In March, the season when hyacinths bloom well, the girl decides to die.

In fact, not only hyacinths bloom very well, but daylilies also bloom delicately, Lingxiao, roses, begonias...... It's all lively.

Outside the window of her room, I happened to see the flower garden, which was covered with flowers, and the fragrance of flowers in the room was rolling, and all kinds of floral fragrances were woven into this rich season.

The hyacinths on the windowsill have been watered, and the suicide note is placed squarely on the table.

She didn't want to die all of a sudden. She wanted to die, and there was no specific trigger.

It's just that at a certain stage of life, I suddenly feel that I have hit a wall and there is no way to go on.

She put on a simple pair of plain white pantyhose, followed by a white chiffon suspender.

Wear a pink and white dress in the style of Lolita with a lot of lace on the skirt.

There was also a pleated collar with a red tie at the neckline, and the bodice was buttoned with copper buttons with a bow on it.

He wears small leather shoes with pink lace trim on his feet, and the hairband is the one with white flowers.

Each one was dressed very carefully. Because it's her favorite outfit.

Since it's the last day of your life, there's no reason not to wear your favorite clothes.

The Persian cat stood on the closet, staring at her with good-looking eyes of different colors. She grabbed the flesh off the cat's cheek and said:

"Shamisen, shamisen, if I die, will you eat me?"

Not wanting to answer the question, the shamisen pulled her face out of her hands like pulling a plug out of a water pipe.

"Miss, I'm going to dinner." The babysitter came over to deliver the message.

Liu Ruyan said: "I don't eat. ”

The nanny had a pleading look on her face: "Miss, the master specially invited a professional Japanese chef to cook kaiseki cuisine today, and told you to eat it." ”

Originally, after planning to die today, Liu Ruyan's mood was already extremely relaxed, but now she was suddenly very sad.

Her father never physically punished her, but if she didn't obey, he punished her nanny.

Liu Ruyan went downstairs, and her father and mother were already sitting at the table.

"Wearing this kind of clothes again, do you have no clothes to wear?" Her father frowned at her.

"I ......"

"Ruyan, haven't you been in a bad mood lately? Your dad has brought in a chef from Japan, so why don't you try it? Mother looked at Liu Ruyan with a smile on her face.

"What is this?" Liu Ruyan looked down at the miserable green and red in the bowl, feeling that she had no appetite at all.

"Ulva soup, good stuff, drink it while it's hot."

My father explained to my mother that he was showing off his knowledge: "Ulva can only grow in the purest water, even if there is a little pollution, it can't grow, this is the most pure natural good." ”

Liu Ruyan took a sip, and a sour smell came up, and she wanted to vomit.

But she held back and held back.

The parents were still discussing how grand the kaiseki cuisine was, and the sound of the bowl and spoon clattering sounded, and Liu Ruyan felt that they were far away from him.

After eating, she felt even hungrier.

The babysitter was sorting out her clothes, and she went over and asked, "Sister, have you ever taken the bus?" ”

"Ride, what's wrong?" The babysitter is still busy.

"How can I get on the bus?" Liu Ruyan asked.

"Wait at the bus stop, wait for it to come, and get on the bus."

Liu Ruyan asked, "Then how does it know that you are waiting there?" Are there sensors at bus stops? ”

The babysitter turned around, looked at her with a smile, and then hugged her.

"My eldest lady, you are so cute."

Liu Ruyan pushed her away: "I don't know how to take the bus, it's not cute at all." ”

"No, it's cute."

Liu Ruyan, who was carrying a suicide note in her arms, sneaked out the door.

Good clothes weren't always practical, and she soon began to regret picking those shoes.

Stepping on the concrete pavement that was hot from the sun, my feet hurt.

Fortunately, there is an awning at the bus stop, and Liu Ruyan circled around the station and found no device similar to the sensor.

So, she sat down obediently on a bench at the site, her hands on her knees, and sat upright.

If the bus sees a person sitting at a stop like this, it must know that she is waiting for it.

20 minutes passed, and Liu Ruyan felt that her back began to sore.

Just when she began to wonder if the way she was waiting for the bus was wrong, the bus finally came.

After getting into the car, the driver asked her to put in coins, and she touched all over her body, but she didn't get a penny.

Fortunately, a boy helped her pay. So she sat down next to the boy.

During the drive, the boy kept secretly watching her. In fact, throughout the carriage, many people were secretly watching her.

But she sat very tightly and did not speak.

When she arrived at Liyuan Station, she got off the train.

The pear orchard has a central garden with a lake in the garden and many benches around the lake.

This is the place she wants, and she plans to end her life here.

But how to implement it, the girl began to struggle in the cerebellum again.

For example, where should her suicide note be placed?

A suicide note certainly can't just be carried in your pocket. By the time the people fished her out of the lake, the paper was so crumpled that it was hard to see what was written.

If you just leave it on the bench and are picked up by a passing child, you may be mistaken for an elementary school student essay.

In addition, there are so many people around, what should I do if I am rescued after jumping down?

Based on her experience swimming in her own swimming pool, she would definitely not sink just by jumping like this.

Speaking of the swimming pool, Liu Ruyan remembered that when she slipped out, she saw a lot of fallen leaves in the swimming pool at home.

At the time, she thought it was very bad on the screen. Why is it bad, she was in a hurry to go out and didn't think about it.

Now that I think about it, at the end of Hemingway Faulkner's "The Great Gatsby", Gatsby died in a pool with fallen leaves and was shot to death.

So she began to worry again, before leaving, she should at least tell her father to let him find a way to clean up the pool.

The sun went from flourishing to waning, then dimmed, and the color of the sky changed from blue to orange and then to purple.

There were more and more pedestrians in the garden, and then fewer and fewer people.

March is not the hot season, the evenings are cool, and the mist floats on the lake, passing through the young necks of the maiden.

She looked at her watch, it was already 2 o'clock in the morning, and besides her, there was another person, sitting on the bench next to her.

At this time, sitting here, apart from committing suicide, Liu Ruyan couldn't think of any other purpose.

It was a man, dressed in a gray-blue trench coat with a collar covering his face and a hat on his head.

Liu Ruyan felt that this person must be very smart, wearing so much, and it would not be cold at night, as if he knew that he would sit here until the early hours of the morning.

She shuddered. Then she thought that it was time to make up her mind, and if she didn't make up her mind, she would be cold to death first.

Liu Ruyan got up, walked over to the man, and stood in front of him vividly.

The man looked up, his face peeking out from under his collar.

The street lamp reflected on his face, and Liu Ruyan's first reaction was that he was so handsome.

Then, she stretched out her hand and handed over the suicide note: "You help me bring this to my parents." ”

The man looked at her for a moment, then asked, "Why?" ”

"I'm going to kill myself, this is my suicide note."

"I'm not asking this," said the man, "I'm asking, why should I listen to you." ”

Liu Ruyan raised his head and thought about it, and felt that he also made sense.

"You give this to them, and they'll give you money." She said.

The man rolled his eyes: "From the moment I came into this world, I vowed to be the freest man in the world." ”

It doesn't make sense. When he came into this world, he was still a baby, how could he make such an oath?

However, Liu Ruyan kept this sentence in his heart and did not say it. She also had to use him to deliver letters.

"But free men also need money. No one doesn't need money. Liu Ruyan said seriously.

The man snatched the suicide note from her hand.

"I'll read what you wrote."

……

Speaking of this, Qin Yunchu interjected: "This person is ...... Your teacher, right? ”

She forcibly suppressed the word "Chen Ya" and didn't say it.

Liu Ruyan nodded: "Yes." He is the teacher. ”