Next week is the final exam, Yi Yang is lying in bed thinking about something.

There are also bottlenecks in learning, and after doing a few sets of test papers, I still find myself encountering an invisible wall.

Separately, the scores outside the language and mathematics have been very stable, among which mathematics and English have the best scores, mathematics can be tested above 130, English is a little worse, and it can also be maintained at 120. It is mainly on the reading comprehension questions, and I still can't grasp the direction of answering the questions. Occasionally, the understanding is shallow, and occasionally the understanding is deep, it seems that it is not very good, and this still needs to do more questions, analyze and analyze more, and grasp the rules...... Take your time.

In terms of minor subjects, physics and history are more important, which can be regarded as the main subjects, while geography and biology are more minor, and it is more about learning some common sense. The difference can also be reflected in the scores, with Physics and History both out of 100 points, while Biology and Geography combined are only 100 points.

The overall score is 750.

Of course, there are some differences in the teaching tests of junior high schools in China, and even within Jiangnan Province, it is difficult to unify between prefecture-level cities. This score is based on the municipal examination score delineated by Heyang City. Before the high school entrance examination, there were very few city-wide unified examinations, at least for now.

Now I am studying and thinking about the direction of the future...... It's mainly a matter of arts and sciences.

The sooner you decide whether you will study literature or science in high school, the more beneficial it will be for your future studies. Of course, the junior high school stage should still be as balanced as possible, and finding a tendency to read literature and science is one thing that should be considered at present while ensuring that it is not biased.

This matter can probably be considered from two aspects, on the one hand, whether it is good or not, and on the other hand, the future prospects.

Whether you are good at it or not, you can think very well, just look at the results. At present, it seems that if you follow the division of high school, you don't have to consider the number of languages, after all, you have to read the arts and sciences. At this stage, the content of geography and biology may be simple, and the score has no reference value, so it mainly depends on history and physics.

Yi Yang feels that history and physics are the standards for liberal arts and sciences.

Physics, it can be said to be the end of all natural sciences. Whether it's chemistry or biology, the end of learning is actually physics.

History, on the other hand, is inextricably linked to all social sciences. In particular, in the process of studying history, mastering historical materialism is also of great help to understanding other social sciences. From a certain point of view, it is not an exaggeration to say that history is the foundation of other social sciences.

And these two subjects...... Well, judging from the score alone, physics is better, but this is related to the problem pattern of liberal arts and science, 98 in physics and 89 in history, which does not mean that physics must be better and more talented than history. After all, the only answer to science is that it exists objectively and does not depend on human will. And history is not good, there are always subjective questions, let you talk about opinions, when you answer the questions, you are subjective, the teacher is more subjective, and the score is subjective.

And from the perspective of hobbies, the same can not be seen. Of course, I am interested in physics, after all, I have been dealing with cars for so long...... But that's just elementary physics, every time I listen to Luo Bing talk about some physics competitions, all kinds of physics formulas that seem to have only been seen on TV, that's the sea of stars he should pursue.

But isn't it that you are not interested in history? Neither is it. Especially after subscribing to historical periodicals and patiently gnawing them down, the splendid and complicated history is equally fascinating. About history, it can be regarded as a story, whether it is a person who can leave a name in history, whether it is a thing, or a thing, there is a story about it, one by one, or it is heartbreaking, or it is lamentable, or it may make people sad and hateful history, if you understand it seriously, it will really bring people a sense of family and country.

Sometimes Yi Yang even thinks that arts and sciences should not be divided into subjects, or that history should also be studied as a compulsory subject. Lu Xun said that young people should remain angry, and if they want to be angry, they should study history.

So far, I can't see the direction I should choose in the future just by looking at whether I am good at it or not.

It's just that, judging from the choice of the future, Yi Yang is still more inclined to study science. Because there is a wider range of options from science to university, and there are many cutting-edge areas of science and technology...... In a sense, people who study science are the people who promote the progress of this society.

Perhaps, the best solution is to study science at the same time, maintain the habit of reading history, and learn a little more philosophy......

Somewhat relieved, he felt that his cognitive abilities had improved a lot. In the past, he didn't think about these things, people are like this, in the study of little by little, broaden their horizons, improve their ability to think and debate, imperceptibly, moisturize things silently, feel the change at a certain moment, and smile.

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In physical education class, Yi Xiaoqing sat alone in the stands, and not far away were several girls chatting, she looked out of place.

Looking at the playground, she was thinking about something.

After the midterm exam, Yi Xiaoqing never took the initiative to go to Yi Yang's house again. That experience naturally hit her quite hard, and she couldn't look down on her cousin at all...... In a blink of an eye, they became top students, ranked in the top 50 of their second year of junior high school, and also got a scholarship from the school...... It's not that I haven't had this strong sense of disparity, but this kind of disparity is brought by Yi Yang, and the mood is more complicated.

At this time, his attitude towards Yi Yang was more of a kind of shame, not because of the mood caused by shame, but because all his things to show off became a joke in him, which was a big blow to his self-esteem.

It's hard to say what the attitude towards this cousin is at this time. Mom is from Yiyang, and their family is not good here, and it is not good there, and over time, she has also formed an inherent impression. At the beginning of the last semester, Yi Yang had a few fights, which confirmed his reputation as a gangster...... In short, my mother didn't like him very much.

It's just that my mother's words are right? Steadfast before, but that was before.

She also went to watch the knowledge contest and the New Year's Day party that day...... It was quite shocking, she never thought that Yi Yang would be able to stand in such a dazzling place. It's cool, just looking at Yi Yang on the stage, I'm not very happy in my heart.

Yi Xiaoqing has also entered puberty.

Yi Yang's change created a huge tearing sensation in her. And she began to attribute it all to her mother Wang Hua's education.

She is getting more and more annoyed with her mother now, her mother's personality, she can't see it anywhere else for the time being, but from the perspective of her own related places, she likes to blame herself, and she always preaches on the line on a trivial matter, which is really helpless and angry...... A few days ago, I talked back to her for the first time in my life, and I haven't talked to her yet.

When she talked back, she didn't expect that this thing could be so cool. For a long time, I didn't dare to talk to my parents like this, and I suppressed it for a long time, which was a sudden release. When she talked back, her mother was stunned for a long time, seemingly in disbelief.

A lot of what Mom said was wrong, and it was really tiring to blame herself every time. I started to feel that what she said was wrong, and I wanted to get angry when I said anything...... Therefore, Yi Xiaoqing sometimes felt that she said something wrong about Yi Yang.

But obviously, she didn't like Yi Yang not long ago...... Or, I don't like it now, but she doesn't like Wang Hua's preaching even more, so she probably has a kind of rebellion of "what my mother opposes, I will accept". It's just that it's against nature, and it creates a tearing sensation, and this tearing sensation makes her miserable.

And the troubles are one after the other. I don't know when it started, but she noticed that everyone in her class didn't seem to like her very much, and even the people in the dormitory didn't want to go with her...... Is it disgusting that you are poor? No, there are obviously people who are poorer than herself, such as Zhao Yue, why is she always surrounded by people?

After some hesitation, she got up and went to a few girls who were gathering not far away.

They are talking about gossip, how is so-and-so boy, how is so-and-so girl, what is going on so-and-so star...... As she passed, everyone's faces changed slightly, and then they exchanged a look...... This detail, she didn't even notice.

"I also think that Chen Yiru is obviously so ugly, but so confident, I am so angry to see him on "Base Camp"."

"That's it, but I don't think Wang Dongcheng is very good-looking. In comparison, Wu Zun is the most handsome. ”

Yi Xiaoqing listened to it for a while, and also wanted to interject, thought about it, and used a sentence that he thought was more humorous: "Ha...... Then your taste is quite heavy~"

It's just that after she said this, the faces of several girls changed slightly. The girl who spoke just now snorted coldly and said, "It's not as heavy as your taste, who doesn't know how heavy your taste is." ”

Yi Xiaoqing was stunned, and suddenly tasted the attack in the other party's words, frowned and said, "What do you mean?" ”

"What do you mean?"

"I'm kidding, are you so stingy?"

The girl on the other side was directly laughed angrily and said, "I just can't make a joke, I just don't want to listen to you, what's wrong?" ”

"You!"

"Let's go."

Several girls glanced at Yi Xiaoqing silently, and they all got up and walked away together.

She looked at a few people in a daze, gritted her teeth, and suddenly choked with tears. When everyone was far away, she got up silently, wiped her tears, glanced at her classmates who were resting in the playground, resentful, and began to fantasize about some unrealistic things in her mind...... Many, many years later, the scenery of himself is infinite, and those guys who took the lead in hating themselves are all remorseful and begging for forgiveness one by one...... After fantasizing like this for a while, it seems to feel better, but my heart is still sour.

He began to walk silently and with his head bowed on the playground, and his mind kept thinking about all the nonsense...... I walked to the door of the sports equipment room, which was far away from the crowd and quiet. There was a skipping rope on the ground, and she picked it up, wrapped it, and kept tying it in a dead knot...... Subconsciously.

Suddenly, a rather stern voice sounded in his ear: "What are you doing!" ”

Yi Xiaoqing was startled, and when she turned around, a physical education teacher, and the only female physical education teacher in the school, was frowning and glaring at herself.

The female teacher took the skipping rope in her hand, looked at the skipping rope with dozens of dead knots, and said angrily: "You students, ......" The criticism was stunned before she could say it......

Because Yi Xiaoqing suddenly cried.

The female physical education teacher's surname is Wu, and Wu Zetian has the same surname, she is tall, nearly 1.8 meters, and her students affectionately call her the queen. She is a woman with a simple personality, and when she saw this scene, she became angry, "Did I say you?" What to cry about! Is it so delicate? ”

I'm not used to it.

Yi Xiaoqing was just crying, and the chaotic emotions in her heart suddenly couldn't hold back at this moment, and poured out wildly.

Yi Xiaoqing's cry attracted a few people who were helping to sort out the equipment and clean up in the equipment room.

Yi Yang, Zhang Bushou and Zhao Qiang.

They all heard the cries outside.

I've been doing the final exams of physical education for the past few days, so the equipment room is messed up. The big black bull wanted to find a few tolerances to come over and help clean up, because the big black bull had helped a few times before, so when the big black bull said this, Yi Yang basically didn't think about it, so he took Zhang Bushou and Zhao Qiang to ask for leave to come over to work as a black worker...... People are mutual, you don't want to help others, then when you need help, no one will help you.

Yi Yang said: "I'll go out and see what's going on." ”

Zhao Qiang and Zhang Bushou nodded.

As soon as Yi Yang walked to the door, he was stunned when he saw Yi Xiaoqing.

Teacher Wu also saw Yi Yang, and it was not easy to have a seizure for a while. She naturally knows Yi Yang, her specialty is basketball, the last time she played basketball in the county, she was also drawn to blow the referee, and later watched the finals in the school, Yi Yang left a deep impression on her. And this time, Yi Yang volunteered to come over to help tidy up the equipment room, and also chatted casually, and Yi Yang, who was comfortable in conversation, made her feel even better.

Yi Yang asked, "Teacher Wu, has something happened?" ”

Teacher Wu changed his expression to Yi Yang, showed him the messy skipping rope, and explained seriously: "It's not a big problem." This girl got it, I didn't say anything, she cried......" turned to glare at Yi Xiaoqing again: "Did I scold you or beat you?" Are you crying so sadly? Are you a student in the first year of junior high school? ”

The female teacher and the teacher spoke softly to Yi Yang, and while changing her demeanor to herself, this scene naturally fell into Yi Xiaoqing's eyes, and she didn't have time to think about why Yi Yang appeared here, she just felt more aggrieved and cried and sobbed......

Teacher Wu also had a headache...... She has always been neat and neat, and she has a bold personality, and she is not very good at dealing with this kind of thing, and it was urgent to come out at this time, and she couldn't help but be even more angry when she was delayed here, and was about to say something, at this moment Yi Yang interjected: "Teacher Wu...... I'll take care of it. ”

Teacher Wu glanced at Yi Yang unexpectedly.

"You deal with it?"

She ...... Hey, my cousin. ”

Teacher Wu was slightly stunned, it would be much easier if it was a cousin. According to their family's tradition, if they were petty, it would be good if they were beaten by their cousin. He nodded and said, "Okay, discipline your cousin well." After speaking, he ignored Yi Xiaoqing, who was still crying, and walked away.

I saw Yi Yang walk up to Yi Xiaoqing, silently picked up the skipping rope, and opened those dead knots one by one, and when she was halfway there, she was caught by Yi Xiaoqing, she had stopped crying, and just bit her lip and looked at him.

Yi Yang sighed slightly, and didn't discuss anything with her about this matter. Q: "Physical education class?" ”

Yi Xiaoqing looked at his cousin in front of him, with an indescribable emotion in his heart, and nodded silently.

Yi Yang pointed to the skipping rope: "Idle is idle, if you open it, go in with me to pack up your equipment." ”

Yi Xiaoqing was silent for a long time, and Yi Yang took her consent and turned around to go in...... At this moment, I heard her voice behind me: "Yi Yang...... Am I annoying? ”

Yi Yang was slightly stunned, turned around, and looked at Yi Xiaoqing looking at him with a very complicated look. To be honest, for a long time, he didn't like his cousin, but he hated Wang Hua more and more. But no matter what, Wang Hua is a person who is not related to him, while Yi Xiaoqing has, and is even very close. This is the case in small places, where the patriarchal relationship linked by blood is vividly embodied, which cannot be separated in any way.

Yi Yang sighed, decided to have a good chat with her, and said, "You wait for me." Then he took away the skipping rope, walked in and threw it to Zhang Bushou: "Open the knot, you two will be busy for a while, and I'll go out." ”

Zhao Qiao asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"It's nothing, I'll go buy you some drinks."

"Okay...... Go ahead. ”

After coming out, Yi Xiaoqing still maintained the posture just now, just lowered his head and said again: "Am I very annoying?" ”

Yi Yang said, "Go and go around." ”

Yi Xiaoqing hesitated for a moment and nodded silently.

The two aimlessly began to crimp the way on the playground track. After walking for a while, Yi Yang said, "You...... People are not bad. ”

In fact, how bad is the performance of a person like Yi Xiaoqing? Pre-adolescent children are the mirror of their parents, and their words and actions are copied from their parents, and the way their parents communicate directly affects their children. If parents speak softly and are considerate of the feelings of others, then children are likely to do the same. If parents speak unforgivingly and are unforgiving in their words, and a little thing is put on the line, then there is a high probability that the child will also become a person who likes personal attacks.

The essential reason is that the way parents speak, which will directly make children feel that it is a normal way of communication.

For example, his cousin was accused by Wang Hua of "a lazy person who can't support the wall with mud and dirty criticism" every day because of some trivial things, such as not washing socks. Then, Yi Xiaoqing has the same example, and in school, because his classmates said that he wanted to lose weight, he didn't stick to it, and he counted it down: "Look, you know that you said that you are a person who gives up halfway." ”

Who will like it?

Yi Yang has already experienced Yi Xiaoqing many times, from one thing to the evaluation of other people's personalities.

And all this, she may not even be aware of.

People like Yi Xiaoqing often need many years to grow, hit enough walls, and then one day become that kind of pleasing personality. And the people-pleasing personality is not about pleasing everyone, but about "giving the best to strangers and the worst to those closest to you." "And then most likely, we will continue to pass on this communication to the next generation.

Yi Yang was suddenly a little happy. Whether it is a grandmother or a father who doesn't remember much, they are not that kind of person, and their social habits have given him a very high ability to perceive and even control the emotions of others...... Emotional intelligence. The essence of emotional intelligence is not eloquence, it's just that many people like to confuse the two.

Yi Xiaoqing said: "Then why ......?"

"Why are people always targeting you and even isolating you? Isn't it? ”

Yi Xiaoqing was stunned, and looked at Yi Yang with some incredulity, as if to say, how do you know?

Yi Yang thought for a moment and said, "Let me ask you a question." ”

"Hmmm......"

"You made a skipping rope today...... Then I said, you're a guy who can't control your own hands, and you're idle and have nothing to do with your brain. ”

"I'm just ......," Yi Xiaoqing tried to explain.

"You're just feeling uncomfortable, probably just been wronged from somewhere else...... Then tie the knot of the jump rope, which is also only subconscious. I know. ”

Yi Xiaoqing looked at him: "Then you...... And say that......"

Yi Yang smiled slightly: "So, the previous sentence, because you knotted the rope." I have to judge you, do you see what the problem is? ”

Suddenly, Yi Xiaoqing was stunned.

Many images flashed through my mind at once.

"Then you have a strong taste......"

"I knew you were a loser."

"You wear black, you must be a shady person......"

All sorts of things, and many more satirical images of others...... Enlightenment was in an instant. For a moment, she had a sudden sense of realization, but then a deep fear followed...... Unknowingly, did you say so many hurtful things? And every time, it seems that he is still complacent about his "wit".

Looking at Yi Yang again, his expression was extremely complicated.

Yi Yang didn't speak, but when he saw her expression, he felt a little comforted...... Naturally, she can't say that she can change all at once, but as long as she can sense her own problems...... Slowly, there will still be changes.

At this time, the two walked to the school cafeteria, which had a commissary.

Yi Yang went in and bought a few bottles of drinks, threw a bottle to Yi Xiaoqing, and said, "It's okay, when you talk in the future, just go through it in your mind before you speak, don't easily define a person." ”

For a while, Yi Xiaoqing felt extremely ashamed of her low emotional intelligence, took the bottle of water, and was silent. At this time, she also realized that even if Yi Yang was talking about her own problems, she didn't feel the slightest bit uncomfortable.

He didn't say that he had low emotional intelligence and no brains because of this incident.

Yi Yang said again: "Chatting, that is, telling stories, talking about feelings, don't always throw out opinions, you have to make people accept." After speaking, he also knew that his words, she definitely needed to digest them, and he was not sure how much his cousin could listen to, but he smiled slightly: "I have to go over there to be busy for a while, so I won't accompany you." ”

Yi Xiaoqing nodded silently.

Yi Yang left, she looked back at Yi Yang's back, then silently pinched the bottle of drink and whispered......

"Thank you."

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