Wang Defa has been in the class room for four years, and these four years, for a person who is almost isolated from the outside world, in addition to a long time, is the fear of external changes. In the past four years, for a woman with three children and taking care of an old man, in addition to suffering, she longs for the man who can stand up to the sky to come back as soon as possible.

Wang Chenglong is already like a fish in water at school, no matter how much ridicule and abuse he has, it is not worth mentioning in front of his mother's kneeling, time is slowly slipping away, and she is becoming more and more able to bear it. The world in the eyes of children is very simple, good is good, bad is bad, there are no people and things between good and bad, it is precisely because of this simplicity that children can remember in their hearts, complex things, I don't understand, I don't want to think about it for a long time. This is to make Wang Defa a woman worry a lot less.

This weekend is another day to visit Wang Defa. The woman simply cleaned herself up, let Wang Chenglong watch his younger brothers and sisters at home, and went out by herself.

Wang Chenglong knew that his mother was going to see the person who seemed to be a blank figure in his heart, and she should call her father, but she never opened her mouth to scream, and she couldn't see this person at all.

Not all shortcomings can be made up for in other ways, when Wang Chenglong hears all the topics about "father", she is deliberately evading, she always feels that this family is a broken home, why do others have parents by their side, and they have only one old mother to support everything for this dilapidated home? She was under pressure that she shouldn't be under at her age, and these pressures made her mature not like a primary school student.

"Didn't you say that your performance was okay last year, maybe you can come out early this year, why can't you do it again?" The woman said as she looked at the familiar and unfamiliar figure behind the glass.

"I don't know about this, maybe I've not performed as well as others in the past year. You are a woman, and you are struggling to support the whole family, I won't remind you, after all, I know what the situation of our family is. When I see other people's family members coming, they nominally bring things to their own families, but in fact, these things are quietly given to the people who work in the classroom. ”

"What do you mean? According to you, is that why we didn't send anything? Wang Defa said in a low voice.

"I don't know, just guess, it's okay, can I go out early, I'm already down, it's nothing more than the last year left, I've been up for four springs and autumns, so why not have one more spring, summer, autumn and winter? It's just bitter for you. How is my mom and the three dolls doing? ”

"It's all good, our mother can basically take care of her own La and Sa, your life just loves to cry, and sometimes she stammers a little slowly, maybe it's still young. Jackie Chan and Brother Lai can help me do some odd jobs, and next fall, Brother Lai should go to school. Jackie Chan, this kid, I think it's a study material, and it can be regarded as a blessing that you and I cultivated in my previous life. ”

"Jackie Chan, this kid, hates me, and I don't know how to face her a year later. I'm the one who started it all, and sometimes I hate myself for what the hell it's about. I regret that I dug up so many things in the first place. ”

"Don't say these useless, you said that others bring things when they come, then I understand, I also walk around for you every once in a while, the eggs at home are good, it is not easy for people in this city to eat local eggs, you see every time I come to bring them some, we can come out early, just come out early."

"Don't make a mess of it, killing your head is a scar the size of a bowl, and people can take a fancy to you for a few eggs? I still say the same thing, if I can come out early, then early, not in advance, I can survive for a year! ”

"I know, I'll go back first, you behave well, I think you can come out early, if you can't get out, you can survive, I can wait." I replied. ”

"Doll's books, no matter how difficult it is at home, you have to get it, my brother will go to school next year, and I guess I will go home at that time. If I have to thank a few people in my life, one is the parents who gave me life, and the other is you, who have wronged you in the past four years. Wang Defa said this from the heart, his situation, if he had been another woman, he would have left with his children, who would want his daughter to live this nest with a labor prisoner.

There are several families in the team because the men are not doing their jobs or squatting in the class room, and the women in the family either run away with the children, or suddenly there is no news. Think about it, how much grievance it must have been for a woman to leave without looking back. So Wang Defa is still very happy, women have indeed done too much in the past four years, she didn't run, she didn't remarry, and she was able to hold up a broken family for four years. Thinking of these, Wang Defa was very relieved and even more guilty.

People are accustomed to a certain existing environment, as if they have integrated into it, and the length of time and the change of the environment are almost negligible. Wang Defa's days are day after day, and her woman's days are day after day.

Wang Chenglong's first winter vacation in the first grade came, and the frozen wound on her hand was swollen like a steamed bun in the cold weather, which made people feel distressed to watch. As soon as it snowed, the woman asked her to wash her hands with the snow and wash her hands red, saying that this would prevent frostbite.

After this winter vacation, after the New Year, Wang Defa can come out. The three children are used to the status quo of not having a father, and only Wang Defa knows that maybe all this should be over.

The last time a woman went to see Wang Defa a few years ago. The family members in the class room said that the time for Wang Defa to be imprisoned had been determined, and that after the New Year, Wang Defa would be released from prison after completing his sentence in April.

"I may not be able to come to see you again before the year, there is snow on the road, there are no tricycles in the county, people say that your time will be in five months, and the weather will be better after the year, and I will come to see you when the road is not slippery."

"How's the year's preparation? When the doll is big, make a new dress for each person, buy some meat, don't be reluctant. Wang Defa's heart was empty when he said this, how could he be qualified to settle these jobs that originally belonged to him now? For five years, he was like a shadow man in this family. When he said these words, the woman knew what to do better than he did.

Wang Guisheng is still young, and it doesn't cost fabrics to make new clothes, Wang Laidi can just wear the clothes that her sister eliminated now, Wang Chenglong has already gone to school, and he has to wear new clothes at school, so he can't be ridiculed by his classmates. After seeing Wang Defa, the woman walked around the county town for half a morning, bought some fabrics that the doll liked, and rushed home on the last tricycle in the morning.

Wang Laidi always complained that he was wearing his sister's old clothes, and although he complained, he was still very happy to wear them. Wang Chenglong was the first to try everything, after all, he was the boss of the family, and he couldn't be too shabby when he went to school. Wang Guisheng is the only son in the family, and there is a three-year difference between him and his two sisters, and the eliminated clothes are too big to wear, so he can only make new clothes.

In the past five years, basically every year the Chinese New Year is a repetition of the previous year, and this year is the same. Wang Defa is not there, and there are many world conditions during the Chinese New Year, such as picking up the ancestors on the 30th night, burning incense at the temple, and delivering paper on the third night of the new year, etc., women basically cannot participate.

So for this family, the New Year is to stay at home and have a good rest. On the kang is the happiest paradise for the dolls from morning to night, and by the stove in the middle of the room, the women are busy with their hands, holding the soles of their shoes one after another. She also gave Wang Defa a pair of soles, and after the beginning of spring, she brought them to him, trying to be auspicious, so that the road under his feet could start anew.

This year is hopeful for Wang Defa's woman, at least in the near future, you can see the man who has been in prison for five years. There may be no man, people who have had a good life have always had a good life, and if they have a bad life, no matter how many people there are, it is not easy to have a good time, but for Wang Defa woman, in the past five years, her persistence and forbearance can finally see hope is the best answer.

What the future will look like, who knows, no one dares to say whether they can see the sun rising tomorrow, let alone whether they can foresee what will happen in the future.

On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, the weather was very good, and the road was not too slippery, and the people in the village and town were ready to go to the county seat early to watch the fire show. This year, the social fire in all townships and towns in the county is concentrated in the county. The woman who had been holding back for more than half a winter wanted to take the doll to the county for a walk, to see the social fire, and to see the novelties in the county.

In fact, she still has a selfish heart, so she wants to let the children get acquainted with it, and when she goes to pick up Wang Defa in the spring, she will take the children with her. As a father, the absence of the most important five years of children's growth will inevitably cause a shadow on their psyche. Wang Chenglong is a typical example, because of the "father" who has had conflicts with her classmates and dropped out of school, it is nothing more than that she feels that she is different from others and has a different father.

On the way to the county, Wang Chenglong was worried. Wang Laidi and Wang Guisheng sat in the bucket of the tricycle, looking at the outside world through a tent made of transparent plastic sheeting.

"Mom, is my dad in jail in the county?" Wang Chenglong asked coldly.

The woman was also stunned, she didn't know how to answer for a while, all the questions that the child might ask, she was prepared in her heart, but when she heard the child really ask, she was still a little speechless. Wang Laidi could understand, but she didn't speak, so she pricked up her ears to listen. Wang Guisheng, who was in the woman's arms, looked curious about the outside, and couldn't understand what his sister was saying.

"Yes, it's in the county, and you can go home after the New Year."

"He can still come back, why don't he stay in it for the rest of his life."

"Why are you talking, you doll? Your dad just broke the law, and that's your dad too. He made a mistake, he paid the price he deserved, and if even we can't forgive him and accept him, who will be willing to accept him from the moment he steps out of his cell? ”

Although the woman's words were very profound, Wang Chenglong and Wang Laidi seemed to understand, so they didn't speak, and glanced their heads outside the cloak, and the engine sound of the tricycle "bang bang bang" became even more noisy.

Five years, it's time to be a head.