Chapter 15: I Live

She doesn't have the kind of stunning appearance that doesn't even stand out in the crowd, but she looks comfortable.

Tranquil and peaceful, delicate and refined.

In her previous life, some people even said that she had a fairy aura.

Although Feng Zhirong said that Baizhi's remarks were too exaggerated, Baize just smiled and stopped talking.

After another while, after Bai Ya simply cleaned up all the things scattered on the table, she and Bai Ze went to the hall where the Feng family's family gathered.

Although the tenth birthday is a big event for Feng Zhirong itself, it is only a small ceremony for the whole family, so except for the brothers who have not yet worked, the rest of the elders and siblings who should be in the court are in the court, and even Feng Xuhui, who said that he could rush back on Feng Zhirong's birthday, also gave priority to taking care of the affairs outside and did not rush back because of this.

In the entire Feng family, only Feng Xu and the four brothers and brothers who were still preparing for the scientific expedition were present, and the rest were the female dependents.

Originally, it was supposed to be Cao Zhongyu, the mother of the head of the entire mansion, who was now presiding over this birthday, but Daye had a custom that widows and widows were not suitable to preside over the festive feast, so Feng Zhirong's mother Zhou Youshao presided over it on his behalf.

When Feng Zhirong came to the hall, the servants of the Feng family had already prepared almost everything they should need, and Cao Zhongyu could not preside over the birthday, so he was also inspecting and guiding the servants to arrange the dishes on the banquet as usual.

Zhou Youshao was still explaining things to his personal maid Yunbi, and when he saw Feng Zhirong coming from a distance, he also sent Yunbi away, stepped forward and said, "Are you ready?" ”

Feng Zhirong nodded and said, "Mother, what do I have to do now?" ”

Zhou Youshao pointed to the furnishings in the courtyard in front of the hall and said: "Later, when your grandfather arrives, he will sacrifice to the sky, and after the sacrifice to the sky, he will go to the ancestral hall to worship his ancestors, and then he can come back." ”

Feng Zhirong nodded in understanding.

In her previous life, her hometown also attached great importance to the part of sacrifice, and it is understandable that ancient society in this life attaches more importance to it.

Soon, when Feng Xu came out, he led the simple but solemn ritual of sacrificing to the sky.

When a stick of incense was inserted into the incense burner, Feng Zhirong watched the curling cigarette rise, and for the first time, she had the feeling that she had already been reincarnated.

Feng Zhirong only felt very excited in her heart, and she didn't want her family to see her abnormality, so it took a lot of effort to make her face look as usual.

Feng Zhirong felt that she was acting seamlessly, but unexpectedly showed it to her cousin Feng Xuji. Feng Xuji watched Feng Zhirong lose her usual liveliness and absent-mindedly walked to the side of the group, and then whispered: "Xiao Rong has something on his mind?" ”

Feng Zhirong didn't expect that her almost expressionless expression could be seen, and while walking, she also looked up at this cousin's face and said, "Is it obvious?" Is my face written? ”

Feng Xuji smiled at the corner of his mouth and said, "No, it's not obvious." ”

"But my cousin can still see it?"

"It's nature." Feng Xuji said gently: "Even if Xiao Rong's expression didn't say anything, those eyes were clearly on the mind. ”

Indeed, after coming into this world, although she did her best to play a child, most of the time she still did not act with her own mind - so whenever someone looked into her eyes, she would feel inexplicably afraid.

Others may not be able to see it, but Feng Xu saw that she was different from ordinary children, and King Jing also looked deeply into his eyes that day, but I don't know what clues he saw at that time?

Ah, that's a long way to go.

Speaking of Feng Zhirong's cousin Feng Xuji, it is a figure that everyone praises. Because his father Feng Zhengxun, who works in the Ministry of Industry, is very busy and doesn't see anyone a few times a year, and his mother is always sick in bed because of his frail health and many miscarriages, as an only son, he has developed a delicate mind.

Feng Xuji has already been crowned, and now he is also a person, just waiting for the spring of next year to seek fame, so he also nests in his own room or in the courtyard of his male relatives all day long, reading, and activities, and it is difficult to meet him at all except for dinner on weekdays, because Feng Zhirong is also negligent in avoiding him and failing to hide his thoughts in a timely manner.

"Alright! Don't hide it from my cousin! ”

Feng Zhirong still has an excuse after all, so she plans to "recruit from the truth": "Does my cousin know that I will enter the palace to study after my birthday?" ”

"I know, my mother told me."

When Feng Zhirong was about to speak, Feng Xuji said, "But you don't act like you're worried about this matter. ”

Feng Zhirong was dumbfounded, so she had to start playing on the spot: "That's the preface, when will my cousin stop listening to anyone!" ”

Feng Xuji raised his hand in surrender: "My fault, Xiao Rong spared me!" ”

Feng Zhirong snorted and said, "I just thought that time flies so fast. ”

This time, Feng Xuji didn't complain anymore, and said, "Xiao Rong also thinks that he has grown up?" ”

"Cousin, I'll tell you the truth, I used to feel bored, I felt that everything was so boring, every time I saw people saying that I should cherish my time and something like that, I felt overwhelmed, even if I wasn't idle for a day, but I still felt bored......" Feng Zhirong considered her words as much as possible to keep herself from looking too old: "But when I worship my ancestors today, I really have a feeling of 'I am alive', what is that?" It seems that "all the things in the past, such as yesterday's death, and all the things in the future, such as today's birth", it seems that we should no longer arbitrarily reject everything, but live well in the present. Feng Zhirong's words are quoted from the "Four Disciplines of Lifan" in the timeline of her previous life, as far as she knows, there are similar words in this life, but they are not exactly the same, that is, she said it in this way, and it should not be too eye-catching.

Feng Xuji stretched out his hand and tapped Feng Zhirong's head, and said, "Why is your little doll talking so much like an adult?" ”

Feng Zhirong pulled up a childlike smile and said, "Didn't my cousin think about it?" ”

Feng Xuji really thought about it seriously, and then said, "No, I really didn't think about it that much. ”

Feng Zhirong smiled and said, "If my cousin thinks so much, it will be worrying!" ”

"Why?"

Feng Zhirong said: "My cousin's real talent and learning are even praised by my grandfather, and the priority now is to study and seek fame, how can I have that spare time to think so much!" ”

Feng Xuji also smiled and said, "Xiao Rong is really talking more and more like an adult." ”

Feng Zhirong shook her head and said, "Cousin is hard, but that road is still visible, but I don't know what I can do in the future, just take one step at a time, and suddenly think of this, and I feel like I'm alive." ”

Feng Xuji said: "You girls are husbands and children in the end, or what else do you want to do?" It is not that Feng Xuji's concept is old-fashioned, but that this contemporary universal value focuses on passing on the family and raising the heirs.

Feng Zhirong thought for a while, and was about to speak, when the ancestral hall had arrived.

Feng Xuji didn't dwell on this topic anymore, but asked Zhou Youshao to lead Feng Zhirong forward to kneel and worship his ancestors. When this round of sacrifices was over, Zhou Youshao ordered someone to hand over the paper with Feng Zhirong's birth date to the servants and ask them to register with the government.

After the sacrifice to the ancestors, it was already close to noon.

Since today is Feng Zhirong's birthday, the dishes are much more sumptuous.

Just when everyone wanted to sit down and eat, a servant from a distance walked over quickly and said, "Master, someone from the palace has come to the palace, saying that the queen mother has given gifts and brought an edict." ”

Feng Xu was slightly surprised, so he hurriedly stood up and led his family to the courtyard in front of him to greet the people in the palace.