Chapter 56, [Young Thoughts of Innocence] (Re-raising Suicide)
The café is not facing the street, but at the end of the Yuhe Square, and outside the building is a large fence woven by two old locust trees.
In the corner of the window, a quiet woman sits upright, holding a book, with a steaming cup of coffee in her hand.
As her fingertips flipped, her slender eyebrows furrowed and soothed, as if all her mind was completely immersed in the world of the book.
It turned out that Xu Ziyin didn't quite understand the true meaning of the sentence "Poetry and Books".
But when he saw Luo Xuan, he couldn't help but think of this poem in his mind.
Simple and elegant, not admiring prosperity, should be the truest portrayal of her.
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After watching it for a long time, Xu Ziyin was a little puzzled.
Could it be that she didn't come on a blind date?
After all, looking at her so leisurely appearance doesn't look like a blind date.
Besides, if it is really a blind date, how can there be a reason for a man to make a woman wait for so long and it hasn't appeared?
Just when Xu Ziyin was thinking about whether to step forward to say hello, he immediately saw Luo Xuan raise his head, his eyes happened to look in the direction where he was, and then a trace of astonishment appeared in his eyes.
Seeing this, Xu Ziyin could only step forward.
Sitting down opposite Luo Xuan, Xu Ziyin said with a smile.
"Sister Xuan, good evening."
Frowning slightly, Luo Xuan was a little curious about Xu Ziyin's appearance.
"Why are you here?"
Hearing this, Xu Ziyin replied casually.
"I happened to be passing by, and then I saw your car, so I came in and had a look."
"Then why don't you come, why are you sitting so far away?"
Hearing this, Xu Ziyin's face stiffened, and he couldn't answer.
Seeing that Luo Xuan's expression was a little unnatural, Xu Ziyin hurriedly said again.
"Sister Xuan, the young man is innocent, don't make me dirty, I'm just afraid of delaying your business."
"Business? What's on my business? ”
"I thought you were on a blind date, so I'm a little curious, after all, cafes are a common place for blind dates."
Hearing this, Luo Xuan suddenly couldn't cry or laugh, and then said helplessly.
"I'm just here to sit down, how can it be as complicated as you think?"
"Well, now I'm convinced, after all, there can't be a gentleman who makes such a beautiful lady like Sister Xuan wait so long."
"Okay, don't be poor, since you're here, sit with me, what do you want to drink? Sister, please. ”
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The café was quiet, no one was making any noise, and the occasional conversation was kept to a range of two meters.
A man in a suit gently taps on the computer keyboard, and an urban young girl whispers interesting things about the workplace with her companions, and a petty bourgeois mood spreads in the audience.
After chatting, Xu Ziyin also knew the reason why Luo Xuan appeared here at this point in time.
Suke University is not far from Yuhe Square.
And Luo Xuan usually comes here alone when she doesn't have classes, drinks a cup of coffee, and reads a book.
The environment here is very good, and coupled with her originally quiet personality, such a place is the most suitable for her.
Taking a sip of slightly bitter coffee, Xu Ziyin asked.
"Sister Xuan, why didn't my aunt call me to eat at home during this time?"
Hearing this, Luo Xuan raised her eyes strangely and glanced at Xu Ziyin.
"What, you want to go to my house for dinner?"
"Haha, that's not it, although my aunt's craftsmanship is very good, it's just that I'm a little worried, after all, I've always been very enthusiastic about my son-in-law before, but it suddenly fell into the cold, and I wondered if my aunt noticed something?"
"Not really."
Slowly pinning the bangs hanging down in front of her forehead, Luo Xuan said softly.
"My mother often asks me to take you home for dinner these days, but I have been excused by excuses."
"Just let her know that I already have a boyfriend, it's not appropriate for you to see my mom often."
Xu Ziyin knew the worries in Luo Xuan's heart, she was afraid that she would see too much, and the bonds would be deep, but it would not end well.
Hmm, Xu Ziyin replied.
"Sister Xuan, are you going on a blind date again these days?"
"No, I haven't had any thoughts about this since I participated in that blind date event last time."
"I think so, Sister Xuan is not suitable to participate in such activities as blind dates at all."
Hearing this, Luo Xuan glanced at Xu Ziyin strangely again, and her tone was a little puzzled.
"Listening to you, I can only stay single for the rest of my life?"
Xu Ziyin hurriedly waved his hand.
"Sister Xuan, I didn't mean that, I just think that people like you are not suitable for blind dates, and blind dates are strictly equivalent to a transaction."
"Don't talk to each other, even the basic interests and hobbies, the three views are different, just think the other party is suitable and live together."
"A marriage without feelings will not last long, coupled with a series of trivial things after marriage, it is a kind of torture for partners who cannot communicate with each other to walk together."
"And this kind of life is obviously not what Sister Xuan wants."
Luo Xuan was stunned for a moment, and then felt a little funny.
"A little kid, he talks old-fashioned.
"It's like you're married."
"I've never been married, but I've watched a lot of TV series, isn't it all like this on TV? Although the TV series has elements of the director's carving and exaggeration, it is not out of touch with reality. ”
Seeing Xu Ziyin talking eloquently, Luo Xuan couldn't help but feel a little interested.
She closed the book, held her chin and looked at Xu Ziyin with a smile.
"Then tell me, since the blind date is not suitable for me, how can I find my other half?"
Pretending to be deep and deep for a moment, Xu Ziyin said slowly.
"We will meet by fate."
"The more you care, the more that person will not appear, and when you don't have this rush in your heart, your wishful thinking may appear next to you inadvertently."
Xu Ziyin's nonsense suddenly caused Luo Xuan's eyes.
"You just put on a beard, put on a coat, go to the roadside to tell fortunes, and meet each other, it seems like a thing."
After a period of small talk, Luo Xuan's heart became a little happy, and her mind couldn't help but become a little subtle, she quietly looked at the young man sitting opposite who was talking eloquently, smiling wantonly, and suddenly lowered her eyelids and asked.
"Xu Ziyin, how many times have you been in love?"
After thinking for a while, Xu Ziyin replied truthfully.
"Once."
"And now you?"
"It's already divided."
"I'm sorry."
Luo Xuan hurriedly said humbly.
"It's okay, it's normal to break up."
Hmm, Luo Xuan said again.
"Then Xu Ziyin, can you tell me what it's like to be in love?"
What's it like to be in a relationship?
It's a bit strange for a mature woman in her thirties to ask an eighteen-year-old boy this question.
Xu Ziyin didn't reply immediately, but asked rhetorically.
"Sister Xuan, have you ever had someone you like?"
Hearing this, Luo Xuan shook her head, and without any twisting, she said softly.
"No, when I was young, I only knew how to read to death, and when I was almost done, I found out that I was past the age of falling in love............"
Before Luo Xuan could finish speaking, she was interrupted by Xu Ziyin.
"Sister Xuan, I don't think what you said is right."
"Who stipulates that falling in love is only the right of young people?"
"The pursuit of happiness is everyone's lifelong dream, this kind of thing is not divided into age ranges, as long as you are alive, there is a breath, the heart will never stop beating, since the heartbeat is still there, then the heart is still there."
"When I met him, I saw the right eye, and naturally I had unprovoked feelings, young and young, mature and stable, and warm and peaceful in old age."
"With different ages, the feeling of being in love is naturally different."
Usually Luo Xuan teaches students, but today I listened to Xu Ziyin talk about love at length in front of her, and suddenly Luo Xuan felt very interesting.
Then she saw Xu Ziyin pick up the book in her hand and whispered.
"Sister Xuan, don't you want to know what it's like to be in love?"
"You love to read, and when you're with a guy and he gives you the feeling like you're reading a book, then that's the feeling you want to be in love."
While speaking, Xu Ziyin glanced at the name on the book.
【Anxiety Relief Grocery Store】
"The Grocery Store" is a novel written by Japanese writer Keigo Higashino.
As a parallel time and space, there are still many characters familiar to Xu Ziyin in his previous life in this world, and similarly, there are many characters he knows who have disappeared in the long river of history.
I just don't know if this author, who is also named Keigo Higashino, is the one he was familiar with in his previous life, or if it's just the same name.
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Same as reading a book?
Hearing this, Luo Xuan's heart was a little complicated.
She likes to read very much, and this habit has long been integrated into her bones.
But can there really be a man in this world who gives him the same feeling as reading a book?
Luo Xuan didn't dare to think about it, but she clearly knew that if there was really such a person, then she should like it very much.
She glanced at Xu Ziyin, and then smiled lightly.
"Xu Ziyin, you are so eloquent, it seems that you are usually very popular with little girls."
Hearing this compliment, Xu Ziyin did not show a smug expression, but sighed faintly.
"Sigh for what, am I not right?"
Leaning closer and closing the distance slightly, Xu Ziyin shook his head.
"Sister Xuan, it is undeniable that what you said is the truth, it's just a pity that it comes out of your mouth."
"What a pity?"
Luo Xuan felt that she couldn't catch Xu Ziyin's thinking jumping.
"It's a pity for you."
"Pity me?"
Looking at the night scene outside the glass window, the street after the rain is fresh and natural, and pedestrians pass by in front of them in twos and threes and disappear in the shadow of sight, Xu Ziyin said leisurely.
"Sister Xuan, they like me, but I don't like them, although it's not as perfect as two people who like each other."
"But compared to you, they don't even have a favorite person, but they are much luckier."
When the words fell, Luo Xuan was shocked.
She stared blankly at the young man in front of her with her small mouth open, and suddenly felt very bitter in her heart.
Oh, yes.
Compared to me, they don't even have a favorite person, and they are indeed much luckier.
She looked at Xu Ziyin's slightly distressed look blankly, then turned her head a little flustered, followed Xu Ziyin's gaze just now, and fell on the passers-by outside the window.
For some reason, in a conversation with Xu Ziyin today, he seemed to be able to see through his heart, which was a feeling she had never experienced in other members of the opposite sex in her more than 30 years of life.
She couldn't tell what kind of emotion it was.
I just think it would be nice if the teenager in front of me could be a teenager older.
(Second update.) )
(Woo woo, the editor doesn't recommend it, saying that the chase is not enough, crying chirp~)