Xiao Nan really can't figure it out, is this self-resignation?

She lost her mind for a long time, and she couldn't understand how she could accept her fate!

At first, when Hokage Konan came to her, she could completely understand in her heart, she felt that she was the only one who was unwilling to compromise emotionally.

Can ...... now Is this person in front of you still yourself?

She couldn't help but ask, "You...... Your Majesty, what's wrong with you? Have you been looking for you in the past two days? ”

Hokage Konan shook his head calmly and said, "No, I wasn't coerced. ”

Xiao Nan couldn't understand it anymore, if that was the case, there would be no reason to do so.

Hokage Konan looked at her and said, "What do you think, what is my future?" ”

Xiao Nan was speechless, she was silent as if she was thinking about the truth.

Hokage Konan said, "You can live comfortably and easily, right?" ”

Xiao Nan asked, "Isn't this bad?" ”

This kind of life does sound good, and when Hokage Konan first decided to stay here, it was indeed all on his mind.

Hokage Konan smiled lightly and said: "It's very good, and what I said should be realized in the future, the emperor gave me a good place to live, and he will give me a lot of money every month, and there are good roommates who live in the place should become good friends, and I can also learn to raise flowers with them." ”

These things sound really good, Hokage Konan's life should be something that many people yearn for now, and she can indeed start over here.

What's wrong......

Xiao Nan was silent for a moment and suddenly asked: "What about feelings, don't you want to meet someone you like and can love deeply?" ”

She also thought that Naruto Konan had to pay a price for getting this, and this price was his own body.

Hokage Konan looked indifferent and asked rhetorically, "Do you think I will fall in love with someone else again?" ”

Xiao Nan was stunned, and she suddenly understood why she couldn't empathize with herself in front of her.

After all, she still can't regard the person in front of her as her true self, and the things that Hokage Konan told before are just stories that can make her feel empathy and sadness.

Otherwise, how could she, who has always been a little high in terms of feelings, say anything to let the other party meet someone she likes?

After the death of Yahiko in that world, the other party lived for nearly 20 years, and if he had changed his mind, he would have changed his mind a long time ago.

Her heart belongs to her Yahiko.

Hokage Konan said calmly: "My Yahiko no longer exists, what the emperor wants from me, it doesn't mean anything to me, there's nothing I can't give, just treat it as an episode outside of my life." ”

Xiao Nan who listened to these words was speechless, she couldn't agree with it in her heart, but she felt powerless, she still felt that Hokage Xiao Nan was forced to accept it.

"Do you hope that's the case?" she asked. ”

Hokage Konan looked at the drink on the table in front of him, suddenly picked it up and took a sip, and after savoring it, he found that the drink tasted sweet and sour.

Even if my current life is not so satisfactory, I still have the time and energy to drink this kind of thing.

Before you came into this world......

She said: "There are so many satisfactory things, it is just whether they can accept it or not." ”

She looked at Xiao Nan opposite and said, "I can accept the current life." ”

Xiao Nan clenched her fists tightly and slowly released them, she put her hands on the table, and looked down at the dishes that had not moved.

If the other party can accept it, why can't you accept it......

This "self" in front of me is the self saved by Yahiko in another world, and it is the self that has been committed to fulfilling Yahiko's long-cherished wish for 20 years......

Although his life in another world is unsatisfactory and miserable everywhere, in Xiao Nan's view, such a self is perfect, noble, undefiled, and idealized.

She can't accept that she will unwillingly fall into the arms of another man in the future, in her opinion, this is a betrayal of the relationship between her and Yahiko, a betrayal of herself!

The two couldn't reach an agreement, but Xiao Nan didn't know how to persuade her again, because she didn't have a better solution herself, if she persuaded her not to accept her fate and be numb, wouldn't it be even more embarrassing when the emperor forced her?

Such a result and situation made her feel extremely sad and angry, how could the emperor become such an annoying person?

Because of the wrong things they did in the first place, is the emperor deliberately punishing them?

But if there is a punishment, wouldn't it be nice to come to them, why bother to embarrass yourself from another world......

Xiao Nan muttered, "No, it shouldn't be like this...... You shouldn't be ...... like that."

"Xiao Nan ......"

Xiao Nan suddenly grabbed Hokage Xiao Nan's hand, and held it tightly with both hands, the other party's hand was a little cold, just like her whole person's appearance and temperament.

Women are like a mirror, you can see a man's love for her from her, her relationship with Yahiko has been supporting her for so many years, and it has become the deepest belief in her heart that makes her so strong.

Xiao Nan didn't seem to bear to look at it anymore, and lowered his head.

Hokage Konan said, "Don't let me have any obsessions, I was finally able to let go of all this, just let me really start over." ”

Coming out of the hotel, the two separated, Xiao Nan's expression was a little dazed, she looked at the sky, and her steps were very slow.

The streets were full of people and noisy, and suddenly a voice woke up Xiao Nan, who was in a trance.

"Xiao Nan?"

Xiao Nan turned around to look and saw that it was Ye Cang, who had been gone for a few days.

"Hakura?" She was surprised.

Hakura is dressed in some formal and neutral clothes today, and her aura is always strong and aggressive.

"You're ......"

"I just came back from work, and His Majesty gave me a new job." Ye Cang smiled lightly.

"Huh, really?"

"Well, I'll be able to meet you with Yahiko at a new job." Ye Cang smiled again.

"Huh?" Xiao Nan was even more surprised, she knew the nature of Yahiko's work, she was in a high position in the village, and she was considered an official in the imperial administration, and Ye Cang was one of the ten crown guards, so there should be no connection between the two.

She was stunned for a moment and asked, "What kind of work?" ”

"Auxiliary Governor of the Province of Fire." Ye Cang said casually.

"Auxiliary Minister...... It's amazing! ”

"Let's find a place to sit and talk."

The two went into the izakaya where Xiao Nan had just come out, and Ye Cang asked for wine, but Xiao Nan didn't have the heart to drink, so Ye Cang ordered a few more dishes and a drink for her.

Xiao Nan felt that the scene in front of him was very familiar.

"It's just a mess, Your Majesty gave me such a job, because I used to be a wind shadow, in charge of a village government affairs, and I have experience in this area."

Ye Cang drank a glass of wine and began to complain.

"Among the high-ranking officials of the empire, ninjas account for only a small part, and most ninjas do not have the ability to do so, and talents are scarce, I think Yahiko has a bright future in the future."

Xiao Nan nodded lightly: "That's ......"

Yahiko really likes his current job and is very enthusiastic, and now that the world is peaceful, Yahiko has new ambitions.

"What about you?" Ye Cang said suddenly.

"Me?" Xiao Nan was surprised.

Ye Cang explained: "I mean, are you interested in finding yourself a job in this area, you were also a high-level in the former Yuyin Village, right?" ”

Xiao Nan smiled: "I'll forget it, I'm not interested in this aspect." ”

She had done a lot of village management in Yuyin Village, but she was all about helping Yahiko share her worries and for the ideals shared by the three of them.

Now she doesn't have to do that anymore.

Ye Cang held the wine glass in his hand and said leisurely: "Power is a good thing, with it you can do more things, and you can make many things develop in the direction you want." ”

Xiao Nan smiled strangely, she was not a simple little girl, and naturally understood the meaning of the woman in front of her, who was once a wind shadow: "Are you bewitching me?" ”

Ye Cang chuckled and said: "I suddenly felt a little emotional, I thought that after the establishment of the empire, I would not be engaged in this aspect anymore, but I didn't expect His Majesty to put me in such a high position all of a sudden." ”

Xiao Nan said: "The main reason is that Ye Cang has such an ability and is worthy of such a position. ”

Ye Cang shook his head: "There are more capable people, it's just that I'm lucky." ”

"Really?" Xiao Nan tilted his head.

Ye Cang looked at Xiao Nan and said with a smile: "Actually, we are about the same. ”

"What do you mean?"

"We have all received the kindness of His Majesty when he was young, and the fate that was formed at that time."

When His Majesty the Emperor was a teenager, he sent a message to the Akatsuki organization of the Land of Rain, and helped them smash the conspiracy of Sanshoyu Hanzo and help them take charge of Yuyin Village.

It was also when His Majesty was a teenager that he helped Hakura of Sand Hidden Village ascend to the position of Wind Shadow.

"Then I felt that His Majesty was not a mortal." Ye Cang said, and then chuckled: "Of course, I didn't expect Your Majesty to be so powerful. ”

Even the Renzong established by the legendary Six Dao Immortals was not as good as the current Sunyao Empire.

"Your Majesty is the pioneer of the times, in my heart no one can compare, it is the luck of my life to receive His Majesty's kindness, I hope to always follow his side."

Ye Cang's eyes couldn't stop shining when he said these words, and at the same time, he was also looking at Xiao Nan in front of him.

Xiao Nan couldn't stand such a gaze, and she also echoed: "Your Majesty is indeed a god-like person. ”

She did think the same way before, and was in awe of the emperor, but the events of the past two days had made her change her mind, and even then she could not deny His Majesty's great achievements.

She was conflicted, she was resentful of someone the whole world revered.

Hokage-channan's matter began to creep into her heart again, making her feel like a numb heart, and she sighed for a long time.

"What's wrong?" Ye Cang on the other side asked.

"Nothing."

"It's so boring for you to drink that." Ye Cang gestured for the drink in front of her, and then pouted at the wine bottle on the table.

Xiao Nan groaned, and poured himself a glass of wine.

Drink it all.

She thought that the first time she met the emperor, it was the third ninja war, and the weak Konoha was unable to resist Yun Yin, so she went to their Yuyin Village to ask for help.

At that time, she was still surprised by the other party's age, but the courage and strength shown by the other party really surprised her.

The emperor's kindness when he was young made them very grateful, and what happened later could only be blamed on them.

Xiao Nan looked at Ye Cang and asked, "What about you and Your Majesty...... How's it going? ”

Ye Cang said casually: "I confessed to Your Majesty. ”

Xiao Nan was surprised: "Yes...... Is it?! ”

Ye Cang smiled: "I'm not a ghost, why do you like to hide it in your heart?" ”

Xiao Nan asked, "And then?" ”

Ye Cang said casually: "No, Your Majesty didn't say anything when he knew about it, and he was still the same as before, maybe ...... It's not in His Majesty's eyes. ”

She said, sighing softly.

Xiao Nan couldn't help but say, "How come, Ye Cang, you are obviously so beautiful and so temperamental." ”

Of course, Ye Cang knew that he was beautiful, and said with a smile: "There is no shortage of beautiful women around Your Majesty, maybe I am not the type Your Majesty likes." ”

Xiao Nan was speechless.

Ye Cang continued: "I really envy those women, they are even luckier than me to be favored by His Majesty. ”

Xiao Nan drank and did not answer

Ye Cang looked at her and said with a smile: "Xiao Nan." ”

"Huh?"

"What if, I say, if Your Majesty liked you?"

Xiao Nan's heart suddenly slowed down, her hand holding the wine glass stopped in mid-air, and then put it down again, her eyes looked around, and she said, "How do I know." ”

Ye Cang said with a smile: "I'm asking you very seriously, just imagine what you would do if Your Majesty liked you?" ”

Xiao Nan's heartbeat was suddenly and fast, and she said in a panic: "Why do you ask me such a question? ”

Ye Cang said: "I have fantasized myself, but after all, it is only my own fantasy, if you want to think the same as I think, then what I want should be the real feeling." ”

Xiao Nan said: "This kind of thing doesn't make much sense to answer, Your Majesty won't really like me." ”

Ye Cang smiled: "Why do you always avoid my questions, just let you fantasize." ”

"I don't want to think about it."

“……”

Ye Cang looked at Xiao Nan who hung his head in front of him, and suddenly leaned closer and asked in a very low voice: "Xiao Nan, haven't you thought that Your Majesty is a very good man?" ”

Xiao Nanden was startled, and the wine glass in his hand almost fell under the violent shaking.

Ye Cang raised the corners of his mouth and asked: "Don't be in a hurry to deny it, I know you like Yahiko, but it doesn't prevent you from having some thoughts about other men, it's just an idea, it's not true, and thinking about it is not a betrayal of Yahiko." ”

“……”

Xiao Nan buried his head there and said nothing.

Ye Cang continued, with a smile in his voice: "Do you know what she thinks about every day? Once, when I slept with her, I found that she had a picture of Her Majesty hidden under her pillow, and there was a very strange smell on it......"

Phew!

Xiao Nan stood up suddenly, and the chair behind him was pushed to the ground, and the sound made made many people in the izakaya look over.

There was a brief silence.

Xiao Nan's face changed.

"I'll go first."

She turned and walked briskly out of the izaka.

(End of chapter)