The water was boiling, Yun Menghuan carefully picked up the kettle and added water to the glass teapot.

She poured it down while admonishing Yan Niannian, "You just changed the medicine, and the doctor said last time that the sequelae of this medicine are a bit big, and it is easy to be unstable in your hands." ”

Hearing this, Yan Niannian came back to his senses from his daze, a touch of embarrassment flashed on his face, and his face darkened.

Yes, my current self, such a small thing as connecting hot water is no longer suitable for doing it.

Yun Menghuan felt wrong after saying this, and when she glanced at Yan Niannian's face, the action of pouring water froze for a moment.

Alas, I really owe it, so I shouldn't say what I have and don't.

In fact, even if she doesn't say it, she can feel that after the illness, many things are different from before.

At the beginning of my college years, I was confident and sunny, and my emotions were positive, and I always felt that my life was full of hope and the future was full of possibilities.

But after being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, good people have changed when they say they have changed.

At the beginning, Lu Zixiao was determined to break up, and the two made it clear when they met, which broke her last glimmer of hope and became the last straw that crushed her.

She fell ill when she went back, almost didn't eat or drink, Yun Menghuan was so panicked that she hurriedly called Yan's father and mother.

After the second elder came to school, the family saw that they didn't respond to what she said or did, and they were afraid that they couldn't do it, so they took it home and sent it to the hospital, where they were diagnosed with depression.

The doctor recommended that he be hospitalized immediately, but of course the parents could not bear it.

As for herself, she can't talk about agreeing or disagreeing, her heart is like ashes, she doesn't care about that. They can fiddle with it as much as they like.

Parents feel more at ease to keep it at home and watch it.

So Yan's mother usually watched it, and the two took turns watching it on weekends, and nothing happened at first.

Until one day.

On that day, my father was stir-frying in the kitchen, and my mother was mopping the floor in the living room. Yan Niannian lay in a daze in the room.

It would have been fine. Just wait for the cooking to finish the cooking.

As a result, she didn't know why, looking at the window, and she felt that the sun was so nice outside.

But I always feel that it is not bright enough, and it is still a little gray, although it is gray, I still want to see it.

She couldn't get a good view of the sun in her own room.

In order to prevent accidents, this bedroom has newly installed anti-theft windows, which are welded to death. Sunlight shines through the burglar-proof windows, casting a shadow on the ground.

Words and thoughts were chaotic, and he ran to the balcony room.

The balcony of the loss is facing the living room, and the mother mops the floor, and when she looks up, good guy.

Yan Niannian is stepping on a small bench to climb up the windowsill.

Yan's mother was startled, hurriedly threw the mop, took three steps and made two steps, rushed to the balcony, and pulled her down.

This is completely a conditioned reflex, fortunately, she lost a lot of weight during that time, but it was not heavy, otherwise Yan's mother really couldn't hold her.

Yan's mother came back to her senses and broke out in a cold sweat.

She held her thoughts and looked at her daughter's stunned appearance, as if she didn't realize what she had just done wrong, and finally couldn't help crying.

Father Yan had just finished stir-frying the food, and he rushed over when he heard the movement.

Seeing this, he turned his head and wiped away a handful of tears, and looked at the mother and daughter with sad eyes.

Yan Niannian didn't react, she just finished taking the medicine, she didn't react when she saw her mother crying, and she didn't react when she saw her father rushing over.

……

Soon, the situation took a turn for the worse, and the depression turned bipolar.

Under the repeated alternating torment of mania and depression, the whole family suffered physically and mentally.

Parents are very worried, it coincides with the summer vacation, my father doesn't have to go to class, so he and his mother take care of her at home, and Yun Menghuan also rushed to Lincheng to accompany her for a summer vacation.

At the end of the holiday, the family was really unable to take care of her at all times, so they had no choice but to send her to the hospital.

The day her mother sent her, she grabbed her hand and refused to let go.

The experience of being hospitalized, in fact, looking back now, I was a little vague in a trance, and I didn't want to recall my words and thoughts.

When he is discharged from the hospital and enters the maintenance period, he will take medication for a long time.

The side effects of psychiatric drugs are quite big, and Yan Niannian has changed the medicine several times.

At first, it is the fastest effective, but the side effects are the most obvious.

Later, because the condition stabilized, and the initial medicine was indeed too side effects, which really affected normal life, the doctor changed the medicine.

Originally, saliva secretion was vigorous, and it was always necessary to pay attention to closing the mouth to avoid leaking out.

But the drug has been changed to now, because there has been no recurrence in the past year, and the dose is gradually decreasing.

When I arrived in Lancheng, although I was diagnosed with a recurrence of depression, the symptoms were not very obvious because I had been taking medication.

After the drug was adjusted, the dose was already very light.

But she usually has some hand tremors, can't hold weight, and often has chest tightness, palpitations, and drowsiness after taking the medicine.

Normal people who are not sick always feel that life is infinitely better, they still have a lot of time to squander, and a strong body to work hard.

However, when you lose your health and suffer from an almost incurable disease, you can realize the meaning of health more deeply.

Yun Menghuan was still uneasy on the side, "In the future, pour hot water or something, tell me and let me come." Remembered, remembered? ”

She buried her head and let out a low "um".

Yun Menghuan couldn't stand it when she looked at her depressed look, and added: "Be good, reward you with a lucky cat, pick it yourself later, and I'll pay for it." ”

Yun Menghuan walked back with the flower tea, and when Yan Niannian heard the beckoning cat, his eyes lit up.

She nodded heavily and let out a loud "um".

Yun Menghuan saw that when she mentioned the beckoning cat, she nodded so happily, shook her head helplessly, and smiled.

It's really powerless to complain about her aesthetics. Yun Menghuan didn't understand, the Yan family is a scholar, and the character of Yan's father and mother looks a little high, how did this cultivate the daughter's exaggerated soil bun aesthetics.