2020.9.7 Monday sunny white dew

I've never believed that I was lucky.

Twenty-two years, from one autumn to another, from elementary school to university, from ignorance to gradual silence. I've walked past some people, some people have walked past me. Stop-and-go, just like that, I spent my youth.

My family is average, not wealthy, and not yet well-off. My parents were both residents, and they went when I was very young, leaving only me and my sister An Yimo. At that time, I was still young, and my sister took over the task of supporting the family by herself in order to support the two of us, working and living, and her thin body supported this family that was close to being broken. Looking at my sister's increasingly haggard body, I hated myself, hated myself for why I couldn't help her a little - my sister was also a first-class beauty back then. Fortunately, I was also very competitive, and I was admitted to the Music Department of Jiangcheng Art Institute and graduated successfully.

But life did not stop there, my sister died unexpectedly last year, and the biological father of the child was not revealed before her death, leaving only a 7-year-old niece An Wan. My girlfriend, who finally agreed after licking for two years, resolutely left when she heard that I had filled in a "drag oil bottle". I got drunk that night, and I was drunk and unconscious, not only because of the breakup, but also because of the guilt of my sister - my sister also funded the relationship. In the end, it was my niece who dragged me back, and it was really hard for her.

My niece is still young and is in the second grade at Yunxi Elementary School. It's okay to study, (although it's not as good as my uncle), and it's barely the first in the class. God is still eye-opening, An Wan is very sensible, like a very intimate little padded jacket. Life is as calm as a lake of stagnant water, in the future, I will grow up with An Wan and live with her until she gets married. I don't blame her. After a year of getting along, she has completely healed my heart.

It's a pity that I'm also an ordinary person. Whenever I sleep with An Wan at night, I can't help but fantasize about a sweet dream. Night after night, I waited in my superficial sleep for someone to appear. Maybe, maybe in the future she will grow up, I will get married, and we can go through life without incident.

Until...... Some memories that don't belong to me appear.

I don't know how they came about, they swarmed into my brain, like a cosmic explosion (though I don't know what a cosmic explosion looks like), filled up, and had a terrible headache. I was hesitant, I was afraid, I even wondered if I was me, but I didn't dare let my niece notice my abnormality, and waited quietly for the results, pretending to be like every day.

However, the imaginary storm did not come, and little by little I crept closer to them, and time passed to the point of being convinced that they did me no harm. I don't know if it's going to be a good sign, but it's there, it's impacting, it's changing me.

Maybe God still favors me.

It was school time again, and I was standing at the entrance of the elementary school waiting to pick her up. The weather is fine today, but I'm feeling a little cool. Pick up a fallen leaf, and don't feel the autumn solstice. When I looked at the sunset that was level with me, I felt sad for no reason. The sunset at this moment is extremely beautiful, but I only think that there should be two people standing here at this moment.

Oh, if I'm really a little lucky, I just hope that someone will sneak past me, and I'll catch up, and I'll wait for her at the end of time.