The Li family was originally a wealthy family in the town, with two large tiled houses in front and back, a shop in front and a factory in the back, and a pastry workshop in the center of the street. Later, the war was in chaos, the grandparents died early, and the father was infected with opium, which caused the workshop to close down and the family to fall into disarray.

After liberation, my father quit opium, bought a wooden boat, and ran transportation on the Tongjiang River to make a living. Although life is not easy, due to the small family size and light burden, there is no shortage of food and clothing. It's a good family in a small town.

When Li Fei was one year old, his family ordered him a baby kiss, and the other party was a country girl. In the later stage of the "Four Cleansing" movement, my mother participated in the study of street organizations to break the old ideas, old cultures, old customs, and old habits; I understand that the doll belongs to the old customs, and it should be among the broken.

New trends are rolling in, and like all times of change, housewives tend to always show greater enthusiasm than the rest of the population. The organizers' approach is simple and effective, which is to compare the old with the new, and remember the bittersweet ones. Even the mother, who has always been backward in thinking and has a pair of bound feet, actually has the impulse to perform, strive for the advanced, and not be willing to lag behind.

The mother consulted the father, but the father could not say anything. The father was an honest man, and he spent most of his time on the ship, rarely participated in the study, did not understand the situation at that time, and naturally could not say anything good about his son's marriage.

If you want to push away your son's family affairs, the most difficult thing to face is your in-laws. Although the dolls are still young and have not moved around yet, after all, the two families already have this link of connection, and they have already recognized each other in their hearts. There are also matchmakers, who are relatives and friends on both sides. If you withdraw from your family, it will undoubtedly hurt the other party, and you will be offended in several aspects of the relationship.

If you don't retreat, and the general situation is like this, who can guarantee that this matter will still be counted in the future? If it comes to the day when his son's heart is big, he proposes to withdraw from his relatives again, won't he delay the girl?

The mother and father were torn between a dilemma and finally decided to listen to their son's opinion. See what he says himself.

The conversation took place in the son's small room.

The son's room is a small room separated from the parents' room. Just put a bed and a desk replaced with a cupboard.

The Li family said that the house was big, but in fact the place where they lived was very small. The three main houses on the street were requisitioned by the supply and marketing cooperatives a long time ago. In Li Fei's impression, the main house is like a house that is not his own. Because my father was on the ship all the year round, my mother rented out two spare rooms in the back room. First, you can charge a rent of three yuan per month; Second, I also want to be more courageous.

The Li family's house is an old building. Wooden roof trusses, brick walls, floors above and floors in the rooms, except for no windows. The light of the hall came down from the patio; The light in the room comes from two bright tiles on the roof of the staircase.

When dividing the room, the son wanted to open a window in the gable wall at the head of his bed, and at first the parents did not agree. At that time, Li Fei happened to be reading Lu Xun's essays, which contained words about agreeing to open the window only after lifting the roof. So I deliberately wanted to open a large window. The parents relented and agreed to open a small window.

The small window is a wooden sash, and when you open the window, the small desk near the window will suddenly brighten up. This made Li Fei feel very comfortable. Even decades later, Li Fei lived in a large room with floor-to-ceiling glass windows, and he was still full of nostalgia for that small window.

The mother asked his opinion, is this doll returned or not? If you want to retreat, you should bring it up earlier. so as not to delay other girls.

Mother's words made Li Fei feel sudden. This is the first time that his parents have consulted him on a family matter. And it's also his family.

He was a little unwell; And a little ashamed. He was not yet twelve years old. Since he went to school, he often had classmates happy with his family affairs. They embarrassed him by shouting the girl's name. Even though he had never met the girl, her name was associated with his own.

At the beginning of the spring semester of the fifth grade, a little girl was transferred from other places in the class. The little girl is not only good-looking, but also well-dressed, and looks particularly outstanding among a group of small-town girls. attracted some of the little boys in the class to compete to please the stammer.

The parents of the little girl are both teachers in the town middle school, and there are special requirements for the little girl's tablemate. The requirements are for students with excellent conduct and grades.

The head teacher arranged the little girl to be at the same table as Li Fei. also praised Li Fei in front of the little girl's mother. Just when teachers and parents thought they had found a safe haven for the little girls, unexpected changes happened to them.

At first, the two children were able to get along safely. The longer the time, the more tricks there are between the children.

He gave her his snacks; Give her his stationery; Lend her his books to read. She also gave him her snacks to eat; Give him her stationery; Lend him her book.

The first to talk about them were the other little girls in the class. Then several naughty little boys also began to despise Li Fei. The crime is that Li Fei is playing with a girl. In the eyes of children at that time, it was a shameful thing to play with girls.

The homeroom teacher is a strict female teacher.,I hate girls who have a close relationship with boys the most.。 She called them goblins.

One day during the lunch break, both of them lay down at their desks and took a nap. The little girl deliberately stretched her arm crutches across the midline. Li Fei stepped back, and she continued to squeeze forward. He understood that she was deliberate, so he squeezed her back and forth with a tooth for a tooth; Buried his head on the table and laughed quietly.

The head teacher walked over and whipped them the side of their table with a thin bamboo stick in his hand.

This desk was moved by Li Fei from home and was his mother's dowry. The kind with box panels on the side. The whip was drawn on it unusually loud, no less than a thunderclap on the ground.

All the students in the class looked up at them. First surprised, then laughing. The scene made Li Fei embarrassed.

Li Fei's face flushed. In the face of the sternness of the teacher's face, I blurted out: She is the one who occupies my seat!

For such a despicable sentence of betraying a friend and being as despicable as a traitor, Li Fei paid a heavy price.

The teacher told the little girl's mother about it. The little girl was punished at home. She asked the head teacher to switch seats for her and share a table with another girl. From then on, no matter how he showed affection, the little girl no longer paid attention to him. For the first time, he experienced the feeling of emptiness in his heart.

Soon the summer vacation came, in addition to swimming, fishing, catching frogs, catching dragonflies, and catching dragonflies every day, Li Fei also had to do summer vacation homework, and occasionally set up a bookstall on the street. The bookstall rents out his own collection of comic books. Read on the spot, for a penny. There is actually a dime or two a day. This is probably his earliest business practice.

He was so busy with these things that he slowly forgot the unpleasantness with the little girl.

On the day of the start of school in the fall, Li Fei saw a familiar figure standing at the other end of the playground from a distance. He saw her; She saw him too. Suddenly, he felt his whole heart being pulled out and roasted on the fire of longing. He felt his soul detach from his body, calling out her name and running towards her. And his body was like something nailed to the ground, making him unable to move.

He was too young to know the unforgettable feeling, and this volcanic emotion could be expressed in one word.

Since then, in Li Fei's life, in his interactions with many members of the opposite sex, he has never had such a peculiar experience. He also once asked He Wenrui if he also had this unforgettable, volcanic eruption-like emotional experience. He Wenrui said no. Although He Wenrui has countless girlfriends.

This made him feel a little relieved. In terms of sex-communication, he actually has one thing that He Wenrui does not have. This kind of thing was given to him by her. Her name is Bai Lu.

Regarding the matter of the doll kiss, Li Fei was rejected in his heart. He has fantasized countless times that one day he can break the shackles of an arranged marriage and let him fall in love freely. It's just that he is too young to speak to his parents.

At this time, his mother took the initiative to bring up the matter and let him make his own decisions, which caught him off guard.

Asking him to take apart the other name that had been associated with him since childhood, he felt a little overwhelmed. His heart was full of apologies.

Little did he know at the time that a few years later, the girl would die of accidental pesticide poisoning. She was fifteen years old. My mother went to the hospital to see the rescue scene and said that her chest was fully mature lying on a door panel on the ground. He always thought that if he hadn't quit, she might have escaped this fate. Every time he thought about it, he felt a heartache.

Under his mother's repeated questioning, it was he who said one word that decided the fate of several people: retirement.

After retiring from his family, he looked forward to growing up to the age of eighteen. He thought that the age of eighteen was the age when he could fall in love freely. However, he was destined not to have this opportunity.

Soon after the old arranged marriages ended, new ones followed. One after another, the people who came to the door to propose relatives turned over almost all the school-age girls in the town.

Li Fei's parents prescribed three basic conditions necessary for a woman's family: the first is a surname; The second is that there are many fists at home; The third is that the in-laws are of similar age.

The first two are for the sake of the son. The latter is for yourself.

Li Fei is the only seedling, her mother is not in good health, she is afraid that she will leave that day, and her son will be bullied by others. Li Fei compared the conditions, and Bai Lu's family did not match it.

The surname Bai is the only one in the town, not to mention the big surname, the small surname can't be talked about; There are three Bai Lu sisters and sisters, and in terms of fists, there is only one of his younger brothers; Bai Lu is the eldest daughter in the family, Li Fei is the eighth in the ranking, and the parents on both sides are more than ten years apart. Not a good match.

Although Li Fei had his own ideas, he didn't have the courage to confess to his parents. Besides, he was out of school at the time, and Bai Lu was in junior high school. He wasn't sure that the Bai family would agree.

In the later period of the "Four Qing Dynasty", the tail of capitalism was once again cut, and the only private photo studio in the town was taken over and operated collectively. The town sent Li Fei to the photo studio as a cashier and apprentice.

At noon that day, Li Fei went home after a few days of traveling with his master, and a table of people at home was eating. Among them are relatives and neighbors. Steaming hot and jubilant.

Li Fei entered the door, shouted one by one, and greeted everyone. Everyone praised Li Fei for being polite. Li Fei saw that his mother was carrying a big bowl of fungus slippery fish soup to be served, and asked what was a good thing today. The neighbor's aunt is quick to talk: I'm talking about you today, girl.

Li Fei was embarrassed for a while, and hurriedly fled to the kitchen.

My father was making firewood at the mouth of the hearth.

Where is the girl? Li Fei asked his father.

Ask your mom. The father was too feudal, and he was reluctant to talk to his son about his daughter-in-law.

The mother returned to the kitchen and talked to her son while brushing the pot and cooking.

The girl is his current lover Zhang Hongyun.

Regarding the Zhang family, because he was already among the candidates before, Li Fei knew a little about it. In the town, the Zhang and Li families belong to the same surname. Hongyun is one year younger than Li Fei. Six brothers and sisters. Three older brothers, two younger brothers, just one girl. It's a lot of fists.

The matchmaker said that Hongyun is not only good-looking, but also has a gentle temperament and is diligent, and she is a good girl who is one in a hundred. It is very compatible with Li Fei.

The town is not big, and Li Fei has a little impression of Hongyun. But never looked closely. Unlike the criteria for parents to choose a woman, Li Fei is most concerned about the girl's appearance. I heard that he was outstanding, so he naturally looked forward to it.

On May Day that year, the district organized a district-wide art show. Li Fei's Zhenmao-Ze-Dong Thought Propaganda Team rehearsed three participating programs: one was dance: Mao-Ze-Dong Thought Flashed Golden Light; One is a flower drum drama sketch that fights against landlords and bad elements; Another is Li Fei's tenor solo: I dedicate oil to the motherland.

At that time, Li Fei had not yet developed to the stage of voice change, and his voice was high and bright. Li Fei heard that the town middle school also participated in the show, and also knew that Hongyun was an actor in the school's propaganda team, but he didn't know what show she was playing.

On May Day night, the district government hall was packed. The actors of the various publicity teams were gathered in the backstage. The scene is a bit chaotic.

Li Fei's program was at the back, and he occupied a place behind the big curtain at the entrance of the stage, looking left and right, looking for it in the crowd. But he didn't see the figure he was looking for.

At the end of the second program, he heard the announcer say aloud: The next program - performance and singing - peasant friends' songs; Lead singer - Zhang Hongyun; It was performed by the Mao-Ze-Dong Thought Propaganda Team of the Town Middle School.

Li Fei hurriedly squeezed to the entrance of the stage. A group of young actors carrying pike darts have formed two teams and stood in the center of the stage. Since they were all wearing makeup, they couldn't tell who was who.

When the music sounded, the girl at the front of the line took a step, raised the pike and waved it to the right front, and sang loudly: "Thunderclap shook the world!" The people behind also waved the shuttle dart and sang in unison: Shake the world!

Only then did Li Fei know that it was Zhang Hongyun who led the singing. Zhang Hongyun combed Han Ying's hair and wore a blue cardigan; a strip of red silk around the waist; Wear a pair of dark blue leggings underneath; Wear a pair of cloth shoes on the feet. A sassy and heroic momentum.

Li met Zhang Hongyun unofficially, and that was two years later.

According to local customs, children only need to exchange birthdays when they are engaged. It was not until two years before the wedding that the boy began to give gifts to his mother-in-law's house.

Li Fei's parents hope that he will get married early. Before he was sixteen years old, he asked him to leave his mother-in-law. Boxing gifts.

When he first arrived at Hongyun's house, Hongyun happened to come in from outside with an empty bamboo basket. He squinted at Hongyun as he spoke to Hongyun's mother. Let's see if she's good-looking.

was so ashamed that Hongyun didn't dare to say anything, so he just hid in the room. In fact, Li Fei didn't have a standard at all at that time. Hearing others praise him for his good looks, he doesn't know if it's true or not. Sometimes I look in the mirror and don't think I have anything to look at.

Li Fei's parents dream of holding their grandson as soon as possible every day. Two years later, just when their dream was about to come true, a fateful change made their dream come to naught.