Their life gradually became normal, and the nurse raised him little by little. But later, she met a man, fell in love with a man, and conceived a child for him, and the man said that he would take care of her for the rest of her life, so she abandoned him and threw him into Lanzhao Temple, where she became a monk.

He has been cold-blooded since he was a child, even if the nurse leaves him, he doesn't have much emotional fluctuation, but he still holds her pants and is unwilling to let go when she leaves.

He always felt that this was her thing, that this was the only warmth he had at the moment, that she would take care of her, that she would embrace him with a gentle embrace.

He coveted this warmth.

But she still abandoned him, because he was a burden, because she had a new child, a new lover, so she could abandon him mercilessly, like a puppy.

From the time she laboriously broke his hand and left Lanzhao Temple without looking back, the attachment that Lu Tanzhi had, at that moment, all turned into hatred.

He hated the person who abandoned him, no matter how good that person had been to him before.

On the contrary, he will not dilute his hatred because of this goodness, but make his hatred stronger and stronger because of this goodness.

Man has seven emotions, joy, anger, sorrow, fear, love, evil, and desire, both good and bad, and he is born bad.

His various emotions, such as pity, kindness, and compassion, are pitifully faint, but they are very paranoid, and can even be called ruthless.

Although he began to practice Buddhism at the age of six, the Buddhist scriptures did not reduce his paranoia in the slightest, only temporarily suppressed his emotions, and taught him to a certain extent how to disguise himself as someone whom everyone loved.

He doesn't understand feelings, but he is very smart, and in the process of dealing with all kinds of people, he knows what kind of people are likable, and he will make any appearance.

So he laughs a lot, and his laughter always gives people the illusion that he is getting along well.

For example, the girl in front of her should like his gentle and easy to get along with, if he is allowed to reveal his true face, she may be scared away immediately.

"Silence?"

Lu Tanzhi came back to his senses with a soft call, and his gaze refocused on Su Yuan's face.

Just when he thought Su Yuan was going to say something, she just smiled, then lifted the curtain and said to Lu Tan: "Lanzhao Temple has arrived." ”

Lu Tanzhi followed Su Yuan's hand and looked outside the car, and sure enough, he saw the layers of stairs not far from Lanzhao Temple.

He nodded at Su Yuan, and then thanked: "Thank you, donor." ”

"You're welcome."

Su Yuan did not get off the carriage, but watched Lu Tan get off the carriage, slowly walked up the bluestone steps, looked at it in a daze for a while, and then sighed deeply, which made the coachman turn the horse's head and return along the same road.

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The next day, Su Yuan woke up from the bed, just opened his eyes, and was about to lift the quilt and get out of bed, when he heard Xiaocui's voice outside the door: "Miss, are you awake?" ”

Su Yuan was taken aback.

Isn't Cui in her own house? You can't come back so early, right?

Wouldn't it be a little too dedicated?!

Just when she was puzzled, the door was pushed open, and Xiaocui came in with a smile on her face, looking at Su Yuan, who had just gotten out of bed: "Miss, since you are awake, let me serve you to freshen up." ”

As she spoke, she pushed the stunned Su Yuan to the dresser and began to dress her up.

Su Yuan blinked his eyes, and it took a while before he came back to his senses and asked Xiaocui, "What time is it?" ”

Xiaocui: "Huh? ”

"Ah, I mean, what time is it?"

"Miss, it's not early, it's already hour." Xiao Cui said as she brushed her hair.

Only then did Su Yuan realize that it was not that Xiaocui came too early, but that she got up too late.

"Xiaocui, when I left yesterday, I saw that your mother seemed to be not emotionally stable." Su Yuan paused, but still asked, "I don't know if it's better now?" ”

Xiao Cui pursed her lips and replied: "My mother was a little strange yesterday, and she refused to say how I asked her later, so I didn't ask, and she calmed down after a while." ”

"Xiaocui, although this is your family affair and I shouldn't get involved, I still want to tell you that what the little master said is not unreasonable." Su Yuan looked at Xiao Cui, who was combing her hair, in the mirror, and said slowly: "Your mother's body may be because she hides something in her heart and refuses to say it, so she dragged it down." ”

Xiao Cui's voice lowered: "Miss, I know...... I didn't expect that my mother would hide something from me and not let me know, and I was also worried about her appearance. ”

Su Yuan said: "In this way, I will spare a few days a month for you to visit your mother and spend more time with her, maybe I can help her untie the knot in her heart and be willing to say what is in her heart." Even if I don't want to say it, with you by my side, I think her condition should improve. What do you think? ”

Xiao Cui's hand combing Su Yuan's hair stopped, and covered her mouth with the other hand, her eyes were shining, and she said in disbelief: "Really, Miss?!" ”

Su Yuan turned around, looked up at her, and said with a smile: "You girl, don't you still believe me?" Tell me, when did I lie to you? ”

"Thank you, Miss! Miss is very kind, Xiaocui is toothless and unforgettable! In the future, I will definitely make a cow and a horse for Miss without asking for anything in return! Su Yuan didn't react, Xiao Cui "screamed", knelt directly on the ground, and "poof", which startled Su Yuan.

She hurriedly bent down and held her arm: "What are you doing here?" ”

Isn't it just a few days off every month to go home and visit relatives? How did it feel as if she had spared her life? Are you so happy?

Su Yuan didn't understand it.

"Miss, since I entered Hefu, I have almost been separated from my mother, she lives alone, my hands and feet are inconvenient, I am often worried, but I can't do anything. Sometimes I think, when I go out of Hefu, maybe my mother will ...... too" Xiaocui said this, wiping her tears: "Our mother and mother depend on each other for their lives, if something happens to her, I really don't know how to live." ”

"You just kept saying that you and your mother depend on each other?"

"Hmm."

Su Yuan's eyes showed doubt: "What about your father?" ”

"He is not worthy of my father at all!" At the mention of this person, Xiao Cui's eyes were filled with hatred and anger: "He swore to marry my mother and said that he would be good to my mother, but it wasn't actually because my mother was pregnant with his child!" Later, my mother failed to give birth to a son as he wished, but gave birth to a daughter, and his attitude towards my mother changed completely. ”

"He began to beat and scold my mother at every turn, often went out to gamble, not only lost all his family, but also owed a lot of debt."