After eating in a hurry, I was about to go upstairs to read a book for a while, when Xiaobai came over and said, "Brother Gao, go out for a walk with me?" ”

I knew that Xiaobai should have something to say to me, so I picked up a coat and put it on, and followed her to the villa.

When I was about to go out, I glanced at Xia Qingqing, only to see her eyes follow me, smile meaningfully, and then turn her head away.

In the past few days, Xiaobai rarely comes back to live in the villa, one is because the new store is relatively busy, and the other is because Liu Youpeng rented a house for employees nearby.

Spring is in full bloom, and the night breeze blows softly on your face, and you don't feel cold.

At night, walking in the quiet villa area, you can faintly smell the fragrance of various flowers on the green belt.

Xiaobai walked side by side with me, silently, walked for a few minutes, and saw that it was far away from the house we lived in, so he whispered: "Brother Gao, you won't blame me, right?" ”

"Blame you? Why should I blame you? Xiaobai. I asked, pretending not to understand.

"Just now...... What Xiao Song said just now! Xiaobai said in a hurry, looking a little embarrassed.

"Oh...... You said that Youpeng bought you clothes, this is normal! Is the boss buying clothes for his employees also for the sake of the store's business? In other words, have things been straightened out in the new store in the past two days? That Wu Zihao didn't come to trouble again, right? I pretended to be light-hearted.

Seeing that I deliberately diverted the topic, Xiaobai did not respond, and after being silent for a few minutes, he said: "Xiao Song guessed correctly just now, I guess Mr. Liu is interesting to me." ”

"Oh." Hearing that Xiaobai finally mustered up the courage to pierce this layer of window paper, I didn't know how to respond, so I only nodded in response.

"Brother Gao, are you really not angry?" Xiaobai stopped and asked seriously.

"You are unmarried, he is unmarried, and they have a good impression of each other, what kind of anger am I having?" I barely squeezed out a little wry smile and said that my heart was inevitably full of ups and downs.

"Brother Gao, you really ...... Don't you care what I do? After listening to me, Xiaobai suddenly asked with tears in his eyes.

"Xiaobai, why are you crying?" What I'm most afraid of in my life is that girls cry, as long as they cry, I will be at a loss.

"Brother Gao, I know I'm not worthy of you, you deliberately pushed me to Liu Youpeng, right? Because you have Sister Tianqing and Xiao Song by your side, they are all better looking and ...... than me Clean, huh? Xiaobai said in a choked voice.

I saw Xiaobai crying breathlessly, so I hurriedly comforted: "Xiaobai, where do you want to go?" I don't allow you to think so! ”

"Brother Gao, actually...... You know I like you, but I know I probably don't deserve you, so ...... I'm sorry for you, Brother Gao! Xiaobai said incoherently while crying.

Looking at Xiaobai in front of me who was crying and sobbing and wiping his tears, I really couldn't figure out what I really thought in my heart.

To be honest, whether it's Xiaobai, Feng Yasong, or Xia Qing...... I liked each of them, but I knew I couldn't like them all at the same time, because they might all end up being away from me.

What Xiaobai said may have poked at some of the most secret thoughts in my heart, I think when I introduced Xiaobai to work with Liu Youpeng, didn't I have a trace of selfishness in my heart?

Maybe what Xiaobai said is right, I'm really unconsciously pushing these girls out, first Xiaobai, and then what?

In the end, who will stay with me, and with whom will I walk through this life hand in hand?

Suddenly, I felt that I was very dirty, I hated myself very much, and I hated my selfish thoughts, but I said that my unclean Xiaobai was more pure and pure.

Xiaobai is still crying, but she hasn't cried out loud, she is afraid that the people around her will hear it, right? Even when I was the saddest, Xiaobai was still thinking about me.

Thinking of this, my heart hurt like being cut by a knife, I pulled Xiaobai to my chest, hugged her tightly in my arms and whispered: "Xiaobai, it should be me who should say I'm sorry, you're not wrong!" If there's a fault, it's all mine! I'm sorry for you. ”

"Would you like to kiss me?" Xiaobai raised her head to look at me, with infinite softness and sweetness in her eyes, but looking at her expression, it made me feel distressed.

Seeing that I was stunned and hesitated, a wry smile appeared on Xiaobai's face: "Brother Gao, for the last time, will you kiss me?" ”

Xiaobai said, closing her eyes, her eyelashes moved slightly, her little face was a little pale because she had cried, and her lips were slightly open, waiting for me to approach......

A frech

kiss, lingering and compassionate, it feels indescribable, it seems to be very fast, and it seems like a long time, the two of us are separated, and Xiaobai's mood seems to have improved.

The first day we met was in a room, and then there was a skin-to-skin blind date by chance. However, I have the impression that it is the first time that we have kissed each other like this.

It's a wonderful feeling that makes people's hearts move.

I took Xiaobai in my arms again, and Xiaobai remained motionless in my arms.

I felt her breathing, her heartbeat, her temperature, at this moment, I felt like we were like one person, it felt like time had stopped, it felt like everything around us had disappeared, and in the whole world, only me and Xiaobai were left, we were standing in the center of the world, standing in the center of darkness......

It's okay if you stay in the moment forever.

I don't know how long it took, Xiaobai gently pushed me away, wiped the tears on his face and smiled: "Brother Gao, that's it!" I will always remember today, remember what I just said, but we will not do that in the future. I know you like Sister Tianqing, I hope you can treat her well in the future, okay? You know that if a woman likes someone, she can become very selfish and selfish......"

After Xiaobai finished speaking, without waiting for my words to speak, he resolutely turned around and trotted away, wiping his tears as he ran.

I looked at Xiaobai's back as she gradually disappeared into the night, thought about what she had just said, lit a cigarette, and then another ......

After a long time, after returning home, Feng Yasong and Xia Qing were sitting on the sofa watching TV casually, and when they saw me coming back, they both looked at me in surprise.

"Where's Xiaobai?" I asked.

"Oh, Xiaobai just came back from a walk and said that there was an urgent matter in the store, so he left." Feng Yasong stared at the TV and said without looking back.

"Oh." I shuffled upstairs.

Take a shower, lie down, close your eyes, but you can't sleep, so you get up and put on your clothes and go for a run in the community, when you go out, Xia Qing and Feng Yasong are still in the living room, they see me dressed in sportswear, and they are a little surprised and said: "Go for a run so late?" ”

I didn't make a sound, closed the door and went out, running around the neighborhood again and again, until I was exhausted and couldn't run anymore, then I sat down on the ground, the whole person seemed to be drained of muscles and bones, I don't know how long I ran, I only felt a faint pain in my calf muscles, my heart was pounding violently, and my lungs were about to explode......

Sitting on the cool ground, I suddenly had a gut feeling that Xiaobai might never come back.

Thinking of this, I hurriedly ran home, and when I found the phone and was about to dial out, I saw a message from Xiaobai: Brother Gao, thank you, don't worry, I will take care of myself, and the past will be a secret between the two of us, okay?

At the end of this message, there is also a small sunny face with little white hair.

Seeing this message, I was somewhat relieved in my heart, knowing that Xiaobai would not do anything stupid, but I felt that the big stone in my heart was still pressing there.

Xia Qing and Feng Yasong had already slept, and I went back to the room alone, tossing and turning, but I couldn't sleep, so I had to go downstairs to the wine cabinet and find a bottle of foreign wine, and went back to the room to drink and think about things alone, until most of the bottle of wine went down, and the thick drunkenness smashed on the back of the head like a big stick.

I collapsed on the bed groggily, unconscious and sinking into a dream.

……

Early the next morning, I was woken up by Xia Qing's knock on the door, rubbed my sore temples and opened the door, only to see Xia Qing, who was wearing a plain white dress, standing at the door pretty, and when she saw me come out, she smiled and said, "What? Broken out of love? ”

I didn't have the heart to joke with her, and I didn't know what to say, so I lazily retreated to the room, fell headlong on the bed and said, "Leave me alone, I want to be quiet." ”

"Who is Jingjing?" Xia Qing said with a smile, without waiting for me to answer, and then said, "Xiaobai came to clean up this morning, and when I saw that you were sleeping, I didn't say hello to you." ”

"What? Packing up? I asked as I jerked myself up from my bed.

"Xiaobai said that the store has been very busy recently, so I don't want to run at both ends, I came back just now, packed my things, and Xiao Song drove to see her off." Xia Qing stood at the door, looked at the expression on my face, and said lightly.

"Oh." I answered and wanted to lie back on the bed, but Xia Qing came over and lifted the quilt.

"Please, it's not a weekend! Sister Miao just called over to make an appointment for afternoon tea, hurry up and clean up, let's go? ”

After Xia Qing finished speaking, she walked out, she didn't seem to want to talk nonsense to me, although I guessed she probably understood everything, but she just didn't say it.

It is said that women are like water.

If Xiaobai and Feng Yasong are like small streams, I feel that Xia Qing is a deep lake, you don't know how deep the water is, and you don't know what is hidden below the surface of the lake, which looks calm.

I got up and turned on the shower, and the icy cold water from the shower head made me shiver. So, well, I stood under the sprinkler and let the cold water rush over my head and run down my body.

People, why are there so many troubles? Why am I so vulnerable? How to make a choice on the road ahead?

It's all too much, and I'm the damn guy who can't move because of this mess......