prison reached my ears, how can I sit idly by, I learned martial arts, isn't it to protect the woman I like, I, I'm going to save her.
I am the real murderer who killed Lu Mo.
Big brother, I'm ......
Lu Tu, what did he do to you?
No, yes, my child, he, he's afflicted with illness, I can't stand it anymore.
I sighed deeply: Master can't do anything.
I thought about it for a long time, instead of being so painful, it would be better for you to kill him.
You are crazy!
I'm not crazy, I wouldn't be crazy if I didn't. Big brother, I beg you to help me.
The people in your government eat dry food, and you can't find out anything.
I have a poison here, which has the same symptoms as a heart attack, and I can't detect it. Senior brother, I beg you, I will never blame you, please, help me, I can only trust you.
Then, there is Zhang Zhenzhen and Du Zhong.
Ask me and persuade me together.
I had no choice but to agree and promise not to tell Master.
I never expected that she would frame Wen Guan, and I never expected that she would kill me.
Bud rice field, the person who dropped the copper plate was arranged by her.
Seriously injured, I was admitted to Eucommia's hospital. Z.br>
Bright colors appeared next to my bedside.
Raise your knife.
Why?
Ask your dad, don't ask me!
She was trembling and glaring at me, but I think she was glaring at me too
father.
Your dad is the devil! He asked me to have a child with a man with a heart disease, I thought it was to help me fulfill my wish to be a mother, but in fact, the purpose was to use this child as an experiment. But he is my master, I can't kill you, I can only kill you, kill you, he will be more painful, in order to avenge my son, he wants your life, rightly.
I lay on the bed and couldn't move, just watching the knife fall, and the knife had an obvious gap, which she had deliberately made, so that she could find out about my father later.
Bright Colors are dressed in rags and wearing a mask, like a ghost asking for her life.
My fate with Wen Guan stopped here, which made me feel very sorry, and I was more worried about Qiu Yu, what would he do.
Before, I knelt down and begged Wen Wan to adopt him, that was because I thought the government would not let me go, robbing the prison, the crime was not light, I thought I was in prison, Qiu Yu was taken care of, only Wen Wan was the most suitable.
Wen Wan didn't promise me at the time, thinking of this, I couldn't turn a blind eye!
This reunion, Wenguan made me feel familiar and strange.
She smiled sweetly, just like when she was a child, and when she was angry, she frowned first.
I guess, she won't like Xiaoyu, because Xiaoyu is rude to her, but I have to try, I saved her a second time, I didn't expect it, she actually asked me to send her back, I risked my life, she was so inappropriate, she was injured, it hurt so much, I wanted to use a kiss to help her relieve the pain, she actually put on a posture of pain to death, at that moment, I felt that she was hateful, I wanted to kill her!
Actually, the python sixteen years ago was called by me, and I think her tragic death will make Wen Jingshui feel painful.
At the last moment of my life, I thought about what I had experienced in my life, except for giving birth to Qiuyu, I achieved nothing and failed completely.